Willingness to be reborn

According to the expected date of delivery, the child was born in the first few days of July. Mrs. Lu heard that it was the hot time, and both adults and children were prone to suffer, so she joked with Gao Ran, "Better in winter, and Yunxuan is born in winter." Yes, use a pack of cotton clothes and go straight to the beginning of summer, so it will save trouble."

Gao Ran smiled, Lu Yunxuan is the eldest son of Lu, no matter how easy it is, it won't save him any trouble.But then turned to Lu Yunxuan and said, "You can't forbid me to take a bath, what if it stinks."

While carefully massaging Gao Ran's calf and feet, Lu Yunxuan said with a smile, "I'll listen to the doctor."

"Then you have to find old doctor Cheng, if Cheng Wenyan will definitely not let me wash."

"Did you wash it last time?"

"I don't have much memory. I'll ask my mother when I come back."

"En, okay, let's change to another one." Lu Yunxuan patted Gao Ran's leg, and Gao Ran's foot, which had been soaking in the basin, stretched out all of a sudden, dripping water. He wiped Gao Ran's feet with a towel, then took body lotion and applied it on, before starting the massage.Recently, Gao Ran's feet have swollen a bit. Lu Yunxuan is also a little worried when he sees the person who is still moving around all day long. Besides, it has been more than six months and he hasn't shown much signs of pregnancy. The examination also said that there is nothing wrong. Doctor Cheng He also said that every pregnant woman's situation is different, so Lu Yunxuan felt relieved.

Gao Ran is much happier. Going out for a walk is the same as usual. You don't have to do troublesome things anymore. Wearing very loose clothes, you are still a man with a good figure!

"Has Gao Qi's kindergarten been selected?"

"Well, it's not far from your new home."

"Oh, that's great!" Gao Ran rubbed his stomach, "Fortunately, this little guy was not born in September, and I can still send Gao Qi to school for the first time. I will be the youngest father by then!"

Lu Yunxuan finished massaging Gao Ran's feet, "What about me?"

"You are the most handsome."

Only then did Lu Yunxuan smile and pack up his things.As soon as Gao Ran went to pour water, he heard Gao Ran calling him. "What's wrong?"

"Chen Zhiqing laughed at me and said that we don't even have a pet name!" Gao Ran held up his mobile phone and showed Lu Yunxuan the chat records between him and Chen Zhiqing. Lu Yunxuan looked at it, but was attracted by the first two sentences.

"I succeeded in counterattack, how about you?"

"Really? Teach me!"

Lu Yunxuan raised his eyebrows and glanced at Gao Ran, no wonder he has been dishonest recently. "What's their pet name?"

"Lulu." Gao Ran said with a nasty face, he couldn't stand it anymore.

"What about the other one?"

"Chen Zhiqing didn't tell me whether he was dead or alive." Gao Ran took the phone and continued to poke, "Do you think it might be more nasty?"

"I don't think so."

"Ok?"

Lu Yunxuan handed the water to Gao Ran, "Do you think Cheng Wenlu will be called Chen Zhiqing's pet name?"

Gao Ran raised his head and thought for a while, then shook his head and said with certainty, "No!"

"Drink the water."

Gao Ran took the glass, "But I think it's true love that Cheng Wenlu can accept Chen Zhiqing calling him."

Lu Yunxuan laughed, "Then are we true love?"

"Of course! We are the most real!" Gao Ran put down the cup, hugged Lu Yunxuan's neck, and lay on his back, "What a pet name! It's better to call your name affectionately, and who would dare to say your name?" Call it out, it's me haha!"

Lu Yunxuan walked to the bed with Gao Ran on his back, "Then I am at a loss, people call you by your name."

"Is there? No! Everyone in my family calls me Xiaoran, and Chen Zhiqing and others call me the boss. No one calls me by my name, no." Gao Ran smiled and pulled up the quilt to go to bed, "I have to go tomorrow Check, you can go to work after accompanying me."

