You said you liked me earlier

?? He Cheng let him go first.

?? Without saying a word, after closing the door, he left directly.

?? After a long time, I didn't come back to make up what I usually said.

?? Xia Yan was thrown into the sea like a fish stuck in the dry mud, gasping for breath.

?? If He Cheng let go of him a second later, maybe he would have kissed him uncontrollably.

??The strength of his whole body was finally drained, and he collapsed on the bed at once. He felt that he might be really sick.

??I'm not interested in finding a girlfriend at this time either.

??He had a premonition that as long as that person wasn't He Cheng, no matter who he was kissing, when he saw He Cheng, he would still be unable to help but want to kiss him.

??——Unless, I personally "satisfy" him.

??…

?? "I scared him."

?? "When he said that he wanted to find a girlfriend, my whole body would die immediately. At that time, it was as if a ghost was on my body. Really, it was only a little bit close. I was so close that I had to ignore his thoughts and kiss him directly. gone."

?? "You know? I even thought at that time, even if everything was ruined by that impulse, as long as it can be destroyed once, it doesn't matter. It's okay, okay, in the end, I held back. Otherwise If not, I don’t even know, I’m still not me now.”

?? "You said, is he going to give up on you too, that's why he plans to find a girlfriend?"

?? "I should agree to him, as long as he can prove that he can like the next person, and not smearing you to the end, then I still have a chance, yes, I should encourage him to find a girlfriend, first let him He gives up on you, let him give up on the next person, and finally, it's my turn."

"But I scared him just now, will he ignore me anymore. Should I call him now to apologize, but, but if he doesn't answer, what should I do?"

??Cheng Chencheng embraced him with a distressed face, and the person with his back against the white wall let her hold him without struggling, with his whole face buried in his arms, muttering to himself in a low voice.

?? She said hoarsely: "Don't think too much, you didn't do anything, Xia Yan won't think too much, so don't think too much, he still regards you as a good friend."

??He Cheng didn't speak anymore. If it wasn't for Cheng Chencheng who could feel his body temperature, he would almost doubt whether the person he was holding was still alive.

??The phone in the pocket suddenly rang.

?? When she heard it, she hurriedly said: "Brother, mobile phone, it must be Xia Yan who called you."

"Impossible." There was no ups and downs in the voice, but she still couldn't hold it back. She withdrew from her arms, took out the phone and glanced at it to see the words clearly. With a trembling right hand, she pressed the connect button.

??Cheng Chencheng looked at him without blinking, and saw that his originally dull and colorless eyes were seeping light little by little. Before she could breathe a sigh of relief, she saw the light again, and it disappeared in an instant.

?? She seemed to be able to empathize with her. At this moment, her heart ached from being grabbed by an unknown hand. She heard He Cheng pretending to be calm and said: "Well, okay, then I'll hang up first."

??Cheng Chencheng didn't dare to ask, he squeezed his mobile phone, and took the initiative to speak out: "He said that he was not looking for a girlfriend anymore, and he even apologized to me, and then asked me when I would go back."

?? "It seems that he is more attached to you than I imagined."

??He Cheng smiled at her, the smile was too sad, Cheng Chencheng hadn't cried for many years, seeing him like this, tears fell down instantly.

?? "It would be great if it was me who could be loved by him so much."

??"elder brother--"

?? "I went back, it's almost time for dinner, I went to the cafeteria to pack for him. I'm fine, just like you said, it's only been less than half a year, and there are still three and a half years. A drop of water can wear a stone. I will try harder Three and a half years, there should be results."

??Cheng Chencheng wiped away tears: "If, I said if, there is really no result?"

?? "Then let's talk about it when the time comes. Maybe I will continue for another four years."

??He Cheng stood up slowly: "That's it, let's go."

??"elder brother!"

?? He didn't move with his back to her.

?? "You don't have to be so inferior."

??She couldn't see his expression, but she had a feeling that he did smile.

?? "Liking someone who doesn't like yourself is a thing that makes people feel inferior. When you meet such a person in the future, you will probably understand. But I hope you will never meet such a person in your life .”

??…

?? After He Cheng came back, neither of them mentioned what happened just now. It was like an accident that didn't need to be remembered. Once he wiped it with an eraser, the traces were gone.

