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When Li Xiwei found Xiaoman at the police station, he was still wearing white work clothes, which were clean and tidy the night before, but now they are wrinkled. Buried in his knees, curled up at the base of the wall, his back was almost lowered to the ground, his body was still trembling, it seemed that if it took another minute, his paper-thin body would turn into bubbles and shatter in the air.

"What did you do to him, what crime did he commit? Didn't you see that people were already frightened like this? Is this how you handled the case?" Li Xiwei angrily questioned the uniformed policeman next to Xiaoman, his eyes automatically filtered out other irrelevant things The important person, only a small figure remained, walked to Xiaoman's side in a few steps, and slowly squatted down.

He looked at Xiao Man's hair as if it had been drenched by rain, and his neck was wet, he put his palm on the back of Xiao Man's trembling hand, the temperature touched by his palm was like ice, and he got closer, You can hear the clicking sound of Xiaoman's teeth colliding uncontrollably.

"Please don't make any noise. This is the police station. Someone reported that he was stealing. We are just investigating the situation according to the normal procedure. When he got here, he shrank in the corner without saying a word and refused to cooperate," said the policeman next to Xiaoman. After that, he asked Li Xiwei again: "Who are you?"

"I'm his family member." Li Xiwei didn't believe that Xiaoman would steal other people's things. He looked like he was easy to bully. As long as he didn't get stolen by others, he would be fine. He leaned closer to Xiaoman again. Xiaoman whispered in his ear: "Xiaoman, I believe you didn't steal anything, don't be afraid."

Xiao Man only knew that there were many voices pouring into his ears non-stop, he could hear them clearly, but he couldn't understand them, and he couldn't give the proper reaction.

"Xiao Man, don't be afraid..." Li Xiwei raised his left hand and gently patted Xiao Man's back.

Xiao Man tried his best to separate Li Xiwei's voice from the jumble of sound waves in his head, but he still couldn't get out of the suffocating, muddy and bloody memories.

"Xiaoman, I'm Li Xiwei. If you have something to tell me, I know you won't steal. If you don't want to say it, I'll hire you a lawyer, the best lawyer." Li Xiwei kept patting his back back, soothing with a gentle voice.

Xiaoman still didn't respond, motionless.

Li Xiwei looked at the trembling bodies of the people around him, leaned over and hugged Xiao Man with his arms, letting his back close to his chest, the hand that patted Xiao Man's back didn't move, and tightened his throat , and the voice was not loud, but very heavy, "Xiaoman, I'm Li Ran, don't be afraid..."

Li Ran?

Xiao Man thought he had an auditory hallucination, and moved his arm slightly.

Li Xiwei knew that mentioning Li Ran's name was effective, so his mouth felt bitter, and he said half-truthfully, "Yes, I'm Li Ran, Xiao Man, don't be afraid, I forgot something before, and I keep running into you these days, so I Just remembered a little."

Xiaoman heard clearly this time. Apart from heavy breathing, his body finally stopped shaking. There was only one clear thought in his mind. The person holding his hand was Li Xiwei, and he was Li Ran. He didn't recognize him before because he forgot , he remembered now.

After sorting everything out, Xiaoman grasped the back of his hand with his backhand, and his fingers tightly pinched Li Xiwei's palm. The two people's body temperature, one hot and one cold, finally blended together.

The cold emptiness in Xiaoman's body faded away, and he slowly found his breath, his body warmed up, and he slowly raised his head, his broken hair pressed against his cheek, still dripping with sweat, his eye sockets were red, and his round eyes were full of scarlet blood , his entire face was waxy white from the neck down, he saw Li Xiwei in front of him rejoin the person in his memory, and threw himself into his arms.

Xiaoman buried his face in Li Xiwei's chest, and finally regained his reality. He opened his mouth and breathed heavily, and all the hot air he exhaled was sprayed on Li Xiwei's chest, which made Li Xiwei tighten his heart unceasingly, and let out a breath of resignation. , so be it, he will be both Li Xiwei and Li Ran in the future, in short, he doesn't really want to let go of the person in his arms right now.

