The stand-in of feigning death is subject to A and Cha

Lin Xiaoshen really went crazy this time, he obviously lost everything, but in the end God wanted to take away even his dog.

Give him hope time and time again, and extinguish it with your own hands again and again.

He struggled, cried, and screamed, and wanted to rush over to tear Song Wan into pieces, but Gu Minglang held him tightly in his arms, hugged him tightly, and said in his ear over and over again: "Buy a new one!" , we bought a new one, exactly the same..."

Buy the exact same one?

Can this be solved by buying a new one?

That is a life, it is Lin Xiaoshen's last thought, it is his guilt towards Coco, it is his hope to live on.

And now, it's gone.

Song Wan was still stubborn: "It's just a dog, if it's a big deal, I'll pay for it..."

Lin Xiaoshen looked at her with scarlet eyes, like a ghost crawling out of hell, wanting to pounce on her and eat her alive.

But his body was already crippled, and he couldn't stand the slightest torment anymore, so out of breath, he clutched his chest and began to cough.

Gu Minglang hurriedly opened his palm, looked at the bright red blood between his fingers, his face froze, as if he couldn't believe it.The hand that hugged Lin Xiaoshen who was still coughing, didn't know how to let go for a while, and didn't even dare to use force, for fear of breaking him.

"I didn't how..."

"Get out." Song Wan raised his head in disbelief, looked at his livid face, and seemed to want to refute, Gu Minglang raised his head suddenly, his eyes were red, and snarled at her: "Get out!"

Song Wan was so frightened that he collapsed to the ground.

Gu Minglang picked up Lin Xiaoshen and walked quickly outside the villa, comforting him constantly: "Don't be afraid, we'll go to the hospital, everything will be fine, nothing will happen.

of……"

Lin Xiaoshen grabbed the clothes in front of his chest, covered his mouth and coughed heart-piercingly, his eyes were red and filled with tears.He wanted to strangle Song Wan to death, but the pain was so painful that he didn't even have the strength to stand up.

He kept crying and coughing uncontrollably, he couldn't even hear what Gu Minglang was saying, and there was only one thought in his mind——

He was dying.

Lin Xiaoshen passed out directly in this extreme grief and pain.

When I woke up again, I was in the hospital.There was no one in the huge ward, and he was lying alone.

Lin Xiaoshen stood up with support, and moved towards the door step by step.

When I was about to reach out to open the door, I heard the conversation between two people outside the door__

"It's just a dog, how could it be such a big reaction? I'm vomiting blood, why don't I just buy another dog?" It was Wu Shun's voice, full of confusion and incomprehension.

"I already have feelings."

"I remember that you raised a little golden retriever abroad, and then you gave it away because you didn't want to keep it. Didn't the dog die too? I didn't see you sad before, and it was because you were accidentally hit by a car because you were chasing you."

"COCO was raised just to get close to him, it's normal to have no feelings."

in the room.

Lin Xiaoshen covered his mouth fiercely, and slowly squatted down to keep himself from crying.Hot tears poured out of his eyes, his skin ached from the heat, and he was so painful that he couldn't wish to live.

It turns out that Coco is so dead...

It was because Gu Minglang gave it away, and it chased it out, and was hit to death by a car...

Whether it's him or Coco, it's just his tool from beginning to end, his pastime...

"Lu Chenxing is more beautiful, obedient and smarter than Lin Xiaoshen. He can help you in every way. Why do you still hold on to Lin Xiaoshen as a dead man? Wouldn't it be good to let him go?"

"No, he's still useful to me."

"What's the use? Do you think the heart replacement operation will be successful? When the time comes, one will die and two will die. After all, he has loved you for so many years and helped you so much, is he not guilty?"

Gu Minglang's tone was cold and there was no room for negotiation: "Even if there is only a [-]% success rate, I will definitely do it."

"Don't talk about other things, just say that he has helped you so much, don't you have any affection for him?"

"No, never." Gu Minglang's voice was extremely heartless, completely different from the flustered him before, "Besides, he didn't love me, so why should I feel guilty?"

Lin Xiaoshen no longer knew what heartache was, he was really numb.

Totally numb.

