Scum smell

After listening to Xu Yeye's narration, Ji Yao's face was pale. He sat in a chair for a while, and then slowly regained his senses, and began to seriously persuade Xu Yeye - that appearance, I don't know if he was convincing Xu Yeye, Still convincing himself: "How could I get confused, Zhang He and Wen Lin—they are not alike at all from the inside to the outside, and I'm not blind."

"You don't need to be too similar." Xu Yeye interrupted him, "As long as you have something in common that can make you empathize, that's fine."

Ji Yao's face changed: "Xu Yeye, what do you mean? You say I like Zhang He? I use Wen Lin as a substitute?"

Xu Yeye smiled, but tears welled up unconsciously. She asked softly, "Ji Yao, ask yourself, don't you?"

When she and Zhang He were just together, Zhang He heard that she was an invisible rot, and liked him and Ji Yao, and once asked her why she was very puzzled.

She forgot the reason at the time, so she just said she thought they were cute together.During this time, she remembered the reason.

When she was in high school, the first time she met Ji Yao was in the evening of self-study in a senior one.

During that time, the teacher assigned a lot of homework, and she came home very late every day, but almost every time she passed the basketball court, she could see a teenager practicing non-stop.

That boy is Ji Yao.At that time, Ji Yao hadn't had a stroke yet, and his skin hadn't been tanned. He was small and white-skinned. He was sweating profusely on the basketball court by himself, with a serious face.

One day when she passed by, Ji Yao happened to fall down, she went to help him, and finally couldn't help asking, do you like playing basketball so much.

In the end, Ji Yao looked at her in confusion, and said that she didn't know, but she should like it.

She was very surprised, and asked what it means to like it.Ji Yao laughed, because his buddy likes to play basketball, so he will definitely like it.

It has been many years since this incident, Ji Yao forgot, Xu Yeye also forgot - she thought she forgot.

"You two share the same interests. He may not like what you like to do, but you must like what he likes. You both like to eat Zhou Heiya, play games, and play basketball—but Ji Yao, if you recall carefully, these things , did you really like it at first?"

Xu Yeye said word by word, as he spoke, he asked softly: "...Isn't it tiring to find ways to turn other people's preferences into your own preferences?"

"Zhang He told me that you clearly made an appointment to go to University B together, but you filled in University A. He found out about your wish and filled out one accordingly. You were so angry at the beginning, why did you get angry? ?You wanted to transfer classes from the second year of high school, and you even secretly filled out the volunteers in the third year of high school. You wanted to hide away, but you couldn’t! Because Zhang He had a rope tied to you, he Pulling you, you can't escape at all, right?"

Xu Yeye's speech became faster and faster, and Ji Yao's face became paler and paler.

All the pasts between him and Zhang He were broken up by Xu Yeye and carefully analyzed bit by bit.Ji Yao only felt that his mind was in a mess, and Xu Yeye's words subverted his three views, making him feel that he was not himself anymore.

"Also, why do you keep introducing girlfriends to Zhang He? Because you swore an oath, because you once said to him, you, absolutely, right, no, do, third, third! Man, he still likes to cheat and have promiscuity, but you told him that you are definitely not a mistress! You didn't even give him a free period because you were afraid that he would be single, and you were afraid that you would break him up!"

"Ji Yao, admit it, you like him."

"I know you don't want to break him at all, you want us to be together from the bottom of your heart, but Ji Yao, can you understand my feelings? One of my boyfriends has been together for the first half of his life, and he will continue to be together for the rest of his life Their childhood sweethearts, they are so inseparable, they have a tacit understanding, and no one else can intervene—the most frightening thing is, that childhood sweetheart, for him, would rather force himself into another appearance, and for more than ten years, love miserable killed him!"

It was as if a thunderbolt struck suddenly, Ji Yao was dizzy, his limbs were numb, he almost felt his soul fly away, his body and soul disappeared.

He stared at Xu Yeye with a fierce expression but weak eyes: "Are you kidding me!"

"...Xu Yeye, you really can't make such wild guesses without evidence. Loving brains is a disease, and it needs to be cured." Ji Yao took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down, his lips were already bloodless, But still unyieldingly wanted to explain to Xu Yeye, "If a scum like me likes Zhang He, will he leave him to you? I've already broken him up when he didn't understand anything."