"Ahem..." The policeman next to him cleared his throat, "Since it's all over, we'll follow the normal procedure, and please cooperate with the investigation and answer our questions."

Xiao Man listened, and rubbed harder into Li Xiwei's arms, refusing to look up.

Li Xiwei sensed that Xiaoman didn't want to face the police, so he stroked his back slowly, "Don't be afraid, if you don't want to answer, I'll hire a lawyer for you. Did they do anything to you just now?"

"What are you asking? This is the police station!" The policeman on the side pinched his waist in anger at Li Xiwei's words.

Li Xiwei could see that Xiaoman was very afraid of the current environment, so he asked Xiaoman again, "Xiaoman, don't be afraid, just tell me."

Xiaoman shook her head in his arms!

"Okay, then we are not afraid, we will find a lawyer..."

After Li Xiwei finished speaking, a woman came in the hall. It was Sun Ling. She had done something wrong, and she was always absent-minded in the hospital by her son's bedside. Still no match for the uneasiness and torment of conscience.

She returned the ring to the woman, but refused to admit that she stole the ring, only saying that she picked it up in the trash can when she was cleaning the trash. She tossed and tossed until midnight, and finally Ms. Shen who threw the ring took the initiative to withdraw the case.

It was already midnight when Xiao Man and Li Xiwei came out of the police station, and there was a light rain outside again.

After Li Xiwei said that he was Li Ran, Xiao Man kept holding on to Li Xiwei's arm, unwilling to let go. Sun Ling caught up with them at the gate of the police station. A little farther away, Xiaoman is kind enough to replace you, but you just want to frame him, do you know that the amount of theft is huge, and you can be sentenced to more than three years?"

Sun Ling also lost her legs in fright, "Xiao Man, I know I'm sorry for you. My son needs money urgently in the hospital, and I have no choice but to take pity on me."

"You are pitiful? You are hateful! What about your conscience? The dog ate it? If you were a man, you would be in the hospital by now. There are many poorer people in the world than you. Why don't you steal it if you don't have money? Looking for someone to take the blame?"

Xiaoman didn't want to hear what Sun Ling had to say, so he tapped Li Xiwei's palm with his ring finger. Li Xiwei stopped talking nonsense, and pulled Xiaoman into a taxi parked by the side of the road.

Xiao Man was still in a trance all the way, and subconsciously followed Li Xiwei into the taxi. When he got out of the taxi, he realized that it was not the neighborhood where he lived, but at the gate of a high-end residential area. He turned his head and glanced at Li Xiwei.

Li Xiwei didn't know how Xiaoman and Li Ran got along with each other before. He thought that it would never be wrong to be nice to him. After he figured it out, he cleared his throat and said to Xiaoman, "This is where I live. From today From now on, you can live here with me, and don’t go to the hotel where you work tomorrow, in the future..."

Li Xiwei was still thinking about what Xiaoman would be like in the future, what he would do in the future, how he would go abroad, and what would happen to him and Xiaoman.It seems very simple, he has become the Li Ran that Xiao Man is looking for, and he will have endless intersections and stories with Xiao Man, but it seems very complicated because he is not Li Ran.

The worst case scenario is that the real Li Ran will appear, but as long as Li Xiwei thinks of this possibility, he can't think of the future, because he won't let the little mute out, it seems that the first time he sees him, he already has Something grew quietly in his heart.

Li Xiwei didn't know why the possessive desire arose, but it had already swelled to the limit, shouting loudly, it was impossible to reduce it by a single point.

So, what about fakes?

Li Xiwei no longer struggled with authenticity, and looked satisfied. He took Xiaoman's hand and walked into the gate of the community, walked through the green belt, took the elevator upstairs, opened and closed the door, and handed Xiaoman a pair of comfortable slippers. Everything couldn't be more smooth and natural.

