What bad thoughts can a small cannon fodder have? [Transmigration Book]

"It's okay, I'm fine," Shen Xu shook his head and wiped away the remaining tears from the corners of his eyes, "Brother Bo'an, you are very affectionate and touching."

??It's a pity that your long love is not because of me.

??Shen Xu's emotions have always been adjusted well, but he always lacked a lot of courage when facing Jin Boan's feelings. The negative thoughts in his heart startled him, followed by a strong sense of deception.

??I lied to the hero.I am not the young master he fell in love with at first.This made Shen Xu immediately bury his head like an ostrich, and smiled at Jin Boan, "It's really great that we can get married."

??Jin Boan returned to the big bed after taking a shower, Shen Xu was already asleep, curled up like a baby, with his back facing people.

??Jin Boan lay down beside him, gently opened the young master's curled limbs, and whispered in his ear, "Forgive you today, young master is not allowed to go to bed tomorrow, you have to wait for your husband, you know?" Kiss After kissing his wife's ear, he fell asleep with his arms around her.

?? For several days, Shen Xu's reasons suddenly increased. Most of the time was because he was busy with work and needed to work the night shift. The rest was because the young master fell asleep after Jin Boan took a shower.

?? Although Jin Boan is not lustful, even if he does nothing, he still wants to put his arms around Shen Xu and let him act like a baby in his arms and beg for mercy.

?? Shen Xu avoided him a little bit.

?? After the two had no skin-to-skin contact for a month, Jin Boan no longer took a bath alone. Shen Xuren was still working overtime in the study. He kicked open the door of the study and drove straight in, picked up the person and left.

??Shen Xu blushed immediately when he approached, and screamed, "Butler Jin, my work is delayed, and the lost money will deduct more than 500 years of your salary!"

?? Jin Boan made up his mind to sleep with his arms around the sober young master, and sent him an invisible sneer.

??Shen Xu called again, "Anyway, you can't force me, I'm on my period, let me tell you!"

??Jin Bo'an patted his buttocks, "That will open my husband's eyes, what will come out of a man's menstrual period."

?? Shen Xu covered his face and cried for a long time. He had never been so wronged before. Jin Boan rolled on the bed with his arms around him, angrily and distressed, "I won't force you, but you can also talk to me, okay? Dear of"

?? For the first time, I didn't call him young master.

??Shen Xu suddenly got bored with these two words, no, the conditioned reflex made him hate them to the extreme, he got under the quilt and only exposed the upper half of his face, his moist peach eyes were charming and affectionate.

?? "Then if you...don't call me young master, I will reluctantly agree..." Pulling back the quilt embarrassingly to reveal a gap, let the male lead slip in.

?? "Then what should I call you?" Jin Bo'an saw the needle.

??Shen Xu was wrapped around his waist by his two strong arms, and his skin was peeled layer by layer, and he writhed slipperyly after a while.

?? "Call my name, I want to hear my husband call my name..." You can also pay some rewards for this, and Shen Xu's mouth soon became the leader.

??Jin Bo'an finally relaxed, and exhaled with the young master, "Xiao Shen...Xiao Xu...Xu Xu...Shhh"

??The two soon became affectionate again.

??Shen Xu's hair is not thick, and his skin is as white as a shelled egg, but his temples need to be taken care of every few days. After shaving, the fetus-like fluffy hair on the side of the face was cleaned up extremely clean.

??It stands to reason that practice makes perfect. When Young Master Shen looked at the mirror in the bathroom, the beautiful face in the mirror seemed to be staring at him. Shen Xu used the mirror to tidy up his appearance every day, so today he had no reason to look at himself again.

?? The handsome man in the mirror seemed to say to him, "It's just a stand-in."

??Who is the stand-in!

??Shen Xu was startled, his fingers trembled, the blade slightly pierced a piece of skin under the earlobe, and immediately rolled out a few bloody beans.

??The embarrassment and grievance that had been squeezed for a long time made him collapse instantly, and Shen Xu shouted, "I'm not a substitute! You're sick!"

??Jin Bo'an heard the sound and came in. Shen Xu was holding a razor blade in his hand. He was squatting on the marble sink, with blood dripping from the bottom of his ear, and he was not in a good condition.

?? "Master, are you okay?"

??Master, Master, Master, Master! !

?? "You only have the young master in your heart, get out!"

??The blade in Shen Xu's hand slashed backhand, and Jin Bo'an's eyes were quick, fearing that he would cut himself, he grabbed the razor that was drawn.

??Bleeding immediately from Jin Boan's palm.

??Shen Xu was so frightened that his whole face was so pale that there was almost no blood, and it would shatter with the slightest touch.

??"sorry Sorry!"

?? Shen Xu saw that he was bleeding a lot, and there were many extremely sad thoughts in his mind for no reason, which made people cry.

