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On the second day of wrapping up, Zhang Zhehan packed his luggage and left Hengdian in a hurry. He didn't even say goodbye, and instead left for Kunming, Yunnan.

The sky in Yunnan has a kind of quiet beauty, and even time flows very slowly in this land.Or wander among the beautiful mountains and rivers, or shuttle in the quiet alleys of the ancient city, or just sit there and feel the ancient and mysterious atmosphere of Yunnan.

During this period of time, Zhang Zhehan completely emptied himself, he didn't deliberately think about anything, and he didn't deliberately avoid anything, so everything went with the nature, and he remembered it when he remembered it, and he forgot it when he forgot it.It was in this leisurely and comfortable environment that Zhang Zhehan slowly walked out of "The End of the World" and Zhou Zishu. The messages that Gong Jun sent every day, whether greetings or jokes, and the injuries suffered by Zhou Zishu in the play were all covered. Gong Jun outside the play was healed, and this warmth also allowed him to slowly stay away from the loneliness that tore his soul.Looking at the couple outfit on his body, Zhang Zhehan couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth. It turns out that the warmth is always there. It turns out that a melancholy and emotional soul like me will be reborn after meeting an optimist.

Halfway through the journey, Zhang Zhehan's mood gradually improved, and he would take pictures of the beautiful clouds and the ray of sunshine passing through the leaves.In fact, anything is good to shoot, even if it is a small flower or a grass on the side of the road, he can share it with that person, and that person will take the trouble to discuss it with him for a long time.It turns out that the beauty of love is to feel each other's warmth in the heart at 37°C, to share those little bits of life with your lover, and to appreciate all the beauty of this vast world with your lover.

Gong Jun, I am so lucky to meet you and fall in love with you!

After the trip, Zhang Zhehan began to prepare for his first concert, the theme of the first concert is - I met me.In an interview, although it was the process mentioned by the host, Zhang Zhehan still faced the camera and invited Gong Jun affectionately from the air: "Gong Jun, didn't you say that you would help me write songs and make an album? You are not required now." So many, NO.18 Remember to come to the scene of my first concert in a different space, that’s enough. What if you don’t come, no… coming is the first step, and the second step is if you don’t know how to sing my song, then Do you have to post a Weibo, apologize or something."

This is the second time Zhang Zhehan invited Gong Jun in public. He knows what Gong Jun cares about, and he understands Gong Jun's embarrassment, but Zhang Zhehan still hopes to push him, so that he will not be so inferior and brave.He still remembers saying to Gong Jun, "Jun Jun, do you still remember that song I heard for you before the finale? When the time comes for the first concert, I will sing that song. Will you come then?", His appearance was full of embarrassment and helplessness. Even though he told him over and over again that he didn't care about the so-called gap between the two, Gong Jun still refused. I hope you can come, and I will definitely wait for you to come." End.

Zhang Zhehan introduced this album in cryptic words, citing the story of Plato's "Symposium" to describe the secret hidden in the original character of human beings. Everyone is incomplete. The hope and pursuit of that kind of completeness is The so-called love.And to spend one's life looking for the other half of one's own sphere is to find the harmony of the soul and the meaning of love.He wanted to use this concert to tell Gong Jun, "I found the other half of my ball, and I met 'me' only because of you."

On the day of the first concert, Zhang Zhehan brought his new album and attended in costumes.Since he started playing, he has been looking around. The venue is not big, and it seems that he can see the sides at a glance. There are many people who come to support him, but there is no one who is most familiar and most wants to see.

Before taking the stage, he sent a message to Gong Jun, "I'm carrying the ring that belongs to you. When you come, I will hand it to you. Don't make me wait too long."Zhang Zhehan looked down at the two rings on his ring finger, "He should be here soon." Zhang Zhehan comforted himself in his heart, "Wait a little longer, he will definitely come."

