Chaos God

In the Celtic world, women have no status. Only their comrades (friends) can talk to men. Women are just a medium for reproduction. Husbands have the right to life and death over their wives and children. If it is not for the woman Their natal family is powerful enough, and they may have to endure their husbands marrying wives one by one, or even kicking themselves out of the house-Ailan believes that Diarmuid is not such a person, but...she doesn't want to be anyone's wife.

In this era, marrying someone else's wife is tantamount to becoming an accessory. She doesn't plan to go back to King Kormac, which will make her status extremely embarrassing, that is to say, she has no natal family to rely on and no Enough dowry, even if you have two adoptive mothers who dote on you... No, maybe one of them should be called mother-the mother can't let her join her tribe, and Alan's identity and status are nothing more than that, not high, Not too low, not to mention that she is only an illegitimate daughter.

Not being married for a lifetime is naturally not a pleasant thing, but compared to everything that may be faced after marriage, perhaps this kind of unhappiness is nothing at all.

When she thought of this, she couldn't help but look up at the sky. When did she think so much like this?She smiled bitterly and put her hand on her water bag. For some things, her nature is very cold. Love is a soft thing. She has never longed for it. Compared with love, she wants respect and equality. .

Compared with the desire for pure and flawless love between men and women, it is simply an extravagant wish for a woman to demand equal respect from men in this era. Those noble knights are polite to ladies even if they are ashamed to kill women, but This does not mean that they will really treat those women equally.

Seeking merit with her own hands is the way for her to gain respect, and it is also one of the ways to gain respect among warlike Celtic tribes. She is not suitable to be a bard or a druid, and has been regarded as a warrior since she was a child. There was only one way for her to go when she was brought up—maybe, she should have chosen to be a druid in the first place?Alan thought so, then shook her head, no, forget it—even though there are many ways, she chose the most difficult one from the beginning.

Now that she has chosen, she has nothing to regret. She will prove to them that even as a woman, she can do better than them, is more heroic and outstanding than them, and is more worthy of the status of a knight than them.

But before that, I still go to Finn to explain the fact that I am a girl, and tell this great hero all the restrictions on me, so as to avoid any misunderstandings.

Thinking of this, Alan got up from the ground and walked towards the tent where Finn was. In the last adventure in the Palace of Sorbet Grove, when she and Diarmuid insisted on guarding the river beach until dawn, and they were about to fall, Finn En led the escaped warriors down from the mountain to kill, raising dust all the way, shouting and killing like thunder, rolling and echoing over the battlefield, she couldn't help laughing, covered with wounds and blood.

Now she is standing in front of this majestic hero, telling all the secrets about herself except that she is the illegitimate daughter of King Kormac-there are three restrictions on her, including "do not accept Courtship by any man", "You must not marry any man" and "You must not kill or injure women".

The last one was added by herself, she will not do anything to her compatriots who are also female.

Finn looked at her for a while, and finally sighed, reaching out and putting his hand on Alan's head like a father touching his daughter's head: "I understand, but Alan, my child, as a soldier, you undoubtedly He is excellent, not inferior to any of Fiona's warriors, this is a fact for all to see." These words are Ayrin's most outstanding warrior's recognition of himself, Aylan cheered in his heart, but his face remained calm and calm. Humility, "I am terrified of your praise."

"Hehe, you deserve it." Finn showed a kind and tolerant smile.

Alan was so relieved and happy when she walked out of the Finn tent that she was recognized by the Lord of Fiona, who never blamed himself for deceiving them as boys-to be recognized by such a hero, it is her The happiest thing so far, she feels very honored.

As soon as she took a few steps in a good mood, she saw the person who made her unhappy. Diarmuid also suffered a lot of injuries in the battle in the Yamanashi Grove Palace. It can be said that the two who fought side by side were scarred. Neither man, absorbed in the battle, noticed the sun shining on their opponent's armor until they heard their companions rushing down the hillside shouting their battlehorses.

At that time, they responded to the battle cry and raised their swords to join their companions. After repelling the intruders, Alan showed him a brilliant look for the first time since Diarmuid annoyed her last time. smile.

Then she was hugged into the embrace full of blood and sweat, struggling for a long time to escape from the embrace that almost suffocated her - and then she was in a state of ignoring him for several days state is inside.

The chief knight of Fiona, Diarmuid with the "Glorious Appearance" stood in front of her, with a bitter expression on his face, like a puppy abandoned by its owner. "Can... can I talk to you?" He asked softly, his voice was as beautiful as a nightingale's.