"Well, I see, go to sleep."

Lu Yunxuan lay next to Gao Ran until he fell asleep before getting up, and went to find Gao Ran's application for suspension of school. Maybe he was too obsessed with Gao Ran, and now he realized that he didn't have his own small circle, and only knew those few people. That friend for a period of time has not come to him.What should he do if he is busy with work in the future? It doesn't matter once or twice, but what about in the future?Lu Yunxuan wanted Gao Ran to stay by his side, but he didn't want to see Gao Ran waiting for him alone in the future. Besides him, his son, family and work, Gao Ran also had to have some things of his own.

The next day, after Lu Yunxuan accompanied Gao Ran to finish the inspection, he was not in a hurry to go to the company, but walked around nearby.There is a park not far from the hospital, the environment is very good, and some students came to sketch. Gao Ran walked over excitedly, and stopped at a certain distance from them, so as not to disturb them.

"Look at them, you can tell they are students at a glance, that's great."

“Do you want to go back to school”

"Ah? School? I really miss it." Gao Ran smiled and turned to look at Lu Yunxuan, "It would be even better if we could be with you."

"Ok?"

"Fall in love during college, and then get married as soon as graduation, that's what it says in TV dramas."

Lu Yunxuan smiled and quietly held Gao Ran's hand, "I'm older than you, so I guess I can only be your teacher, and you are a student."

"Cut—" Gao Ran held Lu Yunxuan's hand tightly, "You should be a doctor, and the one with very little hair."

"Then do you still want me?" Lu Yunxuan asked softly,

"do not know."

Gao Ran's answer made Lu Yunxuan silent, but it's okay to think about it, and the scene is quite funny when he thinks about it.

"Lu Yunxuan."

"Ok?"

"Actually, I don't like assumptions. I like my current life very much. When I'm with you, it's not just you who haunt me. I also want to be with you. I won't feel lonely if I can think of you. Besides, you won't leave me, so I won't feel deserted. It doesn't matter how many friends you have. I don't want to chat with too many people. You didn't delay me. Besides, don't you only have those few friends? ?”

Now Gao Ran finally knew Lu Yunxuan's intentions. In the morning, he went to the study to find something and saw his application for suspension of school, thinking he had put it there.Now Lu Yunxuan asks him if he wants to go back to school. If he goes to school, one is to study, and the other is to socialize. They are friends.

"It's different, Gao Ran, you are still young now."

"You are very old." Gao Ran smiled lightly, and pulled Lu Yunxuan out of the park. "Don't worry, I will be complete with you, I can't even think about you enough! There is no time to do other things."

"Don't think I'm old now!"

"I don't think so!"

Lu Yunxuan let Gao Ran hold hands, held hands openly, and didn't care about doubts or other eyes from outsiders. Although the weather was cold, they both felt warm, and that was enough.

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When she was more than seven months pregnant, Gao Ran wanted to eat more, and would go back to Gao’s house to eat a lot secretly, but Gao Ran was thin. At first, Lu Yunxuan saw that Gao Ran didn’t gain much meat after eating, so Gao Ran thought Lu Yunxuan would agree with whatever he ate, but later he went for an examination and the doctor said that he had to control it. Although he couldn't see it, the fetus tended to be too large.Only then did Lu Yunxuan stop, following the old doctor's instructions to control Gao Ran's weight.

But at eight months, he was still a bit overweight. Dr. Cheng said nothing was wrong, so Lu Yunxuan felt a little relieved. Seeing Gao Ran secretly laughing, Lu Yunxuan stood not far away and looked at Gao Ran with a gentle smile.How could he not know that Gao Ran was stealing food? His mother-in-law called him the first time, but he felt that it was even more uncomfortable if he wanted to eat, but he also told his mother-in-law some precautions.

Mrs. Gao has given birth to three children, so of course she knows better. Although Gao Ran will cook whatever she wants to eat when she returns home, but the portions are not big. After eating, she will rush back and move out of Lu Yunxuan if she can't.

