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I'm Dai Jingyao, Gong Jun's college classmate and roommate.As a student of a prestigious school, Gong Jun and I met in a major that didn't value 985 and 211.Gong Jun, this person who surprised me the first time I saw him, don't get me wrong, because he is really tall and handsome, with clear bones that are rare among southerners.Speaking of when we first met, Gong Jun and I were more compatible in personality, and both belonged to the kind of people who liked to play, but it was hard to be regarded as an extroverted person.

We in college live heartlessly every day, and the days when we open our eyes are wasted.Traveling, falling in love, playing games, and most people are the same.We gnawed at the books page by page for the final exam, but in the end we only got a pass; we rehearsed for the program over and over again, and finally left a video that we couldn't bear to look at after many years.Compared with girls of the same age, boys seem to mature later, so when Gong Jun told me that he was dumped because he did not pass the English test, my first reaction was "Why is this girl so naive", but with Time and facts have proved that naive people are actually us, with not-so-bad grades, not-so-bad life, and not-so-bad future.And because this seemingly high-ranking major has no real network resources, Gong Jun and I had to bow our heads to money in college.Especially Gong Jun, who took various model shoots and commercial shoots, thought he would be lucky to meet a "Bole", but reality is reality after all, and that "Bole" can only stay in the long river of history.

Sometimes, we will go crazy and laugh together, as if youth should look like this, all the frowns are inappropriate, and they are all fake deep illusions; sometimes, we will sit on the side of the playground, holding a few cans Beer, cursing at this unfair life, after all, it seems that our future really cannot see the light.

After graduation, there is no essential difference between us, except that we moved from the dormitory to the apartment and paid more rent.Continue to run with the crew, and continue to shoot unnamed commercials.However, speaking of it, Gong Jun's luck is not bad. Although he has accepted a tanmei drama, it is at least one of the works signed by one of the leading actors.At that time, what he told me the most was that brother Xu Feng was very kind to him and would really take care of him like a big brother.Yes, people who are new to society are inevitably naive, and every bit of goodness from others will be remembered for a long time.However, originally Gong Jun was more straightforward, I think anyone who gets close to him would be willing to make friends with him.

But such an uncomplicated matter as making friends, in the entertainment circle, it will be coated with layers of blackness.I still remember that Gong Jun called me after the film was finished. He said he was very sad that people who got along day and night suddenly couldn’t communicate with each other in an open manner. The most amazing thing is that this person who gets along day and night doesn't care about this relationship. It seems that he just has a sincere heart and pays wrongly for nothing. How come making friends has become such a difficult thing.

Also since that day, I feel that Gong Jun has changed. In short, Gong Jun has become a person with a smile on his lips but very clear boundaries in his heart.Whether it's re-shooting or commercials, or even kissing scenes with some well-known girls, his inexplicable sense of boundaries allows him to clearly separate work and reality.

When he received the Danmei script for the second time, I still remember how I laughed at him that day, "People say you shouldn't wet your shoes and socks twice in the same river, but you, Gong Jun, just don't believe in evil, so maybe you still think about it this time?" Make another friend?" If I knew that this sentence would come true later, I would have tried my best not to let him sign the word "Gong Jun" on that contract.

Under the epidemic, I have been staying at home doing nothing, so I was very happy to receive a call from Gong Jun.If I paid more attention that day, I would have noticed that Gong Jun hesitated to speak several times. If I had paid more attention that day, I would have found that Gong Jun was not in high spirits that day.But until he hung up the phone that day, Gong Jun still didn't say anything.

A few days later, when I received a call from Gong Jun again, I vaguely felt that he must have something to do, otherwise he would not have joined the group. I think I made two phone calls in a few days.

"I seem to... fall in love with my opponent." Gong Jun hesitated, and finally finished the sentence.

I thought it was some earth-shattering news, but after I heard Gong Jun's words, I also sniffed, "I like it, you are already 29, so why make a fuss if you like someone."

After Gong Jun was silent for a while, he spoke again, "He...is a man."

"What's wrong with the man?" I realized that something was wrong after I finished speaking. It was really earth-shattering news, "What? Man? Are you serious? Or is it the same as last time, too deep into the drama and can't recognize people clearly?"

