Scum smell

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The two stared at the spreading water stains on the bed, neither of them spoke.Yu Siyuan was completely sober from the wine, and after a few breaths of silence, he carefully pulled away from his body, his stuff suddenly poured out, making Ji Yao's already messy ass slit even more wet, and then a big wave of semen dripped down.The scene was nasty, almost erotic.

Yu Siyuan swallowed secretly, picked up Ji Yao, whose bones were softening, and went to the bathroom to help him clean up.Normally, the two of them would be tender for a while, and he would make fun of Ji Yao when he saw this, but now...

He didn't dare to speak, he was so cowardly.

Ji Yao closed his eyes and didn't utter a word the whole time, with a calm expression on his face. Seeing his appearance, Yu Siyuan almost wanted to kneel down with his ancestor immediately in his heart.After taking a shower in silence, and carrying him to the newly changed bed, Yu Siyuan wanted to explain something, but didn't know how to say it.He opened and closed his mouth, and in the end he just hugged Ji Yao into his arms silently.

He is in a very complicated mood now, a little guilty, a little scared, and a little sad that hasn't dissipated, but more, he is secretly happy.

For a man, there is nothing more satisfying than forcing a beloved partner to piss.

In fact, Yu Siyuan himself is really not a person who loves fragrance and cherishes jade. He has a thick and thin personality. He looks bright and neat but actually has a lot of dirty thoughts. On the bed, he also enjoys the sense of accomplishment of tossing his bed partner to the point of crying.

But who made him like Ji Yao?He is much older than Ji Yao, he always looks like a child to Ji Yao, and he feels sorry for him, and he feels pity for him unconsciously on the bed.Ji Yao only knew that he was doing a good job, but he didn't know Yu Siyuan's dirty tricks, so he was not willing to use them on him.

This time the copulation came heartily, Yu Siyuan was like a tiger coming out of the cage, and finally had a good meal.

... But the most urgent task is to coax Ji Yao well.

Oh, what should I do, I'm so anxious.

he thought with a headache.

As for Ji Yao?

...Ji Yao said that he was not angry at all, the old man was still reminiscing about the pleasure just now.Yu Siyuan thinks too much of his self-esteem, it's just a matter of spending time, it's good to be happy, face and so on are nothing.

But Yu Siyuan's uneasy look was very funny, he secretly admired it for a while, and then said slowly: "Yu Siyuan."

Yu Siyuan tightened his skin all of a sudden, this unhurried addressing with names and surnames reminded him of the fear when he was a child when he committed crimes and was caught by his parents.

He lowered his head, and came face to face with Ji Yao, his beautiful eyes stared at Ji Yao without blinking, affectionately, trying to seduce him with beauty, and escaped.

Ji Yao has an indifferent face, unmoved - although this Yangou's heart has exploded into fireworks, the surface is still indifferent, it can be said to be very cold - this trick is learned from Jiang Qiutong.

Seeing that Yu Siyuan could hardly hold on anymore, Ji Yao hummed mercifully, and gave him a sideways look: "Do you want me to forgive you?"

Yu Siyuan nodded frantically, like a big dog who will do anything for the sake of meat and bones.

Ji Yao sneered: "Then tell me what happened to the scar on your body."

He really doesn't like to get to the bottom of it. He never took the initiative to inquire about Yu Siyuan's affairs, but no matter how stupid he was, he would understand after a day. Last time Yu Siyuan was fooling him, and Yu Siyuan didn't want to talk to him. Say this.

People are so cheap, when others hold you up and tell you everything, you are not interested in listening at all.But if people stop talking about it and do everything possible to hide it from you, you will want to know again.

Ji Yao is in such a state.

That's right, he is cheap - Ji Yao thought confidently, who is not a little public opinion.

Yu Siyuan was silent as expected.

Seeing him like this, Ji Yao also felt bored, he waved his hand: "If you don't want to say it, don't say it, I'm sorry for talking too much."