Gao Ran was quite happy, he thought that no one would know, and doing this kind of thing was the most enjoyable.

The child was born at the end of June, a few days earlier, and weighed seven catties!Gao Ran was in so much pain that he almost passed out.Although Lu Yunxuan was accompanied during the inspection, Gao Ran still didn't let Lu Yunxuan in during the delivery. He would definitely look very embarrassed, and he didn't want Lu Yunxuan to see it.

But when the child was born, he wanted to see Lu Yunxuan very much, so he asked the nurse to call for someone, and asked another nurse to wipe his face. Now he really has no energy left.

As soon as Lu Yunxuan came in, he hugged Gao Ran lightly, kissed non-stop, and finally held Gao Ran's hands, and kissed their wedding rings, "Thank you."

"How is the child?" Gao Ran's voice was a little hoarse.

"Seven catties and three taels, very healthy." Lu Yunxuan's voice was also a little unsteady, he was almost dying of anxiety outside just now.

"The first person I saw was you! Don't be jealous of your son, be good," Gao Ran smiled weakly, and closed his eyes lightly after speaking, he was too tired.

Lu Yunxuan stretched out his hand to gently stroke Gao Ran's messy hair, looked at the sleeping man dotingly, and said softly, "Don't eat."

The postpartum life was not easy, the child drank the special milk system contacted by the hospital, but the high dye unexpectedly rose!Milk!a feeling of.Cheng Wenyan joked that this kind of situation is rare in the family, and it must be because they ate too much during pregnancy.

Gao Ran regretted hearing that, it was so uncomfortable.But fortunately, it was just a feeling, not real, otherwise Gao Ran felt that he was really ashamed to see others.

At this time, you can't take medicine indiscriminately. It's better to have Lu Yunxuan to help him, but the two young people haven't touched each other for almost two months, it's too easy to misfire...

Lu Yunxuan recently put down work to take care of Gao Ran the whole time, and did everything by himself, but it was only a few days of exhaustion. Gao Ran stayed in the hospital for a week and was discharged. In fact, three days is enough, but Gao Ran said he wanted to go to the hospital. I stayed at my new home for a few more days, waiting for the place to be cleaned up before leaving.

On the day when he was discharged from the hospital, Lu Yunxuan said that he had something to do and would not arrive until later, everything was packed, and the child was taken back by the two families first, so he waited for Lu Yunxuan to pick him up, the family said he was not ashamed, but Gao Ran was red He said with a straight face and let his husband pick him up before leaving.Bored, Gao Ran turned on the TV, only to find that it was all news. He wanted to turn off the TV at first, but was stunned by a column of interviews. It was Lu Yunxuan.

And it's at a critical time.

"Mr. Lu, I saw that you are wearing a ring on your left ring finger. Are you like some successful people to avoid trouble or—"

"I've been married for more than two years." Lu Yunxuan said with a smile.

"Oh my God?!" The host exclaimed in a low voice, quickly calmed down, and said with a smile, "It seems that Mr. Lu is very protective of his wife, can you tell us what kind of woman Mrs. Lu is? Isn't it gentle and beautiful?"

Lu Yunxuan couldn't help laughing, and the host was also infected by Lu Yunxuan's smile, "It seems that Mrs. Lu and Mrs. Lu are very in love! Very happy!"

"Yeah, that's right, but my lover is a man." Lu Yunxuan's smile was still so happy, he didn't care about the surprise of the host and the audience, and he didn't care about the expressions of the people in front of the TV.

"This, this, this... We really want to meet someone who can make Mr. Lu so happy." The host hurriedly maintained his composure in a panic, after all, this was a live broadcast.

"No, he can only see me, you have no chance."

"Ah! Mr. Lu is really domineering! But we are also very happy to see Mr. Lu so happy!"