Time passed quickly, and Zhang Zhehan's heart became heavier and heavier. Even in the end, he couldn't control his expression. If he couldn't see his expression, he would have wondered if there was a wry smile on his face all the time. "I think everyone should do what they want to do, do what makes them happy, and don't do what makes them unhappy. Then don't be afraid of making mistakes, and don't be afraid of being scolded or hurt if you don't do well. How, I have always felt that one must have one’s own dreams and things one wants to do, one must try one’s best to do it, and then talk about it when one is old, what will happen to me in the future…so many things We should try bravely so that we can have a better state like what we have presented to everyone today."

Time passed minute by minute, and halfway through in the blink of an eye, that person still hadn't appeared. This song, the song I wanted to sing to him, really, had no chance.

Zhang Zhehan smiled, and didn't know whether he was laughing at Gong Jun's timidity or himself, "The following song can only be heard by friends at the scene, but it hasn't been recorded or released in time. I can sing it to everyone on the spot first, and then there is a new song of mine, which is also my own lyrics. I was on the set when I was filming "The End of the World". Some thoughts... some thoughts about life, and then write it down, This song is called "Don't Say", and it's actually quite coherent with the previous song, "It's Alright" and "Don't Say"." The one with a melancholy look was the one that belonged to Zhou Zishu a month ago. Loneliness returned to Zhang Zhehan once again, standing in the center of the stage, surrounded by lights and applause, but seemed so alone, so lonely.

This song "Don't Tell" was sung to Zhou Zishu, and at this time Zhang Zhehan was as lonely and desolate as Zhou Zishu in those four months, watching his lover leave and seeing himself alone.

"The adult world tries not to say

"Don't judge and let yourself live freely

... "

"We agreed to be together, we agreed to love each other, we agreed to support each other, we agreed to hide this relationship in our hearts, and in the end we can only reach an agreement - agreed Did not say."

The lights went out, the crowd dispersed, and the first concert was over. Zhang Zhehan looked at the message from Gong Jun on his phone, "My dear, I wish you a smooth concert." At the same time, there were also photos of two bouquets of flowers. It read "Gong Jun wishes Mr. Zhang a smooth concert".Looking at Gong Jun's name, Zhang Zhehan shook his head and smiled helplessly after looking at Gong Jun's name. A person who has always sent flowers in the name of a studio would write his name so generously. These different types of flowers represent different flower languages, but no matter which one, it is full of love from him. In fact, this person has been protecting himself in his own clumsy way.

The Biejun river was full at the beginning, and the moon of thinking about you was empty. After half a month, the two met again.Zhang Zhehan temporarily added itinerary, Gong Jun drove from Shanghai to Nanjing, just for this evening meeting.Jumping away from Zhou Zishu and Wen Kexing, as Zhang Zhehan and Gong Jun, they enjoy the joy of love seriously.The rare tenderness made the two understand the meaning of distance, and every parting is for a better reunion next time.

The sky fades, the moon star rings.

Gong Jun surrounded Zhang Zhehan behind his back, and whispered in his ear: "Zhehan, in the future, I hope to be able to stand shoulder to shoulder with you and be worthy of you."

Zhang Zhehan turned his head slightly, looked at the familiar face on his shoulder, "I never thought you were not good enough."

Gong Jun raised his hand, gently stroked the side face in his arms, his fingertips slid across the smooth skin, and finally landed on the soft lips, "I know, you don't have to, but I can't, I I want to work hard for our future, I hope to protect you when you encounter difficulties, and I want to be strong." After finishing speaking, he turned the person in front of him gently, and put his other hand around his waist, slightly With force, he pulled him into his arms, lowered his head and covered his lips, and sucked gently.

Endless possibilities, night...

After this separation, Gong Jun's new play will be released. As an actor, he must cooperate with the publicity and promotion.Gong Jun reversed the previous Buddhist business, and actively promoted it on various platforms. He hoped that after this drama, his coffee position and financial strength would be improved, and he hoped to narrow the gap between the two of them. He wished he was closer to that light.

