Forbidden

The slap was so hard that Bai Lu's head was tilted, she staggered, and there was a buzzing sound in her ears.

A hot tingling sensation spread across the cheeks...

The air in the room seemed to be frozen, so quiet that you couldn't even hear each other's breathing, and the faint sound of the ship's flute outside seemed to float from a far away place, a bit unreal and ethereal.

Bai Lu slowly raised her hand, covered her face, turned around stiffly, and looked at Jiang Yu with wide eyes.

"Sister Yu...you..."

Mist welled up in her eyes.

With a sullen face, Jiang Yu pointed to the door: "Get lost."

Bai Lu squinted at Cheng Suran, full of sarcasm, "You really deserve to be the original lover."

She sneered, turned and left.

--boom!

The door was shaken.

There was only an eerie silence in the room.

Feeling the gaze falling on him, Jiang Yu unconsciously clenched his palms, and slowly moved his gaze over to meet those eyes that could penetrate her heart.

Cheng Suran looked at her silently.

They looked at each other speechlessly.

Time seemed to stand still, at the most tormented moment.

"Of course..." Jiang Yu couldn't stand the torment, and finally spoke. She wanted to step forward, but her legs seemed to be filled with lead, and she couldn't take a step.

Cheng Suran's long eyelashes trembled slightly, "She said just now... she looks like my substitute?"

Jiang Yu frowned, her nervousness made her heart beat faster and faster, but she knew that the fire couldn't be covered with paper, as long as she didn't stop the pace of recovery, she would have to explain this matter sooner or later.

Only honesty can be exchanged for trust.

At this moment, she regretted it.

I regretted my resolute push away, regretted my impulsive search for comfort, regretted my negativity over the years...

"In the two years since you left, I found a total of eight girls who were more similar to you, took care of them, talked in my spare time, and stayed overnight, but one of them was very similar to you. We stayed for a while that day, I drank some wine..." Jiang Yu told the truth, every word he said seemed to be tearing his own flesh and blood.

Cheng Suran listened quietly, clenched his teeth, his eyes showed irony, "Like me? Where is it like?"

Jiang Yu looked at her and said, "Some are eyes, some are dimples, some are temperament...and height, specialty."

"..."

Cheng Suran sneered and pursed his lips.

She wanted to ask something more, but found that she was not qualified to ask, what is the relationship between her and Jiang Yu?Partner?normal friend?What position does she take to continue asking?Jiang Yu also has no obligation to give her the so-called explanation.

It doesn't matter how many lovers she has.

She just finds it ridiculous.Jiang Yu would rather find so many substitutes than push her away and drive her away. She couldn't help thinking, is she really that miserable?So these days of being courteous are all nostalgia for the past, it's a benefactor's reluctance to canary, it's a game, and she is still out of her mind and restless because of it, letting herself fall into a contradictory and passive situation.

A lover, an original lover, a substitute lover, a lover anyway...

Cheng Suran remembered the scene of parting again, the thorn in her heart ached, her eyes gradually became sour, and she quickly turned her face away before it got out of hand.

"Oh."

She bent the corner of her mouth, her face was calm, "I don't have anything else to do, I'm leaving first."

"Ran Ran!"

Jiang Yu rushed over to grab her hand, his lips trembling slightly, "Can you...give me a chance to explain?"

"You have no obligation to explain to me." Cheng Suran smiled sideways.

"But I do."

"why?"

Jiang Yu went around to her, looked straight into those eyes, and said seriously, "Because you are the one I care about."

Cheng Suran's heart trembled, and he turned his face away, neither refusing nor agreeing.

Only if she acquiesced.

"Of course..." Jiang Yu took a deep breath, let go of his suspended heart, grabbed her other hand and held it in his palm, "It's my sister who made a mistake."

"From the first time I saw you, you were special to me, but at that time I didn't know what this special meant. I only knew that pure money transactions were enough to buy company, and I didn't want to be sincere. But I don't know when it started, I feel different about you, I want to see you all the time, I want to see you smile, I want to hear you talk, I want to hug you, I want to kiss you, I want to do a lot with you There are many things, but when I found myself having this kind of thinking, I was afraid, I was afraid that I fell in love with you, I was afraid that you would completely break into my life, I was afraid that I would become uncontrollable and lose my mind..."

"It's me who has been running away."

The corners of Jiang Yu's eyes were red, and there was a sad light in her deep black eyes. She didn't want to lose her composure by crying in front of Ranran, and kept blinking, but couldn't resist the sourness.

Suddenly, she let go of her hand and hugged Cheng Suran.

"!"

It was the familiar and safe embrace in the dream, warm and soft, with the fragrance of iris, tightly surrounding her.

Cheng Suran was stiff all over.

"Of course..." Jiang Yu rubbed her soft hair with his ear, "Didn't you ask me just now why I refused to tell you the truth about the rabbit doll? It was actually because I was running away at that time and didn't want to be with her. You have a deeper bond, and you don't want us to cross the money transaction relationship... I am running away, but I can't let you go, and I lie to myself, you can't be tempted, as long as you and I don't admit it, we can continue to maintain that relationship, I You can also retreat at any time to ensure that you will not be affected by anything. Until the day you pierced the window paper..."

She is so selfish.

In the end, not only did he fail to get out of his body, but he also deeply hurt Ranran.

Jiang Yu's heart ached, and tears rolled down his face.

