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As soon as Yue Yang got on the co-pilot, Ling Guoyi stretched out his hand and pulled him off: "You sit on the back!" After speaking, he unceremoniously jumped onto the co-pilot.

Since Yue Yang can sit next to the two beauties, I don't care about his arrogant behavior.

Yue Yang sat behind me, and when the two girls got into the car, I drove the car on the road, and he grabbed my back and talked to me: "Brother, let's play all night tonight? Anyway, tomorrow is Christmas It's festival time, everyone relax..."

"You don't have class tomorrow?" I interrupted him.

"no!"

I knew he was lying after hearing his answer, so I asked Ling Guo next to me: "Ling Guo, do you really have no class tomorrow?"

"Yes." He stared at the road ahead, quietly betraying Yue Yang.

"Ling Guo!" Yue Yang punched him on the backrest.The two girls behind also lamented, and Xu Chunya complained to Ling Guo: "Why are you so annoying? It seems like you like class so much!"

"If you think I'm annoying, don't talk to me." Ling Guo slapped Xu Chunya ruthlessly without any emotion attached, but Xu Chunya was not angry, but said to him in a pleasant manner: "I don't believe you will return tomorrow." Go back to school? Isn’t it your birthday tomorrow? Let’s celebrate your birthday together.”

"I don't have a birthday!" Ling Guo's attitude finally cooled down.

Xu Chunya was so swallowed that she was speechless, and the girl next to her quickly smoothed things over: "Hey, Yaya, who did you hear that tomorrow is Ling's birthday?"

"I saw it in the monitor's registration book. He wrote down all the ID numbers of our classmates." Xu Chunya whispered.

The girl added: "The date of birth on the ID card is not necessarily accurate. Several of my classmates in high school have changed their ID cards."

"Well, that's right. I'm just asking, so let's forget about it." Xu Chunya's words seemed to be addressed to Ling Guo, with a flattering taste.

Only then did Yue Yang take over the words: "Probably not, I haven't heard him say that, and who's birthday is not allowed to greet everyone in advance? If it is his birthday tomorrow, he will definitely not hide it from everyone."

"Well. Then when is Yue Yang's birthday?" Xu Chunya started talking to Yue Yang.

"August [-]th, easy to remember?"

"It's easy to remember, but there are still more than half a year."

"How long is not the point, the point is...it happens to be summer vacation, you all go home. Sigh..." Yue Yang sighed.

"It's okay, if you want to ask everyone to come to you together, just call us, we can make an appointment in a city that is closer to everyone, and it will be a tourist, and it will be fun."

"Okay!" Yue Yang was happy again, then grabbed my back and shook it and asked me: "Brother, do you think it's okay for me to come back when the time comes? It's just us here, you're here too, how lively it is."

"Whatever you want." I have no objection.

Yue Yang was even happier, and began to look forward to the grand occasion of his birthday. The two girls were also very cooperative, talking non-stop, and even discussing details.

Listening to the chatter of the three people behind me along the way, I didn't speak any more.Ling Guo also remained silent the whole time, and he didn't even move, his whole body seemed to be frozen in the seat.I occasionally turned my head to look at him, but he didn't seem to notice, his face was turned out of the window, and he was surprisingly quiet.

I don't know him very well, but I still have to feel that this isn't quite like him.Even if he is angry, he is not a person who has nothing to say, unless... he is avoiding something on purpose.Could it be the word birthday?This is one of the topics that young people like to talk about most, but he avoids it like a taboo. Did you have any unpleasant experiences?

Maybe, I sighed inwardly.I also came from his age, and at that age, I also realized that I am different. There are many things and experiences that cannot be shared with others, and I even don’t want others to know.

When we arrived at the hotel, after a room full of people sat in the private room, a smile slowly appeared on Ling Guo's face, and he began to talk to everyone, including Xu Chunya.

When everyone took their plates to the self-service area to pick up their meals, I stayed behind to show everyone their bags, and I would go out when someone came back.The first one to come back was Ling Guo, who only had a plate in his hand, with some seafood and salad.

"Why do you eat so lightly?" I looked at him strangely.

He smiled and sat down. "I save my stomach for barbecue."

I didn't say anything, just when the phone rang, it seemed that there was a text message.I picked it up and saw that it was from an unfamiliar number, but it was not a spam message. Judging from the content, the sender was Xu Shihao.

[Yue Jiao, don't avoid me, I'm not impulsive now, can you calm down and have a good talk with me?Can you try to understand what it feels like when I silently recall those days when we were together on Christmas Eve alone? ]

I slapped my phone on the table, took a deep breath, and my chest heaved a little.Oh shit!Isn't pure heart making people happy?

"What's wrong?" Ling Guo seemed to be taken aback by me, looked at me strangely, saw that I was silent, turned around and went out again without asking any more questions.

I calmed down my anger and let myself gradually calm down.Forget it, don't let someone who is no longer relevant spoil the fun of tonight.I deleted the text message, and then dialed Lin Yadong's phone number.

"Didn't you go out to play? Why call me?" Lin Yadong seemed to be eating, and there was food in his mouth when he spoke.

"Are you with Hu Xin?"

"Ah, let's eat, in the western restaurant."

"It's quite shameless! People are in pairs of a man and a woman."

Lin Yadong just laughed: "You're really wrong, it's not just me and Hu Xin who come to eat in pairs, let me see..." It felt like he was stretching his neck. "As far as I looked around, I saw three couples of the same sex, and another couple who were older than us."

"Fuck you. Hey, I said, what are you two doing after dinner?"

"What do you mean? Just say it."

