Gender is different, let's talk about ghost love

"Really?" Bai Jinxi was stunned and couldn't believe it. "How can there be such a disease in this world?"

"It's hard for ordinary people to believe it!" Yi Shuihan raised his head and drank the wine in the glass, "I went to the hospital for an examination, and said that my brain was burned because of a fever, so I lost all my childhood memories."

"How old is it?" Bai Jinxi asked.

"Fifteen." Yi Shuihan said, "I don't remember anything before the age of 15. After I was 15, it was after my dad adopted me."

Bai Jinxi felt that he was listening to books, but the facts were in front of him, so he couldn't believe it.

It stands to reason that children should be adopted from an early age, and children who are usually three or four years old are chosen, or five or six years old are fine, and it is too big for them to go any higher.

Adopting a 15-year-old teenager, his personality and temperament have long been stereotyped, and he cannot be educated at all.

Although Bai Jinxi was curious, if he asked Yi Shuihan now, he would not give a comprehensive answer.

For example, you were in the orphanage until you were 15 years old and no one claimed it?

Yi Shuihan didn't talk anymore, he started to drink alone, while tasting the bitter and astringent red wine, he seemed to be thinking about something thoughtfully.

In an instant, Bai Jinxi suddenly had an answer in his heart.

When they met for the first time, he thought Yi Shuihan was super cold and had facial paralysis that was not easy to get along with at all.

As a result, after contacting him, I found that he was also very talkative and caring.

At this moment, Bai Jinxi felt that he was cold on the outside and hot on the inside, he was not a cold person, but he was not talkative and rather introverted.

The reason for this is that he doesn't talk much in plain language, because he has no childhood memories.

15 years of memory loss made him confused, so he was unfamiliar with everything, rejected, and it can be said that there was a trace of fear, so he became taciturn and habitually closed himself up.

Thinking of this, Bai Jinxi didn't know why, but felt a little distressed.

His childhood can be said to be unfortunate, his mother died early, and his father died in the line of duty when he was 11 years old, but at least he lived a happy life before the age of eight, with his mother doting on him and his father accompanying him.

But Yi Shuihan didn't even remember who his real parents were.

"I really want...remember the lost memory?" Bai Jinxi asked in a soft tone.

Yi Shuihan turned his face to look at him, and shook the red wine in the glass, "Thought about it. When you lose a memory, you will really want to know and explore what that memory is. However, my mother and I As I said before, it’s a good thing to be free to arrange in the dark, and it’s a good thing to lose it, just forget it if you can’t remember it, don’t force it.”

Bai Jinxi smiled, "Maybe Auntie is right."

"That's how people are. When you have memories, you can't wait, try your best, and want to forget that painful memory. But when you really lose it, you will be confused, and you will be more curious about what that memory is. And Very stupid, I tried my best to get back that memory." Yi Shuihan put down his wine glass, stared at Bai Jinxi with piercing eyes, "Isn't it too ironic?"

"Then what do you think now?"

"I can't go with the flow, especially when Xin Pei appears, I'm even more curious about what I've been through." Yi Shuihan poured red wine into the glass again, this time he didn't drink it immediately, but held it up Looking at Bai Jinxi with a glass of wine, he said, "Will you stay with me?"

Bai Jinxi stared at him, "Accompany you to find memories?"

Yi Shuihan leaned forward, took the initiative to clink glasses with Bai Jinxi's wine glass, "Stay by my side."

"Ah?" Bai Jinxi was a little puzzled, "When did you become so hypocritical?"

"I'm serious." Yi Shuihan held the wine glass, raised his head, and drank the wine in one gulp, "I like you very much."

Bai Jinxi was stunned, staring at Yi Shuihan's slightly flushed cheeks in a daze, his heart trembled, and he suddenly regained his composure, "Yi Shuihan, did you drink too much and talk nonsense?"

"You think I'm joking?" Yi Shuihan fixed his eyes on Bai Jinxi, as if he wanted to swallow Bai Jinxi alive.

"I warn you, don't be crazy again, go back to your room and sleep!" Bai Jinxi put down his wine glass and was about to get up, but Yi Shuihan suddenly strode over, grabbed his wrist and said, "Even if you think I'm disgusting, I'm not sick." If you want to say, I just like you, you are the only one who makes me worry about it, what is this but love?"

"Let go!" Bai Jinxi shook Yi Shuihan away vigorously, and shouted: "We are both men, what are you thinking? You are crooked, but I am not."

Yi Shuihan was taken aback for a moment, his hands trembled involuntarily, he is the heir of Zhuo Yue, how many women threw themselves into his arms, eager to become his woman, it's a pity that he is abstinent, for those Women don't call.

This is the national husband who is regarded as a male god by those nymphomaniacs, and everyone misses him. He has always been in a state of arrogance and no one's pride.

Unexpectedly, he would fall in love with a man, and mustered up the courage to confess, but was rejected instead.

Yi Shuihan didn't know what this feeling was, he just felt a pain in his heart, as if his heart had been pierced by thousands of arrows, and the flesh and blood from the meat grinder was splattered everywhere.

Yi Shuihan clenched his fists tightly. He raised his eyes to look at Bai Jinxi, and asked word by word: "Did you not feel anything at all? From the beginning to the end, you didn't feel anything, even the slightest bit?"

These words were full of bitterness and sorrow, and even implied a charm of prayer. Yi Shuihan waited eagerly for the answer. He couldn't wait to know, but was very afraid of hearing an unacceptable answer.

Bai Jinxi looked at him, feeling a mess in his heart, he couldn't help but start to ask himself, really...do you feel nothing at all?

Bai Jinxi didn't answer for a long time, Yi Shuihan gradually became calm from the fear at the beginning, his heart was more than half cold, like a ball that had been emptied, Yi Shuihan let go of his clenched fist, and smiled wryly "I'm going back to the house, you go to bed early too."

Yi Shuihan walked out of the room step by step, his back was desolate and lonely, at the moment he held the doorknob, he was struggling in his heart, but he opened the door helplessly.

"Jinxi." Yi Shuihan walked out of the room without turning around, "I'm not gay, it's just that the you I like happen to be of the same sex."