[Tanhua Modern] Blackening cannot always save the world

But he survived in the end, and he survived under unexpected circumstances. Maybe it was the new drug that almost dragged him into hell, but at the last moment, it still produced the effect it was originally expected to produce.

Lou Yi looked at the numb child sitting in the white ward, as quiet as a dummy.Then the space around him twisted, and he stepped into a vast snowy sky.

The rules of the Lou family are very strange. It is said that if the big family is passed down in one line, then the single seedling must be held and protected like an eyeball, for fear that it will be broken. Although it is very likely to raise a dandy, but As parents and elders, even if the younger generation is ineffective, I just hope that he grows up safely.

But the Lou family didn't like it, maybe the people in power only put their eyes on the back. A dude-type head of the Lou family is absolutely not allowed.As a result, the juniors who should be cherished were thrown into the battle among wolves. If they could not become the wolf king, then even if the price was huge, the elders who were sitting on high would not mind training another qualified Patriarch, but find more women, If it doesn't work, test-tube babies can also be tried.

There was a huge playground in front of me. The snow on the runway had not been cleaned, and one foot was sunk down to the calf depth.A group of children were running in unison, their trouser legs were soaked and sticky to their skin.

They have been running for a long time. This track is four or five times larger than the average playground. They have to run 400 laps every day regardless of wind, frost, rain and snow. The children scrambled to the finish line [-] meters away, because the slowest ones would be severely and cruelly punished, and there were so many tricks that could never be summed up by their poor imagination.

Lou Yi is always the fastest one, because he must be the strongest, whether in intelligence or physical fitness, he must not be inferior in the slightest, otherwise all the "brothers and sisters" around him who have no blood relationship with him will be able to How could his pride allow him to be easily trampled on the soles of his feet, nor could his education allow it.

He is indeed the most powerful, and even the people around him will subconsciously keep their voices silent as long as they pass by him, with fear and respect in their eyes.There are hundreds of people around him, and he never fits in.

When he met Feng Yujing, they were both eleven or twelve-year-old children. The difference was that his eyes were full of precocious indifference, while the man's eyes were full of confusion and cowardice.

At that time, Feng Yujing was thin and small, with an introverted personality, and he was always the one who lagged behind in training.The Lou family is based on the idea of ​​having a complete range of products, and the idea of ​​natural selection to recruit all kinds of people. Feng Yujing may have come here in this way.When Lou Yi saw him, he was shrinking into a small ball, his face like a jade ball was twitching and dripping with tears.He was fined without food, perhaps because the instructors were worried about killing him like this, so even the punishment was taken lightly.

At that time, Lou Yi didn't know whether it was a ghost or something, but he just treated him like a brother.Feng Yujing didn't believe it at first, Bai Nennen's face was full of bewilderment, she just followed Lou Yi's order in a daze and followed him.It took Lou Yi a lot of effort to get him out of the training camp. He knew that the instructor would lose his patience if this little thing stayed any longer, and he might die like this at some point.

It was the first time he was so self-willed in such a big age, which really surprised the upper management, but when his father heard about this, his face didn't show the slightest expression. He just gave him a solid hundred whips and threw him straight away. to the snow.

The thin and ragged clothes had no function of sheltering from the cold for a long time. His skin was ripped apart from the beating, and scarlet flowers bloomed in the snow from his blood. Already numb, drowsy, he remembered the first time he ran away when he was six years old...

The snow is a collection of water vapor and dust, a tender voice suddenly passed through his mind, he twitched the corners of his mouth boredly, and Feng Yujing's hoarse and frightened sobs sounded in his ears, he seemed to hear his hoarse comfort:

do not Cry............

I don't know how long it took until the wounds on his body were frozen and the scabs were as hard as ice. A pair of expensive and shiny leather shoes appeared in the half-black line of sight. He raised his eyes with difficulty and saw his father's indifferent eyes:

"Alive?"

His eyelids trembled, but he didn't speak.

"Then let him go..." He heard him say to someone beside him.

Lou Yi stood beside him, looking at the former him who closed his eyes with peace of mind after hearing this sentence, and the sound of Feng Yujing crying beside him seemed to be far away, he couldn't see his expression clearly, but at that time he thought he should It is joyful.

But his self-righteousness made his later self unable to hold back his laughter. He thought it was Yuxue who had a heart and lungs made of mud. .

Lou Yi has survived many dangers without defeat, because the moment he got off the operating table, he found that in this absurd world, he had nothing but himself.

But it happened to him that time, Feng Yujing's 20th birthday, he smiled shyly and invited him to his residence. promise.

A glass of wine that he was defenseless turned him into a toothless tiger, and a toothless tiger was nothing more than a big cat. He always knew that the deepest pain often came not from the body, but from the heart. I didn't expect to verify this by myself this time.

Feng Yujing's expression was agitated, and his eyes were fanatical and hateful. He couldn't tell how much emotion was in those eyes, but his high-pitched shout rang out in his ears, causing a sudden pain in his head:

"You just treat me like a pet, a pet that comes and goes as soon as you want..."