He slowly climbed back to bed and lay down, hid in the quilt, curled up and shivered, covered his mouth with his hands, and wept silently.

No pain, no pain soon, no more pain...

Really no more pain...

real......

When Gu Minglang came in, Lin Xiaoshen had finished crying.

He sat on the bed, raised his eyelids to look at the man, and said only one sentence: "I'm going to England, I don't want to stay here."

"Wait until you recover..."

"I'm going now!" Lin Xiaoshen interrupted sharply, gnashing his teeth, not hiding his anger, almost trembling, "immediately! Immediately!" Gu Minglang looked down at the irritable him, as if he didn't know what to do After a long time, she walked over and seemed to want to hug him.

Lin Xiaoshen pushed him away violently, jumped out of the bed with bare feet, smashed everything in the room that could be smashed in front of his face, and growled while smashing: "I want to leave here! I want to leave! "

Vases, cups, teapots, ornaments, etc., were all swept away and smashed to pieces.

The nurses outside were terrified, but they dared not come in.

Gu Minglang quietly watched him go crazy, neither stopping nor reprimanding him, his eyes were so calm.Presumably, he felt that he was going to die, so he didn't bother to argue with him anymore.

When he was almost smashed, he came over and hugged the exhausted man.

Gently pressing his head into his arms, he finally compromised: "Okay, go to England, right away."

This hypocritical affection is the last pity for him.

Gu Minglang contacted the private jet, helped Lin Xiaoshen change his clothes, took him to London directly without packing anything.

After getting on the plane, Lin Xiaoshen finally calmed down. The whole process was unbelievably normal, but he refused to speak, with a lifeless appearance that no one should approach him.

The two didn't communicate at all.

until the plane landed.

The moment he walked out of the airport, Gu Minglang went to hold his hand.Lin Xiaoshen didn't resist, didn't even wrinkle his eyebrows, and followed him silently, his face was empty and numb that couldn't be described in words.

The hand in the palm was as cold as ice, as if it couldn't be warmed up.

Gu Minglang took him back to the small villa where he had studied abroad.It seems that they are naively wanting to recall the sweet memories of the two of them in order to get his forgiveness, or in other words, delusional that he will continue to love himself desperately.

He even thought that Lin Xiaoshen would cry and fuss, and run away like crazy, and he was ready to meet his wrath.

But Lin Xiaoshen was unbelievably quiet, sitting on a chair in the garden without saying a word, sipping a cup of hot water.

The house had already been cleaned before coming here, Gu Minglang went to the room and spread a new quilt for him.

When it came out, I had several capsules in my hand.

Yi Luyuan said that Lin Xiaoshen suffered too many blows one after another, and he was a little mentally disturbed, so he was prescribed some psychotropic drugs.

"Hey, take the medicine and go upstairs to sleep, okay?"

Lin Xiaoshen didn't speak, and was still drinking hot water silently.I don't know when, I started to cry again.Bean-sized teardrops slid down his cheeks and dripped into the glass.

He has not spoken for a day.

Gu Minglang took the cup in his hand, stuffed the capsule into his mouth, fed him hot water, carried him back to the room, covered him with a quilt, and let him sleep.

Lin Xiaoshen looked at him, and suddenly reached out to touch his eyebrows, and finally said the first sentence: "Mr. Gu, where is Coco?"

Gu Minglang immediately called a doctor and finally concluded that his memory was messed up due to excessive grief.

Most likely, crazy.

But Gu Minglang didn't believe it.

Lin Xiaoshen would not be crazy, how could he be crazy?

He looks so normal, so obedient, so well-behaved, he can do whatever he wants.He will never sing against himself again, never provoke

If you are angry with yourself, you will not say those hurtful things.

He's not crazy, he's just finally getting his way again.

"It's good." The doctor looked at him in shock, watching him caress Lin Xiaoshen's sleeping face, his eyes were clearly so calm, but he looked more lunatic than Lin Xiaoshen, "He will be obedient and won't disobey me again. good."

But he soon discovered that there were many abnormalities in Lin Xiaoshen's normality.

He didn't cry or make noise, but he didn't speak a word, like a demented old man who suddenly lost his voice.Apart from basking in the sun and sleeping every day, I don't care about everything.

