infinite loop

Until she lay back on the hard bed in the cabin, Su Li was still thinking about Chuck Hansen's unreadable expression when he turned his head and left without saying a word.To be honest, she didn't quite understand it.

Did he believe her tentative question?Still don't believe it?In the end, he did not give an accurate answer.

But the imminent synesthesia test did not leave her any chance to pay more attention to this kind of thing.

According to the information she heard, "Dangerous Wanderer", like most mechas, adopts an advanced intelligent control system that integrates man and machine, so the driver—especially her soon-to-be co-pilot—operating technology The requirements are not very high.

It can be seen from the fact that General Steck has listed her as a candidate who has already claimed to have lost his memory. He pays more attention to the driver's physical fitness, combat skills and synaesthesia fit rate.She has inherited Catherine's excellent physical fitness, and has her own unique combat skills, and she can also find harmony with Raleigh Beckett... Presumably, there should be no big problem trying to pilot a mecha.

The largest mechanical weapon she has ever driven is a tank, is she finally going to break this record...

And until now, she still doesn't understand what that strange and abstract term "Drift" actually means. Her bad intuition makes her a little unsure, and she thinks she still needs to figure it out.

He returned his hand and tapped twice on the wall, vibrating the fine dust floating in the air.

An echo quickly came from the other side:

"Catherine?"

"Excuse me, you didn't finish your sentence yesterday." Su Li carefully chose the words, "When we have synaesthesia...what do we need to do?"

Different from her slightly nervous mood, Raleigh Beckett's attitude is relaxed and casual, presumably because she is already familiar with this relationship: "Nothing special, you will enter my brain at that time, and we will share all memories and feelings, You just close your eyes and let the neural connection triggers pour out at will."

——It sounds far less complicated than she imagined.Su Li calmed down a little, thinking that she might be able to handle it, "I almost understand, thank you very much."

She paused, and suddenly grasped some important information that she had missed in her mind, turned over and sat up suddenly, with sweat dripping out to fill the texture of her palm.

Wait, wait, he said the link needs to be shared... "Memories? I mean, you'll see my memories?"

"That's right." The other party hesitated for half a second, "You can also see all my experiences...including Yang Xi."

In an instant, hundreds of different thoughts raced through Su Li's mind.

She doesn't want to mention too much about her past memories. Everything she experienced at the beginning of time travel is still bloody and hideous in retrospect... If you just bite the bullet and let him see it, don't say that your identity will be exposed immediately. It's just that those memories of the past that ordinary people can't accept are brutally cut open in an instant, and it will undoubtedly directly make her collapse.

Why don't you just find an excuse to give up this synesthesia test and give up the co-pilot position?

No, no—that was the only chance she could find to leave the impeccably secure base of Shatterdome.This is not her real world, this is not her life and life, she should not be here.

If she can control her emotions and not lose control due to the suffocating past, then the fact that she is not Catherine has nothing to do with whether she can drive the dangerous homeless with Raleigh—at least Su Li thinks so of.

Su Li believes that according to Luo Li's behavior, even if she knows her secret, she will not make it public, but she is not sure whether Luo Li can accept a person of unknown origin like her to drive a mech to fight monsters.

...Sure enough, I still have to ask the opinions of my future partners on the sidelines.

"Raleigh...?"

Just do it, Su Li clenched his knuckles and tapped on the flat and cold wall again, "If——if the person who was selected at that time and had a synesthesia with you was not Catherine, but someone else without any experience People, will it affect you—or, can you accept it?"

"You're like 'no experience' now, Catherine."

Raleigh didn't notice anything unusual, and replied with a soothing and relaxed voice, "I can only say that working with you is more pleasant than meeting strangers for the first time—after all, we met a day in advance, right? "

"That is to say..." Even if she wasn't Catherine, it wouldn't be a big deal.

Rao decided this in his heart, and when the cockpit was covered with combat armor nearly two hours later, Su Li was still a little nervous. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. The transparent tempered helmet The white mist condensed on it.

She tried to move her body, and the armor was improved to become simple and light, allowing her limbs to be as flexible as if there was nothing falling down.

"I'd like to take this side if you don't mind,"

Raleigh supported the mechanical stabilizer on the right, watched her smile and raised her hand to fasten the mask. His voice was no longer from the outside, but from inside the helmet, "My left arm was injured."

"of course."

Su Li nodded and stood to the left, imitating his movements and boarding the mechanical frame. In the central control room outside the mecha, Cai Tiantong, the chief technical advisor of the mecha technology department, turned on the automatic knob. fixed connection.

Raleigh turned his face slightly to look at him. Under the mist membrane formed by the oxygen delivery device, the clear blue eyes and the straight line of the bridge of the nose were blurred.

