[Attack on Titan] behind the scenes

Felicia's blindness was a punishment deep in her heart, so Grisha Yeager didn't know when she would be able to fully recover.

So before that, non-interest holders could only suffer silently.

"Miss, Captain Erwin is here"

"Let him in"

During Felicia's absence, all matters were entrusted to Erwin. If it was a particularly important event, he would read the documents to Felicia before making a decision.

So Felicia was not surprised by his visit and visit.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Felicia naturally looked there and smiled at them.

"Erwin, what's the matter? Have you encountered any difficulties today?"

Levi came with Erwin, seeing that Felicia only paid attention to Erwin, and was about to open his mouth to signal that he still exists.

But Erwin held out his hand and stopped him.He puts his other hand to his lips and makes a quiet gesture to Levi to keep his mouth shut the whole time.

what's on your mind?Levi asked with a look.

Erwin responded to his gaze calmly and calmly, for a moment Levi couldn't see what he was thinking.

The two disagreed for a while, and finally, Levi sighed in an inaudible voice, he shook off Erwin's hand that was in front of him, and looked away.acquiesced to the matter.

In this way, Erwin strolled over to Felicia's bed and sat down.

"No, I just came to visit you. Are you better?"

He reached out his hand and caressed her face as it should.

"It's nothing good...it's still the same." Felicia didn't resist and let him touch her, but she couldn't help but sigh when she spoke.

"By the way, are you alone today? Where's Levi?"

"...I don't know where he went again," Erwin said seriously.

As soon as the words fell, I was hit hard on the back, so strong that Irwin almost jumped at Felicia.Levi kicks him in the back and doesn't think it's wrong.

Pay attention to what you say, he said with a fierce look in his eyes.

The two stared at each other for a while before one of them gave up.

Erwin looked back silently, he didn't leave Felicia alone.Originally, the visits could have come less frequently, but the survey corps was not too busy.

"Let's put other people's affairs aside first, and worry about yourself first." Erwin stroked Felicia's blond hair, and tidied her messy hair.

"En" Felicia smiled wryly. I'm afraid I can't worry about it now, right?

She touched Erwin's hand and clasped his fingers along his knuckles.With the tactile sensation of touching, details about the hand can emerge in memory.

"Erwin...can you hold me tight for a second?"

Felicia's sudden request startled Levi, but Erwin didn't change his face, as if he had been used to it for a long time.

"kindness"

He agreed to Felicia, and lifted her jaw, kissing her somewhat pale lips.

Levi just felt a ball of evil fire rise from the bottom of his heart, what is it?Farce? !

And Felicia neither resisted nor refused, but just closed her eyes and accepted it all.The lips were pressed against each other for a while before they separated.And Erwin followed this momentum and put his arms around her shoulders as it should.

"I'm sorry to make you do this... I'm just... scared..."

His empty eyes looked at Erwin, his brows were full of distress and helplessness, and only the corners of his lips were smiling.

Levi thought he would make the next move, something more extreme than kicking Erwin on the back.But he was surprised by everything in front of him.

Erwin wanted to take off her mask with just one kiss.Looking at the girl in Erwin's arms, she had a rare expression on her face. She curled up like a timid child, and Levi couldn't recognize her for a while.

She curled up in Erwin's arms, like a child who was played by fate in her childhood.

Erwin hugged her as usual, and pulled her tightly into his arms.

"It's okay, I told you not to put pressure on yourself," he comforted in a lover-like tone.

"How can there be no pressure? When I think that I will never get better again, I will just go blind like this...What should I do? Damn...When will I get better..."

Felicia frowned, but because she couldn't see it, maybe she didn't know that she had shown such an expression unknowingly.

"Are you worried?"

"...Yeah, it's really, pitch black..."

Felicia spent many days in the dark, not to mention her important work, she couldn't even take care of herself.Thinking of this, Felicia frowned even tighter.

