[Go Soul Natsume's Book of Friends] Guang Xia

No.60 once

"Zuowei..." Natsume was about to answer, but heard several sudden "cha-cha-" sounds from above.Both Guang and Mr. Cat stopped playing and looked up.I saw a few spots of white slowly oozing from the dark sloping roof.

When the snowfall accumulates to a certain extent, especially when the mountains are blocked by heavy snow, the roof tiles will inevitably break.Natsume blushed and said in embarrassment, "I'm sorry..."

His former home was too old, shouldn't he suggest that Guang and Zuowei live here?

But Zuo Wei smiled: "It's a coincidence. Nuozi said: 'The snow that doesn't fall at most, seeps into the cracks of the tiles, some are pure white, and some are black. It looks very interesting.'"

"Nuozi, I remember her!" Guang smiled, "Zuowei you mentioned before! The female official who learned Go from you and later wrote "Pillow Grass", right?"

"Oh? Guang, I didn't expect you to remember!"

Natsume knew that Zuowei was helping him out, so he couldn't help but be secretly grateful.

"Of course! This Kiyosho Nagon is much more fun than Ito Hirobumi and the others. You can be happy for such a long time..." Hikaru got out of the kotatsu, walked to the entrance, put on his running shoes, "I'll go outside to see Look, you guys sit here first."

"Guang, be careful, it's snowing heavily outside."

"I'll go too." Teacher Cat also moved out of the kotatsu.

Natsume looked at the obese body that was reddened by the hot steam, and couldn't help laughing: "Mr. Kitty, are you actually worried about Shinto-kun?"

"Worried about him? I'm afraid he'll smash the house." Teacher Cat disdainfully, when he reached the entrance, he jumped up in the direction the light was looking up at.

The heavy snow of goose feathers rustled outside the window.The hot soup in the pot exudes warm white steam.Except for Guang and Mr. Cat going out, the room suddenly became quiet.Zuo Wei knelt gracefully by the kotatsu, her purple hair brushing the floor.This kind of help has lost a bit of the innocence of being a celestial being, and is full of the warmth of fireworks in the world.

Natsume suddenly became curious: "Sakai, would people in the Heian era use kotatsu?"

"There is no kotatsu, but we also drink wine in twos and twos. Lotte Layman has a poem: 'Green ant new fermented wine, red clay small stove.'" Zuo Wei had a nostalgic smile in his eyes, "I still remember a thousand years ago, me and Several adults, Nuozi, Xiangzi, and her favorite little civet cat sat together by the stove. Xiangzi always said that if she didn't talk about her thoughts around the fire at night, she would only be depressed in the spring of the coming year. pass."

"It turns out that the night talk around the stove is about worrying." Natsume said, but then a little melancholy filled his heart—why doesn't he have something on his mind now?

"Takashi, I can tell that you, and Madara, are close friends with Koji." Zuo Wei's voice was as gentle as a breeze, "You don't want to live here, are you worried that the monsters will hurt us? "

Natsume said what was in his heart, "Sawei, you know it. I look so much like my grandmother, and I also have "Book of Friends" in my hand... When you are with me, I have been attacked by monsters several times."

He felt scared when he mentioned it, and he became more determined: "I can't live with you."

"Takashi, I just want to ask you one thing." Zuowei stared at him deeply and paused, "When you were in Tokyo—in Tokyo where there were no monsters and I was not allowed to exist as a ghost for a long time, than Do you want to be happy living in Yayuan?"

Xia Mu was stunned.Having experienced so many things, now looking back on the days when I was hospitalized in Tokyo, it seems like a lifetime away.The first meeting between him and Hikari, the truth behind Zuo Wei's disappearance, the sudden departure of Mr. Cat...

"This is the life you dreamed of." Madara's voice was still ringing in the stands of Haze Middle School.

But is this really the life he dreamed of?

Why in the days when there were no monsters, he would flip through "Book of Friends" aimlessly from time to time, thinking of the monsters in Yayuan?Why does he feel so lonely again?

Why did he feel at ease the moment Mr. Cat appeared when he fell in the rain?Returning to Yahara from Tokyo, seeing Niu, Bing, and Sanshio, he felt indescribably calm?

In Tokyo, getting along with Hikari is joyful and shocking, but there is also a trace of uneasiness that seems to be lost at any time; other times, most of the monsters miss Cat Teacher and "Book of Friends"—even in dreams , There have also been cases where names whizzed out from thin pages.

