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My name is Yu Xiang, and now many people call me Xiaoyu.My profession is a celebrity assistant. In fact, this celebrity is also my childhood friend. His name is Zhang Zhehan. He has needs and I have needs, and they hit it off, so I have such a job.By the way, it is worth mentioning that Zhang Zhehan and I also have a small group called Zhang Su, who is at the bottom of our small group.

Zhang Zhehan, as my boss and Xiaofa Xiao, has many advantages of being straightforward, kind, and cute, but the biggest feature is that he doesn't hit the south wall and doesn't look back.I have never seen such a person, because of his own obsession, he will not survive if he is not crazy. This is the case in filming, playing basketball, and even making friends.Therefore, as a member of Fa Xiao, from the initial resistance to the current obedience, I can only say that time is a good thing, because it can really soften a person's temperament.

I still remember that when I rode in Tibet back then, I encountered a lot of difficulties, and even once had the idea of ​​whether I could go back alive, but Zhang Zhehan still insisted on going to the final destination - the Potala Palace. I didn't even think about whether it was because of his face that made him persist, or his obsession that made him persist.

In addition, the biggest thing that changed me should be Zhang Zhehan's injury. In the past, the concern for him seemed to be evenly matched, but after he was injured, I feel a little more distressed and regretful. I feel sorry for him like this. A person who wants to be strong can no longer play the game. I feel sorry for him, a person who is eager to fly, and his wings are injured, and he is willing to follow him a little bit more unconsciously.

And in these years, he has struggled in the entertainment industry, but fortunately, his mentality is considered peaceful, he has not complained about others, and has not hurt the spring and autumn.Despite the current epidemic, Zhang Zhehan's luck is not bad. The producer personally called to discuss the show. This cooperation gave Zhang Zhehan, who has been staying at home, a good excuse to stop his slack.

It's just that I thought this drama would be the same as before. After passing by in a hurry and causing a few circles of ripples, it would completely recover. Reborn.

Before joining the group last summer, the three of us had a good time drinking, and the ups and downs of adults were all in the wine, earning a moderate amount of money, living a decent life, and surrounded by a group of playmates who were not far or near .Of course, we are lucky, at least there are still surviving relatives, like family members, who can support their own work.

Such a peaceful life until that day, I decided to go to Hengdian to join the group to accompany Zhang Zhehan.Because not long ago, I received a call from Zhang Zhehan that the weather in Hengdian was too hot, and the filming was still a costume drama. In order to achieve that elegant feeling, I wore a lot of inner and outer layers.So many things can be saved after a day of filming, and if you can be lazy, you can be lazy, such as...eating.

After entering the crew, I met Zhang Zhehan's colleagues and greeted them politely.If I had the ability to predict, I would have discovered that Zhang Zhehan had specially introduced his opponent Gong Jun that day, that boy who looked very handsome and always had a smile on his face, and he praised him generously.If I had the ability to predict, I would have found that Gong Jun was also extraordinarily enthusiastic towards me that day.In the days that followed, I found out that something had changed about Zhang Zhehan, but thinking about how he had only been in the group for a month, what could have changed, I secretly told myself that it was just my overthinking.

In the days of the film crew, I was in charge of his daily life as usual, and I also watched him hang on to Wia under the scorching sun. Life is really unfair. Under the scorching sun, I have to lose weight for filming. The face that was not fat before looks even more rugged.Occasionally, when he was resting, he half-closed his eyes on my shoulders. With that tired look, even a grown man like me felt that he was too bitter.But to my surprise, Zhang Zhehan became more active and excited every day. The indescribable coldness and melancholy in the past seemed to disappear little by little under the sun.

I have always lived a rough life, and I can't compare Zhang Zhehan's sensitivity and delicateness, but even I found that Zhang Zhehan would get together with his opponent Gong Jun and chatter endlessly; whether he was walking or resting, Zhang Zhehan would be very sensitive Standing on tiptoe smoothly, he tidied Gong Jun's messy hair in front of him.And Gong Jun always looked at him tenderly, with affection in his eyes and a smile on his mouth.

It's not uncommon to have love because of drama, but I never thought that love is a magical reaction that can transcend age and gender.And I never thought that one day Zhang Zhehan would tell me that he fell in love with a man, which is no different from him telling me that he was kissed by a weak woman yesterday.All of this stemmed from the quarrel between Zhang Zhehan and me in the dressing room.

