Chaos God

God loves this world so much, so he never tires of writing his own scripts, giving them souls, and then putting them on the same stage.

Fine needle grass is a kind of weaving material used to weave shoes or ropes. After it is dried together with the harvested forage, it must be picked out separately and then placed in sea water to soften. Alan is not like other people. With her own territory and servants like that, she had to do some things by herself, and she still liked this kind of work.

Soak your feet in the sea water, step on the soft needle thatch, the sea water washes your insteps and calves one after another, it is cool, and the soles of your feet are soft when you step on the sand. The feeling of sinking and falling—only be sure to go to the stream to wash your feet after doing so.

Diarmuid knew where to find her at this time. When he came to the beach, he happened to see Alan stepping on the fine needle grass soaked in sea water to help it soften, holding woven straw sandals in his hand, a pair of The appearance of an ordinary girl can be seen everywhere, and he never disturbed her standing there.

The girl looked up but saw him standing there, frowned subconsciously and wanted to turn around and leave, "Wait." Diarmuid stopped her, "Listen to me, please? just leave."

"..." Ailan stood on the beach and said for a long time, "Go ahead."

Diarmuid took a deep breath, "I know that you have always had suspicions against me, and I also know that my love mole can allow me to get the love of all the women in the world, which will make you very insecure, but ..."

"Stop talking." Alan interrupted him, but still turned his back, "I can't marry and I can't respond to you, it's unfair to you and me to waste it like this, how many times do you have to say it before I understand What? This will only increase your pain and mine.” Her voice sounded like she was about to cry, “I reject you and alienate you just to stop emotionally dragging you down. If there is a fight, I’m still willing To fight by your side, my oath will never be broken."

"I said," Diarmuid walked up to Alan and hugged her from behind, "No matter how many times I forget, I will go the same way—as long as I face you." He lowered his head, "Do you want me to restrain myself before you can trust me? I won't beg you to marry me as much as I used to, just please don't alienate me anymore—can't you even do this?"

"Diarmuid, I..."

"Listen to me, I will respect you, treat you equally, as a comrade-in-arms, as a close friend fighting side by side." His voice was like a sigh from afar, "'Diarmuid, you seem to be Dance in dangerous places, put yourself in danger, but even so, I am still willing to fight by your side.' This is what you said back then, and I always remember."

"I'll do it...but..."

"I don't know when this relationship has gradually deteriorated for me. I began to wish that you belonged to me alone, and I began to wish to monopolize you. Only I can rely on you, only I..." He He interrupted Alan for the second time, "I began to hope... that you were like other girls, only seeing me." There was bitterness in his voice, "I'm sorry, I should have known earlier, this would make you angry .”

"I...I'm not angry with you," Alan said softly, reaching out to grab Diarmuid's arm, "I'm just angry with myself-it's useless...it's useless...it's useless To the extreme." The glistening liquid slid down her cheeks, then pooled at the chin, and fell down to the man's muscular forearm, "Obviously...obviously..." She choked up and couldn't complete the words.

"Alan?"

"Obviously... Mingming..." Tears could not stop falling down, "I am really a cowardly and useless person, because everyone around me has been abandoned before, so I am afraid of facing such a future, so I am restrained by my mother." At the time, I neither objected nor felt that it didn't matter at all...but I...but..."

"Alan?" Diarmuid let go of her, grabbed her arm and turned her to face him. He had never seen her like this before.

"Now you have smashed even the kettle, and you have broken my way of escape... You are really... annoying, extremely annoying... Why did you say such things, why did I even deceive myself? The back road will be cut off...you just think like this...think like this..." She was choked up and couldn't speak the next words.

"What am I thinking?" Diarmuid asked softly, reaching out to wipe the tears off her face, and Alan slapped his hand away abruptly, turning his head away from him.

"Never mind your business." Alan gritted his teeth and wiped away the tears that couldn't stop flowing out.disrespect?No, he respected his decision from the very beginning, and he was willing to treat himself equally after knowing that he was a girl. It's just...just me...it's just me looking for excuses for myself, for my sensitivity, willfulness and Regret making excuses.

