Dressed as a high-risk occupation

Seven days later, Duanyun Wangfu.

All the maids and servants in the whole mansion were newly recruited. On the first day they entered the mansion, they saw King Duan Yun smashing the mirror like crazy, smashing all the things that could reflect people's shadows. They are not allowed to light the lamp.

So everyone knew that King Duanyun had a bad temper, so he was very cautious in everything he did, and he didn't dare to say a word in a big way, and he didn't even dare to make a sound when he walked on weekdays.

The main house is very big, Shen Yan specially asked someone to change the big bed earlier, it is more than enough for two people to sleep.

There were no lights in the house, and it was dark.

With a sound of "squeak", Yingchen came in with porridge and side dishes, and walked lightly.

Yingchen often haunts in the dark, and his night vision ability is very good. In addition, the maids in the mansion are afraid and dare not send them in, so he does everything by himself.

The doors and windows in the house were kept tightly closed, the air was extremely stagnant, and the dried blood still had a strong smell of blood.

Yingchen slightly opened the window, and saw the slightly protruding body on the bed move.

Shen Yan's voice was extremely hoarse: "Close it."

Yingchen breathed lightly, and persuaded in a low voice: "Your Highness, let's ventilate, it won't do your body any good."

Shen Yan just repeated: "Close it."

Yingchen had no choice but to close the window.

"Your Highness, let's eat something, you already..."

As he was walking, his foot suddenly stepped on something, and he picked it up only to find that it was a small gourd.

If I remember correctly, it should be given to him by Jiang Wen'an. His Highness used to be very precious about this little thing.

He sighed inwardly, and silently put away the little gourd.

The further you went in, the stronger the smell of blood became, and the air filled with the smell of rotting meat.

Yingchen was startled, and hurriedly stepped forward to lift Shen Yan's leg to check.

It was really hard to see clearly in the dark, but the rancid smell was overwhelming.

"Your Highness, your legs!"

"Get out!" Shen Yan kicked hard to prevent him from touching it.

He trembled and said in a deep voice, "Get out."

"Your Highness!" Ying Chen couldn't watch him sink down anymore, but when he hugged his leg, he found that there was still something attached to his leg.

It was cold, and he touched it, only to find that it was a dagger.

He picked it up from the fire, and Jiang Wen'an left it behind.

At this moment, the dagger was stuck in Shen Yan's leg, at the wound.

Yingchen had suffered many injuries, and he was already able to kill people without blinking an eye, but even so, he still felt terrified.

Just now Shen Yan pushed him hard, at this moment blood flowed out from the wound again, wet Ying Chen's hand.

"Your Highness, why are you doing this?"

This time Shen Yan didn't have the strength to push him anymore, and muttered something in his mouth.

"what?"

Ying Chen didn't pull out the dagger rashly, and leaned closer to hear the words muttered in Shen Yan's mouth clearly.

"It hurts so much," he said.

The pain in the body can temporarily relieve the pain in the heart, Shen Yan personally tested it to be effective.

"Your Highness, cheer up, there are still many things to do, brothers from all sides are ready, just wait for Jiayuan's team to arrive. It's almost there, Your Highness, you can't fall down at this time. "

Shen Yan slowly raised his hand to touch his face, closed his eyes and gently touched his eyelids.

Ying Chen could see the movement of his body outline clearly, and immediately became nervous.

When Jiang Mansion was on fire, Huo Qing knocked Shen Yan unconscious before Jiang Wen'an was taken away by Fei Yan.

At night, he had a high fever, and he called mister drowsily, but he stopped calling when he woke up, and just lay on the bed in a daze and looked up.

After regaining some strength, he yelled for someone to arrest the person who went to school in the same yard as Jiang Wen'an, but unexpectedly, the person who was arrested was Jiang Zongzuo whom he met in Nanzhou earlier.

Jiang Zongzuo originally wanted to catch up with Jiang Wen'an, but when his name was mentioned, Shen Yan's face changed suddenly, and he asked him about Tong Yuwan.

