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The form was gently peeled away, stretched, and held up in front of his eyes.

Yuan Mu read each word stroke by stroke patiently, thinking to himself that the handwriting on the volunteer form was no different from that on the boat, and the dots on the back of the tail were also the same, but even this wrinkled and wronged look How did you do it all?

He was dizzy for a moment, and felt that the crumpled paper was like a difficult and thorny road, each word of determination was Qiu Yu's silent steps towards him.Looking at it like this, a tear suddenly fell out of the right eye, and a ray of warmth wiped the face before realizing it was crying. The hand holding the flashlight immediately approached the bridge of the nose, and the water was silently squeezed away by the knuckles. .

Until he put down the kettle, Qiu Yu didn't wait for him to say anything.So he took the volunteer form from his hand, imitated his posture of reading, and also imitated his silence, and then moved his hands back and forth gently, and the paper was torn off.

"What did Aunt Fang do to make you choose Xizheng, can you tell me about it, and let me learn it too." Shredding, stacking, and shredding again, Qiu Yu asked in between doing these.

The night is pliable and forgiving, but this voice must have scratched it too.

"I'm still thinking about when to tell you." Yuan Mu murmured, "Fortunately, you know. How did you know?"

"I lied to Li Xuedao that I wanted to ask him to tell me about volunteering, and he took me to the office - yours is on the first one, saving me from looking for it."

"You went there on purpose?"

"I went on purpose."

As if a ladle of ice water had been poured over his head, Yuan Mu's mind suddenly became clear, and he was about to pick up those grass snake gray threads to see clearly, but Qiu Yu said: "I went to your house to look for you that night. What do I tell you not to give up? Me. What I want to say but dare not say is, Yuan Mu, think about me more, and don’t give up on me too easily. So—seeing that the result is Xizheng, it’s actually very important to me It's not too hard to accept. I've prepared myself for it. It's...just why, don't you tell me anything?"

All this time, it turned out that all his hesitation and weakness hadn't been hidden, and they were all nakedly exposed to his eyes.Yuan Mu suddenly turned off the lights, and there was a huge black curtain in front of him. He asked, "Then why didn't you dare to tell me that night?"

"Don't dare to say, I'm afraid you really have nowhere to go. Fang Qiong will not retreat, I will retreat, and I will be your way." Qiu Yu divided the stack of shredded papers into two piles unevenly, with one big pile in his left hand, and another large pile. Putting it into a rubber bucket, he said, "I know, in your heart, mother occupies so much."

"Qiu Yu."

"Ok?"

"Don't hate me too much."

"I hated you for a second."

"You don't hate it?"

"No."

"I did something wrong, and I should hate it. It's fine if I don't hate it."

"It's a mistake." Qiu Yu turned to look at Yuan Mu, the corner of his mouth curled up as if joking, "Which one? Can it be changed?"

As expected, she didn't get an answer, Qiu Yu let go of her fingertips, and watched the two fragments left on her right hand float into the bucket.He said: "There is nothing wrong. If you can't change it, how can it be defined as wrong? Besides, Beijing is not so good, not so good that you have to go. Yuan Mu, if you want to vote for Xizheng, I will go to Xizheng with you." .”

After listening, the hairs on Yuan Mu's body stood on end.

As if the drowsy person by the stove was hurt by the fire, Yuan Mu, who had been sluggish all night, changed his previous attitude of letting him be slaughtered casually, stood up straight, and looked down at him: "Qiu Yu, what are you talking about? Unconscious?"

Qiu Yu also stood up slowly, slightly higher than him, but didn't want to overwhelm him with such high coercion, looked at Yuan Mu firmly, and said gently, "I'm awake."

Avoiding staring at each other, Yuan Mu walked a few steps resentfully, took a deep breath, and pointed north: "Go forward, the bright road." Then he pointed to his feet, "Here, the stinking ditch. Are you awake?"

"You are here."

Yuan Mu's arm was hanging down, patted on the side of his leg weakly, and looked up at him: "Yes. That's why I want you to go."

Qiu Yu pulled off the bag on her shoulder, pulled out a thick textbook from inside, shook off a report card vigorously, picked it up and patted it in front of Yuan Mu, stamping the word "Qiu Yu" corresponding to the serial number "20" : "If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be here."

Kneeling down to help him pick up the books and bags that were thrown on the ground, and putting them in his arms, Yuan Mu said, "You should be here. You will go up in the future, and you will meet countless me."