"—Do you understand brotherhood, my good girl! Do you know that there is an effect in psychology? Simply put, it is a matter that is out of the question, but it ends up being nagged by people every day. After a long time, I don’t know. Before I knew it, it was true—you said that Zhang He and I have such a pure relationship, if you are brainwashed by you every day, it really makes sense, do you think you are wronged?"

He persuaded Xu Yeye earnestly: "I know that because I like men, you may have a sense of crisis, I can understand. But don't worry, I will find two more at that time, and you won't doubt it—"

Before finishing this sentence, Ji Yao suddenly had alarm bells ringing in his heart, thinking that something bad might happen.

Xu Yeye couldn't help laughing "ha", and clapped his hands in praise: "So, this is the reason for your promiscuity? The more promiscuous and fickle you are, the more upright and self-loving Zhang He is. He also has a lot of love history, but everyone thinks that he is a taciturn and good man, which is all set off by you-you see, if this is the case, no matter how good your relationship is, no one will think of you two together go."

"Let's think about it... When were you and Yu Siyuan together? I remember that I was only together with Zhang He not long ago. During that time, you were in a window period. I remember very clearly. I still remember me Ask him where you have been, and he said you went climbing a mountain. When you come back, you have a boyfriend."

"When did you start to calm down, seriously, and started to plan not to continue wandering? At the end of last semester, right... At that time you said that you began to feel that this was not good. What a coincidence. At that time, Zhang He and I I also want to settle down."

Ji Yao's expression was stiff, and he said weakly: "This... this is a coincidence."

However, there was a voice in his heart telling him, no, no.

Jiang Qiutong crossed his fingers and analyzed methodically: "Ji Yao's family structure is very strange. His relationship with Zhang He's family is just like the relationship between your family and mine. It can be said that he grew up in Zhang He's family—— The next time Ji Yao's parents invited me to dinner, Zhang He's parents were there, and they also thanked me as parents. From this incident, it can be seen that Zhang He's parents really love Ji Yao as their own. of."

"But their two families are not like us. They are connected by blood. What they rely on is their friendship for ten years. At this time, we might as well imagine that if you are Ji Yao's parent, your work is very busy , I can only entrust Ji Yao to the care of a friend, what would you say to the young Ji Yao?"

Yu Siyuan murmured to himself—these words were also told to him by his parents when he was young: "You have to be good, you have to be obedient, you have to be sensible, and don't cause trouble for adults— If it was Ji Yao's parents, they would probably say that Mom and Dad like godfather and mother-in-law very much, but we are not relatives, if you are not good, godfather and mother-in-law will stop playing with Mom and Dad."

"Yes." Jiang Qiutong nodded, "Poor people yearn for wealth, and ugly people yearn for beauty. People lack what they want. But Ji Yao, his family seems to be happy, and the seven members of his family regard him as an eyeball. However, this kind of relationship is extremely unstable-this makes him yearn for and attaches great importance to family relationships. This family not only refers to their family of three, but also includes Zhang He's family. He was educated from an early age to be obedient You must be obedient and sensible, and you must not cause trouble to your family, especially Zhang He's parents—you have never seen him, in front of his parents, he is so obedient and sweet, like a little tit with its belly open to be rubbed Cats—that's why he's so afraid of coming out."

"What does coming out of the closet mean? It means that there may be an ambiguous relationship between two boys who grew up, and it means that the relationship between the two families may be broken."

After Yu Siyuan told him about his coming out, Ji Yao kept having nightmares for a while. Jiang Qiutong didn't know about it, but it didn't mean he couldn't figure it out.

"So he was very depressed, suppressed his sexuality, suppressed his feelings, didn't dare to show a little bit, even subconsciously paralyzed himself, and found an empathy object-he really is there."

Yu Siyuan recalled, looked at him suddenly, and said incredulously, "Wait--you mean, Ji Yao doesn't know? He doesn't know that he likes Zhang He?"

Jiang Qiutong said firmly: "Ji Yao doesn't know."

"...What about Zhang He? Does Zhang He know all this?"

