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When I got home, I opened the backpack that Ling Guo had dropped on me, and found some dog toys, dog treats, and a few books inside.I took out those books and saw that they were cookbooks, or "Good Daughter-in-Law Recipe", "Good Mother Recipe", "Children's Happy Breakfast".Looking at these cookbooks, I suddenly laughed, and then I picked up my phone and sent a text message to Ling Guo: When will you teach me how to cook?

He quickly texted back: Let Xu Shihao teach you!

I laughed again, it seemed that I was really jealous, if I didn't explain this clearly to him, he might not talk to me anymore.So I dialed the phone immediately, and it took him a long time to answer.

"Ling Guo, come back."

"Why go back? The men in the world are not dead!" He said angrily.

"You can't find a woman even if you die, you should come back, where can you find a man as good as me?"

"Where can't I find it? There are plenty in the bar street!"

"Don't be so aggressive!"

"I'm excited! Let you and Xu Shihao rekindle the old relationship!" Then, I heard him call a taxi and said to the driver: "Master, go to the bar street."

"Fuck! Ling Guo! Do you dare to go?" I yelled at the phone.

"I'll go now, what can you do?" He also roared, and then hung up the phone immediately.

I was so angry that I threw my phone on the sofa and kicked the coffee table. After 1 minute, I picked up my phone, took the key and went out again, then drove straight to Bar Street.When I arrived there, I saw him leaning against a lamppost from a distance, talking to a little boy dressed up in a coquettish manner, and I gave him a few tickets.

"Ling Guo!" I slammed the car door and ran towards him: "Come back with me!"

He looked at me and said nothing, but the little boy in front of him asked him, "Who is this?"

"I don't know." He said softly, turning his head away.

I raised my foot and kicked him hard on the leg, cursing: "How can you do this? Listen to my explanation and you can die?"

He was kicked by me and sat on the ground with a "plop", and then he heard the boy next to him scream: "Ah - there's a fight!" "What's the matter? What's the matter?", "Who fought?", "Do you want to call the police?"

Ling Guo, who was sitting on the ground, suddenly yelled at them: "What are you looking at? Have you ever seen a couple quarreling?"

"Huh? A couple?", "The couple came here to quarrel? What a waste of time!", "Are you sick! Show off your love at the butcher's place!"

"What's none of your business?" Ling Guo yelled at them again, then stretched out a hand towards me, and said angrily, "Help me, I can't get up!"

I took his hand and pulled him up, then helped him into the car as he limped.

"Damn it! You're so ruthless!" Sitting on the car seat, he gritted his teeth and rubbed his legs while glaring at me.

"Let me see you coming to this kind of place again and I'll beat you to a cripple!" I also gave him a look and started the car.

"I just want to know if you have me in your heart? Do you?"

"What method do you use? Do you have to use this method to try me? You are too much for your father! You can do it like this!"

"If you don't try this way, can you come after me?"

"I'm afraid something will happen to you! With your thin skin and tender flesh, what if you are dragged away by some old pervert?"

"Get lost! You're the one standing on the street!"

"Don't let me tell you that you don't like to listen. You really can't fall in love with me just because you are so quick-tempered and don't take good care of yourself. I usually take it as fun when you flirt with me, but you can't show me face at every turn. , you can’t use such unprincipled things to test me, understand?”

He glanced at me and said nothing.

"Did you hear that?" I asked.

"I heard." He whispered, and then asked back angrily: "Then what happened to you and your ex-boyfriend tonight?"

"It's nothing, you just need to know that no matter what he thinks, I won't look back. In the future, he will come to me again, and I can't control my feet growing on him, but I have my own. Just remember one principle: You are my boyfriend, and no one can take this position away."

He suddenly smiled, and reached out to touch my thigh.

"Be honest! I'm driving!" I slapped his hand open.

"Then let me touch it when you get home." He chuckled in my ear.

"Little and unscrupulous, I haven't eaten dinner yet, you can cook for me first when you go home."

"Okay, but you don't have anything at home."

"Buy bread noodles in the supermarket downstairs, just cook me a bowl of egg noodles."

"Hey... that's what you're after? It seems that I really have to teach you how to cook."

When he said this, I also laughed: "I said, what kind of recipes did you buy? There are no normal ones to buy?"

"Why is it abnormal? That's the most basic thing."

"What's the foundation? After I learn it, I will become a good mother, and you will be my happy son?"

"You are my good wife." He said happily.

I glared at him.

"Good wife." He repeated to me.

"Get out!" I couldn't help laughing.

