Married?Amnesia, don't lie to me

Song Linsheng's switching time in the past two days has become normal, [-]:[-] in the morning and [-]:[-] in the evening.

Shi Nan breathed a sigh of relief. During this period of time, he concluded that as long as the account switching is not normal, there must be some fluctuations in Song Linsheng's heart, so normal switching is a stable signal.

But there are still some changes in getting along with each other. Song Linsheng at night is fine. The two of them cook after get off work as before, eat together at night, kiss and hug each other, and occasionally relieve each other manually. Now Shi Nan doesn't force himself to go further. That's fine too.

Of course, Shi Nan now has one more task, which is to confess to him every day: "Song Linsheng, I love you, I love you to the point of death."

This sentence was like a sedative, even if Song Linsheng had some thoughts in his mind, he would immediately calm down after hearing this sentence.

But something was wrong with Song Linsheng during the day, he was hiding from Shi Nan.

Ever since Shi Nan said that he would treat everyone equally, he found that Song Xiaobai was avoiding him.

Just like the two of them having lunch together now, Song Linsheng is sitting behind the desk, while he is sitting on the sofa, the meals for the two are still separate, each serving a portion.

Shi Nan poked the rice with a spoon, staring at Song Linsheng. Song Linsheng ate with his head down, seemingly oblivious to Shi Nan's gaze.

Shi Nan stood up abruptly, and at the same time, Song Linsheng's chair slid back.

Shi Nan gritted his teeth and walked forward, put his hands on the table and looked at him: "Song Linsheng, are you hiding from me?"

"I didn't." Song Linsheng looked at him innocently, "Did I hide from you?"

Shi Nan took a step behind the desk, Song Linsheng stood up abruptly and stretched out his hand: "Don't come here."

Shi Nan: "..."

"What's wrong, am I poisonous?" Shi Nan glared at him.

"It's not poisonous, so I think...working hours...should pay attention to the effects." Song Linsheng took a step back.

"It's time for a lunch break." Shi Nan took a step forward.

"You have to be pure-minded, you can't act like...like a..." Song Linsheng retreated to the wall.

Shi Nan gritted his teeth and stared at him, saying that he wanted to be pure-hearted and ascetic, did he think he was a pervert?

Shi Nan squinted his eyes and walked forward step by step. Song Linsheng had no way to retreat, so he turned around and planned to go out from the other side.

"Stand there and don't move." Shi Nan suddenly roared.

After Song Linsheng hesitated, Shi Nan had already walked over.

Shi Nan watched Song Linsheng reach out his hand, Song Linsheng sighed helplessly: "What do you want to do?"

"What did I do?" Shi Nan rubbed forward, rubbing against Song Linsheng's arms.

Song Linsheng's hands were hanging by his side, a little stiff.

"Hold me." Shi Nan ordered him.

"Shi Nan..."

"Shut up." Shi Nan grabbed his hands and put them on his waist.

Before, he pretended to be another one to give him a kiss and hug, but now he wants to refuse to give him a chance to hug him openly, heh.

Song Linsheng raised his hand and rubbed Shi Nan's head, and smiled helplessly. In fact, Shi Nan's little thoughts can be easily guessed if he thinks carefully.

The words of amnesia that he seemed to say unintentionally that day were not unintentional but intentional.

Song Linsheng felt sorry for him.

At [-]:[-] in the afternoon, Song Linsheng sat up from the bed, first pressed the pain on his forehead, and then turned on the phone.

The first message that came in turned out to be from "him".

——I'm going to see Mei Qingyi.

Song Linsheng held the phone and replied to him after a long time.

--it is good.

Song Linsheng opened the door to go out, Shi Nan observed him for a while: "What did you have for dinner last night?"

"Sweet and sour pork ribs." Song Linsheng said.

Shi Nan smiled, walked over and kissed him.

Song Linsheng went to the kitchen to cook, Shi Nan took an apple and bit into it, feeding Song Linsheng a mouthful from time to time.

"Eat less, eat right away."

"The old lady downstairs said she was going abroad to accompany her grandson, and I agreed with her to rent her house."

"Okay, it's close, it's good."

Song Linsheng was a little absent-minded, and Shi Nan was also a little absent-minded. After everything returned to normal, he suddenly didn't know what to do.

He didn't know if Song Linsheng listened to the amnesia words he said intentionally or unintentionally, and he didn't dare to ask too bluntly for fear of irritating him.

It seems that he will have to look for Mei Qingyi another day.

At lunch the next day, Song Linsheng told him that he was going on a business trip. Shi Nan was a little surprised: "Business trip?"

"Yes, about three to five days." Song Linsheng was still far away from him, afraid that Shi Nan would touch him.