"You are the young master of the Lou family. I had a chance to be like you, but you ruined me..."

"You are my brother, you have given me everything...... What about you, you can give me yourself too......"

...His hysteria, every word and every word was heart-piercing, Lou Yi suddenly realized that he had been raising a white-eyed wolf for so many years.

When Feng Yujing went crazy, he had a lot of strength. Only then did Lou Yi realize that the person in his eyes who had always been weak and in need of protection could easily throw him to the ground, but after doing so, his demeanor would become very frightened again, a kind of It made Lou Yi feel incomprehensibly panicked.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...but you forced me...I didn't want to..." With tears in his eyes and a trembling voice, he knelt beside Lou Yi's legs, sobbing As he spoke, snot and tears rubbed against his legs.Lou Yi felt disgusted right now, unspeakably disgusted, he had never felt this person was so disgusted.

"Shall we be together forever? I don't want to be your pet anymore, and I don't want you to be my pet... like a lover, shall we be together forever?" Whispering in his ear, as he talked, he seemed to be amused by the beauty he had outlined. He laughed softly, and Lou Yi's eyes became colder.

At that moment, he discovered that what he couldn't bear the most in this world turned out to be betrayal.He seldom had expectations for others, but he only received this result once in a while, so he never realized that he still had this taboo before.

When Feng Yujing was so excited that he reached out to unbutton his clothes, Lou Yi finally spoke:

"You should actually kill me. I taught you that you must never give your enemy a chance to breathe." He was extremely calm when he said this, and looked at him with clear and cold eyes, just looking at him, It seems to be very serious.

Feng Yujing paused in his movements, and slowly revealed a terrified expression, as if he had been scalded, he withdrew his hand abruptly, remained silent for a while, and tremblingly said:

"You are not such a person, as you said, you can neither die nor lose!" His eyes were frantic, and he shed tears again.

"You're right, that was before, but now I'm defeated..." So naturally be damned.

Feng Yujing suddenly understood his unfinished words, jumped up, he froze for a moment, choked for a while, turned and left...

Lou Yi looked at his back coldly, he remembered the time when he asked his father for Feng Yujing, at that time his body was bruised all over, his blood was frozen by the cold, his eyes were as cold as the ice and snow calm.

"No matter what choice you make, you have to bear the price yourself. Only if you can afford the price, can you have the right to want what you want."

That's why he was blind like a bat and ended up like this. He was young and ignorant, thinking that the choice he made ten years ago would have paid the price ten years ago. Who would have expected that the foreshadowing of this matter would be so deep. This lesson is really painful enough. .

.....................

In no time, a huge red lotus bloomed in front of his eyes. It was so coquettish and fiery that it dragged him into it. He had experienced all kinds of pain in his life, but this was the first time he felt being roasted... ....

Because he was caught as a test object when he was young, he hated the powerlessness of being controlled by others. He got a joke because of his hard work, so he couldn't tolerate betrayal. After being frozen and starved, he hated hunger and cold. It is human nature to hate extreme blazing, and there is nothing to criticize, but he is deeply ashamed, so he has been hiding it deeply.

But if he does not go to hell, he will not know that the boundless loneliness and desolation can crush the soul, and there may be no more terrible pain than this in the world......

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"Anzhi, Anzhi..."

Lou Yi opened his eyes suddenly, the distorted red lotus in front of his eyes dissipated and reflected a pair of clear eyes, Li Xun Huan looked at him worriedly.Looking at the handsome face close at hand, Lou Yi calmly moved his eyes to the wall clock on the wall, the hour hand pointed to two o'clock, he whispered:

"Haven't slept yet?" He realized that his voice was a little hoarse, and after clearing his throat, he suddenly realized:

"Did I wake you up?"

Li Xun Huan shook his head, helplessly raised the corners of his mouth, and sighed:

"Have a nightmare?"

"No." Lou Yi subconsciously denied, and after he finished speaking, he realized that his words were really not convincing.

"You always say no, no matter what you say no." Li Xun Huan frowned, unable to see his expression clearly.If he hadn't heard his sudden rapid and unsteady breathing in the middle of the night, he wouldn't have woken up suddenly. Although Lou Yi usually behaved almost invincible, he kept reminding himself that people are not made of copper, and Shaolin Eighteen Arhats are only painted with a layer of gold paint. warm bodies.

Lou Yi was taken aback for a moment, he didn't know what to say, he was used to never showing weakness to others, but he didn't know that no matter who it is, tiredness and suffering are not shameful.

Seeing that he was silent, Li Xun Huan sighed with a smile, sat up and looked at him and said:

"Let's talk." He knew that this man would never fall asleep again.

Lou Yi frowned:

"It's late, you should go to bed."

"I can't sleep." Li Xun Huan said confidently.

Lou Yi raised his eyebrows, looked at the blue and black under his eyes, his eyes were obviously tired and he was talking nonsense, he was about to reprimand, but he heard Li Xun Huan say again:

"Actually, I thought you and Donglai would be friends."