"After you left, I was still thinking, I just got used to your existence, and I will forget it after a long time, but I can't forget it, no matter what I do, I will think of you, and it is you who dream at night... Then I let Tian Lin went to find girls who resembled you, and found eight of them in the past two years, each of them always had something like you, but I couldn't find the feeling you gave me..."

She paused, and adjusted her breathing very lightly and carefully, for fear of being heard nasally.

"It was also at this time that I realized that all I liked from the beginning to the end was you, your person, your soul."

"Even though they all resemble you, none of them are you."

The person in his arms trembled slightly, and the sound of extremely restrained deep breathing came from his ears. Jiang Yu tightened his arms, closed his eyes in pain, and murmured: "Unfortunately, I seem to understand too late."

"Of course, I'm sorry..."

She couldn't hold back for a moment, and let out a gasp.

Cheng Suran moved in her arms, grabbed her shoulders with both hands, and broke free with one force.

The two were caught off guard and faced each other.

Jiang Yu's eyes were red, her face was full of tears, and her distressed appearance caught Cheng Su Ran's sight. She was defenseless, turned her back in a hurry, and quickly wiped away her tears.

There was a rustling sound behind him.

Cheng Suran walked around in front of her holding a tissue.

She turned back again.

Cheng Suran also circled back.

Jiang Yu turned his head and wanted to hide, but Cheng Suran grabbed her wrist, but he pulled her into his arms with too much force.

She instinctively opened her arms and hugged her.

Jiang Yu's hands and feet froze.

A strand of silky hair swept across the cheeks, itching, the two of them leaned close together, they could feel the ups and downs of each other's chest breathing, and the warm breath rushed towards their faces.

Cheng Suran wanted to push her away, but he was a little greedy for the warmth of this embrace, so he hugged her even tighter.

Looking at Jiang Yu's teary red eyes, the softest part of his heart was pinched hard. In his memory, this strong and indifferent woman had never shed tears in front of her, and never lost her composure in front of her.

what is she doing?

She is crazy.

"Of course..." Jiang Yu called her softly.

Cheng Suran came to his senses in an instant, pushed her away, lowered his eyes in a panic, caught a glimpse of the tissue in his hand, and hurriedly stuffed it into her palm.

"Finished with the explanation?"

"Ah."

Jiang Yutuan wiped the corners of his eyes with a tissue, and took a deep breath, "I'm not trying to defend myself, I just want to tell you everything, but you have the right to know this, and I have an obligation to explain to you and be honest with you. "

She looked at Cheng Suran seriously.

Cheng Suran bit his lower lip, avoided her eyes, and whispered after a long time: "I want to calm down."

"gone."

After all, he put the little rabbit back in his pocket and walked towards the door without looking back.

"Ran Ran--"

Jiang Yu chased after him for two steps.

Her only answer was the soft knocking of the door.

……

Leaving the community, Cheng Suran drove aimlessly on the street, from the east to the west of the city, from the inner ring to the outer ring, the sky darkened little by little until it was completely dark.

When I got home, the lights were on in the living room, and the sound of cooking came from the kitchen.

Wen Ruoxian stood in front of the stove wearing an apron.

The spatula collided and the range hood hummed.

Cheng Suran's mind was in a mess, and he was really not in the mood to say hello, so he changed his slippers silently, and walked towards the bedroom dully.

Close the door and turn on the light.

She collapsed on the big bed, reached into her pocket, and took out a round little rabbit.

It was dirty after many years.

She still likes it.

In the hazy memory, there are green leather trains and platforms, but there is no Jiang Yu.If Jiang Yu hadn't appeared in time at that time, maybe she would have been sold, marry an old bachelor in a remote mountain village, give birth to a litter of cubs like a sow, and she would not be what she is now.

There are no ifs in history, and there are no ifs in life.

She doesn't care what her father did, she doesn't care how bastard he is, she only cares about Jiang Yu, and everything related to Jiang Yu...

[All I like is you, your person, your soul. ]

[They all look like you, but none of them are you. ]

Jiang Yu's words echoed repeatedly in his ears.

Sour tears welled up, and his vision was a little blurred.

Does she believe her?

Believe it or not, she doesn't know...

Today, two successive news were like thunder, which caught her off guard. Her firm thoughts seemed to be shaken, like a sapling uprooted by a strong wind, flying uncontrollably into the sky, helpless.

Oh, and Bailu!

Cheng Suran stood up and sat up.

Five years ago, Bai Lu had been unkind to her, and it was those malicious taunts that woke her up and led to the current situation.It's not surprising that Bai Lu likes Jiang Yu and is hostile to her, she knows it.

But what happened today?

Going in and out of Jiang Yu's house at will, showing inexplicable jealousy in front of her, and directly ignoring Jiang Yu's two warnings...

Is it intentional?

Maybe Bailu has some kind of purpose?Did he intentionally expose Jiang Yu's background in front of her to make Jiang Yu look ugly, or to make her and Jiang Yu suspect and hurt each other?

Are you so sure she cares?

The more Cheng Suran thought about it, the more weird he felt, but he couldn't think of anything.

She collapsed on the bed again.

Playing with the little rabbit in his hand, touching the eyes sewn with two red buttons, touching them, thinking of Jiang Yu's distressed appearance with tears in his eyes, his heart ached.

Will there really be an unspeakable secret?

Obviously the most aggrieved person is herself, but she still feels distressed for Jiang Yu, a worthless, hopeless, hopeless, useless guy... Cheng Suran scolded herself over and over again in her heart.

Hot tears trickled down from the corners of his eyes and into his ears.

Jiang Yu is her poison.

her catastrophe.