[Attack on Titan] behind the scenes

"I said, I like you, is that enough?"

Levi confessed suddenly, in a dark and damp place where there were dead rats everywhere.But the scene doesn't matter to her, only the words in Levi's mouth are what Felicia doesn't want to hear anyway.

The words were like a curse. When Felicia heard the word like, she felt her heart throbbing as if hit by a stone.

Felicia looked at Levi in ​​pain, why did he have to say that?

If she didn't say it, maybe she could continue to live as if everything today had never happened, and Levi would slowly restrain herself because of her ignorance, but as she confessed this sentence, she knew that there was nothing she could do about it gone back.

"Why... very verbal?"

"I like you"

"Isn't it okay to pretend there's nothing wrong?"

"I like you"

Saying these words is easier than imagined.Levi keeps repeating it like a wizard casting a spell.

"Stop talking! This joke is not funny"

Felicia struggled with the last of her strength, as if the word joke could cover everything up.

"How long will you be a shrinking turtle?!"

Levi punched the filthy wall with such force that the dormant geckos nearby fell down. He was fed up with Felicia's repeated evasive attitude, and he didn't even know that he How to control the violence that is about to break his head.

Does she want to delay with one or two irrelevant words?Do you want to start every day with that fake smile again?Is it like this to exchange chastity, which is more important than life, for material?

Thinking of this, Levi's eyebrows wrinkled in pain. For Levi, this first confession and love in his life was so despicable.

Regarding Felicia's feelings, whether he cast an olive branch of redemption, or just wanted to give her support, even Levi himself didn't understand.

But he felt that he should do this, so that his heart could be at peace, and she would also be redeemed.

"Please treat me as dust, just trample on it. I didn't want to be your important person."

Felicia has no choice, she never thought that meeting Levi would turn into what it is today.He should be like Erwin as his important arm, warrior, family friend, nothing more.And he can only stop there... What made him say those words?

"To me you were never"

Fed up, Levi grabs Felicia's wrists with both hands and pins her to a wall.Without giving her any chance to react, once again, he kissed her lips forcibly.

There is no sweetness of deep affection, no touch of wanting to be with each other, no passion to blend into each other.

Felicia kept shrinking her head back as if enduring pain, until it hit the wall and could no longer dodge.Levi doesn't care about her dodge at all, because the result is the same for him

But for them, kissing can be so painful.Such an intimate act at this moment seems to be handing over each other's painful bile to each other.

Felicia struggled, her teeth clenched shut, refusing to let him in.And Levi pressed her lips recklessly, as if he wanted to blend into her with great strength.

The hand imprisoned on the wall struggled vigorously, but the severe pain of the wound and the physical difference made it impossible for her to break free from Levi's arms.

They maintained this posture for a while.

Finally, Felicia seemed to be struggling wildly.Her clamped hands slowly relaxed, and her wrinkled face gradually relaxed, and then, as if she had realized something, she opened her eyes.

Feeling Felicia's strange behavior, Levi also stopped his meaningless attack.He looked at the person in front of him, as if he had been cast with a strange magic and turned into another person.

The man also had a smile on his face, but it was contemptuous.The way the corners of her mouth raised was so disgusting that even her eyes became full of sarcasm.

"Levi, you're nothing more than that"

"what?"

He looked at Felicia, but at that moment he couldn't tell if she was the one he knew.

But the other party didn't give him time to understand.

"I thought you would be difficult to capture and would take a little effort, but I didn't expect it to be so easy. I was really overjoyed~ Hey, how does it feel to like me?"

Levi let go of his hand, moving quickly like a hunter who has caught the wrong prey.He looked at Felicia strangely, and said, "Do you think I'll believe you just by pretending?"

But Felicia shrugged with a believe it or not expression.

"Sure enough, you are the kind of guy who will attack relatives and friends. Now, where do you want to take me? What are you going to do?"

Different from the previous posture of resistance, this time Felicia pressed every step of the way, but started to attack like a hunter.

