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Seeing Yang Yue's concerned expression, Jing Tian realized that something might be wrong with his expression.

He put the closed notebook on the inside of the bed, pressed it with a pillow, and then got out of bed along the stairs.

"It's nothing," he kept his head down when he spoke, "I'll take a shower first."

Before entering the bathroom, he looked back, and found that Yang Yue was still looking at him suspiciously, with a look of uneasiness.

He squeezed out a smile at Yang Yue: "It's really nothing, I'll talk to you after I wash it out."

Yang Yue didn't say anything, and looked up at the position of the pillow on his bed.

Jing Tian was very nervous: "Don't watch!"

"Am I that kind of person?" Yang Yue said helplessly, "Okay, you can wash it quickly."

Jing Tian washed for a long time.He closed his eyes under the stream of water from the shower head, and the text he had just read in the notebook naturally appeared in his mind.

There were many contents that surprised him in the second half of the notebook.

He finally knew the meaning of the tattoo on his back and why Zheng Xunqian had that pattern.

As a person without drawing talent, he tried to copy the pattern in his notebook. The finished product looked childish and funny, and he could only barely recognize it, but there was a sense of seriousness in the strokes.

He wrote under the pattern, this design is really great, it represents rebirth from the cocoon, wings to fly, it is very suitable for the brand new self now, thinking of tattooing it on his skin, but I don’t know where to text it.

At the end, I added a sentence: I will use it as a bookmark, and he must like it very much.

You don't need to guess, you know who the "he" refers to.

Seeing this, Jing Tian was extremely shy, and even felt a little helpless towards his past self, and wanted to laugh a little.

In the next few pages, he recorded how he kissed Zheng Xunqian in the study room that day.

Confusion, unease, intense regret afterwards, and feeling earned.

"There will be no results anyway, what's the matter with taking advantage of it?" After writing this sentence, only two lines were left blank, and he wrote again, "Why am I so shameless?"

Later, because he had no face to face, he hid from Zheng Xunqian for a long time.

Until Zheng Xunqian took the initiative to talk to him and said to him, "It seems like I haven't seen you for a long time".

Deciding to give up requires [-] times of mental construction and countless nights of entanglement, but it only takes a moment to rekindle hope.

The words he left on that day should be the happiest part of the entire diary.

"Does he care about me a little bit?"

This line of writing is a bit ugly, horizontal and vertical, and it seems to be flying.

"Are you okay?" Yang Yue knocked on the door outside, "Are you still okay?"

He stayed in the bathroom too much longer than usual, which worried Yang Yue.

Jing Tian quickly turned off the faucet, shook his head: "It will be ready soon!"

When she walked out of the bathroom, Yang Yue was already sitting on the bed, looking down at him, still worried.

"You're having conflicts with Zheng Xunqian again, aren't you?" Yang Yue said, "Didn't you just let off the flash bomb?"

"There is no conflict." Jing Tian also climbed into his bed and sat face to face with him, but he was embarrassed to look at him, "Yes... I saw some things I wrote before."

"A diary?" Yang Yue was surprised, "Is that your diary? You still keep a diary?"

Jing Tian's face was slightly feverish.In the past, he had been a quiet and honest person for more than ten years, and he had never had the habit of writing a diary. The sudden interest in him was undoubtedly because he was too embarrassed to tell others about his love affairs, and he was really overwhelmed and needed a way to vent.

"It's not counting..." He defended himself, "It's just some fragmentary things, not as serious as a diary."

"It must be related to Zheng Xunqian, right!" Yang Yue ruthlessly revealed, "You don't even tell me!"

Jing Tian scratched his chin in embarrassment: "...Didn't I tell you now?"

"What is written on it that makes you so entangled?" Yang Yue asked.

"Some...very strange things," Jing Tian said, "I used to treat him a little bit unilaterally, that."

"Oh, I see. Are you unrequitedly in love with him?" Yang Yue was embarrassingly witty.

"Cough," Jing Tian coughed, "but, he was quite indifferent to me at first...he has been reluctant to talk to me, even a little...disgusted."

"That's normal. Didn't I tell you that he treats everyone like this?" Yang Yue said, "Are you unhappy because of this? In fact, you don't need to take it to heart, is it enough to be nice to you now? "

"It's not because of this," Jing Tian shook his head, "He's so weird. He kept ignoring me, and when I was disheartened and about to give up, he came to talk to me again..."

Yang Yue tilted her head and thought for a while, then patted the bed vigorously: "I understand! It is said that strong women are afraid of pestering men, but in fact, men are similar. He must be used to you looking for him, seeing you suddenly withdraw and think If you give up, you will start to feel wrong! Then you will be fine?"

"No," Jing Tian said with a bitter face, "I thought there was hope, so... I took the initiative a little bit."

Yang Yue moved forward, with a gossipy face: "And then!"

Jing Tian's face was already flushed red: "He started to treat me coldly again..."

"Uh..." Yang Yue frowned, "It sounds like Zheng Xunqian is a bit cheap."

"I was in a bad mood during that time, right?" Jing Tian asked, "It was probably the last month or so before the amnesia."

Yang Yue recalled it for a while, and suddenly realized: "Really, your mood was very unstable at that time, and you often scolded him, which was quite ugly. Hearing what you said, you are like a goddess and a spare tire. You seem to be caught and raised by him fish."

