Imperfect series

Yan Jun's fingers rested on Xia Zhi's lower lip, and he was about to ask, "Why are you laughing?", but he couldn't speak when he thought of the child's thick skin when he spoke. In order to avoid being frightened, he shut his mouth tightly.

How could Xia Zhi miss such a good opportunity? He slightly pressed his lips against Yan Jun's fingertips, wanting to touch Yan Jun's fingertips. Yan Jun withdrew his hand in fright, "What are you doing!"

"I thought it was very comfortable for you to touch." Xia Zhi asked, "Is it okay to touch?"

Yan Jun clenched his lowered hand into a fist, "Don't talk like that!"

"Which kind?" Xia Zhi pretended to be stupid, "When I say it's good to touch, I mean whether my lips are soft or not. What do you think?"

"A big man's lips are soft or not!" After Yan Jun finished speaking, he turned and went upstairs on his own, and almost tripped over the steps without paying attention.

Xia Zhi quickly supported him, but Yan Jun shook his hand angrily, "Okay, let's go."

"Angry?" Xia Zhi pulled him back, "I'm just kidding if I get angry like this." He was a little anxious.

Yan Jun's tone was not kind, and he kept on walking, "You are so old, don't you know what jokes you can make and what you can't? Besides, if you make someone angry, you call it a joke? Are you kidding?"

Xia Zhi stepped forward on the steps and put his arm against him, "Then I'm not joking with you, okay! I just wanted to say that."

After less than a minute, Yan Jun also calmed down, nodded and said, "It's up to you."

"I'll go to your house to sit for a while."

"No, you go back."

"Too heartless!" Xia Zhi was aggrieved, "I've been sneaking with you for a long time, and you're driving me away?"

"Tomorrow Monday, you still have class."

Xia Zhi thought for a while, "Okay." Then he said, "Then I'll find you in the store tomorrow afternoon."

Yan Jun nodded slightly, "Okay."

Xia Zhi smiled happily, "Then I'm leaving, you help me say goodbye to my uncle and aunt."

"Be careful on the road."

Yan Jun turned around and continued to go upstairs, but he heard Xia Zhi's voice coming down the stairs, and he walked down two blocks slowly, "Yan Jun."

"Huh?" Yan Jun turned his head, suddenly felt Xia Zhi approaching, and then his lips were touched and bit, was it... lips?

"Haha, it's time for a kiss," Xia Zhi quickly ran down, "Brother Jun, goodbye, I will miss you and see you tomorrow!"

Yan Jun couldn't believe it, Xia Zhi had already gone far away, he could hear the child's laughter running out of the corridor, he felt that he couldn't lift his hands, touched his mouth, this is, was kissed?

What do you mean?

What do you mean when a man kisses a man here?

What do his usual intimate attitudes and actions mean?

Like yourself?

Yan Jun didn't know how to get home. After entering the house, Yan's mother asked Xia Zhi, but he forgot what he said, and only woke up after lying on the bed.

When Xia Zhi kissed him, Yan Jun clearly understood that the first feeling in his heart was not disgust, not repulsion, but surprise, and even a little liking... It seemed that he didn't kiss his lips, but the tip of his heart.

This... this is not normal.

Yes, not normal.

It must be because he likes Xia Zhi's cheerfulness and liveliness, his love for guitar, his love for music...

He thought of eating ice cream with Xia Zhi on the corridor, thinking of Xia Zhi touching his hand, thinking of Xia Zhi picking fish bones for himself, thinking of touching Xia Zhi himself...

Feeling hot and embarrassed.But he knew it was wrong!

Yes, summer solstice nineteen, himself, 27 eight, a blind man, no future, disabled, not to mention when he gets old, even in middle age, he may not be able to do without someone to take care of him, he has already dragged down his parents.

Xia Zhi is still young, he is just confused for a while, it's just... fun, just a momentary impulse, Xia Zhi is still a child, he doesn't understand love, he doesn't understand the liking for the same sex, in fact, it's like-minded, sympathetic, or even just, just having fun .

The next day, for the first time, Yan Jun didn't open a shop, he didn't go, he sat at home touching the Braille book and kept reading, Yan's mother knew that he didn't read it, opened her mouth several times to ask, but Yan's father shook his head at her.

In the afternoon, Xia Zhi ran into the store after class, but what he saw was the closed rolling shutter door, "What's going on?" He ran to the small shop beside him, and was told that the store was closed today.