"This is the end of the bad drama"

"Oh, do you really think the previous ones are real? I just acted for you. Because Xibel told me that he likes you very much, so I gave it a try..."

She spoke eloquently, as if carefully arranged.

"Yes, how can I attract the attention of a ruffian? Help him pay off his debts, and show him favors? Agree with him? Give him benefits? Yes, it took a lot of effort~"

She smiled that way again, as if insulting, but also as if she had read a joke.

"Sure enough, I'm very attractive~" she concluded.

"Huh, it's boring. Don't lie to Felicia. If that's the case, why are you still wearing that bracelet?" Finally, Levi speaks, and he looks at the bracelet as if that's the truth.

"Ah! You mean this?"

She raised her arm to reveal the cheap chain, and then, as easily as tearing a piece of paper, she tore the chain off her wrist with the other hand.

Seeing her slamming on the ground violently, the cheap stones in her hand were roughly thrown to the ground.

"That's it for me"

She raised her jaw arrogantly, looking at the miscellaneous stones under her feet arrogantly.

"Why did I wear this kind of thing on me? I didn't throw it away just to attract your attention... Yes, your so-called feelings are as cheap as this string of bracelets"

In the next second, the heel of the thick-heeled shoes fell on the stone, rolling back and forth and making a rattling sound.

"Do you really think I'll take this as a treasure? Haha, Levi... you actually have such a naive and stupid side~"

As if seeing the most ridiculous thing in the world, Felicia laughed out loud, leaning back and forth, leaning against the wall almost unsteadily.Tears came out of her laughter, during which the man didn't say a word, not even a sound.The quiet of the street made her laugh sharper.

Levi's face is very gloomy, whether it's because of the way the lights fall, or something else.

Seeing that he didn't respond, Felicia looked down at him and said with a smile, "If you know the truth, why don't you get out?"

"...Is this what you think?"

"Actually, I want to play for a while longer, so that I can feel your love as much as possible, and the joy of being played by me~ But since I've been discovered, there's nothing I can do about it~ If you want to say something, you can say it everywhere, I It doesn't matter."

Is it hallucination?Levi thought, otherwise it would be impossible to explain the existence in front of him.

But amidst this chaotic illusion, one thing is certain.

Felicia passed on something to herself, she said what she wanted in such a stupid way.

Therefore, he will respect her wishes.From now on, he will hate her for a second without stopping!If that's what she wanted, then congratulations, she made it.Because at this moment, his feelings are like crushed stones under her feet.

"You are dismissed."

Finally, Felicia waved his hand as if tired, motioning him to get out of the way.

Levi let go of the posture that imprisoned her, and watched her leave silently.Felicia didn't hesitate, and didn't look back, she sneaked into the hotel as if what happened just now was just a ridiculous thing, and slammed the door away.

The street regained its proper calm, and I don't know how long it took before the closed gate opened a gap with a "squeak".

Felicia looked through the crack of the door for a long time, but no one stayed, and no one stopped.After confirming that there was indeed no one around, she pushed open the wooden door and walked out quietly.She silently came to the fragments and picked them up one by one regardless of the fragments.

"...sorry"

No one heard her soft-spoken confession, she silently went back to the house to clean up her mood, and Felicia, who had lost all her strength, leaned against the wooden door and collapsed on the ground.

She looked at the ceiling and candles, her eyes gradually blurred.

Those words, how vicious it is to say, such behavior, but Felicia has no choice...

If accepted, it will be a disaster for both of them, right?

The escape route that I have been refusing has appeared, if I accept it, what will happen to me?

And where will the already insignificant hope of human victory go?

Humans can't lose Levi yet.

Between the uncertain dawn of victory and the joy she chooses, she rips Levi's heart apart...

His vision was blurred by something, and there was only light in front of him.As if unable to bear the weight, the hot tears in his eyes ran across his face, turning cold.

"...Already, I don't know anything."