"Thank you"

……

Gao Ran didn't know when the interview ended, but he was so stupid, how could Lu Yunxuan say that... Gao Ran quickly picked up his mobile phone and was about to call Lu Yunxuan, when he just opened the phone, he called, "Hello? Wake up Yet?"

"Lu Yunxuan, what did you say on TV just now!"

"I see, I wanted to watch it with you."

Gao Ran scratched his head frantically, "You're stupid! You're Lu Yunxuan! After you say that, how will he—"

"But I just want to be your Lu Yunxuan, I only want to belong to you." Lu Yunxuan interrupted Gao Ran over there, and said softly, "But we, Gao Ran, have grown up and can think about many things..."

"What... Well." Gao Ran suddenly couldn't help but wanted to cry, and quickly pretended to be angry to cover up her trembling voice. "I'm the one who wants to spend the rest of my life with you, how could I not think of it!"

"Gao Ran, I love you..." Lu Yunxuan thought in his heart what kind of expression Gao Ran would have at this moment, and it sounded like he was crying.

Gao Ran couldn't help wiping the tiredness from the corners of his eyes, and held the phone tightly, as if he was holding Lu Yunxuan's hand, "I love you too, Lu Yunxuan, with all my heart!"

Lu Yunxuan's laughter came from the phone, and Gao Ran also laughed foolishly.

"wait for me."

"Ok!"

Finish

postscript

I have been thinking about whether to tell you that I have lived two lives, but I am afraid that if I tell you, you will definitely blame yourself because I am gone. I will definitely not blame you, because at that time I was willing.

and also……

I will also feel that I am sorry for you. You have loved me for two lifetimes, but I only loved you for a lifetime, so let me love you in the next life and let you rest.But in the end, you must fall in love with me, because you only belong to me.

58. The past life outside the episode...

Gao Ran's hands had become cold, but Lu Yunxuan still held them reluctantly and pressed them to his face, hoping to warm him up.He hoped that Gao Ran was asleep, but the cold touch reminded him over and over again that Gao Ran was gone, and he hated being sober at this moment.

When Fan Ze came in, he saw Lu Yunxuan knelt there in embarrassment and held Gao Ran's hand. There was already chaos outside, but no one came to bother him.

"The murderer has been found, but the police suddenly came, so I can only hand it over to the police first, but don't worry, Ah Yan is here."

Lu Yunxuan sneered, "So what if we find it? He still has one life, but what about my Gao Ran? He didn't do anything."

"Yunxuan, we never expected that they would send someone to sneak into today's banquet, and none of us expected this, nor did we expect Gao Ran to come, this—"

"What's wrong with him coming to me! Is it because he suddenly died? I'm his husband, and he can come to me whenever he wants!" Lu Yunxuan looked irritable.

"Lu Yunxuan, wake up! Gao Ran didn't die in vain, he did it to save you..."

"It's because you saved me! So why did you save me!" Lu Yunxuan kept shaking Gao Ran's hand, "So why did you come here!"

Fan Ze has never seen Lu Yunxuan like this before. To be honest, his friends don't like Gao Ran. Who would like someone who gives you bad looks all the time, but Lu Yunxuan just doesn't listen.Now in order to save him, they have nothing to say, no matter what, it's already like this, and they have nothing but gratitude for it.

"Yun Xuan, just let him go with peace of mind."

"Anxin? How could he be at ease? How do you know that he will be at ease." Lu Yunxuan was as untouchable as a thorn at the moment, "Do you think he will leave in peace?"

"Lu Yunxuan!" Fan Ze was also anxious, "Even if you do this again, it's useless. People can't be brought back to life after death, and everyone feels uncomfortable like you. You must know that you are the chairman of the Lu Corporation. If you are like this, your family members What to do? What shall we do?"

Lu Yunxuan stood up, a little numb after kneeling for too long, Lu Yunxuan was a little unsteady, but he stood up straight without touching anything.Because he was only surrounded by Gao Ran who was quietly lying on the operating table, and he was afraid that something would disturb him.But he still held Gao Ran's hand tightly, seeing that the hand that was held by him had already lost all color and strength, he would not shake him off, and the person lying down would not say disgustingly to him "let go".