Natsume remembered that day, wandering with Kitamoto, Nishimura, Tanuma, and Doko at the fork in the road, trying to find a well from which lemon soda gushed out, but couldn't decide where to go.Then two monsters walk past them talking to the right.And this scene was only seen by Natsume.

"I think it should go to the right." Natsume suggested to her friends, carefully, with a little bit of shyness and confusion.

"I'll be grateful." Light's voice emerged.

Thinking of this, Natsume felt a sense of enlightenment.It turned out to be like this... It turned out to be like this!

"I'm in Tokyo, and I'm lonelier than when I was in Yahara." Natsume finally said the answer honestly, and faced himself honestly, "Although, I was very happy when I was with Shinto-kun."

"That's good." Zuowei smiled, "Takashi, the reason I was able to come back is because Hikari trusted you from the very beginning. You, Madara, and Asagi have never met me before, yet you take my affairs so seriously . I really appreciate it.

"Guizhi, I hope you know that Guang and I are friends who care for you wholeheartedly."

Zuo Wei held Xia Mu's hand and put it in his palm, there was infinite tenderness and care in Zhuang Su.

"Maybe, we are not enough to bring you the warmth of a family. I just hope that you can think of us when you are helpless. If you feel scared when you are chased by monsters, come to us."

Xia Mu's heart felt hot, and warm spring water flowed over his chest, as if solid ice had melted.

Once, when he was little, he was chased to nowhere by monsters, stumbled to find an abandoned shrine in the forest, and was moved by the quiet and beautiful scenery there, as if he had been redeemed.He closed his eyes, hid inside, and said to himself over and over again: "From now on, as long as you feel scared, come to this shrine."

It turned out that his wish since he was a child was neither to get rid of monsters, nor to escape the childhood shadow of being abandoned by others, but to find a safe place to heal his fear and loneliness.

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"Light! Are you confused when you play this chess move?!"

"It's a little bad...but I'm also at a loss..."

Louder: "What is the corner? Right now, I can see two ways to survive. Although they are both difficult, there is still a chance!"

"Two ways to live?" Unbelievable, whispered, "I...I can't see anything..."

"Guang, you can't see it?! How can you play tomorrow like this?!"

"Then... shall we play it upside down?" He tentatively asked in a softer voice.

"Guang, how old are you now, and you still play tricks from four or five years ago?!"

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Who said that Guang and Zuo Wei get along warmly?Natsume watched from the side dumbfounded.For a full three hours, Zuo Wei reprimanded Guang mercilessly, and Guang's embarrassed look was unprecedented.Mr. Kitty was eating melon seeds with relish in the kotatsu, obviously very much benefited from this rare scene.

Natsume suddenly yawned uncontrollably, and quickly covered his mouth with his hands.Guangyan noticed it sharply, and as if he was rescued, he quickly rolled and crawled from the glass chess piece to Natsume's side: "Natsume, are you tired? I'll help you make the bed!"

"Eh? No need, you play chess—"

Hikaru winked at Natsume, and Natsume caught Sakai's angry gaze, and immediately understood.

"Really, Zuowei is too shameless, he killed me to the point of crying as soon as he came back..." Guang whispered, but there was a satisfied smile on the corner of his lips, "Come on, Natsume, where do you want to sleep? "

Natsume's house is actually quite spacious, and there is no problem sleeping five or six people.Natsume chose the room with flowers carved on the floor without hesitation.Open the door, turn on the light, and the immature paintings on the floor and cabinets come into view.Natsume knelt on the tatami, gently stroking the long-standing incision with her hand.

Hikaru suddenly couldn't bear to watch this scene, turned around, and spread out the sleeping bag for Natsume.

"Shinto-kun, you leave it here, I'll do it myself." Natsume hurried over.

"No, let me help you." Guang turned his face away.The room was lit up like beans, and the eyelashes cast a soft shadow on his face, "Natsume, I haven't been able to do anything for you all this time."

No, no, you've done too much for me.Natsume looked at the light and said in his heart.In the summer in Tokyo, you have been taking care of me and taking in Mr. Kitty, have you forgotten?

do you know?I have never met someone as wonderful as you.You are like a mirror, reflecting the other me in my heart, which is very vivid.

Hikari Shindo, meeting you is like a miracle.

However, Natsume couldn't say all of this.Why can't he say it all the time?

"By the way, Shinto-kun," Natsume recalled, "I haven't explained to you yet, the reason why I haven't contacted you since Zuoi is back."

