The Cultivation of the Four Living Gods [Rebirth]

The new issue of "The Last Challenge" was broadcast, and the response was great.Among them, it became popular because of the dialogue between the two of them.

Although the two spoke Chinese, the program team thoughtfully provided English subtitles, meaning eight or nine are inseparable.Xia Heran has a lot of fans in country m. His image in front of the screen is usually a gentle and polite gentleman (uncle) type. If he can be friends with Xia Heran, even if he gets a little support, many people who come to country m and hope to develop dreamt of.

But this Rong Bai who has nothing actually talks to Xia Heran like this!Some temperamental stars can't stand it.

What they said was naturally more intense than the English translation, or emotionally more intense.Among them, Xia Heran stretched out his hand to grab Rong Bai to prevent him from leaving, and was analyzed by people, such as former lovers, love at first sight, love because of a race, and so on.Brain out a long love-hate love-hate series.

Many people also laughed and praised their ideas, but only one person was annoyed.

In the office, Gu Jinchen broke the pen in his hand.He stared fiercely at the computer.

The employee standing at the desk and reporting work was taken aback, not knowing that his sentence dissatisfied the president qaq.The president's aura is terrifying, please help.

Regardless of whether his prayer was heard by God, someone came to rescue him.

The office door was pushed open, and Donna walked in slowly. She saw the staff standing shaking like chaff, and Gu Jinchen who was all focused on the computer.Although curious about what happened to the two of them, Donna still asked, "What's wrong?"

She is not interested in entertainment programs, and she doesn't know what Rong Bai has done.

Gu Jinchen turned his head, stared coldly at the two people in front of him and said, "Go out."

The employee breathed a sigh of relief, hurriedly bowed and left, but Tang Na didn't realize that she was talking about herself, and was about to approach and chat with Gu Jinchen to deepen her impression, when Gu Jinchen repeated, "Get out!"

The angry voice made Donna turn pale.His face was alternately blue and white, biting his lip unwillingly, obviously Gu Jinchen was still smiling at her before (←thinking too much).

Tang Na was invited out, leaving Gu Jinchen alone in the office.

No one knows what he regrets now.In fact, he didn't tell Rong Bai that Xia Heran participated in this show because he wanted to see Rong Bai's reaction.Gu Jinchen admitted that he had a brain twitch.

Now, Xia Heran actually took the initiative to seduce Rong Bai!I'm so crazy!What a big dog!

Mr. Gu was very angry, and he was still a little guilty.If he knew this would be the case, how could he let Rong Bai go to record the show?I really want to slap myself.

Gu Zhen, Infected Stupid, Jinchen now has to think about countermeasures, although seeing that Rong Bai hates Xia Heran very much, and is unwilling to say a word, he also believes that his wife will not find that scum.But seeing the two of them in the same scene, Gu Jinchen was heartbroken.

He basically won't interfere with Rong Bai's work, so it's too bad that he can't cause substantial harm to Xia Heran through official channels.

Gu Jinchen regretted and felt bad.Rong Bai abused Xia He here, but it was so cool.

The cause of the incident was that Julia found out about Hayden and Sunny's field/fighting. The women fought desperately for their own happiness.The show was thrown into chaos.

Cedric sat next to Rong Bai at this moment and said intentionally or unintentionally: "Look at these people, they don't cherish what they get and instead think about impossible things. Now they are punished." Don't learn.

Unexpectedly, Rong Bai thought of something else.

Hayden is particularly in line with the law of "a wife is worse than a concubine, and a concubine is worse than a thief".That's what he thought.

He will not do anything out of the ordinary with Xia Heran, but will pull out what Xia Heran has in his heart now.It hurt him so much that he was dying of regret, but there was nothing he could do.

In the past, he couldn't get Han Zhang, and Han Zhang was his white moonlight. After that, Han Zhang worked hard for him, and became a grain of rice on his clothes; Zhang regarded it as his own cinnabar mole, and he couldn't get it if he asked for it, and he would never get it.

Sure enough, the ancestors sincerely did not deceive me.

What Rong Bai has to do is to make that cinnabar mole deepen and deepen his impression.

He raised his lips slightly, just retribution.

All he has to do is show his face in front of Xia Heran frequently. In fact, he doesn't need to do anything intentionally. All of Rong Bai's actions are Han Zhang's habits, which are originally a person's soul.If Xia Heran has Han Zhang in his heart, Han Zhang is the cinnabar mole in his heart.

Is there anything more uncomfortable than a person who is more like your current lover and more like your favorite person dangling in front of your eyes?

Ten years of relationship, no matter what you regret now, it can't make up for the sorrow and hatred that that person has passed away.

As Rong Bai expected, Xia Heran could no longer maintain his composure.Every time I see Rong Bai, I always feel like seeing Han Zhang when he was young, even though the two of them don't look alike at all, he doesn't have Fang Fei's likeness, but it's like a hallucination.

Xia Heran made mistakes frequently, his eyes became more and more uncontrollable, and he would always glance at the place where Rong Bai was. Even though he knew that the other party was not the person in his heart, he still had a deep nostalgia for him, and he hoped that it was just a dream.

……

Time went back to that day, when they were still in Qingshan City.

Xia Heran was still in the groom's lounge, and suddenly felt panicked for no reason, so panicked that he wanted to rush out of this room and the wedding.But where else could he go after going out?