What's the matter?Xia Zhi panicked.

He took out his mobile phone and wanted to call Yan Jun, but he found that he didn't have Yan Jun's number at all, because Yan Jun was blind, he thought it was impossible for the other party to read the text message he sent, so he simply didn't want it, but when someone else gave him The card with the number on it belongs to the store.

Annoyed, anxious, nervous, and scared.Xia Zhi ran to the side of the road and hailed a taxi, and arrived at Yan Jun's house.

Hearing the doorbell, Yan Jun straightened his back for no reason, and his ears became particularly sensitive. Sure enough, after the door opened, it was Xia Zhi's voice.

He couldn't tell whether he was happy or sad.

Mother Yan invited Xia Zhi in, Xia Zhi greeted them politely, walked straight to Yan Jun, squatted down, "Brother Jun."

Yan Jun closed the book, "Go out and talk."

"kindness."

When the two went out, they went down two steps, and Yan Jun stopped. He didn't want to go too far, for fear that if he went far, he would not be able to come back, no matter whether it was human or heart.

"Why didn't you open the shop today?" Xia Zhi asked, "Are you avoiding me?"

"It's not hiding," Yan Jun said, "it's avoiding."

"It's agreed to continue to let me work part-time!"

"I regret it." Yan Jun took out his pocket and took out 100 yuan, "Here."

"No!" Xia Zhi waved his hand, "I don't want it, you know it."

"I don't know." Yan Jun said lightly, "No matter what it is, I don't want to know, let's go. Don't say anything. Study hard, the days are still long." It's too long, and you will forget that you once I used to like a blind man ignorantly, and I wondered how I fell in love with a blind man for a long time. "I am leaving."

"Don't do this!" Xia Zhi held him and didn't let go, his breathing was a little short, and while trying to calm himself down, he clamored, "Speak up while you're at it now", "You know, there is a kind of man in this world, they He likes men, not women, like me."

The sensor lights in the corridor had already been turned on because of the dispute between the two of them. Yan Jun wanted to restrain the turmoil in his heart at this moment, and also wanted to make his expression less surprised. He thought it was the same thing, but he heard it with his own ears. , That's another matter. Of course, he is an adult, so it's impossible for him to panic because of confrontation...

Yes, he panicked, and the part Xia Zhi was pinching became hot. He thought that his fingertips had touched Xia Zhi's lips yesterday, and his fingertips felt numb, like an electric shock.

"What do you want me to say?" Yan Jun stabilized himself, "Do you want me to comfort you, or do you want me to tell you 'it's okay, I don't discriminate against homosexuals'? Or do you want me to take back what I said earlier and tell you that you can continue to work part-time. Well, as you wish, I will not discriminate against you, and you can continue to work part-time."

"That's it?!" Xia Zhi suppressed his excitement, and looked at Yan Jun's unfocused but bright eyes that seemed to see through everything. His eyes saw Yan Jun's heart, "Don't you just, don't have a little bit, a little bit of affection for me?"

"Are you kidding?" Yan Jun raised his voice, "We've only known each other for a few days, and I'm sure I don't have the affection you mentioned!"

"You lied to me!" Xia Zhi couldn't believe it, "You obviously... you obviously felt it, it was yesterday when you touched my lips!" He stubbornly pulled Yan Jun's hand, wanting him to touch himself again, "Try to touch it again..."

There was dissatisfaction and stubbornness in the voice, but Yan Jun didn't dare to touch it, "Let go!"

"Don't let go!" Xia Zhi still held his hand desperately, "I should wait a little longer, but I can't bear it."

With the other hand, Yan Jun opened Xia Zhi's fingers one by one, and when he heard his cries of pain, his hand paused and his heart tightened, but the long-term pain was worse than the short-term pain, and Xia Zhi could almost be heard whimpering, " Let go." While it hasn't started yet, while it doesn't hurt too much, while the possible injuries haven't happened yet, let it go.

The author has something to say:

Yan Jun: Let go!

Summer Solstice: Hold on!

Yan Jun: Let go!

Xia Zhi: Don’t let it go!

Yan Jun: If you don't let me go, how can I piss on you!Didn't you hurt your hand?let go!

Xia Zhi: Then you should aim!If you pee outside, don't you want me to wipe it!

Yan Jun: You don't have to rub it, you can lick it.

Summer Solstice:  …