Lou Yi was stunned, this...was a disappointment to his good intentions, but why?He looked at him, Li Xunhuan smiled helplessly:

"Maybe you didn't realize it yourself, you are sometimes lonely and sad."

Lou Yi was stunned again, talking nonsense, he opened his mouth to speak, but Li Xun Huan said:

"Look, you have to deny it again."

Lou Yi shut up, Li Xun Huan half lay down and looked into his eyes, his eyes were very serious:

"Although you don't admit it, you are indeed rejecting everyone from entering your world.

You said that Qin Luo was your friend growing up, but you didn’t even communicate with him for such a long time except that you took me to see a doctor...... Yes, it’s not surprising , It's not what a lover looks like sticky.

But for Uncle Huang's family upstairs, everyone went upstairs and downstairs, and they were embarrassed by your cold face.... Yes, you are not a warm person.

But when someone is looking for you, you subconsciously cut off the phone, you are straightforward, sometimes even aggressive, you refuse to have any emotional intersection with people, you don’t have deep friendship with anyone...... ..If you are born with such a nature, I can find reasons for you, but you are obviously not, especially after Dong Lai appeared......"

Li Xunhuan didn't know when he discovered Lou Yi's weird and contradictory place. You said he was indifferent, but he didn't refuse anyone's approach, and you said he was enthusiastic, but he definitely couldn't talk about it.

Relationships need to be cultivated, but Lou Yi is like a piece of ice that can't be covered. When people leave, you think you are getting closer, but he still has the same expression when we first met, so it's not embarrassing.It's like you want to hook up with someone who you thought was already a buddy, but he looks at you with a distant face, like we are just strangers who know each other's names.To make matters worse, even his former friends are leaving them without a trace.

Lou Yi frowned, but still didn't say anything.

"Your repulsion is obvious, so obvious that I hesitate to do so, right...Anzhi, you said that the world is big..." But you But no one wants to touch it except me.

"Everyone will draw the ground as a prison, but you are too stingy, only willing to give yourself such a small space... Besides, you obviously want to come out."

Lou Yi turned his eyes away to avoid his worried gaze, and said lightly:

"You really care too much."

Li Xun Huan's eyes were burning, Lou Yi couldn't help but sighed:

"I'm not a child, so you're still worried that I don't have friends?" What's more, if you have money and power, do you want any friends?It's just that Li Xun Huan may be right, if he hadn't signed the alliance contract with him, he could grasp his mind, maybe Lou Yi would not even get close to Li Xun Huan.

"I really don't know if your father worried about you so much when you were a child." He didn't know if it was right for him to point it out so bluntly, but he was not willing to just let Lou Yi go down like this. Very stubborn.

"My father," Lou Yi subconsciously repeated, with a dazed expression.

Li Xun Huan was puzzled and asked:

"what happened?"

"My father..." Lou Yi couldn't think of any words for a while.

"What about him?" Li Xun Huan suddenly became interested.

Lou Yi opened the corner of his mouth:

"Actually, sometimes I think he is as perverted as Liu Shui."

Li Xun Huan's expression froze, Lou Yi smiled and continued:

"I remember when I was a child, who told him that I was afraid of bugs, so he asked someone to lock me in a hut, put a sack of bugs in, and made me hungry for three or five meals... ..”

"And then?" Li Xun Huan's voice tightened.

"Then... I was so hungry that I grabbed the worm and ate it. After I came out, I was never afraid of the worm. Now that I think about it, what is so terrible about the worm? It is the fish and I am the knife. Who would listen to it?" Will you be afraid of the meat under the blade?" Lou Yi's expression was calm, seeing Li Xun Huan frowning slightly, he said:

"Actually, this method is very effective. You must not have thought that I was ever afraid of bugs, did you?"

"It's effective, but it's brutal." Li Xun Huan sighed a little, everyone has some weaknesses, using this method to erase weaknesses is even sad for an adult, let alone a child.

Lou Yi laughed again, but didn't care:

"It's a good thing no one told him that I was afraid of jackals at the time. Otherwise, I'm afraid I'm full of wolves now, so I wouldn't have the opportunity to talk to you here."

"Your father really knows how to do this?" Li Xunhuan's expression became even weirder.

Lou Yi shrugged, "Who knows, don't worry about running out of things, go to bed quickly, I'll be sleepy if you're not sleepy!"

Li Xunhuan was stuffed back into the quilt by Lou Yiqiang, he blinked his tired eyes, thinking in his heart... that he would really meet Lou's father someday, this way of educating children is really unique... ....In a daze, he heard Lou Yi's low laughing voice again:

"You... think too much and be too gentle. This is not a good thing. I don't know which girl will be cheaper in the future..."

Hearing this, Li Xunhuan's mind inexplicably jumped out of the image of the flowing water at that time, and shrank slightly into the quilt, um...he has fallen asleep......

The author has something to say: the third watch is over, someone's words are coming out =3=

Let me build a Q∧Q that is not Lun’s family to open v or have a small partner to accompany me

The paws of Lun’s family are already healed~ You can use both paws~Thank you for your previous condolences~