Alan looked at him and frowned. The two were in a stalemate. Finally, Alan nodded, "Let's go." She said that there would be no results if this stalemate continued, and she walked towards a place where there were few people. , Dilumu was stunned for a moment, lowered his head and quickly followed.

He used to be distressed that Alan ignored him at all, according to Conan's sarcasm and sarcasm: "Diarmuid of the hypocrite, if you just push her to the bed and get pregnant, she will marry if she doesn't."— —How could he do such a thing to Alan?

Alan stopped suddenly while walking, causing Diarmuid to almost bump into her. He saw the girl turn around, "Just say what you want."

"Alan, I..."

"I don't accept courtship from any man in this world, and I won't marry anyone." Alan replied sullenly.

"I'm here to apologize to you." The man frowned, lowered his head and said in a low and gentle voice, "I'm sorry, I asked you that question at that time, although it was unintentional, it was still mine fault."

"Ah, I don't blame you for this anymore." Alan shook her head, "I'm just angry, why do you think I will agree to marry you as long as you propose?"

"...I'm sorry." The young and handsome knight bowed his head and apologized sincerely, but his golden brown eyes were flickering with pain, "Even if I will be rejected, I still want to say..."

"I do not accept."

"I love you."

The two said what was in their hearts at the same time, Diarmuid smiled bitterly, "I know you won't accept it...but I'm still not reconciled, Alan," he reached out and grabbed Alan's shoulder, looking into her eyes , "I'm not reconciled, I want to ask you, would you accept me if there were no restrictions?" Always with great strength in his hand, his tone was soft as if he was treating a passionate lover, "Let me... "

"...No." Before he could finish speaking, Alan closed his eyes and interrupted him, pushing his hand away, "Do you think that I am a woman, and that I will definitely accept your courtship if I am a woman?" The sweetheart of a woman in the world'?" Her tone was a bit harsh because of the pain, "No, even if I am a woman, I am not beautiful or gentle, and I have no natal family to rely on and do not have enough dowry, but Diarmuid Audi Well, I have dignity, not something you can have if you want it, why am I not willing to marry anyone? Because no husband will treat his wife with the same respect as his comrades in arms! What I want is not the protection of my wife, It’s respect as a comrade-in-arms! Why can’t I be better than you?! Why do I have to marry and hide behind men just because I’m a woman?! I’m equal to you! I’m not pursuing a girly pink castle It's a warrior's gold and iron horse!" Her voice suddenly rose, "Your feelings for me make me at a loss, I can't respond to you and I can't marry you, I just want to seek equality with you Is it so difficult to respect you? Can't you just treat me as your comrade in arms? I don't want to live as 'Diarmuid Odina's wife' but as myself, as 'Irani O'live!"

She doesn't want to be any man's accessory, she is herself.

"I can't respond to you and I don't deserve you, so please don't be attached to me anymore. There is a better girl who is more suitable for you than me."

"I..." Diarmuid didn't know what to say, he stared into her eyes and saw the same pain as himself in her eyes, "I understand." He lowered his head with a wry smile, "You You have to respect, you have to understand, you have to be free, I can give you everything, but I can't give up because you can't respond to me."

Alan turned her head away, and then knotted the water bottle around her waist, "Maybe you won't think so after drinking the water in it." Love is a soft thing, and she understands that no matter how hot love is, it can't match the water in the water bag. Water—she had tried it herself.

Diarmuid's eyes stopped on the water bag inlaid with gold thread, and he took it for a long time, "If this is what you want." He took off the stopper, and looked into her eyes before drinking the water. , stubbornly said: "I think, no matter how many times I forget, I will always go on the same path - as long as I face you." After speaking, he drank the water in the water bag and smashed it on the stump.

The water splashed everywhere, shining brightly in the sun.

No matter how many times I forget, I always go the same way - as long as it's with you.

Alan didn't have time to take care of her water bag anymore, she covered her mouth that was about to whimper, turned around and left as if to run away, leaving the handsome knight standing there alone, after a long time he raised his hand and wiped his eyes "Strange, why are you crying?" He looked at his hands suspiciously.

It seems that... I forgot something very important.

He put his hand on his heart, why here...

It hurts like it's about to burst.

The author has something to say: Alan's two adoptive mothers were once abandoned by men. She was full of fear about such things, and she was afraid that she would be treated like this one day. At the same time, she didn't want to defect to King Kormac—— This would put both her and Granny in an awkward position.

Alan's greatest tragedy is that he wants to pursue equality, respect and loyalty in an era where men completely control everything and women have no status (except for druids and noble female warriors, both of which are rare).

Even though Brother Gun is gentle and good-tempered, he is machismo in his bones. He had five women in his life, and after marrying Granny, he married another Princess Leinster and had a child with her.

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