Lu Yunxuan gently put down Gao Ran's hand, and said without any emotion, "You don't like him at all, so you don't know what I would be like without him."

"Lu Yunxuan! He—"

"You go out first, I want to stay with him for a while, just for a while." Lu Yunxuan interrupted Fan Ze.Fan Ze also knew that he couldn't speak any more. The few of them never understood Lu Yunxuan's obsession with Gao Ran. To be honest, it was their fault. It's good that Lu Yunxuan didn't punch him at this time.

After Fan Ze left, Lu Yunxuan just stood beside Gao Ran, motionless, "I haven't even had the chance to see you so close."

"Tap...tap...tap..." The high-heeled shoes rang a few times hesitantly, then stopped a few more times.

"Sorry, I didn't protect him well."

"It's not your fault." Gao Qi couldn't help crying after finishing speaking, "I asked him to find you, it's my fault."

"No, I didn't protect him well, I was too careless."

"He went to you to tell you...he likes you." Gao Qi said and walked over, but stopped not far away. She didn't want to disturb the last time between her brother and this man, but she had something to say It must be said, "This morning he came to tell me that he said he liked you, and that he found out that you have always liked him. Isn't it stupid? You have made it so obvious that he still reacts so slowly."

"Well, stupid...but I'm willing to wait, so do you think I'm stupid?" Lu Yunxuan looked back at Gao Qi, he saw a person with faded makeup, but he couldn't see himself clearly from the other party's eyes, because covered with tears.

Gao Qi hurriedly reached out to wipe away her tears, "So don't wait, you two big men! Tell him!"

Lu Yunxuan sighed, and it took a long time before he spoke, "I was afraid of scaring him. A few days before the wedding, I was forced by him to say a lot of ugly things, and he was about to cry."

"You actually made him cry, I can't bear it!" Gao Qi sniffed hard, trying to say very angry, but her hoarse voice couldn't cover up the painful crying just now.

"Yeah... so I am willing to wait, I said I will definitely get it, and I said I have no regrets."

"You have waited..."

"But what if I regret it now?"

Gao Qi smiled wryly and said, "He will definitely laugh at you, the dignified chairman of the Lu family will regret it sometimes...he finally said that he loves you..." Gao Qi turned around and left after speaking, afraid that she would never come back. I really can't help crying if I stay there, and I'm afraid I'll disturb them, and who wouldn't regret it.

After Gao Qi left, Lu Yunxuan still stood like that, bent down and kissed Gao Ran for the last time for a long time, "How can you not tell me, I haven't even heard of it once, you have to wait for me."

A few days later, Gao Ran's funeral was still held. Lu Yunxuan didn't say a word during the whole process, but stood quietly in front of Gao Ran's coffin with his son in his arms.Gao Qi will preside over the rest, except for Lu Yunxuan, she is the most qualified, because they are the ones who know Gao Ran best.

After the funeral, Lu Yunxuan stood in front of the tombstone and did not leave. After the ceremony, everyone left one after another. Mrs. Gao was also persuaded to go back, but she saw that Lu Yunxuan's expression was no longer as peaceful as before.Mrs. Lu wanted to take her grandson away, but Lu Gaoqi grabbed Lu Yunxuan's clothes and refused to leave.Lu Yunxuan picked up his son, "Mom, let him stay here with Gao Ran for a while."

"Gao Ran wouldn't want to bring her children to this kind of place." Mrs. Lu disagreed, it's not good for children to stay in this kind of place.

Normally, Lu Yunxuan would have lost his temper a long time ago, but he didn't today, because his heart was already dead, and he didn't have the strength to beat, so he didn't have the strength to get angry. "Then let him accompany his brother, no one has accompanied him yet."

Mrs. Lu wanted to say something again, but was pulled away by Lu Jingwen, "Let's go, let the two of them spend more time with them." Mrs. Lu could only leave with a sigh.

