[abuse] a leaf boat

"Hey, here is the list, go to the canteen and help us buy something." Someone handed over a list.

Zhang Bing dare not answer.

"Take it." The man said in an orderly tone, and stuffed it into Zhang Bing's palm.

Zhang Bing unconsciously clenched the paper into balls.

"We can't go." Zhang Bing said falteringly.

"It's okay, it's okay, don't be afraid."

The more he comforted Zhang Bing, the more scared Zhang Bing felt.On the first day in, the squad leader strictly forbade anyone to go to the canteen to buy snacks, let alone the alcohol and tobacco on the list.During the period of joining the army, you must not smoke. This is the rule in the army.Occasionally someone would secretly squat in a corner to smoke at night, it’s okay not to be discovered, it’s refreshing for the spirit, but once discovered, it’s the physical pain.

For those who break the military regulations, the punishment of the recruit company is very strange.Zhang Bing saw two smokers being punished: one dragged the other's feet, pushed the other to stand sideways, and walked 10 laps of the playground with his hands.

Zhang Bing wanted to shake his head, but dared not.He wants to resist, but there is a sentence in his mind that reminds him repeatedly: if you don't have the strength to resist, you should endure first, otherwise you will definitely suffer.

But he still didn't carry out the "order": "Usually, you are all helped by the veterans of the cooking class. You can ask them to help you."

The faces of the others were pulled down, and Jia Xiangmeng threw the bamboo stick that had been picked between his teeth at Zhang Bing: "Your eye saw that the boss asked the veteran of the cooking class."

Gao Dajun coughed twice in dissatisfaction.

Jia Xiangmeng immediately changed his words and said, "Your eye has seen that we have asked others."

Loneliness and pressure are written all over Zhang Bing.They are everywhere, making Zhang Bing bow down.He was pinching the list, his heart was beating fast, and his mind was full of punishment after being discovered.The memory of yesterday's beating is on every inch of skin, and the scars on it will not be easily erased, but it will only hurt on one person.

"You villains, you can't always trouble your comrades. We are all brothers on the kang, so we can't bully people like this." Gao Dajun was strong and walked towards Zhang Bing in a menacing manner. He grabbed the list from Zhang Bing's hand: "There are too many of these things, you just buy what I want, and it is easy to hide. But you must not hide it in your crotch, or I will make you eat even the packaging."

"Go ahead, it's fine with your leg injury." Gao Dajun slapped Zhang Bing on the back with a big hand.

Zhang Bing was photographed by him and walked forward tremblingly, his numb feet lost the initiative, walking like a machine.What choice did he have but to do it.That slap by Gao Dajun was like a strong wind shaking a tree, and every scar was as painful as a leaf.He turned to Yu Bo, who was full of pain, and felt happy.

He didn't deserve to die, to suffer from headaches and nightmares.His frowning all the time, in Zhang Bing's view, was a sign of his suffering.deserve it!

As soon as he walked out of the door, Zhang Bing felt dizzy and didn't know which foot to take, as if surrounded by the sea, every step was a deserted island without even a coconut tree to rely on.Zhang Bing swallowed, and put his hands in his pockets, his palms were full of sweat. What he was holding was not the money that guaranteed his survival, but a bomb that counted to zero at some point.

"Hello, comrade."

Zhang Bing was patted on the shoulder, and he jumped half a meter in fright, as if his heart had been struck by lightning, and he was terrified.Never find out the purpose, never find out.Some units have very tough rules and terrible punishments.His face was pale, and he turned around swayingly.

"Comrade, are you sick?" the soldier with a dark face said to Zhang Bing.

Zhang Bing wiped his face and said, "No, no, no, how could I get sick, I'm fine, thank you." He didn't dare to look at him any more, turned around and continued walking, about three or four meters away Then he turned around and walked in the opposite direction. When passing Heitan soldiers, Zhang Bing deliberately smiled at him, feeling that the smile on his face was so stiff that it was about to peel off, as if flour was stuck on it, and all pores could not breathe.

The soldier suddenly said loudly, "Stop, take your hands out of your trouser pockets."

My heart was lifted into my throat, and I couldn't even breathe loudly.

With his back to the soldier, Zhang Bing gently loosened his grip on the coin, and slowly released it from his pocket, steaming in the cold air.

"Soldiers should look like soldiers. What do you look like, walking with your pockets in your pockets? Did you come to this army to mess around?"

Hearing this, Zhang Bing wanted to defend loudly: I look like a rogue, and I am the one who was rogue. Those large groups in that class are the real hooligans. They are a million times more shameless than the ones I have seen in school. The distance between them is as long as light years from the earth to the sun.How on earth did the army recruit people, how could they recruit such a group of hooligans.

But with Zhang Bing's personality, it is impossible to say such a long complaint.All he said was "report, sorry, I won't next time..."

Before Zhang Bing finished speaking, he was stopped: "I'm sorry, the army does not allow such an apology. We are soldiers, and we have iron blood and courage."

"Yes, sir." Zhang Bing quickly changed his words and showed a good attitude.