??"it's okay no problem."

??Jin Bo'an wrapped a towel around his injured hand, handed it to Shen Xu and said, "Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh whichhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?

??Holding the young master who was out of control from the sink, he only asked with distress, "Let my husband see the wound on his face."

The wound on the bottom of Shen Xu's ear was only a small bloody hole, but it made him feel very distressed. While coaxing his crying wife, he said, "My boo boo face is the most beautiful in the world. It won’t be beautiful without a scar.”

??When the scar was about to heal, Shen Xu took advantage of Jin Bo'an's absence, picked the bloody scar off by mistake, and intentionally left a small wound under the ear.

?? In this way, I will be different from the original owner.

??Shen Xu began to become more and more emotional, and sometimes he was very anxious about gains and losses. Obviously, Jin Boan hugged him and told him to shush tenderly, but the emptiness was even greater, as if the male lead was just hugging him through him. With the original owner.

?? He did not love me at first.

?? He loves the original owner.

??Maybe Brother Boan also loves me.

?? But that's because Brother Bo An doesn't know the truth. If he knows that I'm just a book walker, how will he treat me?

?? I am a substitute for feelings.

?? I am an heir.

?? No one likes me.

?? I may really be a thief.

??Shen Xu's health also deteriorated accordingly, and his waist, which was not a few inches of flesh, has shrunk a lot. Jin Bo'an asked him if he was under too much pressure at work?

??Shen Xu held back his increasingly weird inferiority complex, and smiled at him, "Maybe it's because my mother's illness hasn't improved. I'm too anxious."

??Jin Boan breathed a sigh of relief, "Don't worry, young master, I have already contacted a domestic psychiatrist..."

?? I don't know which sentence made Shen Xu angry, he picked up the soup bowl and threw it on the ground, "Anyway, the young master is the most important thing in your heart!"

?? After smashing it, I was dumbfounded again, and said timidly, "Yes... sorry, my mental state may also need to be checked."

?? Squat down and start picking up broken glass.

??Jin Boan didn't let him get his hands dirty, squatted down and grabbed Shen Xu's hand together, and suddenly found that the other's fingers were as cold as snow, "You don't like me calling you master, it's because I didn't think carefully, we are already married, of course You shouldn't call each other master and servant, will I pay attention to it in the future, wife?"

?? Shen Xu nodded silently.

??The psychiatrist first systematically checked Fan Tiantian's mental state, and provided several sets of optimal treatment methods for Shen Xu and the two of them.

??Shen Xu asked Jin Boan to go out to buy his favorite hand-peeled chestnuts. Jin Boan was used to pampering him, so he immediately drove to buy it.

??As soon as the person walked away, Shen Xu immediately stopped the psychiatrist, led him into the study and asked, "Expert, can you help me see the disease?"

??Anyway, one and two are for treatment. The psychiatrist called his assistant to come in, and also carefully examined Master Shen's body.

??Shen Xu asked, "My mental state has been poor for a long time. If I say something presumptuous, will my mother's mental illness be passed on to me?"

The expert smiled kindly, "Normally this would not happen. What's more, Mrs. Fan's illness is very strange. It is not the type of mental illness currently recognized by the medical profession. I will only give her basic treatment first. According to the Adjustment of the patient's condition."

??Shen Xu sighed, "I don't know what happened recently. I can barely show a little motivation at work, but my attitude towards life has been in a negative state. Experts, may I have depression or other mental illnesses? ?”

?? The expert saw that he was sick and really out of shape, so he couldn't help suggesting, "After my interview with Mr. Shen, Mr. Shen, you don't have any mental problems, let alone the so-called depression. Maybe It’s just that your daily life is not regular enough, and you think too much, which leads to your irregular diet and poor emotional control.”

??Shen Xu has been sighing too much recently, and there is always a huge stone in his heart, unable to breathe. He couldn't help but sigh again, "But if I continue like this, it will hurt two people."

??After the experts sent her away, Shen Xu came to Fan Tiantian's room, knelt gently in front of her mother, and placed her forehead on the other's folded palms reverently.

?? "Calling your mother, maybe you feel very uncomfortable, after all, you are the original owner's mother."

"But when I saw you for the first time, I felt very kind, as if seeing my mother from another world."

"I want to ask you now, I dreamed several times in my dream that you warned me not to like Jin Bo'an, did you tell me?"

??Shen Xu wept silently, and the teardrops rolled down on Fan Tiantian's soft palm, converging into scalding magma, which scorched his sensitive and fragile heart.

?? "I really like Brother Bo An. Really, I would rather violate the setting of the whole book, and I want to be selfish enough to let him stay by my side."

?? "I got him, but lost him. I should be the happiest person in this book, but now I'm sad."

?? "Can you tell me what should I do to be good for all three?"

?? Fan Tiantian said softly, "Go..."