"Zhang Zhehan, do you know that he is a man?"

"How could I not know. But I'm still in love with him."

"Zhang Zhehan, you are really crazy."

"I think I'm crazy too."

"Okay, okay, if you like him, put it aside, have you ever thought that he won't like men?"

"Think about it. Actually, I don't know what I'm going to do."

"There was something wrong with agreeing to you to play this role at the beginning. You like Wen Kexing, not Gong Jun. Think about it for yourself."

The conversation that day ended with me being so angry that I left him alone in the dressing room to "reflect". After I came out, my worldview seemed to have collapsed. My younger brother, who has been around for more than ten years, told me that he fell in love with a man?I dialed Susu's phone number and explained the incident to him in a simple and clear manner. Susu's calmness made me panic, as if my reaction was not accepted by the world.

After waiting for a long time, Zhang Su said, "Do you think he is happy with that Gong Jun?"

is he happy

I can't help recalling that under the scorching sun, he smiled and bent his eyes, and the corners of his mouth couldn't stop rising.Since he was injured, I have never seen him show such a smile. For a moment, I thought he was still the energetic sweet bean boy in high school.

"Should... be happy." I said these words with some hesitation, although I knew that these words would slowly convince me to accept.

"In these years, he must have been very painful. He lost his basketball because of a play that has not been aired yet. He always said to be strong, he always said that he was grateful for meeting golf, but choosing golf should be a choice rather than being accepted. Forced. He likes to be alone more and more, likes to read those sad texts more and more, he is more and more obedient, so obedient that we all think that Zhang Zhehan is like this because he is mature." Zhang Su paused while facing the phone He paused, and then said, "In these years, he has been unhappy, and even his boss said that he has a melancholy temperament, but the three of us have walked all the way, when he was young, he never turned the world upside down, with the loudest voice The voice is clamoring for youth, we really...lost that happy Zhang Zhehan."

I have never heard Zhang Su say so many words at once. His sentence "We really lost that happy Zhang Zhehan" shocked me and made my heart tremble.Because of growing up, we are forced to get used to wearing a mask, but we really forget that we can only live for ourselves.

When I returned to the dressing room again, I saw Gong Jun standing in front of Zhang Zhehan. He looked at him with a look that was not innocent, and said to Zhang Zhehan with a smile: "You can't always skip meals like this. I will cook for you at night." I'll give you a taste of the fish meal." I turned my head to look at Zhang Zhehan, his eyes were gentle, although not warm, but there was a steady flow of water, and what can't be ignored is his sweet smile from the heart.

At that moment, I realized that I was really wrong.

When Gong Jun turned his head to look at me, I couldn't help feeling a little embarrassed, and coughed a few times to break the delicate atmosphere.Gong Jun is really a smart person, he smiled and said, "I'm going to prepare the fish meal first, remember to come here later", then he gave me a meaningful look and left.

"I... just spoke a little aggressively." I rubbed the back of my head unconsciously, remembering that we have known each other for more than ten years, and we haven't experienced anything together, but this is the first time for such an atmosphere.

Zhang Zhehan stood up, smiled and patted my shoulder, "Okay, old man, don't be so hypocritical."

If Zhang Zhehan is strong and gentle enough, then Gong Jun is a very sober and purposeful person in his delicate appearance, living a life of rules.I thought that the throbbing that existed in the summer was just Zhang Zhehan's blood, but I didn't want Gong Jun to turn his eyes red because of Zhang Zhehan in that noisy day.

I know, that day, they are officially together.

"The secret that can't be told" seems to be known to everyone, because the passionate love between them is better than the hottest sun in summer.Zhang Zhehan yelled "too hot" while leaning in Gong Jun's arms; Gong Jun looked away and pretended to be calm, while using his body to shade Zhang Zhehan from the wind.

After they got together, I felt a lot more relaxed, because before Zhang Zhehan had time to command me, Gong Jun had already done everything for him in advance.In fact, it's good for them to know each other like this.

The play finally came to an end, and even though Gong Jun followed Zhang Zhehan almost every step of the way, Zhang Zhehan's depressed mood was still very obvious.At that time, I couldn't help thinking, did I realize that two people are really inappropriate after being together?For a moment, I felt a little regretful. If they separated, would this happy Zhang Zhehan disappear again?

