Xiaoyuji and big stars

Cai Heng stood where he was, looking at the back of Zhang Daye who was leaving in a hurry, he raised one arm upwards, as if he wanted to open his mouth to say something, but his throat was blocked again, what sound? Can't send it out.

The raised arm slowly lowered again, Cai Heng walked to a tree and leaned his back dejectedly.

He can do a job well in the entertainment industry that he has worked hard for nearly ten years. No matter what emergencies he encounters, he can fight against them and cover them up with water, but Zhang Daye... This is an accident in his life, an accident in every sense of the word , and he has never learned how to deal with this accident.

He has a father who is a famous director who is highly respected in the circle, and his mother was once all the rage as an actress with all kinds of charms. This is enough for him to gain a foothold in the entertainment circle from the very beginning and get good resources that many people think are out of reach.

This is a family background that many people envy, but only Cai Heng himself understands the tragedy of this family.He has seen his father get entangled with all kinds of young and beautiful actresses, and he is used to having a little fresh meat younger than him every time he eats with his mother.But just like that, the family has remained rock-solid until now—they call this an open marriage, and in short, they play their own way without interfering with each other.

Cai Heng was watched by his aunt at home since he was a child, and learned to read people's faces from his parents sensiblely, and learned to digest various emotions by himself without a teacher.

He is not interested in feelings in any sense, and he can go to great lengths to maintain superficial friendships with people in his circle, just because such friendships are helpful to his career.

Cai Heng's life is too rational, he knows how to use all his advantages.Just like he hated his own family, but from the very beginning he used his parents' fame to gain a foothold in the circle with peace of mind.

What's there?Cai Heng, who had just returned from abroad at that time, thought that this was what he deserved, and he had exchanged it with the family affection he had never had and experienced.What's more, it took him less than three years to change himself from "Director Cai's son" to "Cai Heng" in other people's mouths, which cannot be combined with family background alone.

But Zhang Daye...was different from the moment he decided to meet him.When he first found out that his feelings for Zhang Daye were a little out of control, he adopted a somewhat evasive attitude-he tried his best not to behave differently, and tried his best to treat every signed artist equally.He did a good job, no one noticed the quietly throbbing emotion under his calm and restrained appearance, not even Zhang Daye.

But he couldn't control the quietly growing and surging emotions in his heart, let alone Zhang Daye's naked and surging emotions.

Zhang Daye does not like to deal with the media, nor does he like to sing under the gaze of thousands of people. His affection for music is warm but quiet, but for Cai Heng, he is willing to do these things.

The forced change made Zhang Daye feel extremely tired. After every media conference or concert with tens of thousands of people, he felt exhausted.He is willing to let his music be heard by more people, but he prefers to be a creator rather than a performer.

Especially... such a change made him even more exhausted when there was no response and no end in sight.

Cai Heng leaned his head against the tree trunk and looked up at the dark sky.He understands, he understands all of these.But he is afraid to face it, he can show omnipotence in front of all artists, but he is at a loss for the feelings that will be overflowing in his heart, he is a little afraid of being overwhelmed by these feelings.

Scared because I've never experienced it.

He has been evading, using his self-taught calmness and restraint to evade, he deliberately does not think about what Zhang Daye really wants, and even childishly forces Zhang Daye to accept things he does not want to face, so that This forced the relationship to cool down bluntly.

But he was afraid of losing Zhang Daye, so he could only spend money to promote him, using such clumsy means to show that he cared.

He hopes that his feelings are like a floodgate, which can be opened and closed whenever he wants, and everything can be controlled by himself, but how is it possible?

The venue not far away became lively again, singers came out one after another, receiving cheers from fans and interception and questioning from reporters.After the bustle, there is silence again, and the cycle repeats.

Cai Heng thought with some self-mockery, this really corresponds to that sentence, the excitement belongs to them, and I am just one person.

He suddenly felt a little boring, and felt that all these years of scrambling and climbing were meaningless. The weak artists grew up under him, and gradually became more comfortable in front of the media. He used to enjoy this sense of accomplishment time and time again, but now thinking about it, he feels Meaningless.

What has he gained all these years?Fame?money?Do you respect it?If one day he no longer has any good resources in his hands, which artist is willing to stick by his side?

He has never given his sincerity to any artist, and which artist will return his true feelings to him?

Am I a special existence to you?Or are they just like other artists, just taking what they want?

He suddenly remembered the question Zhang Daye asked two years ago when he proposed to break up. At that time, he tried his best to avoid this question, but now an answer came to his mind suddenly:

...Yeah, what else?

——As a person, I like the feeling of being in control of everything, and I don’t want to be shrouded in the halo of my father forever, so I chose to be a manager.

——But you, you will never be under my control. You confessed unexpectedly, separated unexpectedly, rejected all activities unexpectedly, and said that sentence on stage unexpectedly.

——You have done so many things that made me feel out of control. If you were any other artist, you might be able to terminate the contract early, but when the company asked you to terminate the contract and hide you, I signed you under my personal name on my own initiative. It also became a reason for being squeezed out by other forces in the company.

——You have become the biggest out-of-control factor in my life, but I still can't control my feelings.

Cai Heng began to walk towards the direction Zhang Daye left, thinking as he walked, it was really out of control.

He started to run, because he was afraid that he would not be able to catch up with Zhang Daye, and that the only out-of-control factor would disappear from his life—he was suddenly tired of this kind of life.

He suddenly felt a sense of confusion that he had never felt before: If Zhang Daye did not exist in his life, how lonely and boring the rest of his life would be. How would he spend the rest of his life without change?