?? Xia Yan naturally couldn't ask He Cheng to help relieve his greed, but correspondingly, he didn't dare to get too close to him.

?? He Cheng could sense it, but this time, he didn't plan to say anything more.

?? The intimate relationship is virtually cracked, and every day, the gap seems to be pulled wider.

??He Cheng's nap time is not fixed, but it will never exceed three o'clock in the afternoon.

??It was unprecedented today, I lay down from one o'clock until five o'clock.

?? Xia Yan raised his head from the desk, looked at the time on the phone, turned around and called He Cheng.

?? The sound is not loud. If He Cheng is awake, he can still hear it.

?? but did not get a response.

??Xia Yan thought her voice was too soft, got up and walked to his bedside, looked in along the wide crack of the bedpost, just in time to see He Cheng's unnaturally red face facing outside.

??His first reaction was that He Cheng had a fever, so he hurriedly went to Li Weimin's desk to get the thermometer, and when he climbed onto the bed and approached him, he woke up slowly.

?? The whole person was still in a daze. Xia Yan asked him to open his mouth, but he just looked at him with puzzled eyes, as if he couldn't understand what he said.

?? Xia Yan had no choice but to stretch out his hand to open his mouth, stuffed the sterilized thermometer in, and closed his mouth again.

??Holding his face with both hands, he didn't dare to let go. Once he let go, He Cheng's head would definitely fall to one side.

?? While waiting for his body temperature to recover, Xia Yan couldn't hold back, and still looked at him.

?? He Cheng was so tired that he had already closed his eyes.

?? Xia Yan didn't stare for a long time, his mouth started to dry out, the restlessness in his body surged up again, and he controlled himself to want him to kiss him directly. Fortunately, his reason was tightly held by him, so that he didn't let his body suffer from the evil force Bewitched.

??He Cheng's consciousness was sometimes sober and sometimes blurred. He remembered that Xia Yan seemed to have climbed onto his bed, and then stuffed something cold into his mouth.

?? Later, there was a fault in the memory, and when I woke up again, it was already night.

?? The dizzy and swollen head is almost healed because of the careful care of another person.

?? There is a wet cloth on the forehead, it should be just changed, it is still very cold.

??He hummed softly, slowly opened his eyes, and wanted to get out of bed to stretch his body after lying idle for a long time.

?? There was a rustling sound in the room. Peng Chang and the others had gone home. The only one who would make the noise at this time was Xia Yan.

?? He Cheng suddenly stopped moving, and even closed his eyes.

??He could just be up at night, could be just thirsty, could be doing something else...

?? It didn't have to be because of the barely audible murmur that I woke up on purpose.

??But he still couldn't hold back, because of that poor inferiority complex, uncontrollably looking forward to, maybe this person woke up just because of himself.

?? A hand stuck up, and He Cheng realized that when he was thinking wildly, the other party had already crawled to his side.

?? That hand picked up the towel on his forehead, and quietly climbed out of the bed. He Cheng heard the low sound of water flowing from the bathroom, and soon, the man climbed up again.

??Fold the towel after changing the water, and gently press it on his forehead.

??He Cheng's heart, which had been hanging in the air for several days, suddenly fell down.

?? He thought, in this life, even if it takes several four years, he is willing.

?? Xia Yan just stood up, but was held tightly by someone's hand. In a daze, his body had already fallen to the other side's side, and his head was pressed into his arms.

?? "Just sleep like this tonight, okay?"

??He couldn't say anything.

?? When He Cheng said this, his attitude was exactly the same as before that incident happened. He couldn't refuse that kind of He Cheng, and he also hoped that the two of them could become that kind of friends again.

?? Not like this recently. It seems to have returned to its original state, but it is still like a broken bottle. It looks perfect, but in fact there are still traces of brokenness.

?? Before the body started to struggle, it had already calmed down.

?? In high school, those boys went crazy, and it was very common for a few of them to sleep in a pile, so it is normal for him to be like He Cheng now.

?? There was an invisible mouth that peeled away his numb scalp and forcefully stuffed these words into his mind.

?? After a long time, the stiff body relaxed little by little.

?? He took away He Cheng's hand that was holding his head, moved his body to the side, and finally turned into a lying down position with him.

??"Good night."