Felicia hugged her head, only feeling that her mind was in chaos, and she seemed to feel nothing but sadness.To Levi...what the hell is he?

The brain quickly flashed the bits and pieces of the past four years, and every ordinary day, like a planted seed receiving water, gradually occupied the brain.

Felicia only felt that everything was like a dream, even a god would not be able to tell such a ridiculous joke...

She doesn't deserve love.

The self who has been polluted for a long time is not worthy of tarnishing the hope of mankind...

But if he is nothing in his heart, why should he be sad?

Felicia doesn't want to admit that she has him in her heart... because of that, maybe she won't be able to go on anymore.

But only now, only now...

The voice from the bottom of my heart emerged from sleep, accompanied by the wailing that was about to blurt out.

Felicia hastily covered her mouth, for fear that any voice would be missed through her fingers.

However, the intermittent voice broke through the fingers, broke through her mask, and broke through the gap in the bottom of my heart...

"sorry..."

The choked cry brought out the words from the bottom of my heart...

She was sorry for her bad attitude, sorry for the hurtful words, but she didn't expect Levi's forgiveness.

Because I am already such a coward as he said...

If admitting it was worth his hatred, just hate yourself like that... because that's the only way they could keep going.

However, Felicia is also full of gratitude...for the four years, for the uninterrupted thoughtfulness, for his gentleness, for his liking...but she can't accept it, if it's really for his own good...

Unbelievably, after Levi's confession, Felicia felt that the magic box hidden in her heart had been opened.

It is not known whether what sputtered out of it was a terrible disaster or the last hope.But she chose to refuse, so that nothing will happen, whether it is disaster or happiness.

Obviously, she never felt such an intimate relationship with him, but it was only at this point that Felicia felt the weight of him in her life...

Worried that he will be killed by giants after he comes out of the wall...

Worried that his stupid behavior will be framed by nobles...

I'm worried that he'll get into trouble all day long and won't deal with it tactfully...

Why not be as cautious as Erwin?Why can't I just leave it to myself like Erwin?Why not pretend to know nothing like Erwin?

【Because I am Levi. 】

The answer he would say comes to mind, of course.

You see, although they are not so close to each other, they can always know each other's mind at such moments.

If that's not love, what is?

Emotion roared to love him, reason screamed to stop.Tears drown everything, only pain is real.

"No...you can't like him!"

But the memories brought the events of these years into my mind illegally... Tears fell on the back of my hand, and the ground...

She couldn't help but increase the strength of her hand holding the fragment tightly, and the blood slowly left along the lines of her palm, staining her clean skirt.

A figure appeared at the door, and he stopped in front of the wooden door.After going back and forth several times, he raised his hand to knock on the door.But every time it comes to the tapping action, the hand is still hanging in the air, and it has not fallen for a long time...

He looked at his toes, the words he said before were still lingering in his mind, rationally trying to find all the fragments of the past to prove that everything was false, but even so, the viciousness made him suffocate for a while...

It was a rare experience, but he didn't feel relieved, it felt too painful, as if even the world was destroyed together.

At this time, he may have realized the significance of this person to him.

That's why I want to hate, hate her for ignoring my contribution in the past four years, hate her for destroying my reason with a few words of ridicule, hate her for trampling my feelings mercilessly...

'Don't get emotional'

Recalling Felicia's teaching voice in my mind, those words seemed to be wedged into my mind...

"hateful..."

In the end, he dropped his hand on the door in frustration, and let out a dull voice.

Hearing the sound of someone knocking on the door, Felicia suddenly held her breath.She tightly covered her mouth, fearing that even breathing would disturb the people outside the door.

They shouldn't have cared about each other in the first place so that no wrong feelings can arise.If it were not for this mistake, they would not be so sad.

That day, they were separated by that door, but they couldn't see each other's sincerity...

Such a flimsy door turned out to be an obstacle that could never be overcome, and it easily separated the two of them, so close to each other.

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