"I, I'm already half a useless person, why do I have to encounter this kind of thing... I can't even become a soldier, and now it's even more difficult to be a human..."

These days, Felicia lying on the bed only felt suffocated, there was nothing in the darkness, the familiar room seemed to be a different place, and even such trivial things as drinking water had to be done by the maid.Not to mention other trivial matters.

"...It's better to die than to live like this."

At least he can die on the battlefield and gain some glory as a soldier...

"Do not think too much"

"...I want to do the same, but... now that I can't tell the difference between day and night, what else can I do besides thinking wildly?"

I can neither read a book nor walk around, and I don't even have people who come to visit me.

Since the death of her parents, the snobbish nobles have treated her coldly, and Felicia is no longer with them, so that no peers can be friends anymore.

And when she was so weak, she didn't want to see hypocritical nobles, and there were even fewer visitors.

The maid can't be with me all day long, there is still a lot of work to do in the house...

"I'll ask Hanji and Levi to see you more often. With them here, maybe your illness will recover sooner?" Seeing Felicia's lonely face, Erwin felt it.

"Yes..."

Thinking of Hanji and Levi, only a little smile appeared on Felicia's weak face.

They talked a lot, as if they wanted to get rid of Felicia's loneliness for so many days.Levi just leans against the window and watches them, as if he has nothing to do with him.

He didn't know what kind of perseverance he had to endure all this.

Levi regained his composure when Erwin signaled that he was leaving.

Erwin had just left the room with his front foot, and Levi grabbed his bow tie with his back foot and pressed it against the other wall.

"You guy, are you showing me your private rights?"

"...If you want to understand it that way, take it that way."

"It's really unpleasant."

However, Levi has a deeper understanding of the bond between him and Felicia.Not lovers, better than husband and wife.He had thought that years of association would make this feeling less exclusive, but that was not the case.

"Then you will marry her?"

"Levi... none of your business."

Unexpectedly, Erwin didn't answer directly, but avoided it very forcefully. At the end of the sentence, he grabbed Levi's hand and swung it away vigorously, then neatly arranged the messed up neckline, As if he didn't care about Levi's attack.

"Then you were just playing around?"

"You've asked so many questions, let me ask you instead. Levi" He looked down at Levi, showing for the first time that he couldn't refuse.

"Why do you care so much about Felicia? Isn't the lesson from the investigation outside the wall not enough?"

Levi stops, forgetting his wounds because of the humiliation.But when Erwin mentioned it, he couldn't help but glanced over his shoulder.

Levi doesn't say anything, just frowns unhappily.

He never asked himself why, maybe he did, but he didn't want to think about it because the result was too troublesome.

"...And what do you do to that guy?" He asked Erwin back, trying to find his own answer.

"Felicia means a lot to me. Teammate, companion, friend, sister...even a close relative. After all, we have known each other for so many years, fought together, and grew up together..."

While telling his feelings, Erwin glanced at Levi with sharp eyes, and he could see that he was a little confused.

Erwin knew that his concern for Felicia had surpassed that of ordinary friends.But he also keeps holding back because he's worried that it will distract Levi... Now they can't lose Levi's fighting power, and he can't be swayed by emotions yet.This is what Felicia doesn't want to see, right?

Is it true that one or two of the guys around me can't stop for a while?Seeing that Levi didn't answer for a long time, Erwin shook his head and patted him on the shoulder.

"Levi, I warn you one last time, if you continue like this, you will get hurt."

"Am I the kind of person who cares about getting hurt?"

Erwin stared at Levi speechlessly for a while.If you don't die, you won't die, why don't you understand?

In the end, he didn't say any more, just put on his coat calmly, and left as if nothing happened.

The author has something to say: Daily update starts on Monday!Otherwise, I don’t know how long it will take to finish writing.

Also, jj, have you smoked enough... Every day when you go online or bs, you can see everyone talking about smoking