Qiuchi silent

Summary: Tell me what you think, without regard to identity

Mu Zhe walked very fast. Although he didn't walk recklessly, he made it clear that he didn't want to talk to Xie Qiuchi.

With the lessons learned from the past, Xie Qiuchi didn't dare to pull Muzhe again, so he had to keep the same pace and follow behind him.

Just as he was about to admit his mistake, Mu Zhe took out his mobile phone and called someone: "I won't be here today."

"Well, something happened."

"Next time."

"Okay, please. Call the orangutan."

Only then did Xie Qiuchi come to his senses and understand why Mu Zhe appeared on the court.

It is estimated that after he and Mu Zhe asked for leave, someone asked Mu Zhe to play, and now Mu Zhe let people go.

He heard that Mu Zhe was still sporadically responding to what the people said, and finally smiled: "It's not a big deal, there is something wrong with the dog that needs to be dealt with."

They were probably surprised, thinking that Mu Zhe raised a genuine dog, and Mu Zhe said again: "No breed, native dog."

Xie Qiuchi suddenly felt that the heart that was still suspended just now was settled back, but it was not stable, and there was a clicking sound, which was painful, but at least he didn't have the feeling of suffocation at any time.

The master wants him too.

After Mu Zhe made the phone call, the smile that just appeared on Mu Zhe's face disappeared. Xie Qiuchi kept paying attention to his expression, deliberated for a long time, and finally did not speak, and followed silently.

Mu Zhe ignored him until he got in the car, Xie Qiuchi stopped beside the car and Mu Zhe turned to look at him, with a slightly annoyed expression on his face: "Why, there is still something to do, right?"

Xie Qiuchi was swallowed when he thought of his reason for asking for leave, and quickly shook his head and got into the car.

"seat belt."

Mu Zhe reminded him, and he just reacted and put on his seat belt.

Mu Zhe looked at his movements and frowned: "Did you bump your hand just now?"

He didn't see it clearly from a distance just now, but now he noticed that Xie Qiuchi's wrist was swollen, and his movements were a little awkward.

Xie Qiuchi subconsciously retracted his hand, as if trying to hide it, and then said after a pause: "Well, it's okay."

Mu Zhe took a deep look at him, looked back and started the car.

The atmosphere fell silent again, Xie Qiuchi wanted to say something: "Master..."

"You..." Mu Zhe spoke at the same time as him, and he immediately stopped, waiting for Mu Zhe to speak.

Mu Zhe looked at the road ahead, and continued: "How long have you been like this?"

"...It's about a month since the first year of freshman year."

Mu Zhe raised his eyebrows in surprise.

He could see that Xie Qiuchi was used to this kind of bullying behavior, but he didn't expect it to take so long—more than two years.

It was hard for him to imagine that an adult with autonomy could endure such a thing for so long.

It would be embarrassing for anyone to encounter such a thing. Once the impulsive anger he had just passed, he calmed down and felt that he was still lacking in consideration—Since Xie Qiuchi kept it from him and asked him for leave, it was because he didn't want him Know.

He ran into it by chance, and although it seemed like he was helping someone out, Xie Qiuchi didn't necessarily think so.

He thought of the way Xie Qiuchi held him, and felt inexplicably irritated—but this irritability was definitely not because the dog he raised had touched him without authorization.

Mu Zhe stopped before the red light: "Tell me what you think, don't worry about your identity."

What he said was that he didn't need to care about his master-slave status for the time being. Xie Qiuchi didn't speak for a while, staring blankly at the fastened seat belt, and finally squeezed out a very shallow smile: "I didn't think much, Xiao Qing Knowing something about me, I don’t want him to spread it out, so I endured it all the time. It’s useless to beat Xiao lightly, he is a poisonous snake hiding in the gutter, and he will jump out and bite people at the most unexpected time.”

"You don't have to worry about this now, he dare not say it." Mu Zhe rubbed the space between his brows uncomfortably.

"...what you just said to him..."

Mu Zhe snorted: "I threatened him with my dad's name, don't worry about it."

He rarely felt a little suffocated. After all, he had never used his family background as an example since he was a child. It was the first time he did this, and he was really uncomfortable and always felt useless.But he couldn't help thinking about the situation just now. Since he took Xie Qiuchi in, he couldn't let his dog be at risk in front of him.

Xie Qiuchi nodded and stopped talking.

Mu Zhe looked at him out of the corner of his eye.

Xie Qiuchi may be really not talkative. Although this problem has been corrected a lot during the training, when something happens to him, his mood fluctuates, and he forgets everything. In the black box that can't see the sun.

"You don't want me to be involved in this matter, do you, Xie Qiuchi?"

