self strategy

I suddenly had a bad premonition, watching Xu instructor counting the number of people one by one, and making the male and female students into pairs one by one, I suddenly felt that something was wrong.

When the last scarce girl was assigned to the boy next to Bian Yiyang, I confirmed my own thoughts, and sure enough... the last ones left are me and Bian Yiyang.

Arranged by position, Bian Yiyang stood in the corner of the last row, and I stood in front of him. The way Old Xu divided people happened to be our last...

Instructor Xu looked at our two remaining boys, stroked his chin thoughtfully, "Why don't you two make a pair." He said, and then looked at Bian Yiyang He glanced at me again, "Well... this male classmate," he pointed at me, "I'm sorry, you'll be right below."

Me: "... Teacher, I'm a man, can't I do push-ups separately?" I kept beating the drum in my heart, and secretly scolded myself for bumping into a bad star. The bump between me and Li Anqin just now seems to have caused The Butterfly Effect...and, for me, the deadly Butterfly Effect!

Instructor Xu frowned after hearing what I said, and thought for a while: "No, you two can be in the same team. I'll look at my team later. There is no one under the two of you. I must be itchy all over. Yes, it looks uncomfortable."

It's too late for me to analyze whether instructor Xu said "a pair" or "a team". Now I just want to ask instructor Xu a question, teacher, are you obsessive-compulsive disorder!

"Hi!" Instructor Xu put his hand on my shoulder fiercely, "Why are you awkward? They're not girls, they're all men, so what are you afraid of? At worst, you'll be fine next time."

Instructor Xu said so, so I naturally couldn't refuse anymore, so I nodded silently, swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and turned to look at Bian Yiyang beside me. At this moment, he also looked at me with a smile in his eyes. Wanting to look up to the sky and scream: "Why didn't Bian Yiyang in his previous life have such a good life!"

Bian Yiyang lay on my body, with both hands supporting the ground on both sides of my shoulders, I was afraid to look into his eyes, although I have seen this face for many years, but I was really afraid, afraid that Bian Yiyang would fall in love with him Me, my heart is beating very fast, and I feel guilty for no reason, while Bian Yiyang still said without knowing why: "I feel that you are so nervous."

I gritted my teeth: "You can try it if you have the ability?" I have never experienced this kind of feeling of being looked down on by someone in this posture, and the other party is still my previous life, someone who might fall in love with "me"... How could I Don't be nervous!

"It's okay, it's not going to bed, and I won't overwhelm you, so don't be so nervous and afraid." Bian Yiyang's tone of speech at this time was flirtatious, I couldn't laugh or cry, sometimes I would indeed be like him Talking like this, but very few times, I don't know why he said that suddenly, for a while, I actually felt that I couldn't use my own position to speculate on Bian Yiyang, even though he was me, but at this time I didn't know at all What was he thinking about.

"Why don't you look at me?" His voice drilled into my ears again, and there was a smile in his tone of speaking, I felt that I was being molested.

"Don't be poor with me!" I tried my best to be annoyed to alleviate the uncertain emotions in my heart. I glared at his eyes, and he also looked at me. Bian Yiyang's pupils are relatively deep brown , and against the light at this time, it gave me the feeling that it was black, and the emotion in his eyes was something I had never seen before, or I had never seen myself in the mirror like this, that kind of unknown Emotions make me uncomfortable.

"I really want to kiss you." Suddenly, he said this.

"Fuck!" I was startled, and I uttered a dirty word under my voice, and glanced at the side, fortunately, no one paid much attention to us, if I was not still in military training, I would have punched him to greet him Now, I just now know what it means to be self-inflicted. If I hadn't knocked down Li Anqin just now, I would never have fallen into this situation!

why?This Bian Yiyang's words are too straightforward!In my last life, I approached Ren Qi cautiously and never dared to say such a thing. Has something changed silently?

When a person gets along with different people, he will split into different ways of treating others, just like a student treats his teacher honestly, but treats his friends with more and less moral integrity... I thought to myself, why?Why did "Bian Yiyang" change his attitude towards "Ren Qi" so much?

In my last life, I liked Ren Qi, but I didn’t dare to make a move because he had too much aura of a straight man, and in my last life, I asked Lin Yi to get to know him... Lin Yi said that Ren Qi wanted to find a girlfriend...

Could it be that Bian Yiyang's attitude towards me has changed because I have changed my mind in this life, and the way I do things is too different from Ren Qi?I admit that the straight male aura emanating from me is not serious... There is another possibility... that is because the information about me that Lin Yixiang revealed to Bian Yiyang is different from the previous life.

