Forbidden

Sure enough, she still knew.

Cheng Suran's face was slightly pale, and he couldn't judge her intention for a while, only thinking that he couldn't be cowardly, so he clenched his fists, "So?"

"what?"

"So what do you want to say?"

"Oh, I don't want to say anything, I just tell the truth." Bai Lu shrugged.

Cheng Suran stared at her quietly.

"Why are you looking at me like this?" Bai Lu was amused by her stern expression, "Don't be nervous, little sister, I won't say anything, after all, it's your wish, so don't worry."

"Since sister Yu is not here, I'll come back later."

After speaking, she raised her hand to her mouth, made a gesture of zipping it up, and turned to leave.

"Is it because you heard what I said in the office last time?" Cheng Suran's voice was low, and his clenched fingers slowly loosened.

Bai Lu paused, her hand extended to the handle was hanging in the air, and she retracted it again. After a moment of silence, she still turned her back to Cheng Suran, with a trace of contempt floating in her lowered eyes.

"Not at all."

"..."

"I can already feel that you are abnormal."

"How do you know?" Cheng Suran asked urgently.

Bai Lu turned around unhurriedly, curled the corners of her mouth, and smiled faintly: "You see, Sister Yu's eyes are too revealing. I have a younger sister, and I know that kind of eyes won't be seen between sisters. I like it." A person, no matter how restrained he is, his eyes and small movements cannot deceive others, I am afraid that you are the only one who thinks that you are covering up well."

Those narrow, sharp eyes seemed to penetrate her heart.

There was no way Cheng Suran could avoid it, and his entire soul was unreservedly presented in the sunlight, as if struck by a thunderbolt.

Eyes can't deceive people.

She can verbally say that she doesn't like Jiang Yu, she can tell herself that she doesn't like it in her heart, she can control her actions, expressions, and even her attention, but she can't control her eyes.

Maybe she doesn't even realize it a lot of times...

What kind of eyes did she have when she looked at Jiang Yu?What emotions are revealed?Is there anyone else here?Did Jiang Yu himself notice it?Then... Cheng Suran was a little flustered.

It doesn't matter what others think of her, she cares more about Jiang Yu's thoughts.

As long as I don't cause trouble for my sister...

"Little sister, you are too confused. I sympathize with you." Bai Lu shook her head regretfully, without pointing it out, but the look in her eyes was meaningful.

Cheng Suran met her gaze, and his breath stopped, the most vulnerable part of his heart was hit hard.

There are the lies she told herself, and the self-esteem she imprisoned with her own hands.

"Don't you also like Jiang Yu?" Cheng Suran smiled, his eyes were a little red, "You are the same, you like her, but you don't want her to know, and you always want to get close to her, so what right do you have to sympathize with me? I need you sympathy?"

She let out an instinctive roar like a little beast whose tail had been stepped on.

Sympathy, pity...

Those two words are so annoying.

Bai Lu looked at her steadily, her gaze became more sympathetic, and she sighed, "It's different."

"Oh?"

"I have a cat at home, I love it very much, I have to hug it to sleep every night, but I would never consider falling in love with it, and I will never have a deeper spiritual communication with it."

"..."

"Besides, do you think Sister Yu would like someone... who is always attached to her? If it was me, I would definitely not like it, how boring." Bai Lu curled her lips and spread her hands.

Cheng Suran's expression froze.

yes……

Pets are different from people.

The friends around Jiang Yu are human beings, the fans who confess their love on Weibo are human beings, and the strangers who recognize Jiang Yu on the road are also human beings. Everyone is qualified to know Jiang Yu openly.Only her pet is not eligible.

Staying by Jiang Yu's side in such a capacity, no matter how much she fantasizes, it's just her one-man show, and she will always be looked down upon by the other party.

The string that had been tensed in my heart for a long time snapped.

She woke up like a dream.

Like a traveler who carries a heavy weight on his back for a long journey, thinking that as long as he keeps walking forward, he can reach the ideal end point, but she gradually can't bear the weight. She is challenging her limit and wants to give up. The thoughts are getting stronger day by day.

My sister said that she likes brave people, but she doesn't even have the courage to stand up and look at each other.