Only his voice was exceptionally clear, as if it came directly from her head, "Ready? You'll be in my head in a minute, Catherine."

"Before that, I also have to remind you—"

Although she was still hesitating in her heart at this time, the current situation forced her to continue, "You may see many...well, unpleasant memories."

Raleigh unconsciously raised the corners of his lips, closed his eyes and waited for the coming synaesthesia, and whispered, "You too."

Cai Tiantong looked down at the computer screen for a while, which showed a map of the neurological stability of the two people's brains.

He has to be careful.The two people who performed the synaesthesia this time are quite special - they both have tragic memories and painful scars that they don't want to touch. A little carelessness will lead to inaccuracy or even loss of memory, which will lead to catastrophe.

Because of this relationship, he repeatedly checked every subtle data fluctuation, checked several times to confirm that the synaesthesia conditions were complete, so he let go of his high-hanging heart, and faced the two people in the cockpit who seemed to be in good condition. The man snapped his fingers crisply:

"Is the schmoozing and chatting over? Great, the pilot is ready. Now for the neuron bridging."

In the next moment, Su Li felt an unprecedented wonderful feeling, as if the spirit was separated from the body, connecting and merging with another soul, merging the two into one.

She closed her eyes.

——"Pilot synesthesia completed. Link signal strong and stable."

The electronically synthesized voice sounded a formulaic report, and Cai Tiantong and General Steck behind him looked at each other, and they both breathed a sigh of relief.

With no time to think about anything else, Raleigh entered a vortex of memories.

[The black-haired, dark-eyed woman has a familiar face. She sits at a corner of a square wooden dining table and talks cordially with the middle-aged couple sitting opposite.The crackling of firecrackers outside the window disturbed one's eardrums, but her face was filled with a happy expression he had never seen before. 】

Catherine...?But the middle-aged couple called her...a name that starts with the sound of "Sue"...?

Luo Li stood beside her with his hands down, wanting to touch her slightly trembling shoulders because of laughter, and the scene changed suddenly in the next second——

[The devastated battlefield roared with gunfire, gunshots tore through the smoke, grenades exploded one after another from time to time, heat waves gushed out in all directions, a woman in a gray olive military uniform staggered holding a gun, and couldn't find it from the pile of corpses. A living man crawled out of the trench, retching and timidly trying to walk through the hail of bullets—

The large-caliber bullets that came from a blind spot pierced through her calf and also shattered her leg bones.She fell to the ground suddenly, her calf twisted and bent at an abnormal angle.She crawled with her fingertips deep into the ground and tried to crawl forward, her broken leg dragged feebly behind her, and as she moved with difficulty and effort, a series of meandering bloodstains lay on the hot and dry dust.

A smoking grenade rolled to her feet, blowing half of her body away, and when the floating smoke cleared, her lower body had disappeared, leaving only the cracked pieces of flesh and the Bloody intestines and internal organs flowing out of the severed waist and abdomen.

However, she still didn't die, and struggled in pain for a whole night, and she stopped breathing until the gray of the morning light appeared on the edge of the sky. 】

who is thisRaleigh watched her body cool down bit by bit with chills in his heart, and he became more and more puzzled.

At this moment, the picture changed again——

[She is still black-haired and black-eyed, with a slender and tall body lying on the head of the bed, wrapped in a loose nightgown and motionless.Suddenly, she trembled violently, opened her eyes and jumped up, gasping for breath and looking around the room.

The fear and despair in her eyes were calmed down, her face was dark and anxious, she curled up at the foot of the bed, hugged her knees and buried herself in the quilt, then the sobbing sound became louder and louder, and finally turned into a heart-piercing hiss sobbing.

After waiting for a while, she lifted the quilt with red and swollen eyes, and dried tears hung in the corners of her eyes.She took out a thread-bound notebook from the foot of the bed, flipped to the middle page, and wrote a crooked number—"1"—with trembling hands that could barely hold the pen. 】

The subsequent images kept changing, and only one figure appeared at regular intervals.

Every time he sees a strange woman die, it must be her who appears next in another scene—Catherine, who is called "Sue".

At that time, she will definitely pick up a pen and record a number in the notebook.

As the numbers on the pages of the notebook continued to accumulate, finally, her hand holding the pen no longer trembled, and her expression became stable and flat. There were even a few times when she looked so ordinary that she even forgot the records.

The dark void in front of his eyes was fragmented, and countless chaotic scenes surrounded his body like a revolving lantern, gradually joining together to form a complete memory chain.

