you are in my heart

He stood up and walked to the window on crutches.The night lightly enveloped him, he pushed open the window with great effort, and the cold air of the night suddenly came in, with a faint scent of flowers in between.

The soft and beautiful female voice sounded in the ear again, floating leisurely in the night sky with a touch of sadness.

He sighed softly and asked sister Qiu, what is the name of this song?

Sister Qiu was embarrassed to read out the name of the song, so she handed him the cover of the record.

"You are in my heart"...

He smiled slightly, nodded, closed his eyes, and listened to the song carefully.

The woman was singing, the singing was full of infinite sorrow, but also carried some hazy hope, the singing was like flowing water, flowing slowly...

……

do you know

I'm looking forward to you every day

hope you come back soon

Let me get back the warmth of the past

Please stay and never stay away

listen to my heart

how much i love you in my heart

I wish I was in your heart

……

In the early morning of the next day, James came with a car and brought people, "If you live, you want to see people, but if you die, you want to see corpses. Zishan, you must let me explain to the higher-ups, right?!"

He knew that James was also very difficult to do, but he would not die if he was asked to hand over Yongze just like this.

In the end, because of this matter, he and James almost broke each other.Finally, it was agreed that he would pay, and James would find someone to secretly replace Yongze's body and bury him quietly.

Five days later, he sent the Momei picture to Fukang Bank.

The clerk of the bank raised his face and looked at him carefully, and said slowly: "The woman is dead, there is no need for these things."

He was startled at the time, grabbed the young man and questioned him for a long time, and spent some money before finding out the truth.

That woman turned out to be Yongze's wife, who died of a fever two months ago, and the child was sent out casually.After searching for a long time, he finally found the child named Mei Ziqing. He spent a lot of money to open up the joints, went through the formalities, and adopted him.

Except for his eyebrows and eyes, that child doesn't really look like Yongze, he always has an indifferent face, and has never been very close to him.

Later, the domestic situation changed a lot, the Kuomintang retreated steadily, and the Communist Party gradually approached Shanghai.

James decided to run away, and before leaving, he persuaded him to escape together.He shook his head and refused: "I want to stay..."

James was in a hurry, without even thinking about it, he almost blurted out scolding him: "Damn it! Stay here and wait for the communist party?!"

He didn't say anything, but when James left, he took the old housekeeper to deliver it.

That day, James had already been on the deck, but he turned around suddenly, leaned on the guardrail and shouted loudly at him: "Wu Zishan!"

He couldn't see James' face clearly at all on the pier, but when he heard James' call, his heart suddenly felt desolate.He knew that this farewell might last forever, and he couldn't care less about those things anymore, so he also shouted loudly from below: "James! Take care!"

The sound made his own chest buzz, maybe it was really too loud, causing everyone on the pier to turn their heads to look at him.

He just stood there, letting the sea breeze blow, watching the ship leave.

When Shanghai was liberated, he followed others to hold a transformation conference.The venue was surrounded by familiar faces and unfamiliar clothes. Everyone was cautious, not daring to say a word or take a step.

Later, factories and stores were all cooperative, and the banking industry expressed their views one after another. Everyone was transformed step by step.

The days were peaceful, and it was at that time that he had his youngest daughter, Ah Qing.Ziqing also got married at that time, the third girl of the owner of Dianmozhai. He also kept several cages of birds, and he would propose to go for a stroll every morning.

so peaceful...

Just like that, there is nothing wrong with living the rest of the day in peace.That's good, he thought.He said to Yongze in his heart: I am doing well now, Ziqing is also well, everyone is well...

But, at that time, he thought, that was it.

In [-], he suddenly felt that something was wrong.His eldest son, Wu Shichang, secretly changed his name to Wu Zhenghong, and still posted his big-character posters in the bank.

At that time, Shichang had not been in class for a long time, and while he was away, he rummaged through boxes and cabinets at home.He hid Yongze's calligraphy and paintings very secretly, but Shichang also dug them out and burned them down.He didn't know until he got home, and he was shaking with anger, so he gave Shichang a good beating.Shichang was just young at that time, so he was not willing to let him fight, but he pushed him away and moved to the school like that.

In the spring of [-], Shichang led people to drag Ziqing out to fight.Ziqing's wife, who was eight months pregnant at the time, actually went to protect Ziqing, but she was kicked in the stomach in a panic, and she had a miscarriage like that, and then she went crazy.