What qualifications does a coward have to stand shoulder to shoulder with his sister?

Cheng Suran laughed at himself, his eyes clouded.

……

In the afternoon, everyone was free to move around. Some people wandered around, some played mahjong and games. The atmosphere of the whole villa was lively and harmonious.

Cheng Suran excused that he didn't sleep well last night and didn't go anywhere, so he just lay on the bed and rested.Jiang Yu didn't force her, and didn't think too much, he and Tian Lin participated in activities together, played two games in that board game room, and sang two songs in this KTV, both in rain and dew.

In the evening, Cheng Suran stayed on the bed for a long time during the indoor barbecue, and his emotions were almost adjusted, so there was no reason not to go.

She was worried that she would not be able to control her emotions, and that Jiang Yu or others would see something, so she tried her best to avoid eye contact with Jiang Yu, pretending that she was only interested in food, and pretending that she was just a little girl who didn't know much about the world.

Fortunately, Jiang Yu was busy joking with other people and didn't pay much attention to her.

Cheng Suran felt relieved and a little bit lost, he sat silently in the corner eating skewers, wanted to check Weibo, but found that it had been uninstalled, and downloaded it again.

Every time he raised his head, his gaze followed Jiang Yu.

Seeing her holding plain water in her hand, toasting with other people's beer, seeing her eating only a little green leafy vegetables from the barbecue grill, not to mention meat, not even potatoes, seeing her smiling at everyone, and talking in a friendly way, No airs.

Although she looks approachable and can joke with anyone, but that cold aura makes people dare not offend at will.

After the barbecue, someone suggested playing "Truth or Dare".

All the people are divided into several groups, and each group uses a deck of cards, spins the bottle, and rolls the dice to choose "truth" or "big adventure". If they refuse to implement it, they will drink a glass of beer as a punishment.

Cheng Suran was most afraid of playing this kind of game, and wanted to slip away, but seeing Jiang Yu looked very interested, he was a little bit reluctant, so he could only bite the bullet and join the group.

She, Jiang Yu, Bai Lu, Tian Lin, the four of them stood next to each other, forming a circle with other men and women in the group, sitting on the carpet.

"Come on, come on, watch it, use this for drinking." Bai Lu picked up a few big cups and put them on the table, slapping her palms heavily.

It was a graduated measuring cup with a capacity of three hundred milliliters.

A male colleague laughed and teased: "Xiaobai is so fierce? It's my turn to drink later, don't cry."

Bai Lu said disdainfully, "I can drink well."

"Row."

Cheng Suran stared at the cup secretly startled, subconsciously leaned on Jiang Yu, Jiang Yu held her hand, gave her a soothing look, pursed his lips and smiled.

The bottle spinning started, and everyone waited with bated breath, the smell of barbecue still lingering in the air.

In the first four rounds, go to three male colleagues and one female colleague respectively. Roll the dice with two big players and two small players. One, two, and three points are "true words", and four, five, or six points are "big adventures". Only one person draws the latter Card, ran to the window and shouted "I am a pig".

Cheng Suran was secretly glad that the fifth round of turning the bottle pointed at her impartially.

"..."

Afraid of what to come.

Everyone looked at her, including Jiang Yu.

Cheng Suran bit the bullet and picked up the dice, threw it on the table, the dice spun twice, stopped, and the number was three.

call--

She breathed a sigh of relief.

"Yo, to be honest, pump fast." Bai Lu winked at her.

Cheng Suran stretched out his hand, drew a card from the middle part, turned it over to look at it, and blushed instantly.

"what is it?"

Slowly, she turned the card over and showed it to everyone.

Bai Lu read it directly: "Which part of your body is the most sensitive..."

The others coughed a few times, waiting for her to answer.

Jiang Yu frowned imperceptibly.

This question is easy to make people think wrong. Cheng Suran looked at Jiang Yu with a blushing face, thought for a while, and said, "Does the armpit count? It itch when you scratch it, it's very sensitive."

"Forget it." Jiang Yu answered immediately, "Next round."