But I can't go back anymore, can the ban be lifted?Fear of love, fear of being abandoned after old age, this is her real thought, fear that once such a day comes, even she dare not recall the past, she is afraid of love, she does not believe in love.

Because she saw this kind of thing too much, she instinctively rejected this kind of thing. She remembered what her mother once said: "That man said that he would only love me and one woman in his life, but when I spent the most difficult years with him After that, he married other princesses in order to strengthen the regime, I tried to believe him, but soon his new wife gave birth to a son for him... Hehe, is it funny? It's really funny. So I left , I don't want such a man. Let those women want them, anyway, I don't care for such a bad man. "

She remembered what her other adoptive mother Eve said: "I used to think he was a hero, and he was a hero, but I knew he wouldn't be a good husband—none of them would be a good husband."

The former great hero Cu Chulainn gave birth to a child with a female warrior from the Kingdom of Shadows when he was studying in the Kingdom of Shadows, but soon after he returned, he married the woman he had always wanted to marry before, so the female warrior wanted to retaliate against him. , Let him kill her own child, and at the same time her child - this is the way for women in the country of shadows to take revenge on the man who hurt her.

Alan was still young when she heard this story, and she couldn't help but ask Eve who told her the story: "But that's her child too!"

Alan remembers Eve answering her like this: "Yes, this is indeed her child, but at the same time it is also the source of her grief. She hates the betrayal of men and thinks she is just a substitute-this is the shadow of the shadow. The revenge of the female samurai of the country, even if she does so, she will be very painful, but the satisfaction of hatred and revenge will wash away the pain, sweep away the stains, and then stride forward, this is a woman, this is the country of shadows samurai."

Maybe when she thinks about it one day, the innocence of the children who surrounded her will appear in her mind. She will lament and be sad, but she will not regret her revenge—even though she knows that doing so is outrageous.

She doesn't want to be such a person, and she is afraid of her own unknown fate, so she is willing to choose not to marry or love anyone for the rest of her life. Although that is not happy, at least it will not be painful, at least... she will not be hated because of betrayal submerged.

She will always grow old, no matter how much she trusts this person on the battlefield, no matter how much she believes in her, she subconsciously does not want to trust him in the field of love—he has a love mole, and when she is old, her hair is gray and her teeth are rotten. When there are few left, he will still be surrounded by all kinds of beautiful, lovely and young girls.

They are the first to cry, but they are already hoarse cuckoos. He can refuse one girl, but what about the second one?What about the third, fourth, and fifth?She can't imagine.

So, why not let him get it at all, so that at least he can always have a place in his heart-in his heart.

Destiny, why did I meet this man in front of me.Alan thought painfully in her heart, "I'm sorry, I can't face you without suspicion."

"Alan." Diarmuid looked at her and whispered her name, "I understand." He let go of Alan's arm, "I won't bother you anymore." He turned around, " By the way, Oisin and the others are back, the marriage negotiation was successful, and we will welcome Princess Granny from the royal city as the bride of Lord Fiona."

"I see." Alan lowered his eyes and turned around as well.

The two were walking in opposite directions on the same line. When Ailan turned his head, he could only see the resolute figure from the back, walking straight forward without turning back.

also good.she thought so.

When welcoming Princess Granny, she didn't go to the banquet, because she didn't want to see the sister who was "one of the daughters of those women" in the mother's mouth, so when she received the order from the extremely angry Finn, Dilumu The moment Duo eloped with Granny and asked herself and others to hunt him down, she almost thought her ears were broken.

Does this guy want to die!At that moment, she was worried about him, and a voice whispered in her heart: "Look, you read that right, he is such a man—all men in the world are like this."

It's not like that... Maybe he has reasons, she said to the voice.

Heart is sneering.

Don't try to defend him, that's the kind of man he is—all men are like this, they only love women's beauty.

You were right not to choose him.

no.She said softly, whether I chose him or not, I didn't do anything right.

The author has something to say: It's not that Alan doesn't like him, it's just that he is too possessive.