??——In this way, it is really normal.

??…

?? Xia Yan opened his eyes, only to see a piece of darkness.

?? He was startled, and then realized that he had slipped into He Cheng's arms. He was about to withdraw from his arms when he noticed something. When he raised his head suddenly, he saw He Cheng staring at him with a gentle smile.

?? "Is this pillow comfortable for me?"

??Xia Yan felt a little embarrassed, and quickly got up: "Go, let's have breakfast."

?? He Cheng didn't tease him anymore, but when he climbed out of bed and was about to go into the bathroom, he suddenly stopped him.

"Xia Yan."

?? The other party turned around.

??"Sorry."

??He was a little confused and didn't understand why he suddenly apologized, but seeing He Cheng's serious face, he could only shake his head first: "It's okay."

??He Cheng: "So, we will still be the most special friends, right?"

??His eyes lit up unconsciously because of this identity, and the smile on his face also contained a warm taste: "Yeah!"

??All the confusion in the past few days was suddenly solved at this moment.

?? Light and grass are the most special friends.

?? Therefore, it is inevitable that the grass is attracted by the light, and it is unavoidable to accidentally have inappropriate thoughts.

The most important thing was that he was pleasantly surprised to find that after last night, when he looked at He Cheng, he no longer had the urge to kiss him.

??Even if I was so close to him just now, I didn't have any charming thoughts that shouldn't exist.

??So no matter what the process is, the relationship between them has finally returned to the original state.

??—light and grass.

??——will always be a pair of the most special friends.

??…

?? Xia Yan signed up for this kind of event for the first time, and his legs trembled uncontrollably at the thought of performing in front of a group of people later.

??Cheng Chencheng on the side couldn't bear it anymore. After all, he didn't continue to play another role. Looking at him, he worried: "Xia Yan, why don't you go? If you're really nervous, I'll go by myself It doesn't matter."

?? The smile squeezed out of the corner of Xia Yan's mouth was really forced. He shook his head pretending to be calm: "It's okay, since I have promised to accompany you, how can I let you go alone? And we have rehearsed for a long time, success or failure lies in this In one fell swoop."

??Cheng Chencheng couldn't persuade him, so he nodded: "Then I'll go buy a bottle of water. You sit here first. If I don't come back when we're almost here, just call me."

??"it is good."

??The students waiting on the side were all unknown to him, and the only person he knew was not here now. Xia Yan's uneasy mood rose even more.

??The hand placed by the side was about to grab the corner of the clothes, but when it touched it, it touched a hard object-it was a mobile phone.

??He was glad that he had brought earphones, and just plugged in the thing when he heard the voices of other people in the room who couldn't hide their surprise.

?? "He Cheng?"

?? "Are you here to sign up too?"

?? Xia Yan was startled, and hurriedly looked towards the door.

?? The young man who can be recognized in the crowd at a glance is surrounded by several girls who were originally scattered in the room. When Xia Yan moved his gaze over, He Cheng had already found him, and his gaze passed through the front The person, will surely fall on him.

??Xia Yan saw him whispering something to the girls beside him. The girls looked at him in the direction of his fingers and nodded in understanding.

?? He was inexplicably nervous. When he came back to his senses, the other party had already arrived in front of him.

?? Xia Yan was sitting in the first row. He Cheng leaned slightly, and reached out his hand to touch his head in front of everyone.

"You're so nervous, why don't you go on stage?"

?? The voice was like a spring breeze, Xia Yan seemed to have been given a sedative shot, and suddenly calmed down.

??He was just a wild weed that inadvertently broke into the lush garden. There were all kinds of flowers blooming in the garden. He was ordinary, and he couldn't find a place for himself in the huge garden.

??Until a light came in without warning. This light was so warm that he bathed in it and couldn't help but forget his panic.

?? He Cheng put the milk tea into his hand and smiled very gently.

?? He touched his head again, with a soothing voice in his voice: "If you still feel scared, when you get on stage, just treat the people below as carrots and cabbages. Don't look at them when singing , if you don’t know where to put your eyes, you might as well try—”

??He moved closer, his lips were almost close to his ears, accompanied by the sound of heat, like spring rain falling on the ground, every word was beating on his heart.

?? Shake the hot thing loudly.