"I'm not an officer, I'm also a recruit."

For a while, the scene was extremely awkward.

Seeing his good attitude, Heitan soldier scratched his head, turned and walked away without saying anything.

Thanks to him, Zhang Bing's fear was greatly relieved.He stepped up, almost into a service club.As soon as the dirty and old thick plastic curtain was lifted, a cotton-scented hot air rushed towards the face.Very warm, as if the outside world is the end of the world, only here is a warm home.

"Is anyone there?" Zhang Bing walked on tiptoe, afraid of disturbing the people in the house and fearing that they would come out.

The lights in the house were not turned on, only a square of light leaked from the tall windows.In front of it is a huge glass counter, which contains a lot of snacks that no one has bought for a long time.

"Little soldier, what do you want to buy?" A kind-hearted grandma came out from the inner room and smiled at Zhang Bing slowly.

"I..." Zhang Bing was stuck in his throat, unable to say the smoke he wanted.He blushed with shame.

Grandma shook her head, handed Zhang Bing a glass of water with a smile, and stuffed it into the palm of her hand.The warm and comfortable water temperature spreads on the touch of the hands and shuttles around the body.

"You come to pick and choose."

Zhang Bing followed the sound and found different brands of cigarettes on the glass counter.Grandma is tearing open the already cracked cigarette case, taking out the cigarettes inside and stacking them up.

Seeing that Zhang Bing was silent, grandma said slowly: "You are not the first recruit of mine. I used to come here to buy things for someone like you, and I was speechless just like you. Even if you don't Say, I know what you want, isn't it just this."

Zhang Bing said nervously, "How much is this?"

"This one is a bit expensive. How much did you get?" Grandma said kindly.

"I only have 10 dollars."

"This white sand is cheap." Grandma took Zhang Bing's crumpled banknotes and called to him before Zhang Bing immediately turned around and walked away: "Little comrade, don't go, hold out your hand."

Zhang Bing stretched out his hand obediently, like a docile puppy.

"this is for you."

The palm of the hand feels cold, and the hard metal is quickly assimilated by the temperature.Zhang Bing also knew that it was two yuan by touch.

"Grandma, you made a mistake."

"No, no, I didn't make a mistake. This is for you. You hide it so that no one will find out. This is your errand fee, so I feel comfortable holding it." Grandma still smiled kindly.

Zhang Bing walked out of the service agency and felt that the glass of water just now was too effective. He just took a sip, and the cotton in his clothes was full of warmth.He took out a coin and stuffed it into the heel of his shoe.Can't be discovered by other people, otherwise the misunderstanding will cause a big blow.Unlike when he came, Zhang Bing walked with full confidence and was about to reach the dormitory.Zhang Bing was stopped by a familiar squad leader walking towards him.

"You, stand at attention and face the wall." Every sound is full of deterrence, and the tone is strong.

Zhang Bing didn't have time to think, and his body directly executed the order.The familiar squad leader patted his pocket and asked, "What's here?"

"What? I..."

"Don't say you don't know."

"I know, that's..." Zhang Bing's heart began to panic again, as if he had a heart attack, and his breathing was short of breath during the sudden attack.The familiar squad leader took out the deflated cigarette case from his pocket and dangled it in front of his eyes.Zhang Bing seemed to be hypnotized, the whole world seemed unreal, his feet were too weak to support his weight, and his consciousness began to be in a trance.

It's over!It's over!Zhang Bing only thought about this word, thought over and over, and waited in agony.

"Have we said that, you recruits can't smoke or drink, this is the rule of our army. You thorns, you have to obey. It seems that what we said is all the wind, and you don't remember it at all. right."

Familiar with the squad leader's words, he poked Zhang Bing to step back. He knew there was a big hole behind him, but he didn't know how far he would have to fall into it.

"I'm sorry, no, no, no, I mean, I will do it again next time." Zhang Bing's voice became smaller and smaller.

"I won't do it again, this time it's over." The familiar squad leader laughed wildly: "It's really rare when our army has such a good thing. It seems that push-ups are no longer effective, right? Well, well, you give I'll come here." He pulled Zhang Bing to stand in front of the wall, then he opened the cigarette case, took out the cigarettes inside one by one, stuffed them all into Zhang Bing's mouth, and lit them one by one.

"Suck, give me enough. These are enough for you to enjoy for a while. Instead of breaking the rules all the time, it's better to have one time, anyway, the total amount is the same. Come on, come on, squat and suck for me, feel the taste of insult .I don’t believe that you recruits can’t be cured.” The squad leader raised his head and looked at Zhang Bing and shouted: “Suck it, suck it for me.”

Zhang Bing's tears flowed down.He has never smoked. His father was a smoker when he was alive. As long as he scratches his head at home, he must be addicted to cigarettes.But Dad never smokes in front of him, and even the place where he smokes must be ventilated, so that there is no opportunity for second-hand smoke to be left.

"You're still crying, you big man, what's the point of crying, what did I do to you." The familiar squad leader cursed.

