forbidden to imagine

Song Lai was a little confused by Fang Yan's embrace, but he could still guess why he was like this, so he patted him on the back with a light smile, "Why, do you think I'm kind?"

"Why don't you suspect that my motives are impure? After all, I'm a businessman, and I'm only looking for profit."

Fang Yan still hugged Song Lai and did not let go, his voice was extremely firm.

"I know mercenary isn't the real you."

"I said, no matter what you look like, I know which one is the real you."

Fang Yan's words made Song Lai unable to recover for a while.

He hugged Fang Yan slowly, still in a daze.

During these years of crawling and struggling in the secret forest, he no longer knows what his real self looks like.

Song Lai rubbed against Fang Yan's chest with peace of mind, then raised his head to look at him, "What about you? Which one is the real you."

Fang Yan lowered his eyes and stared at Song Lai, smiling calmly.

"Which one do you think is me, that is me."

Song Lai looked thoughtful, and then shook his head, "I really don't know about this. Say you are Fang Yan, and you are Lu Yan again. Say you are Lu Yan, and you are Fang Yan again."

Fang Yan knew what Song Lai wanted to ask.

He slowly let go of the person in his arms, took Song Lai's hand instead, and led him forward step by step.

The forest in early autumn is still shaded, blocking a lot of sunlight, and occasionally a few beams of sunlight pour down from among the overlapping leaves, or fall on the treetops, or fall on the grass, which seems to be a scene of light and shadow game.

There are only Song Lai and Fang Yan in the forest. They walk slowly and hold hands, as if they are going to walk from here to the afterglow of the sunset.

Perhaps it was because there was only the rustling of leaves around, or maybe it was because Song Lai was by his side, this time Fang Yan thought of the past ten years and did not feel so depressed that he could not breathe.

"You've been checking me for so long, but you still haven't found any details?" Fang Yan asked him with a smile.

Song Lai paused for a moment, then shook his head undisguisedly, "It's hidden too deep, all I can find out should be what you let people see."

Fang Yan was amused by his confession, but he didn't shy away from it, "I thought you would continue to investigate."

Song Lai shrugged and said indifferently, "I just thought it was impolite to ask you these things before, but I really wanted to know, so I went to investigate. Later, I felt that it was unnecessary."

"Oh?" Fang Yan hooked the corners of his lips, "Now I think we are very familiar, so can I ask?"

Song Lai nodded, "Aren't we familiar?"

Fang Yan paused, and seemed to think seriously before nodding his head, "We are very familiar, we have kissed, hugged, and shared the same bed. Thinking about it this way, no one knows me better than you."

Song Lai blushed when he said that, and glared at him angrily, but did not get angry.

"Why did the words change in your mouth?"

Fang Yan looked at him with a smile, with an innocent face, "Isn't it? Could it be that you were thinking about something messed up and took my words into consideration?"

Song Lai gave him a blank look, and deliberately changed the topic, "Okay, since we know each other so well, then I'll ask you, won't you not tell me?"

"Then where do you want to start listening?" Fang Yan asked lightly.

Song Lai met his gaze, and there was deep sadness in it.

"Start from scratch."

Fang Yan seemed to smile, the passing wind took away his voice, Song Lai didn't hear it clearly, he only saw Fang Yan turned around and walked slowly forward without opening his mouth, and walked to a stone pile stop.

"Sit down.

It may take a long time. "

Song Lai was not hypocritical, so he sat down without even thinking about it, patted the seat next to him, and raised his head to invite Fang Yan, "All ears."

This kind of Song Lai is more lively and vivid than the successful man in suits and leather shoes in the past, like an elf that grows in this forest and is also nourished here.

Looking at Song Lai like this, Fang Yan even hoped that he would never return to that cement cage.

Fang Yan sighed indistinctly, sat down next to Song Lai, and wrapped some weeds around his hands. The past events came from his mouth, as if telling someone else's story, and then Like talking about himself.

"You know most of the things in Kangyuan, such as the conflict between my uncle Lu Zheng and the deputy principal."

Song Lai nodded, "I know a little bit.

Your uncle came back the first time I went there, and I haven't seen your uncle since I went there. "

Fang Yan let out a "hmm", as if feeling agitated, he leaned gently on Song Lai's shoulder to seek a snuggle.

"He can only come back once or twice a year, and most of the time he is not in Kangyuan.

Kangyuan belongs to him in name, but in fact it is the vice principal who decides.

You know, the deputy principal is very greedy, plus he has a quarrel with Luzheng, so he is not much better for me. He always tries to get sponsors, and at least three days a week he has to bring a group of men and women in suits and ties. When we came to the garden, they all looked at us like monkeys, and called us together one by one, comparing who was thinner, who was darker, and who was more pitiful.

It seems that the worse we are, the happier they are. "

"So when you came, I hated it. I thought you were the same as them."

Fang Yan's voice became weaker and weaker, no matter how soft the tone was, it didn't matter, but Song Lai always felt like a knife was piercing his heart when he heard it.