Jiang Zongzuo was trembling, but he didn't dare to hide it, so he told everything he knew.

"I did hear that he fell in love with a woman at first sight. Huo Qing seemed to know about it. Yes, it was the national teacher. The relationship between the two of them was not very good, but Huo Qing would actually take care of him in private."

Shen Yan was impatient and just told him to pick up the important ones.

He once asked Huo Qing, but he was unwilling to reveal half of it.

"At that time, he didn't deliberately hide it. There were quite a few people who knew about it. As for who the woman was, we have no way of knowing. We only know that he seemed to be asking for it, and since then he has been hanging around fireworks more often. place."

He carefully looked at Shen Yan's expression and found that there was no big wave on his face, so he continued: "I heard that most of the people he likes are somewhat similar to that woman, which shows the deep affection, but now he With Your Highness, naturally..."

Shen Yan took a deep breath and interrupted him: "Does it matter whether it's male or female?"

"Is he the one he likes? Yes." Jiang Zongzuo seemed to be used to it, "It's not unusual for him to take all men and women."

"How old are they?... The people he played with..."

"This... I heard that he likes older ones, but I heard that he once forced a thirteen or fourteen-year-old boy because the man's eyes looked too similar to that woman's. At that time, he hadn't passed the exam yet. Fame, but these are casually mentioned among classmates, and I don’t know if it’s true or not.”

"enough."

Shen Yan felt that even breathing was a little painful.

After basically confirming, he wanted to destroy his eyes like crazy.

Ying Chen was terrified, and it was only by moving out of Shen Shinan that he dispelled the idea.

At this time, he didn't dare to mention Tong Yuwan, for fear of touching his heartache.

But he still wants to avenge his father, and he can't hurt himself.

Shen Yan listened, so he started smashing all the things in the mansion that allowed him to see his eyes.

Under the violent action, the wound that the doctor had treated him when he was unconscious was torn open again. No matter when he was awake or in a state of confusion, he would not let anyone touch him, and just let the blood flow out and coagulate naturally.

Since then, he has been lying on the bed, unable to drink a drop of rice, only willing to drink a few sips of tea occasionally.

Ridiculous, too ridiculous.

The person he has admired for several years and cherished on the tip of his heart is actually because of his mother who keeps him by his side.

What has been done in the past is vivid.

Holding hands, hugging, kissing, and...

Shen Yan closed his eyes, if that person was thinking about his mother when doing all this with him...

He just felt extremely disgusted at the moment.

These things can't be thought about carefully, Shen Yan feels that he is a big joke.

It hurts, it hurts too much.

How much I loved before, how much I hate now.

Shen Yan closed his eyes, "You can't let this or that, you just kill me, okay?"

Such words are just angry words, Shen Yan understands better than anyone else that he cannot die.

He wanted to avenge his father, and he wanted to capture that man as the emperor, lock him up, punish him, humiliate him, and make him pay the price.

After a long silence, Shen Yan suddenly asked without beginning or end: "Have you found it?"

Shadow Chen reacted immediately.

He shook his head: "Our people searched extensively outside, but we haven't found any traces of Fei Yan and Jiang...they."

Shen Yan nodded slightly: "Keep looking."

He said every word: "To live, to see people, to die, to see, to see, corpses."

Shadow Chen hesitated.

Although he didn't know what Jiang Wen'an's difficulties were, but he had seen Fei Yan's face and the close relationship between the two, and he was afraid that His Highness would be hurt again because of his persistence.

He really wanted to persuade Shen Yan to let it go and forget about him, but he didn't dare to speak.

"Yes."

He hesitated for a moment, but swallowed the words back to his stomach, fearing that if he said it at this moment, it would cause secondary harm to His Highness.

After a while, Shen Yan said again: "Go to Tinglan Garden tomorrow."

Yingchen paused, thinking about what he said just now, and stopped him no longer, "Your Highness, treat the wound first, so that you can go out tomorrow."

Shen Yan didn't respond, nor did he fiercely resist.