?? "Looking ahead, thinking about me in my heart. If you think about me, you won't be nervous."

??…

?? "Sorry, I've been there for a long time, hey, are you not so nervous? I'm going out for a while, what happened?"

??Cheng Chencheng sat next to Xia Yan, and he could see the change at a glance.

?? Xia Yan didn't hide it: "He Cheng came just now."

?? She seemed puzzled: "Is there any connection between him coming and you not being nervous?"

?? "I don't know, I'm not so nervous when he comes."

??Cheng Chencheng blinked, followed the topic, and continued: "It seems that you have a very good relationship now. By the way, do you think it's time for me to take the initiative to get to know him? Xia Yan, you and He has been in touch for so long, do you think he will like my type?"

??Xia Yan usually mentions Cheng Chencheng intentionally or unintentionally in front of He Cheng, and He Cheng, who was not interested in the beginning, will answer a few words along with his words later. The impression of orange should be good.

??He nodded: "Although I don't know what kind of person he likes, I think that as long as you get along for a long time, the probability that he will eventually like you will be very high."

?? As he spoke, he added: "I think no matter what kind of boy, as long as he really understands you, he should like you."

??The degree of overlap between He Cheng and his preferences is unbelievable. Since I liked Cheng Chencheng in the past, then since the two of them really got in touch, He Cheng should also like her, right?

?? Xia Yan has even imagined in his mind the picture of the two falling in love. Handsome men and beautiful women, no matter where they go, they will undoubtedly be a beautiful landscape.

?? "Xia Yan? What's wrong with you? Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

??Xia Yan: "Huh? What?"

?? The worry on Cheng Chencheng's face does not seem to be fake, and there seems to be something more complicated in his eyes: "If you are not feeling well, don't bear it, you are my best friend, so I hope that you don't care Don't hide anything from me."

?? "I didn't hide it from you." The only deceit was already in the past tense, and he didn't need to mention it again.

??Cheng Chencheng was still not at ease. Xia Yan's almost out-of-control expression that he didn't know just now made people feel distressed.

?? But she can't ask directly. The only thing she can do is stop provoking him on purpose.

?? She secretly sighed, what will happen to these two people in the end.

?? "By the way, I just saw that there was no drink in the vending machine, so I didn't buy it. I'm sorry."

?? Xia Yan shook his head: "It's okay, when He Cheng came over just now, he brought me a cup of milk tea."

?? Afraid that she would think too much, he quickly explained: "When you get to know each other later, he will also bring you milk tea."

??Cheng Chencheng chuckled, couldn't hold it back, and wanted to reach out and rub his head, but she knew that Xia Yan didn't like others touching her head, so she had to give up.

?? "You don't need to explain it specially. He and I are two strangers who don't know each other. There is no need for him to bring me milk tea. Besides, I also have milk tea."

?? Only then did Xia Yan realize that she had been holding a cup of milk tea in her hand. She glanced at it inadvertently. It was from the same store as the one He Cheng bought for him.

?? "Did you meet a friend just now?"

??Cheng Chencheng smiled mysteriously: "Yeah, I met a special friend just now. I look forward to a certain day in the future when you can formally get to know each other."

?? Xia Yan has only heard the term "special friend" from He Cheng, but now he hears it mentioned by another person, he can't help but feel curious. Zhucao must be a very good person, right?

"She must be a very good person too?" Xia Yan didn't expect to ask directly.

?? She hooked her lips: "Well, he is a very good person to me."

??…

??The event that Xia Yan and Cheng Chencheng signed up for was the top ten singers organized by the school.

??People from all colleges can participate.

??He didn't listen to Cheng Chencheng's singing. The moment she spoke, it felt like she was attending a solo concert.

?? And myself, more like to perform background music.

??I thought that the two would stop in the preliminary round, but it turned out that Cheng Chencheng's performance was too good, and finally broke into the final all the way.

?? When the host smiled and reported the rankings of the two, Xia Yan couldn't believe it.

??So he was dragged by Cheng Chencheng to the middle of the stage. He still looked stupid, exposed/exposed to the spotlight, facing the curious eyes of the crowd, he couldn't even say a word of his acceptance speech.

?? The club members recognized Cheng Chencheng, and even called out Xia Yan's identity: "Sure enough, people who sing well are not looking for a fuel-efficient lamp!"