He really felt that he had offended others, and he really didn't intend to ask any more. However, what Yu Siyuan was most afraid of was Ji Yao's behavior. He finally waited until Ji Yao had a desire to explore himself. ?

He struggled for a while, and said vaguely: "Actually, it's nothing, just being beaten."

There are criss-cross scars on his back, not very deep, but it can be seen that it has been a long time, and he can vaguely imagine the tragedy at that time.

Ji Yao raised his eyebrows in amazement: "I can't see it, you still like this tune." The scar looked like it was whipped, how rough was Yu Siyuan when he was young, and he played SM, so many marks, The back is all ripped off.

Yu Siyuan didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and pulled Ji Yao into his arms a little tighter, resting his chin on top of his head, organized his words before saying: "It was my dad who hit him... When he came out of the closet, he went crazy, At once……"

Ji Yao's eyes were wide open, although he still doesn't know that the old man sitting on the bench that he met in the afternoon was Yu Siyuan's father, but in his impression, Yu Siyuan's parents are very open-minded, so Siyuan has been wandering outside since she came out of the closet, and her parents have never cared about her.Although he didn't say it clearly, Ji Yao secretly envied her in private, thinking that it would be great if her parents could be like this.But now Yu Siyuan said that it was not easy for him to come out, he was beaten, and he was beaten badly.

Just now Ji Yao was still thinking about getting hurt like this, his back must have been rotten at the time, but now that he brought himself in, he couldn't help but feel heavy in his heart - it wasn't that he really didn't mind and kept his sexuality a secret for the rest of his life.

Yu Siyuan was afraid of scaring him and made him dare not come out, and it was really not a good memory, so he didn't dare to say it. Seeing Ji Yao's appearance, Yu Siyuan hurriedly made up for it: "The main thing is I was not sensible at the time, too frizzy."

Ji Yao looked up: "Huh?"

Yu Siyuan stroked Ji Yao's smooth back again and again, as if smoothing the fur of a cat: "When I came out of the closet..."

He was about the same age as Ji Yao when he came out, and he was also a junior.

Speaking of which, Yu Siyuan is not a pure homosexual, he can be hard on women, but he prefers men.When he was in junior high school, Yu Siyuan only realized that his sexuality was different, but he didn't plan to do anything. Since both men and women are fine, it's better for him not to touch the forbidden area.

But the bad thing is that he went abroad, and the place where he went to high school is called San Francisco.

In such a city where gay parades are held at every turn, and there are no parents watching, it is really difficult for him not to go, trying to release the taste of his nature-he has left countless firsts in that city.

First kiss, first kiss with a man, first sex, first sex with a man, first date in a relationship, first date with a man, first time in a bar, first time in a gay bar .

Later, he gradually discovered that he was not interested in women.At that time, he told the bartender he was acquainted with the incident, and the other party cheerfully offered him a glass of vodka: "Congratulations, you have become a real gay!"

The carefree life continued until college, and his parents wanted him to stay in the United States and marry a local overseas Chinese.When he was in his junior year, he began to go on blind dates one after another, all of whom were Chinese-Americans. His parents had business contacts with their family, and their family background matched.

Yu Siyuan was extremely depressed, his unrestrained heart was locked up, and he wanted to suffocate when he thought of marrying a woman for the rest of his life.After bragging with the fifth girl, Yu Siyuan finally couldn't bear it, and called his parents to show off.

Yu's father immediately blocked his card, and Yu's mother took advantage of Yu Siyuan's unresponsive reaction, and went directly to the United States, where he suspends him from school neatly and sent him back home.

After entering the house, before Yu Siyuan had time to rest in the dusty world, Yu's father asked him what he meant while holding his belt.

Yu Siyuan glanced at the belt, said nothing, bit his lip and knelt directly on the ground, the meaning was obvious - you can smoke if you want, I don't admit my mistake.

Furious, Yu's father beat him to death: "You're right! You're right! My son turned out to be gay! You shouldn't have been brought to America in the first place! It was those people who led you astray !"