"Yuan Mu!" Qiu Yu suddenly took a step towards him, but was blocked by his outstretched arms.

Yuan Mu lowered his head, half covered his face with the other hand, narrowed his shoulders, and sounded like he was hiding in an urn: "You really can't stay here, please, don't say such things, Qiu Yu. Don't hurt yourself , don't hurt me either."

Qiu Yu couldn't help but raise her hand to hug him.What hurts and scares the most is that the person you like is vulnerable in front of your eyes, let alone love.At the moment when his heart softened into a puddle of mud, the one he loves lived up to his expectations——Yuan Mu raised his eyebrows to look at Qiu Yu again, his eyes were like knives and swords, and he spoke unhurriedly:

"Don't you want to know which one I did wrong? On Friday morning, I promised you to go to Beijing, which was the only thing I regret. Before I promised you, I never thought about it. When you went to university in Beijing, even when you agreed to you, you were thinking that if you don’t say yes to you again, the teachers and classmates present should remind you.”

Qiu Yu's arm was stuck in the air, and she quietly retracted it in a corner where Yuan Mu could not see.

"Then you're saying that you didn't really think about going to Beijing with me at all. You agreed because you had nothing to say, so you used a good word to perfuse and lie to me."

"Yes."

Qiu Yu didn't make a sound for a long, long time. They were very close, and their breath hit each other's faces.He looked into Yuan Mu's eyes and saw that the sword had gradually weakened. When he stabbed Qiu Yu, he seemed to have stabbed himself first.In the end, Qiu Yu raised her hand again, leaned over to him, hugged him tightly, and called his name against his neck with helpless despair.

"Yuan Mu."

"Ah."

"I'm starting to hate you a little bit."

"Okay, whatever you want, it doesn't matter now."

"You also know that this is a place where you can't stay? Then why would you rather die in this place than listen to her? Don't you just want love, don't you just want someone to love you? How much can you get if you go to her for her?" points?"

Yuan Mu struggled violently in his arms.

Qiu Yu hooped harder: "Actually, the person you should come to find is me, Yuan Mu. This is the most outrageous thing you have done, and the most regrettable thing you have ever done."

Yuan Mu didn't move.

Both of them fell silent, the chests and abdomens of the remaining two bodies were heaving.

"It's always been easier for you to see through me than me. But it doesn't matter what you say, as long as you don't scare me because I want to stay in Chongqing. Don't do it, or you will hate you forever." Yuan Mu The voice was weak, and he pushed without hope, but he really left.

"Then what shall we do in the future?" Qiu Yu asked nonchalantly.

Looking up, she realized that Qiu Yu had already shed tears at some point, her cheeks had meandering water marks, and her eye sockets were filled with new rounds, ready to fall.

How to do it.

Yuan Mu guessed that he was a vague shadow in his eyes, and because he was indeed out of control, he confidently and boldly frowned and pursed his lips, showing a bitter expression about to cry.

After he calmed down after breathing, Yuan Mu stretched out his fingertips to wipe off the shining crystals, and calmly suggested: "If you are really sad or annoying, don't eat together again, don't go home all the way, and don't talk anymore unless necessary. Bar."

Yuan Mu's three "don'ts" suddenly made Qiu Yu's mind pop up many nights, from summer to winter, from wearing short sleeves to make a wish with a red-hot cigarette butt as a shooting star, to choosing a fluffy coat as a gift. It was convenient for him to warm his hands on the back seat of the motorcycle.

But he agrees with him, well.

Yuan Mu nodded, as if the task of negotiation was completely completed, he simply turned around and wanted to leave.

"These sunflowers——" Qiu Yu stared at his slow and calm back, and smoothly held his merciless footsteps, "I won't send you off, you can return it to me, okay?"

It may be because Qiu Yu only asked once this time, or it may be that there are no other people present who don't need to worry about being urged. Not far away, Yuan Mu stood still and did not see his response for a long time.

Qiu Yu left first and passed him smoothly.Instead, he stopped in front of the door on the roof, picked up the stone at hand and smashed it twice, destroying the lock he had nailed himself.After two dull "dong dong", there was a crisp "snap", Qiu Yu hooked the key out of the bag and threw it behind the door.

There is no "upstairs" anymore.

The sound of footsteps coming down the stairs faded away and then disappeared.

Yuan Mu's luck was good that day, the night came to day, and the winter in Chongqing also met the sunrise.Unfortunately, it was freezing cold on the rooftop in the early morning, and the newborn sun was like a rotten sugar.