"..." Xie Qiuchi still lowered his head, "Yes, I don't want you to know."

He still used the honorific title, and Mu Zhe didn't correct it.

"Which one do you want me to know?" Mu Zhe asked, "Are you being bullied or do you like men?"

Xie Qiuchi's throat tightened, and he struggled to choke out two words: "All of them."

no... not this...

he thought.

The sticky feeling of suffocation surrounded him again, and he could only hold on to the flat seat belt tightly, as if he would sink if he didn't do so.

Mu Zhe was silent for a while, and said: "I don't know why you are so afraid, there is nothing shameful in liking the same sex. Are you afraid of criticism?"

"Maybe..." Xie Qiuchi replied in a low voice, "It took me a long time and a lot of hard work to get to where I am today. What Xiao Qing wants to publicize will destroy my current life."

Summer has come to an end, and the cicadas are weak.

They sang enthusiastically for a summer, and they were about to die, as if they had never come to this world.

But the sun is still bright, never caring about the life and death of this little bug.

Xie Qiuchi tilted his head slightly and looked out the window, his eyes reflected the mighty skylight, which should have been shimmering, but there was a kind of lifeless gray.

He knew that Mu Zhe wouldn't understand, Mu Zhe didn't know everything about him, he didn't see the man who was swimming desperately in despair, how he was maliciously pushed back into the water when he thought he finally landed, And have fun with it.

But what Xiao Qing pushed him into was only shallow water, he could still survive, and he didn't even dare to struggle in order not to be pushed into the deep black sea again.

"I'm timid and afraid of getting into trouble, you are disappointed in me, do you think I'm being mean?"

"I didn't..." Mu Zhe stopped in the middle of speaking - he did say that to Xie Qiuchi just now.

"I'm sorry," he said suddenly, "I was out of choice just now, I didn't think that way."

Xie Qiuchi turned his head and looked at him in surprise.

He never thought that he would hear these three words from Mu Zhe's mouth, he quickly shook his hand: "I'm not...not blaming you, I..."

Xie Qiuchi smiled wryly, not knowing what to say.

He doesn't know why he is like this, he likes humiliated sex, likes being a dog - but these are only in front of Mu Zhe.

But Mu Zhe probably felt that he treated everyone the same.

The yellow light turned on and changed to green, and the car set off again with a roar.

"Xie Qiuchi, I'm sorry."

Xie Qiuchi suddenly felt his nose sore, he endured it for a while, and finally replied softly: "It's okay."

"I have a bad temper, and it's easy to talk when I'm emotional." Mu Zhe tapped his forehead with one hand, "If anything hurts you, you have to tell me. I know you like to hold back—"

He turned his head and glanced at Xie Qiuchi quickly, raising his eyebrows: "But you must tell me how you feel, this is an order."

"Yes," Xie Qiuchi looked at his profile, "You have a very good temper."

"Really?" Mu Zhe smiled, "It seems that I was too kind to you, and I didn't punish you well when I punished you. If you didn't stop me just now, I didn't want to cause you trouble. I really could He went to the hospital."

"You didn't cause trouble, thank you very much today."

Mu Zhe opened his mouth, and didn't know what he thought of, but didn't say anything, and then said, "I knew my sexual orientation and sexual addiction very early, maybe because of my personality, I panicked for a very short time. At that time, I felt that the world There are so many people living in the sewer with dirty minds, if they can live with peace of mind, why can't I live a better and more relaxed life? I just like the same sex, just have special hobbies , don’t steal or grab, I’ll do what you want, there’s nothing to be afraid of.”

Xie Qiuchi listened to several sentences before he realized that Mu Zhe was "exchanging secrets" with him. The word "like the same sex" echoed in his mind repeatedly: "Aren't you...aren't you afraid of being known?"

"It's not too scary. I have never concealed my sexuality. As for liking BDSM, I will probably be criticized if people know it, but as long as it doesn't implicate others, it doesn't matter."

"You are very powerful." Xie Qiuchi said sincerely, "I am different. I am afraid of causing trouble."

The troubles will never end, will take all your things, spread them out in the sun, and never have peace.

He can endure bullying, ridicule, loneliness, and many things, but he can't bear someone to open up his past.And Xiao Qing just has this ability - he knows everything.

"You..." His voice trembled a little, Xie Qiuchi clenched his hands and took a lot of effort to calm it down, "You won't understand."

Mu Zhe wouldn't understand where his fear came from, and he didn't dare to let him understand.

"You're right, I really can't understand it." Mu Zhe sighed, "I just want to tell you, no matter what time it takes, show courage, maybe you're not as vulnerable as you think."