Yu Siyuan's eyes were staring in pain, humiliation and unspeakable hatred filled his whole heart, he stiffened his neck, and shouted at his father: "I'm right! I want to be gay! I didn't steal If I didn't grab it, why should I say I was wrong! What's wrong with me!"

Father Yu was so angry that his hands trembled: "I'll beat you to death, you rebellious son!"

Yu Siyuan's blood boiled with enthusiasm, but his heart was extremely cold: "You beat me! If you can't beat me to death, I will look down on you!"

The day passed tragically and chaotically, Yu Siyuan was beaten to pieces, and the blood seeped through his clothes leaving marks one after another. Yu's mother hugged him and cried loudly, Yu's father was so angry that he couldn't stand still, leaning against the wall, Almost had a cerebral hemorrhage.Finally, Jiang Chunshui, Yu Siyuan's eldest sister, received a call from Jiang Qiutong and rushed to save the scene.

Yu father and mother are good at face, originally brought Yu Siyuan back secretly without telling the family, but Jiang Qiutong is studying in the United States, and the city where the two live is only an hour and a half by car. When he went to find Yu Siyuan, he found that something was wrong. , I quickly called my sister, and Yu's father finally had a step down.

The Jiang family sister and brother intervened, and this matter could not be resolved. The whole family was fried, the elders objected with one voice, and the younger generation had an ambiguous attitude, noncommittal.Jiang Qiutong, who studies psychology, is in the United States. He consulted a doctor and tutor about homosexuality. He wanted to help Yu Siyuan talk, but his mother suspected that he had something to do with his cousin.

Yu Siyuan was imprisoned in such a messy environment for a month. His injuries were superficial, but serious, and caused an infection, which almost turned into pneumonia.Before he could figure out what to do next, Jiang Qiutong sent him a message, saying that his father and mother planned to let him do whatever he wanted and then send him to the army.

Yu Siyuan almost collapsed. He had a big fight with his parents and said that he wanted to leave and leave this house.Yu's father threatened to break his legs, but Yu Siyuan laughed angrily, and said that he would not trouble you, then looked around with red eyes, lifted the TV cabinet and sat on the stool, straightened his long legs, ruthlessly He smashed it down.

With a bang, Yu's mother screamed in dismay.

Yu Siyuan was in extreme pain, hated and cheerful in his heart, he asked the stunned father Yu, who still had a leg, if he wanted to break it too, so as not to dirty his old man's hands, and do it himself.

Later, he was sent to the hospital. Mother Yu held his hand and kept crying. The whole family came to see him. No one dared to speak harshly. Only Jiang Chunshui ran over and slapped him hard when he got the news. .

Yu Siyuan was stunned. After this period of time, he was full of hostility. He stared at Jiang Chunshui: "Why did you hit me!"

Jiang Chunshui laughed angrily: "You are the one who hit you, you ungrateful bastard!"

Yu Siyuan suddenly felt wronged: "You hit me too!"

"—You should call." It was Jiang Qiutong who spoke. He finished his thesis and hurried over from the United States. Hearing Yu Siyuan's stupid words, he pushed the door open and looked at him coldly.

Yu Siyuan was scared all of a sudden.

Yu's father and mother are very busy. When he was young, he was always taken by Jiang's siblings. When he went to the United States, he was handed over to Jiang Qiutong. Compared with his father who always yelled to kill him, Jiang Qiutong The status is much higher.

This is the same as Zhang Hezhi and Ji Yao - next to each brat, there is a majestic patriarch who is responsible for tightening their skin.

Yu Siyuan's battle to come out of the closet lasted for a year. Yu Siyuan was hospitalized five times and his bank cards were all suspended. Into the turmoil——in the end, Yu Siyuan ran away from home and had no news for half a year as the end.

Yu's father and mother finally gave in.

"The funniest thing is that many people in my family thought there was something wrong with me and my brother. Because my brother and I had a good relationship since childhood. I went to the United States to study high school and he went to the United States to study in college. When I was in college, he was studying for a master's degree. It's so close, and my brother and sister have been openly supporting me, they feel...you understand. This incident annoyed my brother enough, and after he got his PhD, he got married in a flash."