"..." Jiang Qiutong pressed his temple wearily, "He... I don't know."

On the other side, this unilateral crush has come to an end.

"Actually, when I first found out about this, I wanted to pretend to be confused."

Xu Yeye picked up the cup and took a big sip of coffee.

"I've been thinking about this for the past few months, and then I thought, forget it, who did it wrong? You never tried to break Zhang He, and did everything possible to bring us together; Zhang He took care of you since childhood, and he paid He has learned a lot, but you are also repaying him, so he has become a very responsible person, and he is right; I like Zhang He, and we are together, dignified and upright, neither stealing nor grabbing, I I have a clear conscience for his kindness, and I am also right. After thinking about it, I thought, everyone did nothing wrong...then I will pretend to be stupid."

"But...but—but! Ji Yao, I really...can't pretend anymore..."

She covered her face and tried her best to suppress the crying in her voice: "I'm going to his house this time, his mother—"

In the middle of her speech, the voice stopped abruptly, and Ji Yao subconsciously asked: "Did the godmother feel wronged by you?"

He frowned at her, with sincere concern in his eyes, even at this moment, Ji Yao's first reaction was still to care about her.

Ji Yao is really a person who protects his weaknesses and is very gentle in front of those he cares about.

She shouldn't be angry, Ji Yao is already fine.

Xu Yeye swallowed the words that were almost blurted out, they made her throat almost ooze blood, she laughed: "...No, I'm just jealous that she treats you better than me."

Ji Yao hesitated, the godmother and his sister-in-law were in conflict because of him, and he didn't know what to do. In the end, he could only say weakly: "After all these years of friendship...you want to live with Zhang He for the rest of your life. of."

Xu Yeye looked at him carefully, as if he wanted to see a flower.Ji Yao felt guilty unconsciously, and couldn't help hiding.Xu Yeye asked him, word by word, very seriously: "Ji Yao... tell me, when you said these things to me, didn't you feel sad? Don't you feel pain? ——I just thought Thinking about it, it hurts like hell."

"..." Ji Yao was silent.He thought for a while, and replied cautiously: "I...I don't feel it..."

He has said this kind of pulling strings so many times that he has long since become numb.

He said, still not giving up, still trying to convince Xu Yeye that he really has nothing to do with Zhang He.

Xu Yeye sighed: "Okay."

"Ji Yao, as long as you tell me, 'I don't like Zhang He', I will immediately go to his house and kneel down and beg him to get back together."

"--Say it!"

At the end, Xu Yeye's voice was full of tears.

"It's that simple?" Ji Yao couldn't believe it, he glanced at Xu Yeye as if confirming, and after receiving the affirmative answer from the other party, he cleared his throat confidently, coughed, and prepared to swear to God.

"..."

Ji Yao closed her eyes, her lips opened and closed, but it was as if she suddenly lost her speech, unable to utter any sound.

"..."

He frowned tightly, and beat his chest hard, as if if he did this, he would be able to spit it out if he got stuck in his chest.

Why?Why can't he say it?

There seemed to be a big hole in his heart, and his throat was torn off bloody all the way, thousands of words were stuck in his chest, but he couldn't say anything.

He doesn't like Zhang He.

He doesn't like... Zhang He.

Say it, say it!As long as he said it, his Fa Xiao and Xu Yeye could continue to be together!

He tossed and tossed for a while, his expression became more and more painful, and finally, he pressed his chest tightly, his fingers were so strong that his fingertips turned blue and white, and he said word by word: "I... don't like... Zhang, He."

His voice was dry and hoarse, like a flower withered by despair.

He understood everything.His body, his heart, told him everything.

As soon as he finished speaking, two lines of hot tears rolled down his eyes uncontrollably.

"...Do you understand now?"

Xu Yeye watched him sadly and silently.

Ji Yao was crying and looked at her.

One pair is smart and the other pair is clear, just like when they teamed up to deceive Jiang Qiutong tacitly at the airport.

But time is gone forever, and the past two cheerful teenagers confronted each other in this small coffee shop.

And Ji Yao's last layer of skin was also cruelly peeled off.

He was naked in front of others, and finally tremblingly, he opened his most fragile and soft inner core.