Forbidden

"In my heart, you are the best." Cheng Suran shook his head, a drop of crystal appeared in the corner of his eye, and quickly wiped it away.

"If possible, it's good to see you often, I don't care about the rest."

"Really?" Jiang Yu sneered, looking straight into her eyes, "You don't care if you see me with others?"

He spoke indiscriminately in a hurry, and regretted it the moment he finished speaking, but it was too late.

Cheng Suran felt like being struck by lightning: "... Does my sister have someone else?"

"No." Jiang Yu immediately denied it, pushed her away, leaned back on the sofa, and closed his eyes weakly.

A strong sense of exhaustion welled up.

She is messed up.

If it was those girls in the past, she would have dismissed them casually. It's not that she has never met a stalker, but she has never softened her heart, and she will break up as soon as she says it.But it's different, she doesn't seem to be able to calm down.

If this continues, the situation will get out of control sooner or later.

Cheng Suran felt relieved.

Just looking at her helpless look, and inevitably having a sore nose, she didn't make a sound, wrapped her down jacket tightly, gathered her legs, and curled herself up.

After a while, Jiang Yu opened his eyes.

The girl curled up in a corner of the sofa, and the down jacket that was obviously two times too big on her body was like a quilt, wrapping her tightly, her eyes were dull, her nose twitched, like an abandoned puppy.

Jiang Yu suddenly felt a faint sense of guilt...

Could it be that I did something wrong?

However, she is such a simple and pure person, shouldn't she have provoked her in the first place?

"Stay with me tonight."

The girl raised her head, her eyes brightened.

Jiang Yu avoided his eyes and continued: "I have a reception tonight, and I will ask my assistant to take you to dinner. She is a local, you can communicate with her more, and I will take you to Paris city tomorrow. The day after tomorrow I will I'm flying to Milan, come back in a day or two, and then we'll go back to China and make things clear."

The corners of Cheng Suran's lips raised slowly, froze when he heard the last sentence, and the smile froze on his lips.

It turns out that I have to wait until I return home to settle accounts...

"Okay." She responded in a low voice, with complicated emotions.

Jiang Yu stood up, pointed to the second floor, and said, "I'll take you to see the room. You go to the hotel while you're having dinner and bring your luggage here."

Cheng Suran got up obediently and followed her upstairs.

There are two rooms on the second floor, each with its own bathroom, and the living room and cloakroom in the middle. There is also a large open-air balcony with bright light and a transparent view. It is very elegant and French style.

The third floor is the master bedroom, Jiang Yu's private territory, which cannot be prying.

"Sister, do you live alone in such a big house?" Cheng Suran looked around.

Jiang Yu hummed lightly, deliberately not to look at her.

Cheng Suran shut up wisely.

……

When I came back from the reception, it was already 11:30 in the middle of the night.Jiang Yu took off his make-up and took a shower, dried his hair, poured himself a small half cup of sweet red, and went down to the second-floor terrace.

Not far away is SCEAUX Park, where the shadows of the trees in the forest blend with the night, the towering spire of the castle seems to rise into the night sky, the surroundings are quiet, and the air is filled with the smell of green grass after the rain.

The damp and cold air seeped into the pores, Jiang Yu stood for a while, slowly drank half a glass of wine, turned and entered the room.

Habitually go to the left bedroom.

When she came to the door, she paused, her thoughts flickered, she realized something, she backed away again, and stood still in the same place.

She seemed to be still in the hotel, she came back very late, went to the second bedroom after washing, entered the door in the dark, got into the warm and fragrant bed, hugged the girl's soft body, and had a good dream.

She forgot.

This life ended more than a month ago.

Habits are really scary.

Jiang Yu concentrated, squeezed the goblet tightly, and felt the urge to go in.

She turned around, walked to the sofa and sat down.

The girl's words were always lingering in her ears, what should come will always come, she suddenly realized that running away is impossible, even if she fled to the ends of the earth, she would still be able to find her.

Whether it is dependence or love, in fact, she can't tell the difference.

The former is traceable, while the latter is illusory.what is love?In the back of her memory, someone always emphasizes this word, saying that she loves her, that is her mother.

When she was a child, her mother beat and scolded her and said: I love you.When she grew up, her mother controlled her and said to her: I love you.

Later she met her predecessor Qi Yan.