Cheng Suran calmly put the cards back and reshuffled the cards. From the corner of her eye, she noticed that Bai Lu was looking at her. She felt a little guilty, but after thinking about it, she was at the end of her rope, and she didn't care about being watched and laughed at.

So she raised her head generously to meet Bai Lu's gaze.

Bai Lu was startled, and turned away.

This round, the bottle turned in front of Bai Lu, she grabbed the dice without hesitation and threw it away, and at one o'clock, she drew a card neatly, and showed it as she read:

—Who do you think is the sexiest here?

"Of course it's our sister Yu." Bai Lu curled her lips into a chuckle and looked at Jiang Yu ambiguously.

The others booed and applauded: "Oh——"

Jiang Yu raised his eyebrows, "The little mouth is quite sweet."

She is very relaxed.

Cheng Suran looked at Bai Lu's undisguised and straightforward eyes, feeling a little uncomfortable, and had a faint urge to stand in front of Jiang Yu, but at this time, the next round of the game began again.

Then it turned to Tian Lin and two female colleagues, and finally, the rotating bottle pointed at Jiang Yu.

"Wow, it's your turn." Bai Lu joked.

After playing the first few rounds, Jiang Yu has figured out the core of the game, which is nothing more than "getting out of embarrassment" and "getting out of line". There is tension in the excitement, and she is a little worried. If she gets a question that is inconvenient to answer or breaks through The bottom line adventure command, can you drink that big glass of beer.

It doesn't taste good.

She held the dice and threw it down, silently recited the small number in her heart, but unfortunately the sky failed, it was five o'clock.

"Oh, big adventure." Bai Lu booed again.

Cheng Suran pursed her lips tightly.

Without hesitation, Jiang Yu drew the top card, turned it over, his expression froze for a moment, and then returned to normal.

She turned the card to everyone's view.

- Kiss the forehead of the opposite sex closest to you.

Without waiting for the nearest male colleague to respond, Jiang Yu put down the card, grabbed the bottle opener and pried off the cap of the beer bottle, and said casually, "Drink."

"Yes, yes, yes, Mr. Jiang still drinks." The male colleague was also embarrassed, but he didn't dare.

Only then did Cheng Suran see the adventure instruction clearly.

Before her heart was suspended, she gently sank back into her stomach. She was not surprised by Jiang Yu's choice, as if she knew her very well.But is it really okay to drink such a big glass of wine?

She vaguely remembered that not long after the two met for the first time, Jiang Yu fed her red wine one night. It was sweet, like a drink, and it tasted different from the usual sour and bitter red wine. .

It was only later that I realized that it was not ordinary red wine, but sweet red wine.For her, any wine is the same, the big glass is drunk, the small glass is also drunk, she just can't drink it.

Is Jiang Yu okay?

If you can't do it, you have to do it.She thought, my sister can't really kiss others.Still a man.

Everyone stared at Jiang Yu, she drank the full cup in one go.

Cheng Suran carefully observed her expression, and saw nothing unusual, and the game continued. After two or three rounds, everyone basically smoked once, and the bottle was turned to Jiang Yu again.

The number of transfers to her in more than a dozen rounds is not many, only twice, but she is not very lucky, she always rolls big points, draws adventure commands, either to embarrass you or to go out of line, the second time is "knead you The same-sex X on the left yelled 'Nurse I'm hungry'", she refused and chose to drink.

After drinking [-] milliliters of beer, Jiang Yu, who usually rarely drank alcohol, felt a little uncomfortable. His hand unconsciously rested on his abdomen, and this third time...

"Squat on a stool like you're constipated, then eat and hold for 20 seconds."

Everyone looked at each other and laughed.

Cheng Suran couldn't laugh.Embarrassment is more acceptable than going out of line, but she instinctively felt that Jiang Yu would still choose to drink. She didn't know why, but it always seemed to be because of herself.

Or maybe she's being self-indulgent.

really--

"Drink." Jiang Yu put the card back and picked up the bottle to pour the wine.

Bai Lu stopped her, "Sister Yu, this order is not difficult, there is no need to drink, you have already had two big glasses, can you bear it if you keep drinking?"

Jiang Yu smiled lightly and said, "I would like to admit defeat and accept the punishment."