"Dad, will my brother look like me?"

Lu Yunxuan looked at another tombstone next to Gao Ran, "Gao Lu, the second son of Lu Yunxuan and Gao Ran".Although there is a tombstone, there is nothing in the coffin.Lu Yunxuan put these two tombs together, just to make Gao Ran not so lonely.

"Maybe."

"Oh."

"Is it true that Daddy won't come back?" Lu Gaoqi is four years old this year, and he has some understanding of Gao Ran's death, but it is very vague.The adults only told him, "Your daddy is asleep." But he knew that his daddy was gone and might not come back, and he also knew that only his father knew whether his daddy was really not coming back.

"No... Will Gao Qi miss Daddy?"

"Well... no."

Lu Yunxuan's hand holding his son tightened a little, and he finally asked why.

"Father will definitely miss Daddy, but if I miss Daddy, Daddy will definitely be tired. Daddy said before that don't let so many people miss him, he will be unhappy. Gao Qi doesn't want Daddy to be unhappy... But ...Gao Qi misses Daddy so much, misses Daddy so much...Don't think about it, Dad, let Gao Qi think about it for a while, just for a while."

Lu Yunxuan bowed his head and kissed his son who had been crying for a long time, "Okay, daddy, don't think about it first, Gao Qi should start thinking about it."

"Hmm hiccup... Dad can think about my brother first." Lu Gaoqi stretched out his hand to wipe his little face.

"Well, dad, let's go think about my brother." Lu Yunxuan hugged his son, looked down at the little guy, closed his eyes, clasped his hands together, and muttered something silently.Lu Yunxuan couldn't hold back his tears after all.

Gao Ran, son is thinking of you, do you know?He's talking to you, can you hear him?

I miss you too, do you know that too.

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The author has something to say:

You didn't even say "I love you" to me until the end.

——Diary of Mr. Lu

59. The past life outside the episode [-]...

"Cough, cough..." The constant coughing caused Lu Yunxuan to put down his pen and rub his forehead vigorously. He worked day and night just to keep himself from thinking too much, but it turned out that it was useless.Work is just work, for him it is as common as dressing and eating, how can ordinary things block his thoughts, and doing too much is useless.

When Fan Ze came in, he saw Lu Yunxuan standing by the floor-to-ceiling window, with his back turned to him. He didn't know what he was thinking, why did the feeling always disappear, Fan Ze shook his head and patted his face vigorously, how could he be as sentimental as a woman up.But recently Lu Yunxuan is really too quiet, so quiet that people are afraid.

"The person has been brought out, and we can arrange it anytime." Fan Ze walked over and said.

"When will it snow?" Lu Yunxuan asked softly, still turning his back to Fan Ze.

"Snow?" Although Fan Ze was puzzled, he took out his phone and looked at it, "The day after tomorrow, the weather forecast says there will be heavy snow, I think the weather will be gloomy and cold for the past two days, and it will probably rain a lot Ah. But after all, the first snow makes people look forward to it.”

"Then tomorrow night, you can make arrangements. Cough cough..." After Lu Yunxuan finished speaking, he couldn't help coughing again, and quickly waved at Fan Ze, "You go back first."

Fan Ze turned around and took a look, and found that the cold medicine he bought yesterday was still there. He walked over and picked it up, "Why didn't you take it? You just had a fever and you want to continue to have a fever!" He went to pour it for Lu Yunxuan After drinking a glass of water, he walked over and handed the medicine to Lu Yunxuan, "Take it quickly, and I'll leave after I eat it. Who cares if you're like this."

"Heh..." Lu Yunxuan took the water glass, "Don't worry about me, I've worked hard for you these few days."

Fan Ze felt very uncomfortable when he heard this, "What's the hard work, it didn't take us so long to bring him out, after all, I'm sorry for you."