He was suddenly at a loss, but his heart still hurt, as if something was going to happen.Xia Heran frowned and sat on the chair.This has happened before, what is it?By the way, when Han Zhang went to help him accompany the investors, he was in a terrible pain at night, and no one answered Han Zhang's calls.

At night, Xia Heran went out to find Han Zhang.

It is too cold in winter.He was shivering from the cold, the two of them had no money, and the clothes on their bodies were not very warm.Then he found Han Zhang in an alley not far from home.

The man had already fallen to the ground, breathing weakly, surrounded by vomit, and the sour smell made people not want to get close.

Xia Heran didn't know how many times he saw Han Zhang drinking like this, he hurried over and carried the man back home.

Han Zhang looks ordinary, no one can fancy him, but every time he will get big and small investments, the price is to drink and drink until his stomach bleeds.

That was probably the most dangerous one.

But this time it hurts more than that.Xia Heran moved his gaze to the phone, but recalling what he had done to Han Zhang before, he looked away again.There was nothing wrong with him doing it, no.If he marries Zhu Qingya, his career will go to a higher level, and Han Zhang will be better off then!He is thinking about their future!

Thinking of it this way, my heart doesn't hurt anymore.

It just so happened that the best man came to inform him that the wedding was about to begin.

Xia Heran nodded and walked out of the lounge.He no longer wants to make him sad.

However, he knew that when Han Zhang's accident happened, it was already the next day. He and Zhu Qingya were married, and the other party was pregnant out of wedlock, his child.

He secretly buried Han Zhang's body. When he saw the cold and scarred body, Xia Heran finally knew why he felt distressed.Now, he is no longer in pain, numb.

This person would not smile at him again, nor would he smile so brightly, as if he had opened up all his defenses.

The white sheet covered him, not as hideous as when it was first delivered, dripping with blood.Because of the loss of life, his body turned pale and his scars were white. It wasn't scary at all, but he was extremely lonely.

When fingers touched the skin, there was a chill down to the bone.

why don't you smile

Why don't you get up and hit me?

are you cold?It's so cold in here.You said if I hold you, will you be better?

Are you in pain?Aren't you afraid of pain?

You never tell me every time you get hurt, you should tell me this time.Then scold me loudly.

Please wake up, I won't leave you.

Please tell me it's a punishment, it's a dream.

please, wake up please

Smile, like you always do, and tell me it was just a dream.

In the morgue, the man was lying on the corpse and crying loudly.Tears fell on the cold corpse, unable to flow down.

He thought that his love for Han Zhang had already deteriorated, and the other party could no longer arouse him a trace of love.

Until he could no longer appear in his life, Xia Heran already knew what he had lost.

Han Zhang's funeral was very simple, so simple that only Xia Heran was alone.

He called Han Zhang's parents and got an indifferent response that in their hearts, the son had died outside.

Xia Heran didn't know who else he should call.The two of them have no mutual friends. Han Zhang is busy and has no time to make friends. Even if he does, he will not be close friends because he is afraid of revealing their relationship.Xia Heran's friends didn't know he had a gay man.

Every time he dreams back, he can always dream of the years when the two of them got along, sweet and beautiful, as if all the pain disappeared.Immediately afterwards, it was fixed on the last night, the mottled sauce traces on the wall turned into blood stains, and Han Zhang lay in the corner, staring blankly at the ceiling.The corners of his mouth curled up slightly, as if laughing at his decision.

Sometimes Xia Heran doesn't want to wake up, he wants to sleep in a dream.

Then he went to the small home where they lived for many years.

He didn't buy a big house, or he didn't have time to give Han Zhang a big house.

Everything is in pairs.Two big men, Xia Heran has never worked hard on this aspect, such as beige very warm wallpaper, such as two exquisitely shaped cups, such as a hanging painting designed by himself with photos of the two of them... It seems like a safe haven, and his other The feeling of "home" is completely different, full of beauty everywhere.

However, no one stood at the kitchen door looking at him apologetically.Nobody showed him the new contract.

A home without one person is nothing but emptiness.

But here is his taste.

What happened to the out-of-shape body?What happened to the normal face?

What was he looking at at that time?Why did he forget it after only ten years?

Xia Heran collapsed on the sofa, frowning, in front of the TV.

His reflection can be seen on the pitch-black screen.

That's where Han Zhang saw the news of his engagement that day, right?

He actually came back that day.After saying those words, he regretted it.He saw the desperate look in his lover's eyes, and the sorrowful look made him unable to look directly.So he backed off.

After hesitating for a long time, he opened the door, and there was already Han Zhang's figure in the door, and it was empty, only the door was closed tightly.There was a muffled cry from inside.That voice was like a big hand clutching his heart, draining all his courage to nothing.

Then he turned his head and left the room.

……

Many times, Xia Heran would ask himself, why not go in?Why would you hold back?

But there is no turning back time, everything happened.

……

The appearance of Rong Bai made his already peaceful heart fluctuate again.How familiar is the memory engraved in my mind.How could he forget?But time covered up the traces engraved in his heart, and he thought he had forgotten it.

Xia Heran was in a daze, his other hand didn't grasp where it should be grasped, and he fell backwards.

This is a place with a height of more than ten meters.

Even when he was leaning back, he opened his arms without any panic.He saw Han Zhang's face.

Is this how I can see you?I miss you so much.

I am sorry.

Then he saw Rong Bai's surprised face, and he also caught the flash of sadness.