But Gong Jun's crazy business made Zhang Zhehan feel like "my lover no longer belongs to me". "Fake couple" has something that he will never be able to match - gender. The forbidden relationship in this general environment makes him feel deeply depressed, even though he clearly knows that it is fake, and clearly knows that it is just a play on the spot.

However, when you fall in love with someone, you become selfish, so selfish that you don't want to share it with others, even the slightest bit, even the illusion.

Overtly and secretly, Zhang Zhehan and Gong Jun mentioned it many times, saying that he "doesn't care about these differences", said "as long as the two of you are simply together", and even said "I'm jealous", but Gong Jun still Insisting on the belief that only those who have been promoted are qualified to stand by his side openly, this obsession is still the same as before.

They, had two people quarrel for the first time.

Immediately afterwards, both of them joined a new crew, and began a real long-distance love with a distance of thousands of kilometers.

You can't hear the tone of voice in the text message, you can't see the expression on the phone, and you can't even feel each other's temperature in the video.The quarrel did not ease, and even worsened. When the two of them were working overtime and struggling on the set, even daily contact became a luxury.

The news that Zhang Zhehan got when he was free was all about the love between Gong Jun and another girl. In that time and space, they had love, overcame obstacles, and had a happy ending in the end.Zhang Zhehan never thought that his 30 years of life experience would be jealous like a teenager.Admit it, Zhang Zhehan, you are so jealous!

And Gong Jun has always been clumsy, in this relationship, he did better than what he said, but the long distance, the contradiction will be magnified inch by inch, I don't know how to organize the words of comfort, obviously a hug can solve it The problem has dragged on for so long.When I was free, I picked up the phone, but there was still no news from him, and opened the interface belonging to him in WeChat. I hesitated and talked about it, and I didn’t know when to start the conversation. Finally, I could only close the interface and put down the phone in resentment.

But after putting down the phone, I always felt that I wanted to say something to Zhang Zhehan. After repeating this, I began to edit a copy titled "My Daily" on Xiaohongshu, with photos of my daily life.Just like a child, naively using his own way to please him who doesn't know how much he can get in return, it seems that this can make the other party see his well-behaved appearance and take care of himself again.Perhaps, even Gong Jun didn't realize that he, who has always been called "happy", has never smiled again during this period of time. Even when he was shooting landscapes, the sky was covered with dark clouds and there was no sunshine, just like his heart .He even naively posted a few videos of intentional flattery and intentional love.However, during the business period, every bit of it would be interpreted by fans, and what he did was misunderstood by fans as a show of love for the heroine in the play.

When Zhang Zhehan saw the news about Gong Jun, he always rationally analyzed that it was okay for him to do so, and that he shouldn't be angry with him, but he still couldn't control his anger in his heart.If we talk about the explosive point of anger in the relationship between the two, it is not only because Gong Jun's new drama is not yet popular, but all the main creators are holding their breath and want to rush again. The promotion of each platform is even worse, and there are also single-person variety shows. At that time, the hostess even called Gong Jun and said, "I'm so lonely." Although everyone knew it was a joke, how could someone in love get sand in their eyes?

But the sky failed to fulfill people's wishes, after all, it was out of season, and this drama still didn't become popular as expected.On the contrary, the two people were separated because of a series of problems, and it was really not worth the candle.

It wasn't until the end of the year that the poor Gong Jun realized that Zhang Zhehan was really angry. It was then that he realized that no matter how strong he was and how independent he was, in front of his lover, he was still the one who needed to be protected, feel safe, Children who need to be coaxed carefully.After thinking about it again and again, he posted his own sickness photo. Fortunately, Zhang Zhehan was as hard-spoken as a Xu, and responded "Are you okay?"

Some people say that people's longing will float in the air with the wind, because the backlog is too long and too thick, and eventually it can't bear it and it will rain. In fact, the rain is the longing.And love is a glass of wine, whoever drinks it will be intoxicated.In a quarrel, who is really right?Who is really wrong?