From the corner of her eye, she caught a glimpse of the child looking at her, and she became more determined in her choice.

It's not that she can't afford it, if Cheng Suran is not around, maybe she will follow this instruction, as Bai Lu said, it's not difficult.But Cheng Suran is——

Seeing her having physical contact with others, will the children be jealous?Will you be sad?Squatting for 20 seconds to imitate constipation and eating is too embarrassing. What about her image in the hearts of children?After thinking about it, I had many worries and couldn't let go.

I don't want to make this girl sad, and I don't want to be seen ugly...

"Sister, I'll drink." Cheng Suran grabbed her wrist, quickly snatched the wine bottle with the other hand, and poured it into the empty glass in front of him.

A female colleague looked at Bai Lu, not knowing why, and said, "Can someone else drink for the rules?"

Without waiting for Bai Lu to speak, Cheng Suran immediately answered, "I didn't say no." After speaking, he gave Bai Lu a nonchalant look.

The mug is full.

"Of course—" Jiang Yu frowned and pulled her back.

Cheng Suran broke free, and said with a smirk: "Don't worry, sister, I can do it." His eyes swept over her hand on her stomach, his determination became stronger, and he raised his head to drink.

The cold liquid slid into her throat, with a bit of bitterness. She hadn't tasted beer for many years, and the memory was awakened at this moment, and it was still so bad.

Think of it as Chinese medicine.

She has never drank traditional Chinese medicine, but she has smelled it, and it is hard to swallow just by smelling it. Compared with it, beer is still delicious.

Seeing her throat rolling up and down without stopping, Jiang Yu's brow creases became deeper and deeper, and there was a hint of worry in his eyes.As for the kid's capacity for alcohol, she has already figured it out, and a person who is so drunk in her arms after two or three sips of sweet red, how can she stand such a drink.

She was angry and a little helpless.

"Okay, next round." Cheng Suran finished drinking, took a deep breath, put the cup heavily on the table, took out a tissue to wipe his mouth, and gave Jiang Yu a relieved look.

A sweet smile appeared on the small face.

Jiang Yu looked dark and said nothing.

The game lasted about half an hour. Cheng Suran blocked two big glasses for Jiang Yu, and he took another big one as punishment. He was fine at first, but after a few minutes, his face turned red, his head became dizzy, and his body felt like he was on fire.

The whole head is red.

Jiang Yu has been paying attention to her situation all the time, and he has long since lost his interest in playing games. Seeing this, he quickly hugged her and helped her up, "Let's go here today, but I'm drunk, I'll help her go back to rest, you continue to play."

Tian Lin immediately got up to help.

The girl's face was burning hot, her ears and neck were all red, as if dyed with rouge, she was half hanging on Jiang Yu's body, and there was a trace of confusion in her moist black eyes.

"Well, sister, I'm okay, I'm okay..." The slightly opened mouth muttered.

Back in the room, Jiang Yu helped her to lie down, took off her shoes, went to the toilet to wash her hands, and sat back on the bed, "Of course, does your stomach hurt? Do you want to vomit?"

The palm fell on the girl's face, and the temperature was astonishingly hot.

Cheng Suran shook his head in a daze, smiled silly at her, and said in a low voice, "I don't want to vomit. I'm just a little tired..."

The light was very bright, a soft light yellow, falling on the girl's ruddy face like running water, quiet and warm, and her gentle breathing was reassuring.

"Of course it's too much to drink, idiot." Jiang Yu frowned distressedly, bent down and kissed her forehead, wanting to blame but reluctant.

"Don't do that next time."

Cheng Suran looked at her absent-mindedly, his eyelashes trembled, and mist slowly rose from his eyes, "I want to help you, but I can't do anything if I don't want to, I..."

I still want to stand by your side openly.

She didn't say.

I don't know if it is the effect of alcohol, but the consciousness is clear, but the reaction has become dull.Bai Lu's words echoed in her ears again, as if back in the afternoon, when she hid in the room and cried under the quilt, she was full of heartache and despair.

It's too hard, she can't hold it, she is challenging her limit.I can bear it today, but what about tomorrow?What about the day after tomorrow?

