self strategy

I lay on my back on the bed, staring fixedly at the board above. For some reason, I always felt a little uneasy, not only because of Bian Yi swaying on it, but also because of other things...

It's time to turn off the lights, and there are only me and Bian Yiyang in the big dormitory.

Bian Yiyang's hand was dangling on the edge of the bed all the time, the very rhythmic rhythm seemed to be swinging naturally, it felt a bit miserable in the dim light, I don't know if he did it on purpose or what, but this time I I learned to be good, and I didn't hit that annoying hand anymore, just treat it as a pendulum, or a hypnotizer or something, and I fell asleep when it dangled.

The sound of the electrocardiogram came from my ear. I felt that I hadn't opened my eyes, but I could indeed see the surrounding scenes.

Someone broke into the door, and the white gown was a doctor, and right behind him...was Lin Yi...not this Lin Yi, but someone I was familiar with...the "sporty man" Lin Yi from Shuaifei Street .

He was frowning at this time, looking at this side with a little unclear meaning, the doctor was muttering something to him, Lin Yi is a successful person after the counterattack, and there was a bit of knowledge on his face Standing in front of him now, the old doctor felt a little humbled.

Lin Yi's complexion was very ugly, it could be said that it was almost black enough to drip ink, and the corners of his eyes were slightly red, as if he had just cried.

After the old doctor left, Lin Yi paced up to me. I had already vaguely guessed what the scene was, but I couldn’t move at this moment, just like I could see everything here, but I couldn’t open my eyes. Same.

As soon as Lin sat by the bed, he looked at me, I don't know what kind of emotion it was, with hatred, helplessness, grief and indignation...with hatred that iron can't make steel.

"I really want to punch you, you cowardly thing!" Lin Yi's tone was trembling, his shoulders shrugged slightly, he had never spoken to me like this before, I knew what he was trying to say, but I couldn't explain.

"Who will be better off if you die? Have you ever thought about Ah Qi? Do you think today's wedding...does he feel at ease?" Lin Yi said, looking at me, I want to say that I didn't do it on purpose, I want to say I'm not broken because he's married, I mean I don't mean to upset them, but at the moment I can't move, I can't talk, I can't do anything.

"He will be uneasy for the rest of his life! Even if he doesn't know that you like him! He will be uneasy for the rest of his life!" Lin Yi kept talking, every word and sentence, like a sharp needle, piercing my heart fiercely.

Someone opened the door again. It was my father and my mother. They looked like two empty shells whose souls had been taken out. When I saw them, I just wanted to cry. I didn’t know I Why do I have to have this damn dream...why do I have to dream about people I know well, why do I have to watch them grieve for me and shed tears for me.

"Xiao Lin, you go out first, I'll take a look at him." My mother still had that gentle appearance, but at this moment I saw the thick black under her eyes, and there was a trace of fine lines at the corners of her eyes. I knew that if her face changed like this in normal times, she would definitely go crazy.

Lin Yi sat down on the bed beside me with his head down. My father was beside me at this moment, with no extra expression on his face. He never wanted to smile more in front of me, even at this time, but he watched I, I don't know how to describe his eyes, which I have never seen before, there is no severity, no anger and no tears, he never shows the slightest fragility in front of me, in front of my mother, at this moment he just quietly Quietly, silently looking at me... But just this kind of gaze made my nose sore and my throat choked, but I couldn't shed tears...

"Bian Yiyang" from the previous life is dead...

I feel a bit itchy on my cheeks, but the moist feeling on my face is gone... It seems that someone is wiping away my tears in the dark. Being gently wrapped in my arms, this is something I have never had since I can remember. I gently pressed my head against the slightly warm chest, and listened quietly to the dull and powerful heartbeat. I actually felt that I was on the chest of my father whom I had never leaned on... The warm big hands gently stroked my hair, and I felt very at ease...

When I opened my eyes in a daze, I found myself in the arms of a person, and that person... was Bian Yiyang.

At this time, he was opening his eyes, looking at me quietly, I kept my mouth shut, and didn't say a word for a long time, until his fingers stroked my lower eyelids and said: "Stop crying?" Sober up.

Probably out of embarrassment, I raised my hand and slapped Bian Yiyang's finger in front of my eyes. I felt my heart beating very fast, so I quickly turned over and got out of bed. I forgot to ask him why he was on my bed, so I hurriedly Busy out and into the bathroom.

Bian Yiyang followed behind me, seeing me looking at him, he just shrugged, "I want to wash up too."

I took a step back and gave him the bathroom door, "You wash first." I said.