Qi Yan was born with a golden spoon in his mouth. Both his family background and education are enviable, like flowers blooming in a greenhouse, bright and dazzling.And Jiang Yu himself, who was born to please others, was rejected in every possible way, and managed to find a way out of the cracks in the bricks, hard and ruthless.

The two diametrically opposite people collided, and soon a fierce spark was created. She loves Qi Yan with enthusiasm like the sun, and Qi Yan loves her with wild horse-like unruliness.

She tasted love and being loved for the first time, but she also found that she never understood these things.

Passion is very short, like fireworks that suddenly rise into the night sky, and it is fleeting after blooming.When the love period passed, the passion faded, and they entered the running-in period. They were exhausted in the constant conflicts and quarrels, and finally did not survive.

Qi Yan often said a word to her: As for it?

In Qi Yan's eyes, many things are "not so", but in her eyes, they are "as far as".They can fight over a dress, or fight for days over a meal.

Neither can understand the other.

At that time, Jiang Yu's career was on the rise, and she flew around the world almost [-]/[-], making a lot of money while becoming famous, which gave her a sense of security.On the contrary, feelings made her anxious, maybe it was to escape, or maybe she was too busy, she devoted herself to her work, ignored Qi Yan, and the two rarely communicated.

Although Qi Yan would compromise for her, but he felt aggrieved in his heart, and this aggrieved feeling was returned to her in the more intense quarrels each time.

Then one day, Qi Yan asked her to come out.

She disagrees.

"why?"

"The society is not open enough to accept homosexuality casually. I am a public figure. Do I still have to work after I come out? It's easy to think about it."

"I'm talking about coming out of the closet in the circle, not a full disclosure. How many bisexuals are there in the fashion circle? Your designer? Who else is that editor? Are you missing one?"

"Is the fashion circle you understand only in Europe and the United States? Have you ever thought about domestic? Cultural differences can be smoothed out with one sentence?"

"Then who knows that I'm your girlfriend? Have you ever expressed your opinion to your friends? Even people who are familiar with you in the circle? Huh? My Jiang Da model."

"Anyway, if it doesn't work, it won't work, don't even think about it."

"Then break up!"

"Okay."

"Heh, have you been waiting for this day for a long time? You must bring it up, right? I thought it would relieve your shameful sense of guilt! But it's useless, let me tell you, you were the first to be cold and violent, and you forced me , I misjudged you, Jiang Yu, you are a complete scum! Abnormal!"

"Thank you for the compliment."

Then they broke up.

Between love and work, she chose the latter without hesitation.

After a long time, Jiang Yu realized that he and Qi Yan were born very differently, grew up in different environments, had different values, it was difficult to get along, and they were destined to separate.

During the period of passionate love, she always followed Qi Yan's steps, any slight move or habit of the other party could trigger a big earthquake in her heart, she often fell into passivity, restlessness, and finally exhausted physically and mentally.

She doesn't like the feeling of being passive, and doesn't like being affected by one person's emotions. She wants to control her body and mind by herself.

At this age, love is no longer a necessity. She likes to pursue a sense of accomplishment in her career rather than taste love. Besides, people with her personality are not suitable for dating.Since letting go of her obsession with her ex, she has also seen herself clearly...

In the dead of night, Jiang Yu was a little irritable, got up to fetch cigarettes and a lighter, and lit one.

The slender cigarette was held between her fingers, and the sparks were burning brightly, like scarlet eyes in the dark. She was motionless, and the dim yellow light shone on her cold face, like a ghost.

"elder sister……"

There was a soft call from behind.

Jiang Yu was slightly stunned, turned his head, and saw Cheng Suran standing by the bedroom door at some point, silently looking at her.

The girl was covered with long hair, shrouded in the hazy low light, with a small face that was beautiful and pleasant, and a thin body wrapped in a silk nightgown, faintly outlining exquisite lines.

Her heart beat violently, and she frowned: "Why haven't you slept yet?"

"Can't sleep." Cheng Suran hesitated for a moment, walked over and sat down next to her.

"Didn't my sister sleep too?"

Jiang Yu moved to the side unobtrusively, and said softly, "I'll be sleeping in a while, you should go to sleep too, don't stay up late."

She raised her hand, took a light breath of the cigarette, and slowly exhaled the mist.