In the second half of the year, the situation became even more chaotic.People from this faction and that faction always arrested him and went to fight everywhere. Shichang's faction also arrested him. His leg was broken by Shichang and the others at that time.

He was so injured that he could no longer walk in the streets, so he was locked up by Shichang's sect.

At that time, only Ziqing came to see him.

Ziqing secretly handed him a bowl of water through the window, and said in a low voice, "Dad, drink quickly."

His tears flowed down as soon as he brushed them, and his heart that was so cold was quietly warmed by the quilt.

Ziqing secretly found someone to look at his leg again. Although the connection was not good, it was connected after all.

He didn't know the news of Ziliu's death until then.Ziliu was beaten badly in Qinghai, so he committed suicide by jumping off the building.

At that time, there were fierce fights between the various rebel factions. Because of his leg injury, he still had some freedom.He slowly began to pay attention, planning to escape.

After waiting for more than a year, he finally got the chance to escape.

Before running away, he once asked Ziqing tentatively, "Ziqing, will you come with me?"

Ziqing stood inside the door and frowned at him, his clear eyes made him suddenly frightened.After so many years, only the human heart is something he can't fathom. If Ziqing reports on him, he will really have to throw himself into the Huangpu River.

It was a time when right and wrong were confused and black and white were reversed. Everyone was dazzled by enthusiasm and madness, and walked towards the edge of the cliff with their eyes blindfolded. He thought, how did it become like this?

Even Shichang, his own son, went crazy...

If he lived only to be humiliated, then he would rather die.He lives only to see for that person, to see everything that person bought with his life, to see people living a peaceful and peaceful life, not to see clearly how dirty and vicious human nature is...

"You don't have money, so it's not easy to go out." Ziqing turned around and went back to the house, taking out a small bundle that was tightly wrapped.Ziqing's slender fingers quickly peeled off the bundle, and handed it in front of him: "A few years ago, the government issued my father's pension....Dad, you go well, I won't give it away."

He closed the door softly, and blew out the only kerosene lamp in the room.Suddenly a woman's eerie laughter sounded in the room, and it made him shudder to hear it. It took him a long time to realize that the voice should be Ziqing's lunatic wife...

Zishan couldn't move anymore, so he leaned on the stone wall outside the door and fell slowly.

The moonlight that night was so beautiful, he stared blankly at the night sky, decades ago, it was also like this night sky.He and Yongze were sitting in the pavilion, drinking the plum wine brewed by Wu Ma, leaning against each other, looking at the pond full of water lilies...

...Nongze, are you just looking at me from the sky?

He has no more tears to shed, he thought.

It was his last night on the mainland.

He can no longer stay in the mainland, and he is unwilling to go to Taiwan.He smuggled to Hong Kong on a fishing boat, found old acquaintances, and went to the United States.

Just wandering outside like this, until now.

The turmoil has long since ended, some friends have come out, and some friends have gone back...

Zi Ru passed away in [-]. Because of a heart problem, he had a seizure at home and it was too late to rescue him.

……

He told Yongze about these things one by one.

The night gradually deepened, and the room became colder.Sister Qiu walked to the window and reached out to close the window.

He closed his eyes and smiled slightly. He seemed to see Yong Ze in white walking slowly towards him, pulling him up gently.

Afraid that he would catch a cold, Sister Qiu walked to his side and softly called: Master? ……master……

"You are in my heart"...

He likes this song very much.He asked Yongze: Do you like it?

Yongze smiled slightly at him, just like the faint smile back then, and he smiled too.

Are you here to pick me up?

He asked Yongze, but Yongze didn't speak.

He sighed, and lay motionless on the wicker chair, with a smile on his lips, as if he had fallen into memory, or fell asleep.

In the study room immersed in the night, the gentle singing sounded...

you said you must

will come here to see me

do you know

I'm looking forward to you every day

don't forget you said

have deep affection for me

hope you come back soon

Let me get back the warmth of the past

Please stay and never stay away

listen to my heart

how much i love you in my heart

I wish I was in your heart

Remember every truth I say to you

To cherish our sweet time together

forget the parting time

our pain and loneliness

Also please don't forget me cruelly

please stay and don't go

i love you so much

love you forever in my heart

I wish I was in your heart

--THAN--

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