"Well, it should be... no." Gong Jun said hesitantly, "I don't understand, but I am very happy to see him every day, I wish I could see him all the time, and today I was filming, and I realized that I am very... afraid that I will never see him again." I can't see him, and I'm thinking about what I can do to keep him by my side."

In fact, I accept same-sex love. After all, we are all human beings. Why do we have to divide them into righteous and evil? Based on the principle that existence is reasonable, I asked Gong Jun, "So? What are you going to do?"

"I want to tell him, but...I am afraid that he will refuse. If he refuses, it will be very...embarrassing in the future." Gong Jun spoke cautiously, as if he was speaking to me, or to himself.

"Are you entangled or not? How he treats you, don't you know? Confession of this kind of thing should be the trumpet of victory after the established facts are established, not the charge of attack." I felt in my heart that the two I haven’t known each other for long, and it’s not difficult to accept because of the love of the drama, so I didn’t think Gong Jun would be serious, and I even said that I didn’t think they would be together for a long time, just like watching flowers on horseback. It's just an experience.

"I know, but in the face of him, I'm afraid even one out of ten thousand. What's more, he had a girlfriend before." Gong Jun's voice became lower and lower.

Hearing what he said, I suddenly didn't understand why he cared so much, "Didn't you also have a girlfriend before? What's the difference?"

"It's not the same. I've seen too much, but he's not. I feel like I've been stuck in the mud all the time. There are many people around who are nice to me because they value my appearance and my figure, but he is different. He I have been in the industry for ten years, and I rely on my own strength every step of the way. He is like a person who came out of a play, a saint with light on his body. Whether it is strength or experience, I feel ashamed in front of him." Gong Jun's voice became weaker and weaker, full of disappointment.

At this moment, I seemed to suddenly understand Gong Jun's feelings. A rational and decisive person like him would hesitate again and again, hesitate, look forward and backward, and be so timid and timid with no prospects. Seriously.But what can I do to help with this kind of thing?

After that day, there was no news of Gong Jun for a long time.When he sent me another message, it was a photo. He happily told me that the photo was called "callmebyyourname". With his full of joy, I knew about their being together. This is also the first time for me. This is the first time I saw the man Gong Jun fell in love with, a man who looked a little fragile and a little shy, with half-long hair adding a bit of feminine beauty.

When I teased Gong Jun's aesthetics as usual, he was really angry. He said that I don't understand Zhang Zhehan's beauty, that he is a person with connotations, not just looking weak and needing protection. He is very independent, he is very strong... In short, all good words are used to describe this man.

Gong Jun’s reaction surprised me. After that day, I went to get to know this man named Zhang Zhehan. After seeing the photo Gong Jun sent me, I can't connect such a record with the people in the photo.I have to say, what does such a person like Gong Jun?

Oh, love is really blinding.

Later, when they heard that Gong Jun's production team had finished, the two left Hengdian one after another.I still remember that not long after, the search terms related to Zhang Zhehan on the Internet became "first concert", "sports car flowers", and "lost"?I called Gong Jun and asked in surprise what was going on with the two of them.It turned out that Gong Jun was also lost.

"He's really beautiful and charming, right?" I knew that Gong Jun was talking about Zhang Zhehan, but the tone made me elusive.Before I could answer, Gong Jun continued, "Look, so many sports cars are all his good friends, and I can only be an ostrich hiding in the dark and send a bouquet." The teacher's concert is smooth' flowers, although there is only 'Endless Summer' and the only 'Yellow Rose', but I know that what he wants to see is not flowers."

"But, he loves you, I don't think he cares." Hearing Gong Jun's concerns, all I can do is comfort him.

"But I can't help but care. I hope that I can stand beside him with equal strength. I hope that I can do something to protect him when he encounters difficulties. I hope that I can be worthy of him." Gong Jun's voice suddenly It improved a bit, but instead I heard his choking.

I was shocked by Gong Jun's delicate thoughts, and even more shocked by Gong Jun's intentions.

After that, when Gong Jun's new drama was released, he changed his previous Buddhist style and went crazy in business. If I didn't know his deep love for Zhang Zhehan, I would have thought that he and the heroine had an affair because of the drama.

I didn't see Gong Jun until the end of the year.