He seemed to have lost the ability to breathe, and he could only passively bear everything that penetrated into his brain, and sticky, wet sweat rolled down from the corner of his forehead.

Facing death again and again filled him with dread.He remembered what she said before the synesthesia.

"Unpleasant Memories"...?No, it's not such an understatement.

He can feel it.

He could feel a turbid fear growing wildly, crushing his heart and burning his soul to ashes.

Deep despair manifests as ready-made vines crawling all over his body, and the darkness that can't be stretched out fills the whole world.

Everything is an endless loop.There is no way out and no future in sight.

like-

It was as if he had heard again the last words that his elder brother Yancy was lifted out of the cockpit by the claws of the giant beast, fell high into the starless night sky, and disappeared with all his strength, "Raleigh, listen to me Say, you're going to—"

While the red light was flashing, the siren was also beeping. Cai Tiantong in the central control room lowered his eyes and glanced roughly, and immediately paled in shock: "...the driver has extremely violent mood swings!"

He snatched the sonar microphone from one side and put it to his mouth, "Raleigh, Raleigh...you're wrong, Raleigh!"

Raleigh came back to his senses as soon as he thought, and tried to get himself out of the oppressive memory, "It's okay, it's okay—I can control it, give me some more time."

When he turned his head, he saw her paper-like pale complexion.

"I'm fine..." Su Li gritted her teeth, trying to stop the almost tearing pain in her brain, but the pain was too intense and too difficult to grasp, it invaded the details of the nerves like an electric current, and it was nowhere to teach her avoidable.

"Katherine's brain movement is not normal - stop synaesthesia, stop synaesthesia!"

Cai Tiantong grasped the soft handle of the microphone, and murmured and analyzed quickly: "It may be that the self-enclosed memory was forcibly awakened due to synaesthesia... The mental load was too high, which stimulated her brain nerves. The brain that was damaged* by infiltrating the monster's body fluid began to deteriorate..."

When the synesthesia was manually interrupted and the fixed bracket was released, Su Li held on to the mechanical arm to stabilize her body and barely maintained a standing posture, cold sweat dripping down her neck and the water stains evaporated.

Lolito, who came to her side quickly, supported her physiologically contracted waist, his downcast eyes were soft and complicated.

"Sue...?"

When the pain reached its peak, it receded like a tide. In the process of gradually regaining consciousness, she heard him call her that.

The author has something to say: *Catherine's brain was damaged by infiltration of monster body fluid: the setting when the New Zealand plane crashed in this volume.

Ps Because some relatives asked me "Is it because the heroine doesn't commit suicide because she is a shaky M" and gave me a negative score. Thinking about it, I should say a little bit here. This article is only 4w words. The plot and setting have not yet been fully developed. , there must be a reason why the author is so witty (don't bring private goods) and the heroine is not stupid and has never committed suicide. I originally wrote this as a foreshadowing XDDD don't give negative points because of this kind of thing. Scratch the wall

There is also a comment in the last chapter that questioned the IQ of the heroine, saying that she didn't try hard to understand the status quo. OTZ is because I wrote this emotional line too much and didn't pay much attention to the plot description?The first point, all aspects show that the heroine has been understanding the status quo through various means, from Heck, Stike, Raleigh, etc., otherwise she has no idea what the worldview is, what the mech is, and so on. Not sure.And she already tentatively asked Raleigh what Drift was going to do but was interrupted by the wallaby XDDD

The second point is that her handling of things is already a relatively calm approach within the normal range in my mind. Her goals have always been clear, so she has the idea of ​​being alone and not doing too much for other unimportant things. What she is going to do now Only "strive to drive the mech out of the security barrier", let's be honest, don't say she doesn't know that synaesthesia requires memory sharing, even if she knows, she won't bother with it.The pilot has higher requirements for physical fitness, combat skills, and synesthesia coherence than operational skills, and she is only a co-pilot.She doesn't care about the fact that "it's not Catherine herself" is unearthed, because it has no effect on "Catherine's physical fitness", "her combat skills" and "her own synchronization rate with Raleigh".

…Forgive me for being too glassy to write so much in one breath. As a fan of Huantai NC, I really want to write this volume well, and the heroine is also the author’s heart. You can tell me anything that you don’t understand or think is illogical. XD But please don’t accuse the author of being unrestrained all his life and having a low IQ...

I always like to write a bunch of hidden threads that make people confused and then uncover them together, so if you see something you don’t understand, please use your strength to distinguish whether it is a BUG or a foreshadowing=3=The author will be very sad if he is sprayed inexplicably OTZ

Some places may be written too vaguely, and I will revise the text after the volume is finished.

Because the number of comments in the last chapter is plump and delicious, I exploded the number of words