?? "Are these two a couple? Then I got a real CP?"

??Cheng Chencheng quit the club directly after that day, and forgot to remove Xia Yan's identity. Now that he heard the booing from the people below, he glanced at the people next to him uneasily.

?? When she saw Xia Yan's appearance, she couldn't help covering her mouth and smiling. She was sure that Xia Yan didn't hear a word of what the people in the audience were saying now.

?? In the end, it was Cheng Chencheng who delivered his acceptance speech alone. When Xia Yan was pulled down, the audience booed with sourness and envy.

?? When they finally calmed down, Cheng Chencheng laughed and said, "I thought you were calm enough, but in the end, are you still nervous?"

?? When she said this, Xia Yan's legs began to shake again due to nervousness. No matter how hard she could bear it, she couldn't help it: "I, I won the award for the first time, and it's still the second prize."

??Cheng Chencheng patted him on the shoulder reassuringly: "It's okay, it's over, it's over."

"Chen Cheng, I want to go first."

?? She was taken aback, seeing that Xia Yan didn't seem to be joking, and seeing the fine sweat on his forehead, she understood that he had really tried his best to persevere until now.

"Okay, I will help you find a good reason, then be careful when you go back by yourself, or you can ask He Cheng to pick you up?"

?? Xia Yan nodded, he desperately wants to meet someone now.

?? When the spirit is about to collapse, very suddenly, I want to see someone.

??Cheng Chencheng thought about it, but still sent a message to He Cheng, telling him that Xia Yan had left early.

?? "Yu Nianyi!"

?? "Brother Yu is amazing!"

??She raised her eyes to look at the person standing in the center of the stage. That person was glowing all over.

?? any moment.

??——How to attract light?

??——Turn yourself into light.

"Then at the end, let's temporarily add a welfare link, let No.1 and No.2 sing a song for everyone, okay?"

?? Someone laughed: "Host! You feed Yu Nianyi dog food in public, do you want to see him go crazy on the spot?"

?? When he smiled, everyone began to tease him.

??The young man in a well-fitting suit glanced at one place, his black eyes flickered slightly, and said, "Okay."

??…

?? "Your boyfriend won't be jealous if he knows you're singing a song with another man in full view? He's really big."

??She didn't explain, and responded with a flat face: "No matter how big your heart is, it should not be as good as you."

?? He was noncommittal, and he was not annoyed by the insinuation: "It seems that your boyfriend doesn't like you enough."

?? "It's an ex-boyfriend."

?? He looked sideways at her.

??Cheng Chencheng pursed his lips, with a hint of provocation in his smile: "2 minutes ago, we broke up."

??…

??Walking out of the lecture hall, Xia Yan's nervous mood calmed down a lot.

?? What followed was a stronger desire to see that person.

??He didn't know why, but for no reason, at this moment, he wanted to see that person very much.

??The phone was vibrating in his pocket, and he frowned with joy. He took it out and saw that it was the other party.

??"great."

??The moment I heard the other party's voice, all the remaining anxiety and panic disappeared.

?? Xia Yan put his other hand into his coat pocket, looked down at the mottled stripes on the ground, and started to walk forward.

?? "I was actually very nervous. I was okay when I sang, and I was fine when she announced the ranking, but when we reported our names, my feet went limp. When I was on stage just now, I almost fell down."

?? He babbled a lot, saying whatever came to his mind, and when he talked about it, he forgot what he had said.

?? The other party has been listening quietly, without interrupting him.

"He Cheng, are you still there?"

?? Xia Yan realized that he was the only one talking. He took down the phone and looked at it. The conversation was still going on, but the chatter stopped immediately.

??"I am here."

?? Xia Yan didn't realize that when he heard these two words, the light that burst out of his eyes was much brighter than ever before.

?? He said softly: "Are you in the dormitory? I'm going back now."

"Xia Yan."

?? This sound is a bit strange, like two bursts of tones of different intensities, which got into his ears together after overlapping.

"Turn around."

??He noticed something, and at the same time he turned around quickly while holding his mobile phone, the person who followed him silently for a long way behind him hugged him all at once.

?? "Look, no matter when, I'm always here."

?? "In the future, if you are nervous, you will miss me."