After wrapping up, Zhang Zhehan quickly fled Hengdian and went to Yunnan.Under the blue sky and white clouds, it seems that there are no worries or concerns.

"Xiaoyu, do you know? During this period of time, your phrase 'You like Wen Kexing, not Gong Jun' has always been in my heart, especially during the time when the finale was about to be completed, I really thought that Zhang Zhehan was from the very beginning. Zhou Zishu fell in love with Wen Kexing." Zhang Zhehan stood on the balcony, looking into the distance, his tone was indescribably calm, and before I could say anything, Zhang Zhehan continued, "It's okay, I figured it out now , whether it is Zhou Zishu or Zhang Zhehan, both fell in love with Wen Kexing and Gong Jun. This is a relationship between me and him. There is no need to distinguish who I fell in love with first. The important thing is that I want to have him in my future life .”

"Zhang Zhehan, do you still remember that you said that you like children and that you want to have a child of your own?" I hesitated for a while before opening my mouth slowly. In fact, I was afraid that he would regret it.

"I remember, but I'm even more afraid that I don't have Gong Jun in my life." Zhang Zhehan raised the corner of his mouth, his silhouette was clearly printed in the setting sun, and he really loved him.

After escaping from the protection of Zhou Zishu and Wen Kexing, the lives of Zhang Zhehan and Gong Jun really did not go so smoothly.I watched him wait for Gong Jun to appear in the first concert, from full of joy to disappointment and wry smile; I watched him swiping his phone over and over again, it was full of CPs created by Gong Jun and another woman...

Whenever I can't stand it anymore and want to ask Gong Jun to understand, Zhang Zhehan always pulls me soberly, and then comforts me with nice words, "This is just work", as if I am the one involved in this matter .However, when passing people away, I always see Zhang Zhehan staring at the bright screen of his mobile phone in a daze.Zhang Su and I looked at him like this, but all we could do was stay with him. In fact, the injury was not our own, and our comfort was just irrelevant.What he needs is that person standing in front of him.

I still remember that in those days, he always woke up from a dream in the middle of the night, sweating all over, and then sat until dawn in the middle of the night.At that time, he was crazy, and he would get up to play golf after a few hours of sleep. It seemed that one of the body and the soul must be in an overdrawn state. Obviously, he chose the body.Without the weight requirements for filming, he is even thinner.

Zhang Zhehan's state continued until he entered the group again.After joining the group, he frantically filmed and made high-density arrangements, but he was like a duck to water. I knew he was just escaping.At that time, Gong Jun contacted me very frequently, asking about Zhang Zhehan's daily filming arrangements, Zhang Zhehan's daily diet, and even Zhang Zhehan's daily mood.I don't know what kind of mentality I should use to report to Gong Jun about Zhang Zhehan's daily movements, whether to tell the truth that he is not doing well, or to hide that he is normal.

Time passed quickly, Zhang Zhehan finished filming again, and Gong Jun also became a note that only existed in Zhang Zhehan's phone because of filming.Of course, this note is sending me messages from time to time. For months like a day, I have been asking Zhang Zhehan tirelessly, reminding me of various precautions in every detail.

Just when I thought Zhang Zhehan was no longer sad, we ushered in the new year.If Zhang Zhehan hadn't poured himself a few glasses of wine that day, he said tearfully, "I really don't have the confidence to stand in front of Gong Jun and tell him that we will definitely have a future, so I can't stop him from choosing, and I can't force him to do it for him." I give up frying CP with other women", "Why am I not a woman, why can't we have a decent, public wedding, why can't I have a child that belongs to us", I think we are all unaware of this It's that serious.

This has always been a pain in his heart, but the most painful thing is that he is unable to change anything. I can't imagine how many nights he struggled when he tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.His lack of self-confidence, his lack of sense of security, everything weighed him down and he couldn't breathe. The person he loved was right in front of him, but he couldn't grasp him when he reached out.

Yes, I regretted it. When I knew he was in love with Gong Jun, I should have stopped him, even if I quarreled a few more times.Just when I was about to call Gong Jun and scold him regardless, Zhang Su persuaded me again, "Gong Jun is the person he puts on top of his heart, he would rather put all his grievances on his own. It's all in your heart, and you don't want to transfer this pressure to Gong Jun. Now you impulsively called and scolded him, and Zhang Zhehan was the one who made things difficult in the end. Do you want to see him choose between you and Gong Jun ?"