"Lin, can you go for a walk?"

They seem to have returned to the past, holding hands and strolling on the streets in the afternoon, like all loving couples, warm and beautiful, full of deception.

When he reached the bridge, Gu Minglang turned his head to look at Lin Xiaoshen who stopped suddenly.

His empty eyes suddenly became bright, longing, and excited, but...staring at the bottomless river under the bridge.

Gu Minglang never dared to take him to that place again.

All sharp objects in the house are hidden away.He squatted in front of Lin Xiaoshen, holding his cold hand, and for the first time, he didn't order, but in an almost pleading tone: "Promise me, don't do stupid things, if you don't want to go back to China, we won't go back, and I won't force you again." Do something you don't like, okay?"

As if Lin Xiaoshen didn't hear it, he raised his head, looked past him, and looked at the unreachable distance, his eyes were calm but full of longing.

He wants to go.

Gu Minglang clenched his hand, without any room for negotiation: "No, you can't leave my forest, I need you, I can't live without you."

The heart that had been shattered a long time ago was missed by him like a wolf.

Gu Minglang gradually realized that Lin Xiaoshen might really be crazy.

No matter how many times he woke up in the middle of the night, he could see Lin Xiaoshen standing on the balcony.Stepping on the edge of the balcony with bare feet, his upper body leaned over the guardrail, the night wind almost blew his thin body up, the thin pajamas stuck to his weak body, fragile and vulnerable, his thin waist seemed to break if he pinched it.

Gu Minglang rushed over like crazy, hugged him, and asked him heartbreakingly: "What are you doing?!"

Lin Xiaoshen, who had been docile and quiet for a few days, suddenly became irritable and violent, screaming and crying, trying to break free from his embrace. His whole body seemed to be in an ice cellar, shivering, and his limbs were cold.

"Let me go! Let me go!! Get out, get out, get out of here!"

His voice, which hadn't spoken for a long time, was broken, hoarse and unpleasant, like a broken violin, making an abominable sound.

He slammed into Gu Minglang's hand, pushed him away with blood on his mouth, kept backing up and backing up, and broke the wine glass on the table.

The glass shards all over the floor were trampled under his feet and pierced into the flesh.

Gu Minglang didn't step forward, his body stiffened, and he looked at the person in front of him, treating him like a scourge.

Seeing him looking at him with the most terrified and even desperate eyes, roaring and crying at the top of his voice, he kept using anger to cover up the fear in his heart.

Inexplicably, he remembered the words Lin Xiaoshen said to him a long time ago: "Gu Minglang, I always think you are scary."

He is indeed scary, but Lin Xiaoshen shouldn't say this, isn't he good enough for him?

He has so many lovers, he is the only one, and he will try his best to please him.Even at the expense of covering himself with those fake masks, he showed him the best and cleanest side of himself, and calculated for him.

But in the end, he still felt that he was scary.

why?

What went wrong, what went wrong, why is he so afraid of himself?

It's me, isn't hiding deep enough?

Gu Minglang has always looked like he is planning and controlling everything. It is the first time that he is so confused and panicked.

He was repeatedly stunned by Lin Xiaoshen's terrified eyes, but he couldn't figure out why he was afraid of himself.

Finally, he opened his mouth and said: "You are not Lu Chenxing's substitute, not anyone's substitute. I was just obsessed with ghosts, so I messed around with him in the hotel. I didn't sleep with him. Song Wan, Jin Chen, Ren Yuwei, I have never touched any of them."

"I kid you not, I really haven't touched any of them."

All the lies can be swear by him.

I don't know how many people have used those love words and affectionate eyes that come at hand.

This time, Lin Xiaoshen refused to even give him the word "scroll", and slowly calmed down.

The next day, Gu Minglang returned home.Lin Xiaoshen was assigned special supervision by him, who monitored the whole process 24 hours a day.

Despite his reluctance, Gu Minglang, who had nowhere to go, went to Frank, the most outstanding talent in the medical field.

Psychiatric and mental illness have always been what he is best at.

But when he got off the plane, the news of Lin Xiaoshen's disappearance came from behind him.

disappeared without a trace.

And that small villa was completely burned down by him.

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There is another chapter at 12:30, huh?