Fortunately, the autumn wind has arrived and the weather is getting cooler. The wound is not so easy to damage, but the situation is still not optimistic.

When pulling out the dagger, Shen Yan said nothing, as if he could no longer feel the pain.

"Your Highness, let's have some porridge to cushion your stomach."

"Ah."

*

Jiang Wen'an now lives in a place far away from Yanjing, in a small village with simple folk customs on the outskirts.

In the days when he didn't think about anything, he practiced calligraphy every day.

In order not to let people see his flaws, he tried his best to imitate the characters of "Jiang Wen'an", which has already formed muscle memory. Now he wants to correct it and change it back to his own handwriting.

Jin Yan had already taken off his veil, his handsome face was as expressionless as ever, and when he was delivering food to Jiang Wen'an, he just snorted resentfully, and his expression finally changed a bit.

Ten days ago, he told Jiang Wen'an about his other mission.

In addition to helping Jiang Wen'an complete the task, his second task was to ensure that Jiang Wen'an could go back with him, and to ensure this result, he had to cut off his emotional connection with Shen Yan.

Jiang Wen'an had promised him a condition earlier, and this was what he wanted to exchange.

But Jiang Wen'an found that he couldn't let go, the more he got along with Shen Yan, the harder it would be to leave, and he couldn't set a specific date to leave.

So when Zhu Ru's incident happened, he decided to leave Shen Yan, and wanted to take advantage of the situation to escape to death, making Shen Yan think that he was dead, and since then he had forgotten about him, and erased everything from the past.

Jiang Wen'an's psychology is actually very contradictory. He is afraid that Yanyan will really forget him, and he sincerely hopes that he will not miss him.

Gossip's move just brought an end to all this.

Knowing everything, Yanyan should hate him to the core, right?

For a person who did such a thing, he shouldn't have the slightest pity, right?

He didn't want to leave a good impression in Shen Yan's memory, let him remember it in pain for the rest of his life, he would rather make him loathe himself and become someone he didn't want to think about.

All this may have been a mistake.

fair enough.

Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain.

After eating two mouthfuls of noodles, Jiang Wen'an retched again. He couldn't eat much in the past few days, and most of what he ate was vomited out.

Fei Yan also cooked pork porridge, but Jiang Wen'an never wanted to drink it.

He once did it for Yanyan, according to the modern practice, Yanyan liked it very much.

But now he can't see these things related to Yanyan.

He knew that he would get used to it, but right now he just wanted to be naive and not to see or hear.

"Since you have made a decision, don't think too much about it. It's useless to think too much."

"I know."

Jiang Wen'an knew Shen Yan very well, and knew that he would definitely accomplish the goal they had been working hard for before, and he would definitely accomplish it very well.

He also believes that Yanyan will become a good emperor who works diligently and loves the people, and will benefit the people of the world. In this regard, he trusts his Yanyan very much.

The more he thought about it, the more his thoughts diverged, and he thought that Yanyan would have a queen and concubines in the future, and there would be many, many people by his side.

He will never be alone again.

He should be happy, but Jiang Wenan's nose felt a little sore.

He lowered his head, and finally took a mouthful of pork porridge and put it into his mouth, but the tears in his eyes could no longer be suppressed, falling drop by drop into the bowl.

Jiang Wen'an seldom cried, at least he didn't like to cry in front of others, but he secretly shed all his tears these days, and this time he shed tears in front of Jin Yan.

He didn't bother to wipe away his tears, he just ate the porridge bit by bit.

After a moment of silence, Jin Yan comforted, "It will be fine if you go back."

He paused, and continued: "Actually, there are many people in the real world who like you."

Jiang Wen'an's popularity has always been very good.

Even if he was misunderstood as gay for a while, the boys played with him and played together without any grievances.

"And this is just the world in the novel, it's all fake, don't take it seriously."

Jiang Wen'an froze for a moment, "Is it fake?"

But all this is very real, the heartbeat is real, and the pain is also felt.

It almost made Jiang Wenan forget that all of this might just be nothingness.

"If you really like that face, then I..."

"I like him."

"I just like him."