Bian Yiyang’s washing steps are exactly the same as mine, and even the posture of holding the toothbrush is exactly the same as mine. For a moment, I thought I was looking at my previous life, until Bian Yiyang put the towel on my face He said to me: "Are you dumbfounded? Don't wash it soon."

My face turned dark all of a sudden, I pulled off the towel off my face, and rushed to the bathroom, and when my face was half washed, I realized that Bian Yiyang had been standing at the door.

"Why are you standing here?" I felt a little guilty because of yesterday's incident, and tried to make my expression look more righteous, and the tone of my words to Bian Yiyang also carried a hint of unkindness.

Bian Yi smiled, "You are allowed to watch me brush my teeth and wash my face, and I am not allowed to watch you?" There was still a smile on the corner of his mouth, his body leaning against the door frame looked very stylish, he was stunned for about two or three times Seconds later, I muttered: "Boring." I continued to do my work.

Forced myself to block Bian Yiyang's shadow reflected in the mirror, but I couldn't ignore his gaze reflected in the mirror, he was looking at me...he was looking at me...fucking he is still there Look at me!

Suddenly, a soft "bang" brought my thoughts back. It was the sound of closing the door. When I realized it, Bian Yiyang's arm had firmly encircled my waist from behind, and his chin was placed on my waist. Gently rubbing against my shoulders, his hair made my neck itchy, but my sight was fixed on the mirror.

Looking at the two people in the mirror, I was stunned - this is the scene I want to see most in my life, Bian Yiyang gently hugged Ren Qi, put his chin on his shoulder, and sniffed his hair The smell coming from him, and all around him are his breath.

And Ren Qi just stared blankly, neither speaking nor moving, letting Bian Yi gnaw and suck on his body, leaving marks one after another on his neck and body ...

But now... Ren Qi is no longer Ren Qi.

I am now... Ren Qi.

Bian Yiyang's breath lingered around my neck, and the tip of his nose scraped gently on my neck, making me itchy for a while, and then I came back to my senses, "Bian Yiyang!" I roared, subconsciously wanting to use my arms Push him away and break free from his arms, but I obviously underestimated his strength. He used his arms to imprison mine, and pressed me against the sink unexpectedly, causing my hips to hurt. His lower body was close to me, and only then did I feel something between his legs behind me, and what was even more embarrassing was that it was stuck around my buttocks without bias!

"Bian Yiyang, what are you doing, get the hell out of here!" I was in a hurry, a feeling of shame and annoyance lingered in my heart for a long time, but I didn't dare to move, because that would be more like being tease 'dial.

Bian Yiyang didn't speak, and didn't back down at all because of my words. Instead, he exhaled lightly in my ear. The wet and hot feeling made me very uneasy, and then I felt my ears were wet'hot. Surrounded by the feeling of touch, Bian Yiyang's teeth gently bit the soft place, and he used his tongue to lick and scratch it.

"I like you so much." The hot and humid air pierced into my eardrums with these words, and the side of my neck was licked lightly, and then there was a burst of numbness. I only heard a "boo", I felt My neck hurts a bit from being sucked...

"Hey, turn your head around, let's kiss," he said.

"Damn it!" I turned around abruptly, and I raised my fist to take care of his face, but he grabbed my hand first, "You don't like me yet?" Bian Yiyang stared into my eyes, suddenly Said.

"Don't be so fucking narcissistic! Who would like you!" I shook off his hand, went to the door and turned the handle to open the door, but the door was held up by a hand, from behind me I stretched out my arm against the door, and I couldn't open it.

"To be honest, I haven't chased anyone before. You are the first one. I just want you to like me quickly and be with me." Bian Yiyang's words came from behind, and I knew that I only needed to look back Then I will see those eyes that are close at hand. I know that I should confront him at this time, but at this moment, I am so embarrassed that I dare not look back, and I am even a little afraid to see his eyes.

"Give up, you can't be with me, we can't." He grabbed the doorknob firmly, but the door still couldn't be opened.

"Why can't I?" His hands wrapped around my waist, and his hot chest was pressed against my back again. I could almost feel his strong heartbeat, but my heart was even weaker.

"I'm not gay!" I chose to lie, I knew that in my previous life I didn't shoot Ren Qi because he was a straight man, I thought it would work.

"Lie!" Bian Yiyang denied my words, "Do you think I can't see it? The kind of eyes that look at me with dodge... You say you are not gay, so why do you look at me like that? Or... ...you're not gay, you only like me? Huh?"