When the spring is stretched, it loses its ability to recover.

"Well," Jiang Yu nodded slightly, "Sister knows."

"But you have to do what you can and don't hurt yourself, otherwise my sister will be sad."

"Okay." Cheng Suran responded obediently, forcing out a drunken smile, and the fog in his eyes gradually receded.

Jiang Yu kissed her face again, brushed away the messy hair, and pulled the quilt to cover her, "Then sister is going to take a bath, you should sleep well."

"Uh-huh."

Tian Lin looked at them and sighed.

Difficult.

……

The night is deep and silent, and the moon is on the tip of the mountain.

Everyone slept.

Jiang Yu came out of the room lightly, closed the door, and walked towards the balcony.

A few wall lamps were faintly lit in the small building, and the light was dim and drowsy. She had disheveled hair and was wearing a goose-white plush nightgown, like a ghost walking through the darkness.

It was cold late at night, and the balcony was blowing coldly.

Insomnia, she became more and more awake.

There are sparse planetesimals hanging in the sky, and the dim light has traveled through the universe for many years before descending on the earth.Jiang Yu looked up at them, and suddenly felt a hollow feeling of loneliness in his heart.

She withdrew her gaze, took a cigarette from the pack, pressed the lighter, a cluster of yellowish and blue flames rushed up, and lit the cigarette.

The scarlet stalks are like the eyes of the night.

Lost in ecstasy, going back in time, images appeared in my mind, there was a train platform, a little girl, and a rabbit, which became more and more clear and scorching.This memory was like a stone falling silently, completely disturbing her heart.

She could fool Cheng Suran, but she couldn't fool herself.She remembers it, remembers it deeply.

Like a giant sleeping in her body, once she wakes up, she will come out to make troubles all the time, disturbing her anxiety, and she doesn't know what kind of emotion is stuffed in her chest.

She didn't sleep well for several nights because of this, and the children who calmed the nerves also failed.

until tonight...

Jiang Yu found that he actually cared about Cheng Suran's impression of her.

It's like riding a car with a failed faucet, swaying, if you can't maintain your balance, you will fall with the car and fall into the boundless abyss.

Is it just because of this awakened memory?

No, of course she knew it wasn't, and there was another answer in her heart, which she didn't want to think about, and she didn't allow herself to touch it.But she is no longer a fledgling little girl with no experience...

"Sister Yu?"

A voice suddenly came from behind.

Jiang Yu suddenly came back to his senses, turned around, and saw Bai Lu approaching gracefully, just like himself, with disheveled hair and plush pajamas.

"Why aren't you asleep?" She asked lightly.

There was no trace of tiredness in Bai Lu's eyes, she didn't look like she got up at night or was woken up, and hugged her with a smile, "I should ask you this? I don't sleep in the middle of the night, and I smoke on the balcony. It turns out that I am addicted to smoking, hahaha..."

Thin arms wrapped around her waist, and the whole person was close to her.

Jiang Yu didn't break free, he flicked the cigarette, took a puff, and turned his gaze back, "I can't sleep."

"Where's your sister? Is she okay after drinking so much?" Bai Lu rubbed her face against her hair.

Faint smoke spewed out, silently dissipating in the air.

Jiang Yu was silent for a moment, then said, "She's not my sister."

Bai Lu was a little dazed, she didn't expect that she would tell herself bluntly that she was ready to help conceal it. "Well, I know, it's your lover."

"Ah."

Jiang Yu chuckled twice, and the soot fell from his fingers.

"It's nothing to make a fuss about. If I were as rich and prestigious as you, I could raise ten of them." Bai Lu sneered, and stretched out her hand calmly, while talking, she took the cigarette between her fingers, took it away, and moved her hand together. He brought it to his lips and took a slow breath.

The warm breath mixed with smoke hit her face.

"It tastes good."

The voice is low and hoarse, and the eyes are ambiguous.

Jiang Yu frowned slightly, and lightly reprimanded: "Don't make trouble."

"Okay, good night." Bai Lu raised her eyebrows and smiled delicately, grabbed her hand, put back the half-burnt cigarette, turned and left.

Jiang Yu was silently lost in thought.