Jing Tian couldn't deny it, and sighed with a bitter face.

"Then how did you get together?" Yang Yue asked.

"I don't know," Jing Tian said, "I'm skeptical now, the relationship between me and him seemed to be very wrong..."

Yang Yue looked at him puzzled.

Jing Tian let out a long sigh, lay down, and took out the notebook from under the pillow.

Most of the moods he recorded on it were just a few simple sentences without dates.There are only a very small number of them, which are written more seriously and marked with detailed dates.

"During that time, I wanted to give up every day, but I couldn't bear it, I couldn't bear it, and I struggled repeatedly," Jing Tian said, "Then I finally made up my mind to confess my love seriously once, and if it didn't work, I would pull it off, and never think about it again. "

"Then we were together?"

"No," Jing Tian shook his head, "The day after I made my decision, I wrote: Go to hell, scumbag."

Yang Yue was stunned.

"I wrote so hard that the paper was torn," Jing Tian looked at his handwriting at the time, "I still write, and if I talk to him again, I will be worse than a pig and a dog. I suggest that he die immediately."

Yang Yue opened her mouth, hesitated for a while, and then asked, "When did this happen?"

"The day I lost my memory and the day before." Jing Tian said, looking at the date in the corner.

Yang Yue fell into complete silence.

"... Isn't it weird?" Jing Tian asked.

After he finished speaking, he raised his head to look at Yang Yue, and Yang Yue really had a troubled expression on his face.

In the past, he wrote similar words in this notebook many times, he really hates him, I hate him, I don't want to see him again, and soon he will start to record every bit of Zheng Xunqian as if nothing had happened.

But the weight of the last sentence is different.It was written by him himself. Even if he lost his memory and his personality was very different, he could still understand his mood at that time from the words.

"Why don't you ask him himself," Yang Yue said, "he must know what happened that day."

Jing Tian shook his head slightly.

He can be sure that Zheng Xunqian will never say anything that would make him so angry and disappointed.Since he lost his memory, he has always been like this, so he keeps secret information that is not good for him, and occasionally deliberately beautifies the past experience.

If you only listen to what he said, the two of them have always been talking about a sweet love like an idol drama, at most they were making small fights, and there was never any twists and turns.

"Can't you remember at all?" Yang Yue said, "I didn't say much about the things related to Chu before, but you remembered a lot."

"Before you came out, I was seriously recalling." Jing Tian said.

"Damn," Yang Yue frowned, "Is it my fault for disturbing you?"

"That's not what I mean," Jing Tian shook his head, "I thought about it for a while, but I just remembered some irrelevant things."

It has nothing to do with the collapse of the last two days, but it has something to do with Zheng Xunqian.

Zheng Xunqian took the initiative to call his name when he was extremely discouraged and crazily persuaded himself to give up quickly, and asked him why he didn't come to class the day before.

He was so happy that he couldn't sleep all night because of such a simple thing.

When he came out of the Mala Tang shop that day, Zheng Xunqian saw that his eyes and lips were still red, so he gave him a pack of tissues.He didn't want to use it, carefully put it in his pocket like a pervert, and only wiped his face with his sleeve.

It's a pity that after going back, I got carried away and forgot for a while. I threw the pants directly into the washing machine, and they were all washed into debris, leaving only a messy plastic shell. After that, I was depressed for a long time.

Zheng Xunqian would occasionally take the initiative to talk to him, after the study room, when he was having trouble persisting and wanted to give up.

Really bad intentions.

What did such a Zheng Xunqian do to make him so angry and desperate?

When Jing Tian was at a loss, he remembered something.In the hotel that day, Zheng Xunqian said that the two of them spent the night before he lost his memory.

He drank too much and called Zheng Xunqian out.In his vague memory, he broke down emotionally and cried.

After that, they had a relationship.

"Did he force you that night?" Yang Yue guessed.

Jing Tian thought, it's impossible.Based on his understanding of himself, the reverse is more likely.

At this moment, his phone vibrated.

Just as he expected and expected in his heart, it was the news from Zheng Xunqian who had just separated from him not long ago.The content is very simple, only three words.

--are you asleep?

This point is far from the time when Jing Tianping usually falls asleep.This is obviously nothing to say.

Jing Tian stared at the line for a while, and tentatively typed a reply.

—I remembered something.

Zheng Xunqian probably didn't put down his phone, so he replied immediately.

--what?

Jing Tian took a deep breath, licked his lips, and continued typing.

—Have we had conflicts before?

Zheng Xunqian typed for a while, and gave him an ambiguous answer.

——Forget it, you always look down on me.

It is indeed a difficult thing to trick a person who is far smarter than oneself.

Jing Tian refused to give up and asked again.

——Do you know why I dislike you?

Zheng Xunqian answered quickly this time.

——Probably because you are too shy, and you are embarrassed to like me even if you like me, so you bluff.

Jing Tian blushed, speechless.

Yang Yue next door said again: "But no matter what, it's all in the past, anyway, you get along pretty well now, right?"

Jing Tian nodded: "Yes."

"Maybe after a while, you will remember it naturally, and then realize that it's not a big deal at all," Yang Yue said, "Don't worry about it now."

Jing Tian thought for a while, then nodded again: "...That's right."