Shi Nan frowned: "Three or five days, then... can you do this?"

"Okay." Song Linsheng glanced at him, "We've always been like this before."

"Oh." Shi Nan pouted, "Then you two are great."

"You go back at night and tell him to pack your luggage, thank you." Song Linsheng said.

At night, when Shi Nan told Song Linsheng that Song Xiaobai was going on a business trip, Song Linsheng didn't seem surprised at all. He just stood up and went to the bedroom to pack his luggage. Shi Nan was a little worried: "Is it really okay for you to do this?"

"No, we've always been like this."

Shi Nan: "..."

Well, he was overthinking.

Shi Nan suddenly felt that the two of them were pretty good, and he seemed redundant.

Song Linsheng drove to a resort center in the suburbs. Because it was not a holiday, there were not many people in the resort center.

Song Linsheng drove the car to a small three-story building and stopped, and the person sitting outside the house reading and drinking coffee under the umbrella looked up.

When Song Linsheng got out of the car, he stood up and walked over.

"Long time no see." Mei Qingyi smiled and reached out to him.

Song Linsheng glanced at him, then shook his hand expressionlessly.

"I didn't expect you to call me." Mei Qingyi didn't hide her surprise at all.

"I didn't expect that I would call you one day." Song Linsheng sat down on the chair and crossed his legs.

"Then why are you looking for me?" Mei Qingyi observed Song Linsheng's state. She hadn't seen him for many years. Song Linsheng was about the same as when he was young, and his expression management was very good. It was very difficult to see the clues from his face and eyes. matter.

"I'm looking for you for an examination." Song Linsheng said flatly.

"Examination?" Mei Qingyi raised her eyebrows, "I'm a psychiatrist."

"I know." Song Linsheng looked at the high hanging sun, "I'll give you three days to come to a conclusion."

Song Linsheng went on a business trip, and when Nan was left alone at home, he was used to living with Song Linsheng, but suddenly he was not used to being alone at home.

The old lady downstairs vacated the house, and before leaving, she asked the cleaner to clean the house from the inside to the outside, so that she could move in with her bags.

Shi Nan picked up Ding Yu from the hotel, and Ding Yu was very happy to live upstairs and downstairs.

After Ding Yu moved here, he went to Shi Nan's house to cook a meal for him.

There was no one else at home, only Ding Yu and him, Shi Nan felt a little embarrassed.

He has never lacked the warmth of his family. Shi Haiping gave him fatherly love, his aunt gave him maternal love, and Sangyan Sangwan. They are an ordinary family, noisy and warm.

With the appearance of Gu Shuwei and Ding Yu, Shi Nan felt sympathetic and close to him, but he couldn't immediately enter the identity of his son. Gu Shuwei and Ding Yu naturally understood, so they never forced him, which made Shi Nan Nan felt even more guilty.

"When you were young, you liked to eat the egg fried rice I made the most. You should add corn kernels instead of green beans. If you add green beans, you will pick them out. The eggs should be very small, and you won't eat them if they are too big. You can't have chopped green onions. .”

Shi Nan leaned against the door and listened, and suddenly smiled: "Actually, I am the same now, I don't like to eat green beans."

"Really?" Ding Yu was a little happy.

When Ding Yu was cooking, a strand of hair slipped past his ear and fell in front of his eyes. Ding Yu put down the shovel and took a step back, untied the hair rope and tied his hair again. After washing his hands, he picked up the shovel again.

When Shi Nan saw this action, he was suddenly in a daze, and a blurry scene flashed before his eyes.

A slender woman stood by the window, bathing in the dusk. Her hair was not long, and was tied loosely behind her head. Every strand of her hair exuded the unique gentleness of women.

The home was filled with the smell of food, and there was a loud voice: "Xiao Bei, come out, let's see what Dad bought for you?"

"Dragon beard candy, it's dragon beard candy." The child laughed and yelled, and the man picked him up and circled him.

……

"Nannan?"

Shi Nan suddenly came back to his senses: "Mom, I want to eat dragon beard candy."

Ding Yu was stunned for a moment, and suddenly tears filled his eyes: "Okay, okay, wait for mom to make it for you tomorrow."

Shi Nan bent down and hugged Ding Yu, at this moment he suddenly felt aggrieved and nostalgic, as if at a certain moment he had called "Mom, where are you?" countless times, but no one responded to him.

This kind of nostalgia seems to be different from the pampering given to him by his aunt.

Shi Nan was very satisfied with the simple dinner. After the meal, Shi Nan watched TV with Ding Yu, and made a video with Gu Shu. Seeing the two of them together, Gu Shu wanted to buy a plane ticket and fly over immediately.