Song Lai took a deep breath, and the original thought of pushing Fang Yan away came back to his heart.

He licked his lips, leaned against Fang Yan's head, and reached out to stroke his hair.

Forget it, it's poor.

Song Lai thought so.

Fang Yan seemed to be very pleased with his comfort, and his tone gradually became clearer.

"I thought that you, like those people, came to play us, to laugh at us, just throwing down a few dirty money to see us grateful and enjoy that ridiculous sense of superiority.

So after you left that day, I naturally thought this was the end. "

"But the next day you came again, and you showed up for a week after that.

You don’t bring so many people, sometimes there are only one or two people, sometimes you come by yourself, you are always in a good mood when you come, and you bring us a lot of things, so the children also like it you.

But I still don't like you, I thought it was another trick of yours, you just wanted more from us. "

"It was only later that I realized that you were really different from them.

You will play in the water, play hide-and-seek with us, and even build walls with us, plant trees together, lie on the dirt and eat popsicles together, and roll on the dirty grass together. "

"The most different thing is that you will smile at me, even after I hurt you."

Fang Yan's words made Song Lai step into the vortex of the past bit by bit, ups and downs in it.

He thought of the vigilant, undisguised teenager who used the worst way to protect himself.

"correct."

Song Lai felt melancholy, "Back when we were building walls, the bricks you threw almost smashed my head through."

Song Lai said with a smile, but Fang Yan blamed himself.

"I really didn't mean it, I just wanted to scare you."

Hearing Fang Yan's aggrieved voice, Song Lai laughed out loud, patted Fang Yan's shoulder, "I know.

You are a little hedgehog. "

Fang Yan had mixed feelings in his heart, he straightened his back, and hugged Song Lai, "I'm sorry."

"You don't know how much I regret that I almost hurt you at that time.

It was also at that time that everyone was scolding me, but you came to hold my hand like nothing happened. "

Song Lai laughed, "Really? Am I so tolerant?"

Fang Yan nodded solemnly, "You are better than you imagined yourself."

Song Lai was so embarrassed by his compliment that she blushed, so she changed the subject to him, "You were only 17 at that time, right? You wanted to have a relationship at such a young age?"

Fang Yan suddenly became embarrassed, quickly pushed him away and vetoed, "No! How did I know that at that time, I just didn't hate you, I just thought you were a good person.

Don't think too much about it. "

Seeing Fang Yan blushing with embarrassment, Song Lai clutched his stomach and laughed out of breath.

Fang Yan's face was flushed by his ridicule, and he couldn't wait for him, so he pushed him, "Stop laughing."

Song Lai couldn't bear it anymore, his waist hurt from laughing, and he still refused to give up while leaning against him.

Fang Yan was stunned for a while, covered his lips with his face in his hands, blocked his smile, swallowed it, and touched his lips and teeth, emotionally and emotionally.

Fang Yan's kiss was quick and long, and Song Lai was breathless from his kiss, leaning limply on his body, letting him ask for it.

Fang Yan let go of Song Lai only after Song Lai became weak and lost all strength, touched his forehead lightly, and smiled at his embarrassment.

"Are you still laughing?" Fang Yan asked him proudly.

Song Lai rolled his eyes at him feebly, wanted to push him but couldn't push him away, it was a bit more seductive to refuse and welcome.

"Screw you."

Fang Yan leaned against his ear to pant, and all the warm breath fell on Song Lai's ear.

"That's called talking about love."

"Brother, did you want to have a relationship with me a long time ago?"

Song Lai was heated up by what he said, so he pushed him away with all his strength, and looked at him angrily, "Be honest with me, don't talk nonsense, and I will leave if you talk nonsense."

Fang Yan liked to see his cute face pretending to be angry, so he hurriedly crouched low, leaned over to hold his hand, and pulled him to sit beside him.

"I was wrong, I won't tease you."

Song Lai didn't resist, let him lead her, and sat down beside him obediently.

"Keep talking, if you don't talk about An'an, you will be out of class."

Fang Yan pursed his lips and smiled slightly, his heart was so soft that it was a mess.

"How did I pick up such a good brother?"

Song Lai glared at him sideways, "Whoever picks it up is not sure."

"Okay, okay, you picked me up, it's my luck."

Song Lai felt comfortable after being smoothed by him, "Tell me quickly, and I'm leaving if you don't."

Fang Yan held his hand tightly to prevent him from leaving, and then hugged his shoulders and pressed against him tightly.

"You know the rest, but you come and go, you treat me well, and I like you.

Although you are not only good to me, but I only like you. "

As Fang Yan said, secretly exerting force on his hands, his lips touched Song Lai's forehead lightly back and forth, and his breath fell steadily on Song Lai's eyelashes.

"When I knew that someone from the Fang family was coming to pick me up, it was the first time I realized that we couldn't be together forever."

"Back then I just wanted a good reason to stay by your side.

The reason is that you need me.

But I forgot to tell you, in fact, I need you. "

Fang Yan's breath stagnated, and his voice eased.

"Brother, you are the one who reached out to me first, and you made me need you."