During the relationship between the three of us, Zhang Su has always been a calm, stable, and mature existence. Although he doesn't talk much, he makes every sentence reasonable.I have to admit that what he said makes sense.

In February, Zhang Zhehan and Gong Jun met after recording the pilot film of this drama.In the dressing room, the meeting between the two of them added a bit of embarrassment and unfamiliarity.I know that behind Zhang Zhehan's pretending to be calm and free and easy, what is suppressed is longing, complaints, and joy.Speaking of the upcoming first concert, Zhang Zhehan, who is used to hiding all emotions, showed his disappointment under the camera for the first time.

That night, Gong Jun followed Zhang Zhehan step by step. I knew that Zhang Zhehan would soften his heart, and I also knew that Zhang Zhehan missed him very much.

That night, as a non-believer, I prayed for the first time that Zhang Zhehan would be happy every day. I bet that Zhang Zhehan, the best in the world, deserves Gong Jun's careful treatment.

In the days when there was neither wind nor rain, Zhang Zhehan showed a smile again. Later, the drama became an unexpected hit, and the two of them got more and more together. Seeing that Gong Jun became more and more considerate, he also became more and more considerate. The more tacit understanding.Sometimes it's a look, sometimes it's a smile,

I thought that the two of them would go through the business process like other CP speculators, representing their respective businesses.But the reality is that my pattern is small. I have seen someone who loves me, but I have never seen someone who loves me so much.Not to mention the business binding of the two people, they also link each other's business, from writing schemes to business gifts, showing affection while working. This kind of business like marriage is unprecedented. The road they opened up ingeniously has really reached the extreme.Even though their approach has attracted a lot of negative controversy, they still chose this road, feeling the stones and drenching the muddy water, and crossing the river hand in hand. Their love really cannot tolerate any flaws, even if it is work. .It turned out that Gong Jun who went crazy should not be underestimated.

For that concert that the whole city was in love with, I really took my assistant's salary and worried about my mother's heart.You ask me why?Because the parents of these two are sitting under the stage.Zhang Su and I, who grew up with Zhang Zhehan, would feel unnaturally timid when we saw his mother, let alone a man who abducted her son.I stood backstage and watched the interaction between the two on the small screen. I was afraid that the two would hold hands and hug each other for a while.

Fortunately, fortunately, Zhang Zhehan is still rational. Although Gong Jun's eyes are too naked, Zhang Zhehan has been dodging and not looking directly at him.It’s okay, it looks like it’s still a brotherhood, I can only comfort myself like this over and over again, I don’t know what I’m telling myself, Gong Jun’s little actions that I’m used to, the subconscious tacit understanding between the two, and those seniors who are upright The bright hint, the parents of the two of them can't see it, right?

Facts have proved that knowing children is better than parents.They confessed to their parents that day. Fortunately, their parents did not object. I think they must have seen Zhang Zhehan and Gong Jun's sincerity towards each other.

I thought that without the pressure from my parents, the next day's concert would be relaxed and happy, but the reality is very realistic. I was more worried than yesterday. Seeing the director next to me rubbing his hands anxiously, fidgeting throughout the whole process, I was afraid that there would be some shocking words in the next second. Are you going to make a public confession next second?

In the end, in front of millions of people, the two secretly confided their hearts to each other, one said "lifetime" and the other said "forever", and we looked at the carnival fans in the audience, feeling more fortunate, Fortunately, they still know how to be restrained, fortunately they still know how to conceal some confession, forget it, tired, in fact, it's all good, as long as they are willing.

Afterwards at the celebration banquet, I watched them making fun on the stage while scrolling through Weibo. The fans were crying and crying for love, wishing to spend their whole lives in tears for this beautiful two-way rush, and the two on stage Singing "Love to fight will win" affectionately.

It’s really hard work that wins. Zhang Zhehan, who used to be unhappy, has finally found the other half of himself, the one who accompanies him in the rain, accompanies him to be crazy, and Gong Jun who is full of his heart and eyes.

I only hope that the gods will not dismantle lovers.