He drank a lot that day, his eyes were red, and he smiled wryly, "I'm still not hot." I don't know if he was talking to himself or talking to me, but it seems that he doesn't need me either. Reply, self-consciously, "Zhe Han is angry, because I am in business, he ignores me, no matter how I send a message, he ignores me... But I would rather choose to make him angry, or insist on doing business, But in the end I still didn't get angry, I was such a fool."

That day, we drank a lot of wine and talked a lot, just like we used to be in college, and we had nothing to do except grow older. We had someone we loved, but we also learned to be unconfident because of love.

Later, Gong Jun and Zhang Zhehan's drama was released in a hurry at the beginning of the year.It turns out that when you meet the right person, even God will help you.

In this way, caught off guard, the two of them became angry together.

During the business period, Zhang Zhehan joined the group because of a new play, and Gong Junsheng turned the event dance that one person participated in into a couple.I understand that he is not only paving the way for the future of the two of them, but also to bring Zhang Zhehan, who "doesn't see him", to appear in the public eye.

I still remember seeing the message Gong Jun sent to Zhang Zhehan by accident that day: "Look, you once missed the best time to recover because of a drama that didn't show up, and I almost lost it because of a drama that didn't get popular." Without you, we have all been out of season. But fortunately, now we all have each other, hand in hand to accept the attention of thousands of people and walk the flowery road. In the future, I will hold your hand tightly and never let go."

At that moment, I realized the true meaning of the phrase "Loving someone is unforgettable".

To be honest, Gong Jun's temper is really not good. Although he can't be regarded as a scornful air, he still doesn't suffer from his mouth.So I never thought that one day, Gong Jun would be able to smile and say "follow you, are you happy" after others scolded him; With a compromise to say "death"...

Gong Jun and I have known each other for so many years, and it is inevitable that we will have a lot of luggage when we go out. He has always been based on the principle of being in the best condition for the camera.Therefore, what also shocked me was that he would reach out to take things from other people's hands when his own hands were already full. The most terrifying thing was that this person only held a piece of paper in his hand; One step bent down to help others pick up things, even as frequently as "every time"...

People live so long that they can see everything!

I still remember that day, I made a video call to Gong Jun, wanting to have a small gathering before he joined the group.The video was answered very quickly, but the person who answered the video was Mr. Zhang who had been living on the screen, Gong Jun.I looked at the other party, fell silent for a moment and didn't know what to say, Zhang Zhehan was the first to speak: "Well...Gong Jun is in the kitchen, it's not convenient for him to answer the phone."

"It's okay, I'm just bored, so I wanted to call and ask." I explained with some embarrassment.

"Then wait a moment." Zhang Zhehan smiled at me politely, and then I heard Gong Jun's voice, "Bao, why did you come in?"

"I have your call." Zhang Zhehan's voice became gentle instantly.

"Just put it here, let's go out, there is a lot of oily smoke in the kitchen." After Gong Jun finished speaking, I heard the sound of closing the door not long after.

"Brother, are you too pampered?" I just want to kneel down and ask the sky, what made Gong Jun become like this, um, love.

"I have something to talk about, and I still have to cook." That's right, this is the Gong Jun I am familiar with.

"It's okay, I just thought we'd get together when you're free." If I could have predicted his answer, I wouldn't have asked this question.

"Oh, I'm not free. I'm taking a break recently, and I want to accompany Zhe Han." Gong Jun's tone was not at all embarrassed, "I didn't hang up beforehand, I'm still busy."

It's normal for people in love to do some irrational things!

Today's Gong Jun is more and more mature, he really did it, and everything is as he imagined.When Zhang Zhehan encountered difficulties, he generously posted that he was singing Zhang Zhehan's part of "The End of the World" while putting on makeup, and told those who spread the word "We are fine"; point, cryptically to the promotion copywriter, yes, everyone knows they are in love.

In this flashy world, it is not easy to find a person who is compatible with your soul. Even Gong Jun, who always laughs and says "you must believe in gods and Buddhas", this time, every bit about Zhang Zhehan has to let go. He admits that "Even if there is no God and Buddha in the sky, falling in love with him is the predestined relationship on the Sansheng Stone".

Then I can only wish heaven and earth to bless this pair of people who love each other, and wish that they can walk hand in hand on the streets of Rome earlier, look at each other with a smile, and read the love from their eyes.