Shi Nan smiled and said: "Dad, Mom said that I will make dragon beard candy for me tomorrow, and I will save it for you, and we will eat together when you come."

Gu Shuwei looked at Shi Nan and suddenly hung up the video.

"What's wrong?" Shi Nan was a little confused.

"It's okay." Ding Yu patted him, "I guess I've found a place to cry. There was a grandfather who sold dragon beard candy in the alley where we lived before. Your father often took you to buy it secretly. Eating candy is good for your teeth." Not good, because he has been scolded by me a lot for this."

Ding Yu touched Shi Nan's hair: "That was the time of your father and son."

Shi Nan hugged Ding Yu and put his head on her shoulder: "From now on, it will be our family of three, no, the time of our family of four."

The two chatted and talked about Song Linsheng.

"His father is really not a thing. He who beat his mother was cruel." After so many years, Ding Yu is still very angry when he thinks about it. "Drinking, gambling and beating women is a scum."

"Did he beat Song Linsheng too?" Shi Nan's heart ached.

"No." Ding Yu sighed, "Just such a man, he is very precious to his son. Every time he wins money outside, he goes to buy food for the child first. Fortunately, he is good to the child, otherwise Lin Sheng would have suffered a lot when he was young." Bitter."

"At that time, I secretly persuaded Lin Sheng's mother to let her divorce, but his mother said that divorce is not good for children, and if divorced, she would not bear to have children, and she would not be able to support children if she did. At that time, Lin Sheng His father is still a regular employee of a small factory, and the family of three depends on his salary to support him, and the house is also his."

"What happened later?" Shi Nan asked.

"Then it was the night when you and Lin Sheng disappeared. Your dad and I both worked overtime that night and left you at Grandma Liu's house next door. You often went to play with Lin Sheng, but your grandma Liu didn't care. Then suddenly a fire broke out, and the fire burned down Lin Sheng's house and even ours."

"At first we thought you and Lin Sheng were burned to death." Ding Yu was still trembling when he mentioned the past, and he calmed down before continuing, "Later, the police only found two bodies, and after identification, they were Lin Sheng parents, but you and Lin Sheng are gone."

"How did the fire start?"

Ding Yu held Shi Nan's hand: "The police said that Lin Sheng's mother killed his father, and then set it on fire."

Shi Nan's eyes widened, and then he stood there dumbfounded. He never thought that this was the reason.

Could it be that Song Linsheng saw his mother kill his father that night?

What a shadow that would be.

That night, Shi Nan tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep, as soon as he closed his eyes, it was Song Linsheng.

In the middle of the night, Shi Nan couldn't bear it anymore and sent Song Linsheng a message.

Song Linsheng was sitting on the balcony of the holiday center smoking a cigarette when he received the message. He didn't know whether it was right or wrong to come to Mei Qingyi this time.

He used to hate this world and this body so much, he wanted to leave this world and sleep forever.

He thought that he had created another clean self, that he could start over and spend the rest of his life with Shi Nan cleanly, but now he suddenly had to accept the fact that everything seemed to be imagined by him. Another Song Linsheng, there is no other clean and simple Song Linsheng, some may be Song Linsheng who is as painful as him.

Song Linsheng snuffed out the cigarette in his hand, and lit another.

It took a long time before he picked up his phone and clicked on Shi Nan's message.

Song Linsheng, I love you more today than yesterday.

Every day I will love you more than the day before.

The smoke held by Song Linsheng burned slowly, and finally burned to the fingertips. The burning feeling made Song Linsheng feel a little bit like he was still in the world.

Song Linsheng suddenly let out a low laugh, now he has no way to escape, even if there are mountains of swords and flames in front of him, he has to grit his teeth and go on, and cannot leave Shi Nan alone.

Shi Nan didn't sleep all night, tossed and turned until morning, when he saw the rising sun, the words he sent in the dark felt a little nasty, but he had already sent them, and he couldn't take them back.

Now that this is the case, we can't favor one person over another, after all, we must treat everyone equally.

So Shi Nan also sent the same words to Song Xiaobai.

Song Linsheng, who had just recovered, made a cup of espresso, and heard the phone ring before drinking it.

Song Linsheng, I love you more today than yesterday.

Every day I will love you more than the day before.

Song Linsheng looked at this message, feeling less pleasantly surprised, but more envious and jealous.

After all, he thought that his relationship with Shi Nan hadn't developed enough to be able to post such nasty messages.

Shi Nan sent this message to that person, but because he treats everyone equally, he can only be regarded as a bonus.

Song Linsheng came to the window with coffee and looked at the flowers, plants and trees bathed in the morning sun. He hated this world, this body, and these memories so much, but one day he would be nostalgic for these because of one person.