"No, no, I was choked by the smoke." Zhang Bing quickly wiped away his tears.

The smoke spread like fire in the mouth, throat, nasal cavity and even the top of the head, tearing the whole body in pain, and the nerves in the head were tense and about to explode.Zhang Bing had a handful of cigarettes wrapped around his mouth, and he smoked desperately, hoping to finish it quickly, but he choked unskillfully, and all the smoke and ash flew into the air and scattered all over the floor.

"Pick it up for me, and continue smoking until it runs out."

Zhang Bing picked it up carefully and stuffed it into his mouth, not wasting every second of lighting the cigarette, as if it could make the familiar squad leader smile and comfort himself.

Finally finished sucking, Zhang Bing squatted on the ground and coughed continuously, his stomach juice was about to be vomited out, and there was a strong gagging sound, as if he wanted to vomit out his internal organs every time.Even though it was painful, Zhang Bing still had to hold back, and he couldn't really vomit out his breakfast, otherwise he might be severely beaten.

"Okay, okay, you have a long memory. Go back and brush your teeth well, it smells bad."

After receiving the amnesty, Zhang Bing hurried to the toilet, like a thief, lest others would smell him.He will get wet all over.The cold water dripped from the shower, and the piercing pain gradually took away the body temperature.Zhang Bing was trembling, folded his arms and waited for the smell on his body to be covered.

You must know that in the past, Zhang Bing never took a cold shower in summer, nor did he take a shower no matter how hot it was.Because when I just washed it, it felt very irritating to the skin and was uncomfortable.At that time, I was a delicate baby, and my family basically centered on me.

But now, Zhang Bing didn't even dare to think about it, fearing that it would be colder and more painful.Now he can only count on dreaming to rest and rest, and he doesn't want to cry in the dream.

I rinsed my mouth again and again, but there was still a smell of smoke in my mouth.Zhang Bing grabbed a handful of leaves and chewed them in his mouth anxiously. The bitter juice grinded his tongue, and his whole body trembled.

What are you doing?Zhang Bing turned on the faucet to the maximum, hoping to cover up the howling of crying with the noise.Why is life so tiring, why do I have to live like this, I really haven’t done any heinous things, why can’t God let me go, let me at least live as a person.

Even though he was still crying, Zhang Bing was desperately looking for the smell on his body.Otherwise, if they found out about the fact that they used the money to buy cigarettes and smoked them themselves, they would probably be beaten severely, and maybe they would really die. Such a possibility cannot be ruled out at all.Zhang Bing had no better way to explain it, so he could only eliminate the suspicion that he had withdrawn as much as possible.He thought about telling the truth, but it was no use, didn't he still smoke the cigarette by himself.

Walking back to the dormitory dragging his body full of water, the cotton that entered the water increased the weight of his steps.The way back to the dormitory was too long, as long as recalling the nightmare experience in primary school.

He trembled and walked into the bedroom.

"Where are the cigarettes?" Jia Xiangmeng asked him, and he shook his head.

Gao Dajun seemed to be addicted to cigarettes. He grabbed Zhang Bing and asked, "It's been so long since I came back, and I'm still soaking wet. Where are my cigarettes?" He anxiously touched Zhang Bing's body, even his trouser legs. He is still repeatedly confirming the matter of hopelessness.

But Zhang Bing was just trembling, asking three questions and shaking his head frequently.

"Your mother..." Gao Dajun was so angry that he couldn't stop cursing, because there were other comrades in arms watching.He couldn't beat him anywhere.

"Squad deputy, don't worry, let him compensate you. If you are so bored, don't be angry." Jia Xiangmeng flattered the squad leader, and after saying a few words, he ran to Zhang Bing's bed with the two of them, and took him to bed. He lifted off the quilt, turned the bed boards out, took out the luggage from the cabinet, and threw the casual clothes and supplies on the ground one by one, but he didn't find a penny.

Zhang Bing picked it up tremblingly, and hugged it to his body, being careful not to get wet.

See, what is poor.Zhang Bing couldn't help but sniggered in his heart. He didn't have any money, and lived on drinking northwest wind. Not everyone could enjoy being so chic.

Gao Dajun's face was crooked with anger.

"Who in our class still has cigarettes?" Jia Xiangmeng asked the others.But no one said a word, the cigarettes had already been offered, and Gao Dajun smoked them all by himself.

"Then who still has money, I have five yuan." Jia Xiangmeng suddenly raised money.

"Hey, let me tell you, I saw a green one in your clothes just now, why didn't you take it out, then the five yuan is so interesting." The person on the upper bunk joked.

"Abandon your fucking words, make your big head sleep." Jia Xiangmeng said obscenely.

Gao Dajun sat up from the bed and walked up to Zhang Bing: "Let me ask you again, where are my cigarettes and my money?"

Zhang Bing could only lower his head, then shook his head.The water on the face has long been replaced by sweat.

"Okay, there's something." Gao Dajun twisted Zhang Bing and dragged him out of the dormitory.

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