"I'm sorry, we're all brothers." Lu Yunxuan smiled at Fan Ze after speaking.This is the first time Fan Ze has seen Lu Yunxuan smile since Gao Ran's funeral, does that mean he is getting better soon?

Hurry up, what's the trouble?After all, it will pass.Fan Ze also nodded with a smile, "Then I'll go first, you have a good rest." The moment he turned around, he didn't see the smile on Lu Yunxuan's face disappearing without a trace, turned around and looked out the window to continue state, motionless.

After a long time, there was a little noise in Nuo Da's office, which was very small.

"Are you worried about me?"

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"Tell me! Why did you go to that banquet?" Lu Yunxuan squatted beside the man, but stepped on the man's sore spot fiercely, ignoring the man's pain.

"To kill you!" the man said in pain, with a ferocious expression but he couldn't break free.

"Why kill me?" Lu Yunxuan's voice was still cold, but the strength on his feet did not relax at all.

"For the money! For the money!" the man yelled heart-piercingly, but he couldn't take it anymore. He asked these questions over and over dozens of times, and there wasn't a single spot in his body that didn't hurt, and The pain was so great that he wanted to kill himself, even if he had received professional training, he would not be able to withstand such torture.

"Money? Is money that good?"

The man was in so much pain that he couldn't speak, he wanted to curl up to relieve the pain but he had no strength, and he couldn't answer Lu Yunxuan's question at all.

"Shouldn't you be professional after receiving money? You can deal with whoever you are asked to deal with... If you are not good at marksmanship, you won't get paid." Lu Yunxuan suddenly sneered, "Your information says that you have experience ten years ago, why? Can't even deal with such a small accident? Huh?"

Lu Yunxuan pulled up the person who was lying on the ground with all his might, and almost roared, "Say it!"

Apart from spitting out a mouthful of wounded blood, the man remained silent.

Lu Yunxuan let go of his hand, stood up, went to a table not far away and picked up a pistol, "If you take it, you should be a bit professional. Since you don't know how, let me teach you."

Standing outside the door, Fan Ze and Xu Weiming couldn't help shivering from the cold. They couldn't understand why Lu Yunxuan would come out at night. Just as they were chatting, they suddenly heard a gunshot from inside. Looking around, he quickly ran into the house, but was almost knocked down by Lu Yunxuan who came out of the house.

"Lu Yunxuan?!" Fan Ze followed up to ask about the situation, and asked Xu Weiming to go inside to have a look.

Lu Yunxuan ignored him and went straight outside, only to find that it was snowing when he went out. Lu Yunxuan checked his watch, it was past twelve o'clock. "very nice."

Xu Weiming also ran out at this time, shook his head helplessly at Fan Ze, and hurried to make a phone call.Seeing them coming out, Lu Yunxuan said to them, "Go back, I'll walk by myself, don't worry, I know what I did. I don't regret it."

Seeing Lu Yunxuan who was not far away, Fan Ze was in a hurry to find someone to help, he was crazy!crazy!It's crazy!They didn't expect that Lu Yunxuan would do such a thing for Gao Ran.

The snow fell heavily, and the footprints left by Lu Yunxuan's path were quickly covered again.

Lu Yunxuan didn't stop until he walked to Gao Ran's tombstone. Finally, Lu Yunxuan heaved a sigh of relief, and slowly sat down against the tombstone.

"There is a reason why I haven't come to see you for so many days. I have a cold." Lu Yunxuan said to himself, "I still remember how you felt when you had a cold last time, so I want to see you again later."

"I might become a ghost...but I am willing, for you."

"I know you're definitely not gone, you're by my side, so wait for me. I'll go find you when I turn into a ghost, and you say that to me again... I really want to hear it."

"I'll build you a snowman when the snow gets bigger. I know you like snow, but it's a pity I haven't seen it with you..."

That night, Lu Yunxuan said a lot to Gao Ran and made a big decision.

……

After that day, Lu Yunxuan explained everything and returned to the office, but he didn't get the result he wanted. "What did you say..." Lu Yunxuan's voice was trembling.