In the middle of the night, when Ling Guozheng wanted to have sex with me but I refused and ignored me in anger, my cell phone rang. He snatched it cautiously. I guess if it was Xu Shihao who called, he would make a fuss again. Fall out with me, but luckily it's Yue Yang.He handed me the phone, didn't speak, but kept listening with his ears up.

"Yueyang, why are you calling so late?"

"Brother... I want to ask you something." His voice sounded troubled.

"What's wrong?" I couldn't help but feel a little nervous, the emperor is far away, what should I do if he encounters some troubles and I can't rush there immediately?

"It's just...it's about feelings."

"About the relationship? Who... do you have the relationship with?" Although I asked knowingly, I really don't know his current situation.

"Well... don't care who it is, anyway, I like someone. But...but you probably won't agree with us being together. "

"How do you know that I don't agree with you being together without telling me who it is?"

"Brother, don't you always let me get in touch with female classmates? Do you really want me to find a girlfriend?"

"Ah... that's it."

"But...but what if I like men?"

As expected... Yueyang, Yueyang, you are following in the footsteps of your brother and me!Although I don't want to force him to take a path I don't want to take now, how can I explain this to my family?

"Brother... I like men, I like Wang Yan." He finally said it.

"Yueyang, have you thought it through?"

"Think clearly. But I'm quite conflicted now. I want to be with Wang Yan, but I'm afraid that you will be unhappy, that my parents will be angry, and that you will look down on me, so I dare not accept him. What do you think I should do now? What to do? Can I be with the person I like? "

I sighed, unable to answer his question for a while, because it was my own question.Can I be with Ling Guo?Although we are talking about love now, does our love have a future?If I can answer Yue Yang, I can answer myself.

"Brother? Why don't you speak? Do you disagree with me and Wang Yan?" Yue Yang's voice sounded like he was about to cry.

"Yueyang... I can't agree or disagree with this matter. I can only say that you think about it carefully, think about the difficulties you will face in the future, and think about whether you can not care about them? Think about whether you can overcome Those? Think about whether you can bear those bad results. After thinking about it, you can decide whether you want to like a man or not, and whether you want to be with him. "

"Well... I see, brother."

After finishing the call with Yue Yang, I sighed deeply, I didn't expect this day to come so early, Yue Yang threw the reality that I dare not face in front of me ahead of time.

Ling Guo, who was listening to me all the time, also understood the content of our conversation after I hung up the phone, so he looked at me face to face, and asked seriously: "The things you asked Yue Yang to think about, what is your own answer? what?"

I looked at him, not knowing how to answer him.I like him and want to be with him, but I can't promise him. I can't even explain what this relationship is.

My silence was already the answer to him, so he sat up, turned his back to me, and said in a low voice as if talking to himself: "My dad and my aunt already know about what I like about you, I also acquiesced, but what about you? Yueyang doesn't know, your parents don't know, and you don't want them to know, right? It's just my own wishful thinking that I'm with you now, right? If one day, your family knows and is determined When you object, will you leave me?"

I grabbed his arm and pulled him into my arms, but I still had nothing to say, although all I wanted to say to him was, "No, I don't want to leave you, I want to be with you forever." But I I can't say it, I'm afraid I can't do it.

Since that day, our relationship has faded again.Although no one will mention this invisible barrier between us, it exists in fact, and as long as it exists, we cannot love freely.Love this kind of thing, once there is an obstacle, it is easy to crack.I also don't want a relationship that I finally mustered up the courage to give to end without a problem, but I still feel powerless and tired.

We resumed the frequency of seeing each other once a week, basically he came to my house, and he didn't go to bed every time we met.He started to teach me how to cook, but I was really absent-minded and I didn't learn well.

The last time we met, we broke up because his dad wanted to invite us to dinner, and he agreed without asking my opinion, but I didn't want to go to the appointment.

"I've made it clear to my dad, why are you still awkward? He won't scold you anymore. "

"Then I won't go either, I'll fight with him."

"Then you can't keep avoiding him? Sooner or later you have to talk face to face, while he is in a good mood recently..."

"He's in a good mood, I'm in a bad mood, see you!"

"Then when are you in a good mood?"

"how could I know?"

"I see you are not getting better!"

"Can't you not curse me?"

"I curse you? Seeing you like this all day long? Did I delay your bright future or your lifelong happiness? Where is the energy to smile with me before? Since being with me makes you so unhappy, then don't Together!"

"Are you doing it again?"

"What if I just do it? If you don't do it, you don't know how upset I am!"

"Why are you upset? It's not you who is under the pressure!"

"I'm not so rare anymore!"

"Go away if you don't care!"

"Go away!"

Then he slammed the door and left.

I barely slept that night, tossing and turning over our relationship that was in danger of ending before it had even begun.

However, I never expected that the next day I would receive a phone call that changed my fate.