Cai Heng was out of breath running in the cold wind, his throat was dried out, and he found it hard to swallow, but he kept running forward. He had a hunch that Zhang Daye would not turn, he would keep going in this direction. go on.

He didn't know how long he ran, his whole body was frozen and he lost consciousness, his legs were doing mechanical movements, it seemed that he no longer belonged to him.Then he saw the back in front of him.That thin and tall back that he was all too familiar with.

"Xiao Ye!" He blurted out, and then stopped two or three steps away from Zhang Daye, gasping for breath in embarrassment.

Zhang Daye suddenly heard Cai Heng's voice behind him, and seemed to be torn apart by the howling cold wind for a moment, he stopped abruptly, he was walking so fast that he almost staggered.

He heard a rush of footsteps behind him, turned his head, and saw Cai Heng running towards him.

He couldn't believe it, and felt that all this seemed to be an illusion.

Cai Heng ran over and stopped two or three steps away from Zhang Daye. He was running very fast just now, and at this moment he was short of breath, and the white air was continuously blown away and exhaled from his lungs.

He and Zhang Daye looked at each other, neither of them made a sound, they were silent in tacit understanding.

Cai Heng suddenly took two steps forward, stretched out his hand to grab Zhang Daye's shoulder, and kissed Zhang Daye's shoulder fiercely.

The lips exposed to the cold wind were dry, cracked and cold, but the lips and tongue in his mouth were burning hot. Zhang Daye first let Cai Heng nibble on his lips with a confused expression, and then he responded violently to the kiss after he realized it.

This is a kiss that has nothing to do with tenderness. The two of them are like beasts that have been hungry for a long time, wishing to swallow each other into their stomachs.Teeth collided, lips were torn, and the smell of blood gradually permeated the mouth.

I don't know how long this eager and intense kiss lasted. When they separated, both of them were panting rapidly, their lungs seemed to be emptied, and their chests heaved violently.

Zhang Daye took a step back and stared straight at Cai Heng. His whole body was icy cold, only his eyes seemed to burn people: "What do you mean?"

"Don't go." Cai Heng followed him and took a step forward, covering Zhang Daye's face with one hand. His hands were numb from the cold, and his face was numb. The friction between them was mechanical and gentle.

With foreheads touching, Cai Heng's voice sounded pleading: "Don't go, you have always been special to me."

"I won't force you anymore, I won't make you do what you don't want to do, I won't talk to you arrogantly in the tone of a manager, and I won't pretend to understand when I understand it, don't Let's go, okay?"

Zhang Daye wanted to put on a mocking expression, but his face was frozen, and he only twitched the corner of his mouth slightly: "Is this a retention? A forced retention because he couldn't bear the loss?"

"It's not forced." Cai Heng still maintained the posture of touching his forehead, shaking his head, "It's... a sudden awakening."

The hot air they exhaled hit each other's faces, the breaths were intertwined, moist and ambiguous.Zhang Daye's tone was still mocking: "Boss Cai, why didn't I notice your masochistic physique before?"

Cai Heng smiled silently, Zhang Daye was still willing to talk to him in this tone, before everything was too late, he took off his coat and put it on Zhang Daye, put his arm around him, and said in a low voice: "Stay here, I'll make music with you."

"I said the contract would be terminated tomorrow."

"I don't agree, how do you terminate the contract?" Cai Heng helped him fasten the buttons.

"You just said that you would no longer talk to me like a manager." Zhang Daye looked at Cai Heng who was slightly bowed, and sneered.

"Okay," Cai Heng said helplessly, "terminate the contract, and then?"

"I didn't think about it." Zhang Daye shook his head, "But I really want to terminate the contract. If you don't agree, I can pay liquidated damages."

Cai Heng thought, it was really his own fault, Zhang Daye left without turning his head, already gave him enough face, he sighed: "Okay, terminate the contract, I can agree, as long as you stay."

"Cai Heng, every word you say is negotiating terms with me," Zhang Daye turned his head and said, "Compared with a lover, you are really more suitable to be a manager."

"That's right," Cai Heng smiled wryly, "I can become a fairly good manager in three years, but it takes four years and I haven't learned how to love people. It's really difficult."

"It's not that you can't learn it, but you don't want to learn it at all," Zhang Daye looked at him, "I can stay, but then? Go back to the life two years ago? That's a muscle for me. A nightmare of exhaustion. Cai Heng, I can face things that I don’t want to face for you, but I’m really tired, especially when I think that this kind of life will last for a long time. I'm exhausted. I can't satisfy your ambition as an agent and become a work that you are satisfied with. I'm really sorry. Four years ago, I thought I could do it. Now, it's my miscalculation. In the end, I have to change my mind. I'm sorry. "

After Cai Heng heard these words, he felt sore in his heart. Obviously, he had been forcing him to adapt to the media all these years, but now Zhang Daye was the one apologizing. He shook his head: "Don't say sorry. Terminate the contract, we There is no need to discuss any contract between them. I am no longer your manager, and in the future... I will learn how to be a lover."

The contract, in the eyes of each other, seems to be a symbol of some kind of disconnection. It seems that as long as the contract between the two has not been terminated, it means that it has not been completely broken.But if the two really broke up, what's the point of the contract?Cai Heng thought, I will no longer try to tie you with a contract, I will try to use other things, such as sincerity, such as... love.

"Okay." Zhang Daye nodded. Half an hour ago, he thought the two of them would end here, but now because of Cai Heng's words, hope was rekindled.He thought, he couldn't refuse Cai Heng after all.

A word from Cai Heng can stop him from going rain or shine, before and now.

He thought, as long as you are willing to take one step, I will carry you for the rest of the way.

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