A little bit of light fell into those deep eyes, making it even more difficult to see through. Her face was faintly visible in the mist, her expression was a bit vicissitudes, and she also had the unique charm of a woman of this age.

Cheng Suran was a little absent-minded, and couldn't help hugging her.

A scent of shower gel penetrated into the nostrils, mixed with the smoke, the young girl's taste would be addictive, sweet and soft, rich in water, flowing silently, melting in her heart.

Jiang Yu panicked and struggled twice, trying to push away, but unexpectedly, he was hugged tighter and tighter.She frowned, "Let go."

"Not loose."

"Cheng Suran!"

She suddenly turned up the volume, Cheng Suran trembled, still holding her stubbornly, his eyes turned red in the darkness, and whispered: "I want to hug you..."

"I'll say it again, go back to sleep." Jiang Yu said patiently.

"Don't go."

"Are you disobedient again?"

"I'm not a canary, so I don't need to listen to you."

"..."

Jiang Yu remained silent.

Cheng Suran gritted his teeth and climbed onto her lap in one go.

But before he could sit still, he was pushed away by a force, lost his center of gravity, and fell to the ground with a "boom".She raised her head to meet Jiang Yu's cold gaze.

The heart instantly fell into the abyss.

"Good night."

Jiang Yu didn't even look at her, he got up holding a cigarette, and went up to the third floor as if fleeing.

……

After resting the next day, Jiang Yu gave up his plan to sleep all day, and took Su Ran to Paris for a tour.

Go to famous attractions, visit art exhibits, taste authentic food, feel the local customs, and tell about what you have seen and heard in Paris over the years, so that children can get a preliminary understanding of this city.

"From Charles de Gaulle Airport to the city center, the area along the way is 93 provinces, which are also poor areas. There are mainly Middle Eastern and African immigrants living there. The overall environment is not very good and the public security is poor. If you come here to study in the future, you must Remember, never go near there, day or night. Not just Paris, but any city."

“It’s best to wear flat shoes when you go out here, unless you take a car all the way. There are often gypsies and Romanians on the street, holding bracelets for you to wear, or holding papers for your signature, all of which are scams , ignore them, go immediately, go as far as you can."

"By the way, there are a lot of thieves, so watch your bags carefully. Messenger bags are safer than shoulder bags. You and I, two Asian faces, are walking money printing machines in the eyes of some people."

"Ha ha ha ha……"

Cheng Suran was in a heavy heart, but was amused by Jiang Yu's words.

It's like the calm before the storm. If possible, she hopes that time will stop on this day forever. There will be no gap, no chasm, and no settlement waiting to return home.

But the happy time is always short.

On the third day, Jiang Yufei went to Milan, and Cheng Suran stayed in the big villa alone, with only an assistant to accompany her, so she took this opportunity to go out for a walk again, as a way to step on the spot in advance and practice her spoken English.

When Jiang Yu came back, the two set off for home together.

The school has already started, and Cheng Suran took a leave of absence this trip, and missed a lot of classes, so he will take the make-up exam immediately after he comes back.

Jiang Yu and she agreed to meet on the weekend.

……

It was a rainy weekend.

There is a lot of rain in early spring, and it has been raining for a week. The whole city is shrouded in moldy humidity, and the water on the road has never dried up.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, Cheng Suran walked out of the dormitory building, holding an umbrella, one step deep and one step shallow, carefully avoiding the stagnant water, and headed for the school gate.

I made an appointment with Jiang Yu today to explain things clearly.

She was looking forward and looking forward, absent-minded in reviewing in the library, finally looking forward to today, both looking forward to and resisting.Although I already knew the result and knew that I was heading towards a farewell at this moment, I still couldn't help but feel happy when I thought of seeing that person.

Putting on light makeup and putting on the new clothes that Jiang Yu bought for her at the end of last year, she is like a bird that has escaped from the cage, and can't wait to fly to the sky called Jiang Yu.

Her happiness is so simple.

The familiar white car stopped at the school gate, Cheng Suran stepped forward, opened the door and got into the passenger driver, "Sister——"

"Did you wait a long time?"

"No, just arrived." Sitting in the driver's seat, Jiang Yu folded his arms, turned his face sideways, and cast a faint smile.

She didn't have any makeup on, her plain face was a little tired, and her smile seemed hollow.