"He's been rescued." Fan Ze didn't dare to look at Lu Yunxuan.

"How could it be?" Lu Yunxuan asked expressionlessly.

"Xu Weiming's brother came to rescue him."

"For that kind of person, he was invited."

"Do you think you will be shot and killed like this? Lu Yunxuan! Do you know who you are? Even if you do this, do you think your family is vegetarian? They will watch you go in?" Fan Ze was also annoyed "It would be better if that kind of person is handed over to the police, why bother myself!"

"What do you know!" Lu Yunxuan stood up, "You don't understand anything at all! How can you save me! Then I won't be able to see Gao Ran! I won't be able to see him!" Lu Yunxuan ruthlessly went to catch Fan Ze. collar, and said fiercely, "You don't understand anything at all, and you will only cause me trouble!"

Fan Ze was so angry that he punched him, "We don't understand! Even if we don't understand, we know Gao Ran wouldn't want to see you like this!"

"He's right." Gao Qi who was standing outside the door couldn't help but sigh, "Gao Ran wouldn't want to see you like this."

"You all go, I don't want to see you now."

"You—" Gao Qi hurriedly grabbed Fan Ze, and said to Lu Yunxuan, "We're leaving now, but you can take a look at these things, I found them in Gao Ran's room, and the video of the coffee shop that day. After finishing speaking, Gao Qi put down her things and hurriedly dragged Fan Ze out.She knew that the man loved Gao Ran, but she didn't expect to make such a crazy move.She was so scared that she took the things she just found and ran over quickly.

"Thank you, if you hadn't pulled me, I would have said something that irritated Yunxuan again. I'm really sorry, we don't know Gao Ran at all." Fan Ze looked at the closing office door while talking , "We didn't expect Yunxuan to do this, it's you—"

"I didn't expect that either." Gao Qi interrupted Fan Ze, "Maybe I don't understand the relationship between them at all."

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Lu Yunxuan stood by the window for a long time before walking over to open the bag. Inside was a notebook and DVD. Remembering what Gao Qi said just now, Lu Yunxuan tremblingly took the DVD and walked to the TV, and started playing it in a panic.

The screen quickly showed that it was Gao Ran.

Lu Yunxuan was so excited that he half-knelt next to the TV and stared at it, motionless.

On the screen, Gao Ran kept laughing and talking, but there was no sound, and he couldn't hear what he was saying, but he knew that this was the conversation Gao Ran had with his sister before he went to find him, so at the end, at the end...

"I like him."

"I love him."

Lu Yunxuan watched Gao Ran's mouth shape in the picture and kept chanting silently...

It wasn't until his legs went numb that Lu Yunxuan picked up the next book, which was Gao Ran's diary, but he never knew that Gao Ran had the habit of diary, but Lu Yunxuan laughed when he opened the first page.

"I like Lu Yunxuan's first day." Lu Yunxuan smiled and stretched out his hand to wipe the corner of his eyes, and continued to read, but unfortunately, there were blank pages at the end, and he hadn't had time to write.But Lu Yunxuan still flipped through the pages one by one, afraid of missing something, he was not disappointed after all.

"Live well."

Lu Yunxuan was stunned, Gao Ran's handwriting was correct, but... why... Lu Yunxuan continued to scroll down until the last page.

"Together until the age of 80, I will go first."

Lu Yunxuan closed the notebook and hugged it tightly to his chest, "I just said that you are still by my side, so you have to stay with me until I am 80 years old, and then you go."

Although you left so long before I could not see you, I forgive you.But you must wait until I am 80 years old to find you, even if I really become an old man, don't dislike me.

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The author has something to say:

I know you must not have left, you must still be by my side,

Because you haven't had time to confess to me, how could you leave?

So I'm going to look for you, and I'll look for you when I become a ghost.

They said Li Gui is very powerful, so I can protect you again!

——Diary of Mr. Lu