There is a price to be paid for cheating food and drinking

Jiang Dongnan didn't expect to meet Qi Yu in this fish-smelling small town. He was shocked at first and then surprised. After calculating, the last time the two met was half a year ago.

His grades were not good, and the combined scores of all subjects in the simulation were less than 200 points. After a discussion with his family, he decided to enroll him in a specialist.

Jiang Dongnan didn't like studying at first, so he agreed without even thinking about it. At that time, the school was optimistic about it, so he just waited for the letter at home.

Unexpectedly, there was an accident at home in the end, so I didn’t go there, so I followed my uncle to Yujia Town and built a pond. After earning money, I wanted to start a business, so I took some money from home and opened a hot pot restaurant .

I did earn a lot of money in the first few months, but in the fourth month, a customer got drunk in the store and lost the customer that day.

The store was suspended for a month for investigation, and the remaining [-] savings were compensated to the family members.After the matter was resolved, Jiangdongnan had nothing but a shop whose rent was due for half a year.

Just when he felt that he was at the lowest point in his life, he met Qi Yu, and what made him even more unexpected was that he was not the one who had the worst time.

The worst was Qi Yu, who came to the store to find a job.

He was taken aback when he saw Jiang Dongnan, and soon his face returned to normal, and he apologized embarrassingly: "Sorry, I didn't know you were the boss here, so I'll go to another place and ask."

Jiang Dongnan pulled him back with a sullen face, and said the first sentence after more than a year. He asked, "Why are you here? Aren't you in college at this time?"

Qi Yu looked at him, forced a smile, "I dropped out of school."

Jiang Dongnan was stunned, and blurted out without thinking: "Feng Jiayang's fault?"

"No," Qi Yu quickly explained, "It has nothing to do with him."

Later, no matter what Jiang Dongnan asked, Qi Yu kept silent and simply didn't bother to talk to him.

Although there was basically no business in the store at that time, and the income was not enough to make ends meet, Jiang Dongnan still let him stay.

He dragged him to drink every day, until one day, Jiang Dongnan noticed Qi Yu's movements from time to time, and asked him inexplicably, "Why are your hands shaking? Are you cold?"

After finishing speaking, he looked at Qi Yu's clothes, a sweater and a cotton jacket, obviously wearing more than anyone else, "Did you catch a cold?"

Qi Yu shook his head and explained: "No, it must be some nerve that was stretched while sleeping, and it's been jumping non-stop lately."

Jiang Dongnan frowned slightly, stretched out his hand to touch Qi Yu's arm, and said displeasedly, "Come with me to the hospital tomorrow."

Qi Yu smiled: "No, I'm really fine, I'll be fine in a few days."

Jiang Dongnan glared at the good-for-nothing Qi Yu, knowing that he cared about money, he wanted to scold him for what he deserved, but finally held back, and said to him irresistibly: "You don't need to pay for it."

Early the next morning, Qi Yu went to the neurology department. He wanted to hide it, but the doctor got out of it with a few words, so he had to tell all about his symptoms.

Jiang Dongnan stayed with him the whole time. If he hadn't heard from Qi Yu himself, he really wouldn't have known that Qi Yu's physical condition was so bad.

After a series of examinations, the doctor said to Qi Yu: "Your hand tremor is physiological, and it has something to do with your own emotions and external stimuli."

He looked up at Qi Yu, straightened the glasses hanging on his nose, and asked, "You're only 19 years old, why can't you fall asleep with so much on your mind, do your parents know?"

Qi Yu lowered his head in embarrassment, Jiang Dongnan at the side replied for him: "My parents are busy with work."

The doctor looked at the two brothers in front of him, and complained in front of them: "There are no such parents, let them ask for leave next time."

After finishing speaking, the topic was brought back: "You are still a little anxious, I will prescribe you some medicine to relieve sleep and anxiety, you take it for two weeks and see, if this situation persists, I suggest Go to a psychiatrist to see if there is depression."

He did not forget to say: "When the time comes, call your parents to accompany you."

Qi Yu said "hmm", and he replied with a smile: "It's not depression, I don't have any thoughts of suicide."

Two weeks later, Qi Yu's symptoms did not abate, and finally Qi Yu went to the psychology department under Jiang Dongnan's coercion.

Afterwards, it took nearly two years of treatment. The doctor in the psychology department was a grandma, and every time Qi Yu chatted with her, he would think of his grandma.Gradually he let his guard down and was happy to talk to her, and he would go to grandma's house to sit for a while after he got off the drug.

He still remembers the day when grandma told him not to come to the hospital again, and happily opened the drawer and gave him a handwritten medical record.The book was carefully sorted out, Qi Yu held it in his hand, his eyes turned red instantly, grandma said: "Sometimes facing the past directly is the best medicine."

2016. 11, 28

When seeing the patient for the first time, his complexion was slightly pale, his eyes were dull when he saw the doctor, he was nervous and accompanied by physiological hand shaking, anorexia, vomiting after eating, difficulty falling asleep, slightly confused word order, willing to laugh but unwilling to speak, no manic attack behavior, the patient The mother had depressive behavior and committed suicide twice, but the patient said that she had no suicidal thoughts.

2016. 12, 13

The complexion is normal, and retching will occur about 10 minutes after eating. Recently, he woke up after sleep with sweating, neurasthenia, still smiling but impatient, but can carry on a small amount of conversation, and again emphasizes that he has no suicidal thoughts.

2017. 1, 3

She eats better, is in a good mood, and is willing to talk about her childhood experiences. The phenomenon of hand tremors has weakened, and it will appear briefly when recalling past experiences. When narrating, the word order is slow, and the volume gradually decreases. She has no suicidal thoughts.

2017. 1, 15

The patient likes children, and when he mentions children, his eyes light up unconsciously, but he has no obvious plans for the future. He thinks that life is full of failures, encourages him to go to the nursing class to find a job, appears hesitant and cowardly, and still has no suicidal thoughts.

2017. 2, 1

During the fifth visit, I talked about my high school experience for the first time. I suffered from verbal violence for more than a year. When I talked about it, my eyes dodged and I would think wildly. I was worried that the violence would attack my good friend. I chose to escape and leave without suicidal thoughts. Life is not interesting.

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2017. 4, 8

Successfully entered the nursing class to work, with a normal mood, and chose to be closed again to the past in the third year of high school, showing a state of self-protection, sleeping more, and not committing suicide.

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2017. 8, 10

He took the initiative to mention his childhood and high school experience, and his mood was stable, but when he talked about his good friends, his eyes would appear absent-minded, his breathing would be short of breath, his hands would be unconsciously clasped together, he was slightly irritable, and he had no suicidal thoughts.

2017. 9, 30

He has a good attitude, his condition has improved, and he has no suicidal thoughts.

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2017. 12, 25

Take the initiative to send Christmas gifts, with a gentle attitude, will bring up recent events, gradually reduce the dose of medicine, and have no suicidal thoughts.

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2018. 8, 27

Everything is normal, no suicidal thoughts.May you stay away from the world and meet your friends as soon as possible.

The book records every time Qi Yu visited a doctor, a total of 48 times in two years, no matter how helpless he is every time, he only has one thought, he wants to live, and wants to know whether Feng Jiayang is doing well or not.

As for the final destination of the book, it was buried underground in Yujia Town as early as the day Qi Yu decided to go to the capital. This unbearable memory should not have followed him forever.