Li Xiwei's apartment is not small, with three bedrooms and two living rooms. It is warmly decorated, simple and stylish. It has already had people replace it with new furniture and appliances. From the moment they entered the door, Xiao Man never let go of Li Xiwei's hand. To be exact, although he Now the seven orifices are back in place, but he still hasn't recovered completely.

The clock on the wall ticked and ticked, and the hour hand pointed to 1 o'clock. Xiaoman's stomach grumbled loudly, and the two looked at the same direction at the same time - Xiaoman's stomach.

Thinking of Xiaoman's big appetite, Li Xiwei smiled in his eyes, took Xiaoman to the refrigerator, opened it, and saw that there were only two packs of instant noodles and a few boxes of milk.

"Are you hungry? I feel that all of these are not enough for you alone," Li Xiwei said, with a perplexed expression on his face. "What should I do with such a large appetite? It seems that it is really not easy to support you."

Xiao Man blushed from what he said, lowered his head, and stared at Li Xiwei's arm.

Li Xiwei stopped teasing him and turned off the refrigerator, "Let's go, I'll take you out for supper. There are a few shops nearby that stay open until three or four in the morning. What do you want to eat? Barbecue okay?"

Xiaoman was not picky about food, so he nodded, and Li Xiwei took him to a Korean barbecue restaurant. When ordering, the waiter hesitated several times, and finally couldn't hold back when Li Xiwei said to add another beef, "Excuse me Will there be friends coming over later?"

"No, just the two of us." Li Xiwei said.

The waiter smiled and reminded, "If there are only two people, the meal ordered is a bit too much. What you just ordered is probably for three to four people. Do you need to return a few dishes?"

Xiaoman lowered his head, holding another menu upright on the dining table to cover his face, and did not look at the waiter, but Li Xiwei did not change his face, "I have a big appetite, so I will serve it according to the dishes I just ordered."

The waiter was very professional, and after answering with a smile, he left the box.

After Xiaoman was full, he couldn't wait to take out his notebook and sat next to Li Xiwei. After he digested the fact that Li Xiwei was Li Ran, he had too many questions to ask, so he wrote on the paper: "You said at night that you I don’t remember what happened, why don’t I remember?”

"I was sick and had a high fever for a long time, and then I forgot about it for a few months, and now I only remember a little bit, not everything."

Xiaoman wrote again: "What about your name? Should I call you Li Ran, or Li Xiwei?"

"I changed my name later, you call me Li Xiwei," after Li Xiwei finished speaking, Shen Sheng added, "Don't call me Li Ran."

Xiaoman nodded, and wrote again: "Then why are you now?"

Li Xiwei said nonsense in a serious manner: "That's because when I was young, I didn't study well and repeated a grade, and then I changed the age on my ID card to be two years younger. I, I am twenty this year, one year older than you, you have to call me bro..."

Li Xiwei believed what Xiaoman said, and nodded obediently. Before, Li Ran asked him to call him brother, and the first Chinese character he taught him to write was not his name, but brother.

After returning home, Li Xiwei walked back and forth in front of the doors of the three rooms, finally stood still in front of the master bedroom door, turned to Xiao Man who was sitting on the sofa, "I don't remember everything, you With Li... When you and I were together before, did you live together? How do we sleep at night?"

Xiaoman put on her slippers, picked up the notebook and pen on the coffee table, ran to Li Xiwei, and wrote: "You and I were in the same room before, you slept on top, and I slept on the bottom."

After reading the words in the notebook, Li Xiwei choked on his own saliva, put his arms on the door frame, and coughed for a long time, "Above me? Below you? How old were we then..."

It took Xiaoman a while to realize Li Xiwei's words, his face turned red to the bottom, and he also felt that his writing was a bit ambiguous, so he picked up his pen and wrote again: "It's not what you think, it's upper and lower bunks. You sleep on the upper bunk, and I sleep on the lower bunk." .”

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This article is also called "I Try to Pretend to Be Myself", little fairies, please collect starfish and comment~