"It's just that I really don't have much in common with a group of little kids. I have to sing after dinner. If you two have nothing to do, come over and play together."

"I'm not going!" Lin Yadong resolutely refused: "If you want to play with the little kids, send them somewhere to find us. How about we go to the bar?"

"You drink to your death. If you don't want to go to the bar, why don't you go to the past time."

"Drink coffee? How much can you drink? After two cups, your stomach will hurt tomorrow."

"You don't know how to drink juice?"

"You think I'm three years old? Yue Jiao, I'm thirty! Thirty! I want to drink! Do you understand drinking?"

"Fuck you!" I hung up the phone, and when I looked up, I saw Ling Guo leaning against the door frame and looking at me, with a hint of displeasure in his eyes.

"What's wrong?" I looked at him inexplicably, wondering why I seemed to have offended him when I called.

"What's the matter, little kid?" He asked back, with a look of displeasure. "You didn't know anything when you were a kid? Did you look like a fool in the eyes of adults when you were a kid?"

"I don't mean that." I didn't expect him to eavesdrop on my phone call at the door, isn't it just a brat?As for being so serious?

"You don't mean to drink with us!" He moved away from the door frame and looked at me provocatively.

"That won't work!" I stood up, brushed past him, and said, "Alcohol is not a good thing, I hate it."

Yue Yang and the others had already walked back, talking and laughing happily.I smiled at them and started looking for something I wanted to eat.When I came back, everyone had already sat at the table and started eating. It was lively and lively. Although they were all children, I still let out a sigh of satisfaction.After all, this is a special Christmas Eve, different from any previous Christmas Eve.

After eating for two and a half hours, everyone rubbed their stomachs, except me and Ling Guo.I understand, unless there is something in mind, who would let go of such a chance to eat all kinds of things?It's just that I don't know what troubles he can have at such a young age. Even if I have troubles when I am as old as him, it won't be so obvious on my face.

Xu Chunya sat next to him and kept looking for opportunities to talk to him. Although he didn't ignore him, he kept a straight face.Yue Yang was next to me, except for eating, he kept talking to Wang Yan who was sitting next to him, and he didn't seem to notice the stark contrast between Ling Guo and Xu Chunya.Everyone else was busy eating and chatting. Occasionally, another girl would accept Xu Chunya's words, but would be interrupted by the waiter who came in to deliver the barbecue.In short, everyone is mainly eating, and eating is also very happy.

This idiot Yue Yang didn't say a word of kindness to me until the final checkout: "Brother, you don't seem to have eaten much."

"I ate too much at noon." I said, Yue Yang didn't say anything, and called everyone to go to KTV.

The private room was very tight on Christmas Eve, and it took an hour to wait for a big bag. If they didn't want to play all night, the medium bag would have been enough.During the time waiting for the private room, except for Xu Chunya and Ling Guo, no one was there, and even that boy Yue Yang didn't know where he was playing.The three of us sat on the sofa in the lobby and waited for the private room in a daze. Ling Guo seemed to be sleepy and kept yawning. Xu Chunya was talking to him in a low voice. Because the lobby was too noisy, I couldn’t hear what they were talking about. , but never saw Ling Guo's mouth move a few times.

I leaned on the back of the sofa and played with my mobile phone, and I received two more text messages, both from Xu Shihao. They were nothing more than talking about the pain of lovesickness.boring!Now that you think of me, how about taking me for a holiday?It's hard to live without a man, especially after having a lingering experience with a man, but what really tortures me is not those past or good or painful memories, but my own choice.This choice has nothing to do with Xu Shihao, but his sudden appearance in my life is like a special trip to remind me of what this choice means.

Many years ago, my father's curse-like voice rang in my ears again irresistibly: "Yue Jiao, you have to swear to me! We have compromised, and you have to keep your promise to us, or you will die a terrible death!"

"Yes, I swear, I will never touch any man again." When I made that oath, I was desperate, but my heart was peaceful.They compromised and never asked me to marry again, but I must exchange them with equivalent conditions.

You have made an oath and you will keep it.For my oath, I will be alone all my life, but I am also free.Even if you can't be happy with the one you love, you don't have to be unhappy with the one you don't love.

Xu Shihao chose a path completely opposite to mine, getting married and having children, and having misfortune with someone he didn't love.Unfortunately, he was even more unfortunate. He was married but had no children.But he still has a way to go, he can divorce, and then find someone who loves each other to spend the rest of his life happily.It is difficult for him not to remind me, because his childlessness allows him to choose again, but what about me?I have no way out.

What is it like to live a life that has already seen the end at the beginning?Maybe it's like eating noodles every day 365 days a year?You have to eat it until you feel sick.

How terrible such a day is, I don't dare to think about it, I just hope that Yueyang will not follow in my footsteps, our Yue family brothers can't both walk the same road, this is a dead end.

Thinking of Yue Yang, I realized that I hadn't seen him, where did he go?So I dialed his number, and soon heard his excited voice: "Brother? Is there a private room?"

"Not yet. Where have you been?"

"It's outside to breathe, it's too noisy inside."

"Who are you with?"

"Everyone is together."

"Ah... don't run around, I will call you when there is a private room."

"Understood. Is Ling Guo with you?"

I looked sideways. "here I am."

"You tell him to listen to the phone."

I pushed Ling over and handed him the phone.He took the phone and asked, "Why?"

I don't know what Yue Yang said to him, so he stood up, then returned the phone to me, and pulled Xu Chunya out.

I continued to lie on the sofa alone and wait for the private room, and I didn't hear my number until I was about to fall asleep.