My mind is in a mess, no matter how much I paralyze myself, I have to admit that Bian Yiyang has already liked taking office... Moreover, because "I" behaved differently in this life than in the previous life, Bian Yiyang didn't take the position. This feeling was buried in the bottom of my heart, but it was directly exposed...

So, has my plan failed since the beginning?Does it mean that in my life, I have been trying to die from the very beginning?

After seeing this clearly, I felt like crying, but more panicked. If Bian Yiyang fell in love with me, wouldn't it mean that I fell in love with myself?God...

"What's wrong?" Bian Yiyang looked at my expression a little strangely, he tilted his head slightly, and asked me in a low voice.

"...No." For some reason, I didn't dare to look at him, and now I can only comfort myself like this: Maybe Bian Yiyang is not sincere about this "Ren Qi", didn't he say it?People have different ways of getting along with different people. I am not someone worthy of long-term love. There are many people who broke my heart for me in the last life. Maybe Bian Yiyang will not like me after seeing these things clearly. Didn't I fall in love with Ren Qi just because he is clean and has the temperament I like?Or maybe... Bian Yiyang doesn't like me... but just trying to provoke me.

Now I don't understand myself a little bit, I try to calm myself down, I can't hold back after thinking too much... Now I have to stop temporarily...

Instructor Xu's whistle finally brought me back to my thoughts, and Bian Yiyang's face enlarged accordingly. At this moment, we were very close, and if we were closer by one centimeter, the tip of our nose would be close to the tip of our nose...

I was a little embarrassed, my eyes were erratic and I didn't know where to put them, I was afraid to look directly into Bian Yiyang's eyes, Bian Yiyang didn't speak, his arms were on both sides of me, and the distance between our faces was always far away near time.

The person below is responsible for counting, and I counted one by one, looking at his arm with wandering eyes.

"Hello." Bian Yiyang called me in a voice so small that only the two of us could hear. I turned my face and just met his eyes. His arms were slightly down, and his head was slightly tilted to one side. The corner of his mouth was touched lightly.

I was stunned, forgot to look at the eyes of other people next to me, and forgot to count the number of push-ups for Bian Yiyang, I just looked at him with wide eyes in disbelief, while Bian Yiyang looked at me with a calm face There was still a faint smile in his eyes, and he still put his hands on both sides of me, swinging his arms, doing his push-ups.

I didn't expect him to do this suddenly. At this moment, I was really dumbfounded. If it wasn't for the current situation, I would definitely get up and stamp my fist on his face immediately. This damn is too courageous !

My head was still dizzy until the push-ups were done, and when the military training time was over, Lin Yi immediately ran non-stop to the infirmary to see Li Anqin.

Bian Yiyang walked up to me, and I looked up at him, not knowing how to react. On the other hand, this guy didn't blush and his heart beat, even though I knew I was thick-skinned, the feeling of being "thick-skinned" Not so good.

"Aren't you going to say something?" Bian Yiyang put his arm on my shoulder with a complacent expression on his face. To others, this may be the most normal behavior between brothers, but to me...

"What do you want me to say?" I asked back through gritted teeth.

"Please invite me to have a meal, just tonight, the bet on the basketball court, you should still remember." Bian Yiyang didn't answer my question directly, he brought up the bet on the basketball court again.

"..." I wanted to reject him straight away, but it's not my style to make a bet. After thinking about it for a while, I think we should discuss the matter just now, "Okay." I replied.

Bian Yiyang didn't seem to have thought that I would agree so readily, he was taken aback for a moment, then stretched out his hand, rubbed my hair fiercely, and smiled brightly.

I was a little annoyed, and walked away from his hand. I really don't understand why he would do this. The development of the situation at this time is completely beyond my expectation. I don't understand why Bian Yiyang is so different from my previous life. big difference.

After returning to the dormitory, he started to take a shower. The thin guy was supported by his mother and glasses. After returning, he lay on the bed like a corpse. Take care of the thin man more, her eyes are slightly red, and there are still some tears on her face, she probably cried for the thin man...

I collapsed on the bed, recalling what Bian Yiyang said, feeling completely messed up.

What is the purpose of Bian Yiyang asking me out?Could it be a confession?Resisting the urge to howl and then cry, I feel that my life is completely messed up because of my own appearance...

What should I do if Bian Yiyang really confessed his love to me?Then I shook my head, please, I held back for six years in the last life and didn't dare to confess, how could it be so fast in this life?"Ren Qi" in this life has only known Bian Yiyang for a few days!

But looking back on the unexpected developments in the past few times, I feel that I can't be too confident in myself... I tried to think about Bian Yiyang's intentions with my own style of dealing with things, but I found sadly that I actually Unexpected.

It turns out that I don't know myself that well...

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