Ji Yao laughed out loud, and joked: "Maybe your brother really has a crush on you? It's hard to say that I love you... Hahahaha..."

Yu Siyuan flicked his forehead with his fingers: "It's impossible for my brother to be a straight steel man."

As soon as Ji Yao mentioned this, he immediately thought of Zhang He, and he nodded with sympathy.

Probably the chatterbox opened, and Yu Siyuan talked about a lot of things, how he escaped from home, was penniless, how he drove, and how he was wandering on the street hungry because he was afraid of being found out without his documents. ...

"At that time, the second-generation ID card was not yet popular, and some places were not strictly controlled. I heard that there were many gays in Chongqing, so I evaded the fare. In order to save money, I lived in a shack that had not been demolished. When I first arrived, I had no job. , I can only distribute leaflets every day to earn a living, and it only costs 40 yuan a day... One day I passed by a steamed stuffed bun shop, and the new big meat buns cost [-] yuan each. Cheap...wow, that time, it was—”

He stopped, with a faint smile on his face, and shook his head.

Ji Yao stared at him with wide eyes, his eyes sparkling.He asked curiously, "Have you survived?"

Probably because there are too many people who have experienced it, Ji Yao, who appeared in front of Siyuan, has always been calm, his attitude towards people is smooth and sophisticated, and he is so sophisticated that he does not look like a 20-year-old young man at all.However, the current Ji Yao looked at him with bright eyes, undisguisedly amazed, which made him look a bit childish of his peers.

Yu Siyuan fell in love with his appearance, hugged and kissed him twice before saying: "If I can't bear it, I will endure it. If I give in, I will never be able to straighten up in front of my parents again for the rest of my life."

"Even if they felt sorry for me at the time and reluctantly gave in, after a long time, they will try to break me back again, find me a blind date, and let me have children..."

"...If it wasn't for my attitude that I would rather die outside, they would never have accepted it."

Ji Yao said "ah", his face turned pale, and he forced a smile: "Why are you acting like a class enemy?"

Yu Siyuan shook his head: "In retrospect, I was indeed extreme and guilty, but I don't regret it - I'm an adult, I just want to have the right to choose my own life."

Ji Yao looked at him.

Yu Siyuan chuckled happily: "Why do you have such eyes?"

Ji Yao blinked her eyes and looked very cute: "Suddenly I think you are so handsome."

Although the methods are fierce, Ji Yao is a man who dares to fight and stick to himself, even if he is rebellious all over, he can't help but admire him.

Yu Siyuan looked at him with a bewitching voice: "Then do you want to try it too?"

Ji Yao hesitated for a moment before shaking his head.He told the truth: "I dare not."

Yu Siyuan kissed him lingeringly, and smiled lowly: "Actually, many insiders thought that I didn't need to come out at that time. I didn't have a boyfriend. It wasn't because I couldn't be hard on women. I was still young, and my family didn't rush me , I can delay it for a long time, and if I am a bit more scumbag, I can marry someone first, and leave after having a child, and no one will say anything about me at that time."

"But I don't want to. Why should I wrong others and myself? It's not for any noble reason—but a man just doesn't want to be a man with his head upright, and he pulls others as a back, that's too weak gone."

"Hey, yum," he looked at him, his eyes were gentle and deep, as if carrying starlight, "people live in this world, not only yourself, you will bear a lot of things, you have to be responsible for many people, many things, and many choices. Some They may be so heavy that you want to throw them away, but you should carry them instead of letting others carry them."

Ji Yao was stunned.He stared directly at Yu Siyuan and didn't speak for a long time.

Suddenly there was a bell ringing in the distance, and brilliant fireworks burst out of the window.

Under the moonlight, the two looked at each other and stared at each other's faces.

Ji Yao's heart suddenly moved.He leaned over and kissed Yu Siyuan softly on the cheek.

"Siyuan, Happy New Year."