"Today is beautiful."

"My sister is the most beautiful in my heart." Cheng Suran squinted and smiled, showing a row of small white teeth.

"How was the exam?"

"Very good, I can pass."

"Ah."

The courtesies are over, it's time to get down to business.

Jiang Yu stared at her for a moment, a flash of determination flashed in his eyes, he took out his mobile phone calmly, clicked on the lover's memo, and handed it over, "Look at this."

"?"

Cheng Suran lowered his head in doubt.

The page is a photo of the girl, with the name, age, height, weight, and occupation written underneath, like a simple document.Slide your thumb up, under each photo, one, two, three, four...

She saw her name at the end.

Cheng Suran, 20 years old, born on February 1999, 2, is 20 meters tall and weighs no less than 1.6 kilograms. There is no photo.

"Sister, this is..." She looked at Jiang Yu blankly, already having a bad premonition in her heart.

Jiang Yu turned his face away, and said casually, "The little birds I raised."

"!!"

"You're just one of them."

A basin of cold water poured down her head, even though Cheng Suran was mentally prepared, she was caught off guard, and the chill penetrated into her heart, making her shiver.

She stared blankly at the raindrops on the glass, and mist filled her eyes.

Tears and raindrops fell at the same time.

Jiang Yu glanced at her sideways, frowned, and clenched the hem of his clothes tightly.

"Do you know how Qi Yan and I broke up?"

"It was I who neglected her because of work, I was the one who was cold and violent to her, and I gave up on her because of my career. I did it all. I have countless lovers. I play with one when I see one, and lose the other when I play. I am a scum, yes abnormal,"

"I don't like the people I have raised, and you are not my type. We are really just playing around."

She tried her best to restrain her breathing and smiled brightly.

It was she who underestimated the child. Under the soft and well-behaved appearance, there was a tenacious and persistent heart hidden. Although she was young and jerky, she was full of courage. However, she was like a despicable and shameless villain who was running around.

Since you can't respond, let's stop here, so as not to cause a lot of trouble in the future.

"Really?" Cheng Suran asked, sobbing, his eyes filled with tears.

The crystal clear liquid hung on the side of the jaw, fell down, and splashed on the pants, blurring large wet marks.

strangeness.

My heart doesn't hurt at all.It's not numbness, but rather, no feeling at all.

She knew this day would come sooner or later.

It is enough to hear my sister say it to herself.

Stop being greedy.

"Ah."

Jiang Yu grabbed the girl's hand, took out a brand new check with a red stamp from his bag, put it in her palm, and wrapped his five fingers around it.

Still 200 million.

"I don't want...what are you doing..." Cheng Suran shrank back like an electric shock, but his strength was too weak to break free.

"Hey, listen to my sister first."

Jiang Yu held it tightly with a little force, and patted the other hand reassuringly, "You are now a junior, and you will be a senior in the second half of the year. Whether it's an internship or a postgraduate entrance examination, no matter what choice you make in the future, it will be yours. Don’t be afraid to try because you are afraid of making mistakes. Having an economic foundation to support can reduce the cost of trial and error, reduce a lot of risks, and allow you to have enough time and energy to plan your future path.”

"In the future, you must study hard, work hard, and move forward bravely. At no time should you place your hopes on another person. Only yourself is your most solid support."

"Just take it as my sister's blessing to you, and we will stop contacting you in the future, okay?"

After speaking, he couldn't help raising his hand to wipe her tears.

Cheng Suran pursed his lips tightly, his shoulders kept shaking, and finally couldn't hold back his tears.

"elder sister……"

"Be obedient, go." Jiang Yu smiled, got up and pushed over, and opened the passenger door for her.

The cold wind mixed with rain came in, and the ice fell on Cheng Suran's face.

It froze her completely.

"it is good……"

Cheng Suran nodded with a sob, clutched the check tightly, and got out of the car hesitantly.

Just after closing the door, before she could open the umbrella, the car started impatiently, slowly drove towards the road, then accelerated, merged into the traffic flow in the blink of an eye, until it disappeared...

Cheng Suran stood at the same spot, drenched in the rain, watching the car go away. After a while, his body was drenched, and his wet hair stuck to his cheeks.

elder sister……

I never knew.

You are my obsession, and I am your innocence.