After a while, the cold wind blew, she shivered, put out half of the cigarette in her hand on the iron railing, and threw it into the trash can...

……

In the morning of the next day, after the lucky draw, Jiang Yu distributed red envelopes to everyone in the name of the company.

She was going to fly to Europe tomorrow, so she had to go back early to pack her luggage, so she called Xiao Zhou early in the morning and made it clear. After lunch, she took Cheng Suran and Tian Lin back to the city.

Last night with a hangover, Cheng Suran woke up after ten o'clock, dizzy and dizzy, and only woke up when he took the car back to the city.

She leaned limply in Jiang Yu's arms, with a heavy stone in her heart, she was so stuffy that she couldn't breathe.

Not even a good night's sleep.

She may not be well.

The feeling of drowning, desperately trying to grab something, the more you struggle, the faster you sink.

When they arrived at the hotel, Jiang Yu asked the driver to take Tian Lin back, and led Cheng Suran upstairs to the "nest" that belonged to the two of them.

"Of course, does your head still hurt? Go to the room and sleep a little longer. My sister packs up first. Let's eat delicious food in the evening."

"I can't sleep, so I'll just sit here." Cheng Suran pursed his lips, squeezed out a weak smile, walked to the sofa and sat down, and stopped talking.

Jiang Yu was taken aback for a moment, and felt that she was not in the right mood, but he couldn't say anything, so he turned and went into the master bedroom without asking any further questions.

In only 10 minutes, she pushed the big suitcase she had packed to the door and walked out of the room, only to see Cheng Suran sitting motionless on the sofa, keeping her posture unchanged, like a wooden figure.

"Ran Ran?"

"Hey."

The girl raised her head, her eyes were dazed for a moment, and then she regained clarity in an instant, smiling, "Sister, what are you having for dinner?"

"Eat what you like." Jiang Yu sat down next to her, stretched out his long arms, and pulled her into his arms.

A light kiss fell on her lips.

"Should I take my sister to the airport tomorrow afternoon, huh? If there is class, forget it, oh, no, you are reviewing at the end of the term, you should have no class, right? You should study hard, take the exam well, and wait for sister to come back." She smiled lightly. , whispering in his mouth, and his doting eyes are gentle.

Cheng Suran looked at her greedily, then lost his mind again.

"This time we are mainly in Paris, Milan and New York. Is there anything you want to buy? What gift do you want? My sister will bring it for you."

"I don't want a present..."

"Huh?" Jiang Yu raised his eyebrows amusedly.

Cheng Suran stared at her, bit his lower lip heavily, and said softly, "I want you."

The air froze instantly.

Jiang Yu's smile also froze. Seeing the girl's clear eyes becoming more and more affectionate, her face sank little by little, and she suddenly panicked.

"Can you say that again?"

"I said... I don't want gifts, I don't want money... I want you..." Cheng Suran gasped, his eyes were red, and he repeated every word.

The big stone that weighed heavily in his heart crashed to the ground.

She has no way out.

There is no longer the strength to support it.

"Sister...I know I shouldn't...should not be greedy, but I can't control myself...I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." There are so many things I want to say, but I can't say anything, those hypocritical, flooding Yes, childish words.

Tears welled up, she hugged Jiang Yu and wept bitterly.

Jiang Yu's eyes were dull, and his mind was buzzing, like thousands of flies fluttering around, hitting his temples throbbing, causing sudden pain.

Fragmented pictures flashed before her eyes...

out of control.

"Cheng Suran."

Jiang Yu took a deep breath, and uttered cold words with trembling lips: "You are becoming more and more disobedient."

"I don't like the way you look."

She pushed the person in her arms away violently.

Cheng Suran was caught off guard and lost his focus, rolled off the sofa, fell to the ground, raised his tear-stained face, and looked at Jiang Yu in despair.

The man's face was gray, his eyes were cold, and he looked down at her from a height.

"So far."

"Sister..." Cheng Suran got up and reached out to try to grab her clothes.

Jiang Yu got up quickly, avoided the hand as if he could not avoid it, walked to the door like a gust of wind, grabbed the suitcase, and left resolutely.