"Oh, this, Zuo Wei has already explained. He is afraid that he will disturb you and Qian Cong, right?"

"I want Zuo Wei to bring it up by himself, and then contact you. But Zuo Wei has been thinking about me and Asagi... I'm really sorry I haven't told you for so long. You should meet again sooner." Natsume apologized say.

"Idiot, I'm sorry for what you said." Guang smiled sincerely, "If it weren't for you, Zuo Wei and I wouldn't be here. Thank you."

Hikari and Zuowei both thanked themselves, and Natsume felt ashamed for a while.Zuo Wei's return was indeed because he got the blood back from the field, and after that, there was Qing Lan... But Natsume knew he couldn't say anything about it.He secretly made up his mind to find out the story behind Chuan Tian and Qing Lan, and then keep it in his heart forever.

Natsume sighed softly, then smiled again, "Shinto-kun, as long as you are all happy."

Just looking at Natsume.Even when she was smiling, Natsume's expression was calm, and there was a touch of loneliness in her eyes from the beginning to the end, as if she was concerned about a far away place.

"Natsume," Hikaru couldn't bear it any longer. He didn't say some things before because he thought it would be embarrassing for boys to talk to each other, but if he didn't say it, he would regret it later.

"It's funny to say, do you remember the night we first met?"

"You mean, the rainy night when you rescued me?" How could Natsume forget that the golden light that night was strange and warm, as if it came from another world.

"That night, when I was looking for your ID, I saw "Book of Friends". I couldn't understand what was written in it. It was just the three words 'Book of Friends'. Somehow, it was connected with you. When I remembered You, I will think of your book and those three words. The day after you leave is my birthday, and I really want your "Book of Friends"...Although I know it is the name of a monster...

"I feel that it's not right for me to be like this... But I also gradually understand that maybe, it's because I really want to be your friend in the true sense.

"In the beginning, Zuo Wei was with him, so I didn't feel lonely. Then Zuo Wei left, and I knew it—very few people would make me want to actually go to him.

"Taya Ryo is one of them. I took the professional chess player examination just to catch up with him. But I am afraid. If one day, he tells me that I am not the real me in his eyes... I am afraid of this day to death , I have never dared to get too close to him.

"Later, there was one more you, Natsume Takashi. I didn't say a word about Zuowei, but you already understood...but you are always so polite to me, using honorifics...I have never figured it out , Later, when I got in touch with myself and your past, I understood.

"Natsume, are you also afraid? You are afraid that one day you will be rejected and hurt, so you would rather keep your distance.

"Sometimes I laugh at myself, damn it, a big boy thinks so much. But Zuo Wei's departure forced me to think about it. I think about the reasons and consequences of his departure every night."

Guang said so much in one breath, he didn't dare to look at Natsume's expression.The cheeks are so hot that they can be fried.He felt that he had never said so many words in his life, and he was still a bitch.

A manga said it well: Kotatsu and alcohol are the things that make people unconscious!

Not sober... Cough, just not sober.

"Natsume, I want to be your friend in the true sense! I've said so much, that's it!" Guanggao shouted, and suddenly opened his arms, giving Natsume a big hug.

Natsume has completely petrified.He opened his mouth to say something, but it seemed he couldn't even breathe.If it is said that Zuo Wei's gentleness melted the ice, then the light's embrace shattered all the ice.Natsume heard the sound of the tide rolling over, which was shocking and irresistible.

Half a second later, Hikaru let go of him, stuffed the pillow into Natsume's arms, and rushed out like fleeing.

"Zoe! Let's continue playing chess!"

Natsume was still sitting in the room blankly.

Until Teacher Cat moved in, holding a wine bottle, humming a song with an unknown tune.

"Hey, boy, did you suddenly become stupid?" It held the wine bottle and shook it in front of Xia Mu's eyes.

Natsume slowly put down the pillow and lowered his head.

His life would certainly be different if there were no monsters.If fate can be chosen by oneself, Natsume really hopes that she will not see monsters, such an arrogant grandma and that "Book of Friends".However, without these—without these things that have brought him so many troubles and surprises, he would not have met Mr. Kitty, would not have had an evening chat with Zuo Wei, who has been wandering for thousands of years, and even less, listen Dao Guang said to him, "I want to be your true friend."

Natsume once thought that at the beginning, he rewrote their fate when he brought Zuowei back, which was some kind of repayment and redemption to Hikari.Now he understands that this is not the case at all.

It wasn't Natsume who redeemed their fate.It was Hikari and Zuowei who saved Natsume himself.