?? go go go go...

??Shen Xu's pretended strength collapsed in an instant. It turned out that the original owner's mother had been warning him all along.

?? leave leave.

??From the beginning to the end, the book "Blazing" did not welcome him.

"Okay, okay." Shen Xu rubbed his eyes, "I will leave, and let the original owner change back."

?? "Perhaps your mother and child are reunited, and your illness will recover faster."

??Leaving Fan Tiantian's room, Shen Xu found out the small note in his pocket, on which was Brother Xiong's phone number.

??Shen Xu struggled for a long time, really for a long time, he struggled to death in his heart, every time he wanted to force himself not to listen, no matter whether he wanted to or not, in the end the problem always boiled down to one direction.

??If Brother Bo An knew that I was a fake, would he be very sad?

?? I don't want to make him sad.

??He loves me so much...

?? No, he doesn't even know who the real me is.

??Shen Xu dialed the phone cruelly. After the ring rang about four or five times, a man named Brother Xiong connected. The first sentence was, "It seems that you can't help but want to leave, yes Bar?"

??Shen Xu straightened his back, "Don't say it proudly, I'm not for your so-called bookstore, I just... I just don't want... I don't want to hurt him."

?? Brother Xiong sneered, "Before I don't get worse like before, I really should deal with these unwarranted feelings."

?? A silence, such as the silence of death.

?? "What should I do to change the original owner back."

?? Brother Xiong also opened the plot arrangement, "You have changed the initial plot without authorization, unless something unexpected happens at the next plot point."

?? "In the plot related to Jin Boan, there is an important turning point, that is, he was kidnapped, and Wen Yichu was with him, but Wen Yichu was stabbed because of him, so no matter how many people around Jin Boan, he I also care about Wen Yichu the most."

?? "But Wen Yichu has been excluded by the male lead now, and you just came to take Wen Yichu's position, but the plot will change, and it will become that you pushed the male lead and let him be stabbed because of greed for life and fear of death. Jin Boyan's narrow escape will completely hate you, and then you can get out of the book smoothly..."

"No, no, no!" Shen Xu flatly refused, "I'd rather die myself than get brother Bo An injured."

?? If he wasn't afraid of the male lead being sad, why would he leave?

??He himself was also scarred, and he couldn't bear Jin Boan to be sad no matter what.

?? Shen Xu thought, I have been coquettish and coquettish in this book, and I haven't even given out the male protagonist's birthday present once. If there is any chance of redemption.

??It means that he can return the love to brother Boan again.

Brother Xiong naturally disagreed with Shen Xu's proposal, "Jin Boan is the central character of the whole book, and his emotions affect the operation of the whole book. Unless Jin Boan's sadness and anger reach the extreme in an instant, otherwise you are not good leave."

??As long as Brother Boan is particularly sad?

??Shen Xu recalled the first time he left.

??Jin Boan was really sad and angry.

?? Shen Xu said, "I can try this, just in the plot of the kidnapping, to make his heart hurt once."

??Really, just because of me, Shen Xu, it's enough to have a heartache once.

??In the next few days, Shen Xu became that clingy and delicate baby again, clinging to Jin Boan all day and all night.

?? At first glance, there is no abnormality with before.

??Jin Boan's heart is as clear as a mirror, the young master must have something to hide from him.

??He has liked Shen Xu for so long that he has already felt Shen Xu's heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys clearly.

??Shen Xu forced a smile on his face.

??Jin Boan called the psychiatrist first. Since the expert came, the young master has been pestering people every day. Before he knew it, he would get angry even looking at himself.

??Under coercion and temptation, the expert had no choice but to violate professional ethics and told Jin Boan Shen Xu's worry that he would be inherited mental illness.

?? Jin Boan hung up the phone and laughed angrily.

??Young Master, this idiot.

??It's so cute as hell.

?? How could you think you have a mental illness?If there is really an incurable mental illness in this world, it should be him who suffers from it.

??He is the lunatic, and the young master is his sweet little pill.

?? At night he crackled his little pills.

?? Shen Xu embraced the pillow and begged for mercy, his mouth was biting red, and every word he uttered was trembling seductively.

?? The male lead is great.

?? And slapped a lot of times.

??Shen Xu was scared by his education, sobbing softly, "Husband, don't dare anymore."

??but,

?? Never, never have the next forgiveness.

??Brother Boan, I'm sorry.

??Shen Xu's tears mixed with endless sadness, turned his back to someone, and dripped into a river in an invisible corner.

??Jin Bo'an hugged him tightly, warmed him up, and said softly on the base of his ear, "What do you want a husband for, isn't it just to vent your anger on you? Silly boo boo boo."

?? "You need to rely more on your husband."

??作者有话要说：感谢在2021-06-0423:03:57~2021-06-0519:21:30期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

??Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Brother Gou 6;

?? Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!