Survive in the world of Red Mansions

Yan Hong leaned against the beauty couch under the window, the warm sunlight in winter shone in from the outside, and it was very comfortable to bask in the warmth of her body. During this time, she always recalled some past events, maybe she was really human. When I get old, I start to like to recall the past.

After so many years, I have almost forgotten all the memories of my parents, I only remember that my father is a grumpy

Every day, the man went to work in the fields early in the morning, worked hard all day, and yelled at his mother when he got home.Although my mother went to work in the field every day like my father, but when I got home, I still had to cook, feed the chickens, feed the ducks, and take care of the few sisters.Years of non-stop hard work, the whole family's life is still very difficult, her face has aged early, and the woman who is less than [-] years old looks like she is in her forties.

Even after being so busy all year long, I still can't even eat enough, let alone eat meat for the last time.Because the four in front of my family are all girls, my grandma gave me a bad look when she saw my mother.When I was 6 years old, as my grandparents, parents and the whole family expected, my family finally had a boy. Unfortunately, the arrival of this boy did not change the poverty situation of this family in any way.

It was also in this year that a matchmaker came to their small village and saw that she was beautiful, so she bought her life for 5 taels of silver.

Until the day he was sold, his parents didn't give him an official name, so he was called Sanya after he came down from Da Ya and Er Ya.

After being bought by the matchmaker, I saw many little girls who were about the same age as me, and these little girls were arranged together.Waking up every morning, you have to start learning various skills, such as piano, chess, calligraphy, painting, female red, how to serve people, and secret arts in the house.I spent every day in these studies, and those who did not study hard or did not study well were not allowed to eat and were often beaten.Those foster nuns are very perverted, and they use endless torture methods to torture these little girls to death, but they will not leave any traces on their bodies. Children who dare to cry will be tortured even harder.

Ten years passed like this, until I was given to the master, and at this time I got the name Yan Hong.

What was it like when you first came to the Lin Mansion?Now I can't remember clearly, I just remember that when I first met the master, I was relieved and very happy with the master.Young, handsome, and gentle, this is very good, it is better than giving yourself to an old man or pervert.

But it took a long time to feel that the master came to their room, it felt more like he was here to complete a task, maybe except for his wife, it was almost the same for everyone else.After the wife gave birth to a son and a daughter, the master basically did not come to their room.

Until some time after the wife passed away, the master started to come to their yard occasionally to rest at night. At this time, there were only four people left in the backyard, including her.

Yanhong doesn't know if a man will have such a big change in a few years, and she doesn't know if the other sisters have noticed it, but Yanhong has always had a feeling that after the death of his wife, the master has changed a lot. , Yan Hong felt that the master seemed to be a different person.However, Yanhong never expressed this idea, it doesn't matter if it's a different person, the current master is better for her, so what's wrong with this change?

Of course it doesn't refer to external changes, but the kind of internal changes. The former master came to her to spend the night and rarely spoke on the way of making love/love. It felt like completing a task.

I don't know if it's the same in other people's place, but Yan Hong only knows that after this change, when the master spends the night in her room, although he doesn't talk much more than before, in the process of joy/love, there will be madness When you are wild, but you will also ask her gently and gently, take care of her very much, and be considerate of her feelings, making you feel that this man cherishes you.Yanhong also knew that this should be an illusion, and the master might just regard this gentleness as a habit, but what does it matter?

When Madam was still there, although as a regular wife, Madam was considered a generous person and was never strict with them, but they were still a little afraid of Madam, because they were afraid that if they offended Madam's eyes, they would be punished. The fate of being sold or dying, the master will not interfere with the decision of the wife under normal circumstances, so it can be said that the fate of these people is in the hands of the wife.

After the wife passed away, the master did not marry a new person, and the few of them who stayed to serve the concubines and aunts had a better life than before.The master would come here one or two, two or three times a month. He didn't favor anyone in particular, but he didn't neglect anyone, and he always provided them with rich clothes and good food.In such a situation, the relationship between the few of them has gradually improved. They have no children, and they also gather together to chat and laugh in their spare time, and they can pass the time better.

The master has gone, and her sisters have gone, and she is alone, and she can often recall the past.The master is much older than them. Before he passed away, he specially ordered the uncle not to let them go to the family temple or the ancestral house of his hometown in Suzhou after he left. There is poverty there. I am afraid that they will not be able to bear this kind of hardship. Find a Zhuangzi near the capital and move them all there.

After arriving in Zhuangzi, the sisters went out for a walk every day, looking at the countryside, tending flowers and plants, and keeping each other company. Thinking of those disputes back then, it is funny now.

In the past, I always wanted to have a child, to have my own child to accompany me, so that my time would not be so difficult, but unfortunately I have not been able to do so.Thinking back now, in my life, I didn't seem to be so sad without my own children.In the memory, my mother's old face of working for many years, compared with myself now, it seems that there is nothing dissatisfied!

Thinking about her life, Yan Hong suffered a lot in her early years, and she didn't end up with a full house of children and grandchildren like many people, but the rest of her life is really comfortable and peaceful, and now she can afford the years of peace and stability in this world !

Sanya, who came out of a poor mountain village, got this result, there is nothing wrong with it, isn't it? !