Damn, why the fuck can't you tell? "Bian Yiyang, you may not believe what I said, but you don't like me!" What you like is Ren Qi!Real Renqi!Not me, a fake!

"Huh?" Listening to Bian Yiyang's tone, I felt that he was baffled by my words, "I don't like you, who is that? Can you change into another you that I like so much?" There was a joke, and I probably took my words as a joke.

"Listen." I took a deep breath, finally decided to turn around, looked at him with a little surprised expression, I said: "Your feelings for me are not real, in fact, you like a better, more Sunshine is a more sexy and gentle person, you are just bewitched by my appearance..." I don't know how to explain it, but I know he won't believe me if I tell the truth.

"Just deny my feelings like this?" Bian Yiyang looked a little upset, he stared into my eyes tightly, "Why do you think that I have to like the kind of person you mentioned, I am right Your feelings came a little faster, but it is absolutely true. I am not fooled by your appearance. To be honest, I think you are not very good-looking, and your personality is not very good, and you are not very frank, but I just like you, you have liked others, you said, do you need so many reasons to like someone?"

I was stunned. In fact, if it is true what Bian Yiyang said, if I think about Ren Qi, who I like, I think he is a little stupid, a little dull, and incredibly dull, and I don’t think his appearance is too good. Okay... But even after realizing this, I still love him uncontrollably. His stupidity, his stupidity, and all his shortcomings, when I like him, they all become cute and gentle. It has become a synonym for all good things... In fact, there is no need for any reason to like someone, because in the eyes of those who like him, those shortcomings have been reduced countless times, and even turned into advantages.

I lowered my head, I didn't know how to react with my mouth open. After a while, I heard Bian Yiyang's voice again:

"You don't really have someone you like, do you?" Bian Yiyang suddenly approached me, and from those dark eyes, I saw a blurred light. He seemed to be trying to figure out my emotions, and I frowned. Eyebrows, looking at him a little helplessly, he also frowned, stared at me for a while, he suddenly put his hand on my face, "No matter who you like, from today on, you remember me, I ...I will wait until the day when you only have me in your eyes, you just need to remember, I like you..."

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Tanabata Sweet Little Theater:

Old Bian: Say it!Why are you less and less like me?

Xiao Bian (yawning): How is it not like you?

Old Bian (angry face): Am I as thick-skinned as you?

Xiao Bian (glanced at the old Bian): Don't be cheeky, I guess you've been avoiding me until now, I became like this, it's all thanks to you, speaking of today's Valentine's Day, have you prepared anything for me?

Old Bian (blushing, gritted teeth): Damn, two big men are going to fuck!It's better to have a hot pot meal together!

At night, a hot pot restaurant.

Old Bian (raising his wine glass): We won’t go home until we’re drunk.

Xiao Bian (with a helpless face, still thinking about the Valentine's Day gift): Okay.

hours later (drunk old)

Lao Bian: I tell you to grab my position as president!I work two years longer than you!

Xiao Bian (holding the opponent's waist, groping restlessly): You can be the assistant to the president~

Lao Bian (hiccups, smirking): Heh, I don’t care too much!My dream is to conquer... oh no... around the world!

Little Bian looked at Old Bian (Is he really me? Will I be so stupid after drinking?)

Bed

When Xiao Bian undressed Old Bian, he saw a very small gift box in his pocket.

Xiao Bian (how stingy, the presents are so small, to the old Bian): Is it for me?

Old Bian (glances, nods sullenly): To be honest, if I were number one, I would definitely be more romantic than you.

Xiao Bian: You are me, I am you, so many years have passed, after your experience, my dan has already become higher, no matter how romantic you are, you will never be more romantic than me.

Old Bian (smiling lightly, putting his head next to the other's ear): ...

Xiao Bian (stunned, chuckling): Then I can't let you go.

(a sleepless night)

the next morning

Old Bian (confused) saw the completely different decorations in the house, gift boxes all over the floor, and thought he had traveled through time.

Picking up a box, a copy of a hardcover stand-alone game, and a note below: One long kiss.

Old Bian (picking up the gift, throwing the note aside, blushing slightly): What the hell?

Pick up gifts along the way, and give them along the way: a mandarin duck bath, three rides, two deep kisses...

In the old man's mind: what the hell...

Xiao Bian (appears suddenly, checks the gift): Well, one time for a mandarin duck bath, three rides, three deep kisses, two intimate contacts...not bad.

Old Bian: I don’t want to give it as a gift.

Xiao Bian: Things are added gifts, and the real main gift is on the note.

Old Bian: ...

small side (flutter)

Old Bian: ——beep