That's it

The atmosphere is always good while eating.Zhao Wenyuan and Mu Yang drank two bottles of beer.Zhou Li talked about Mu Yang playing mahjong all day long, and complained because she spent too little time with her.Two people quarreled.Although Mu Yang didn't say anything, his attitude was cold and irritable.Zhou Li's fiery temper got up and left. Zhao Wenyuan and Liu Xiaodan couldn't stop Zhou Li, but Mu Yang remained indifferent.After Zhou Li left, Mu Yang drank the wine in his glass in one gulp, got up and left.Zhou Li didn't listen to anyone, stopped a taxi and got on without looking back.Liu Xiaodan was shivering while wearing only a thin coat and hugging his shoulders.

"Daughter-in-law, go home quickly. Don't catch a cold because of these two who are not working properly." Zhao Wenyuan hugged her and said.

"Muyang, go chase her and coax her. Boys should take the initiative. If I don't see Lao Zhao for a few days, I will be angry." Liu Xiaodan said warmly.

"It's not because of this." Mu Yang said angrily.

"You go back quickly! I'll freeze to death in a while, I'll talk to him." Zhao Wenyuan pushed Liu Xiaodan towards home.

"Okay. Then you make up quickly, call her and coax her. She likes you very much."

After Liu Xiaodan went upstairs.Zhao Wenyuan put his hand on his shoulder lightly behind Mu Yang, and Mu Yang shook him off.

"Get in the car! I'll take you home." Zhao Wenyuan said.

"No. I'll take a taxi back, it's not far away."

Zhao Wenyuan dragged Mu Yang around aimlessly on the street.I didn't speak for a long time.

"Have you decided to go to Shandong?" Zhao Wenyuan asked.

"En." Mu Yang replied in a low voice.

"when are we leaving?"

"I want to leave as soon as possible."

"I have 1 yuan here, and I know you are short on money. You need money to rent a house there."

Mu Yang hesitated for a while and said, "No need."

"Do you still have to pretend to be with me? Your family will definitely not agree with you to go, and it is impossible to get you money."

"talk later."

"Are you... going to find him?"

"No. A buddy is over there."

"It's good to go out and relax, or come back if you can't. I think it's better to find a job at home."

Mu Yang stopped talking.Zhao Wenyuan took a look at his irritability and didn't ask any more questions.After a while, the car had already passed Mu Yang's house.

"Take me home! You should go back early and clean up for your wife."

Mu Yang got out of the car without any hesitation.Zhao Wenyuan looked at his back, thinking that he was about to go to Shandong, and his heart began to ache.Going straight along the road is Huang Liqun's house. Not far away, you can see it with your eyes. Zhao Wenyuan is used to being disappointed with him.The last contact was Xiaonian, just a few words, the last time we met was a month ago, it was just for making love, without eating.

a few days ago.Back at Liu Xiaodan's home, Liu Xiaodan was scolded and cried by her mother, because they had not had a child for a long time. He knew better than anyone else that it was not Liu Xiaodan's problem, and Liu Xiaodan took all the responsibilities on his own head.

Zhao Wenyuan is always willing to do something for Mu Yang.At four o'clock in the morning, he opened his eyes tiredly, thinking that he was about to see Mu Yang and was full of energy, and he would still be sad when he really faced the separation.Mu Yang will take away his extravagant hope of being close at hand.Watching him gain hope from the other side of the glass wall, but this hope is about to die, and he is still on the other side of the glass and can't even see hope.

It was still dark on the way to the airport.The difference in the past is that Mu Yang's whole body is shining, and it seems that he is about to get rid of darkness and confusion and usher in liberation.The smile was always hanging on the co-pilot, which made Zhao Wenyuan feel better.What could make him more happy than Mu Yang's happiness?

"I'm about to leave the province, how do you feel?" Zhao Wenyuan asked Mu Yang, who was looking forward to the fantasy world.

"Show your sister!" Mu Yang replied habitually, and then continued: "How are you and Lao Huang doing recently?"

"It's still the same, it's the same. It's like an adult's will never grow up again. If your little thing goes out, don't let people see it easily. The Northeast's reputation is big, and you have seriously lowered the average line of Northeast people." Zhao Wenyuan fiercely said with a smile.Exaggerated laughter seems a bit abrupt in a quiet environment

His attitude made Mu Yang look at the dark car outside in disgust.Seeing that he was depressed, Zhao Wenyuan touched his defenseless face with his right hand. Mu Yang's face had given him the urge to ravage countless times.Mu Yang subconsciously blocked it with his left arm and said even more irritably, "Are you sick? Is it abnormal?"

"Hey!" Zhao Wenyuan was still excited, and grabbed Mu Yang's crotch again.

Mu Yang stared at him with icy eyes for a moment, and finally ended his gaze with contempt, contempt, disgust, and rejection.This gaze pierced Zhao Wenyuan's heart like a cold arrow, freezing the whole person instantly.The jubilation that had just started collapsed in an instant, and we were almost at the airport.For the rest of the journey, they divided the space in the car into two different worlds of you and me.When I got off the bus, I didn't even say goodbye, and disappeared at the entrance of the waiting room without looking back.Mu Yang's irritable behavior immediately made Zhao Wenyuan feel absurd.It is so sad to have imagined many kinds of parting scenes.

From the time they first meet, the eyes go from friend to buddy to mixed.Mu Yang didn't want Zhao Wenyuan to become a buddy who had a crush on him, that would destroy all the relationships they had built.He could see Zhao Wenyuan's desire for joy in several of Zhao Wenyuan's confessions with a lot of laughter.But he was as uninterested in Zhao Wenyuan as he was in women.It was too late when he realized that Zhao Wenyuan cared too much, and he didn't know how to correct their relationship.They're both strongly proving that two people are just best buddies.Zhao Wenyuan knew very well that no matter how much he longed for Mu Yang to become his lover, he would not be able to change Mu Yang's attitude. It was as difficult as turning a straight man into a bender, or as impossible as turning a pure gay man into a straight man.Perhaps only by becoming a buddy can he get closer to Mu Yang, and even closer.

Mu Yang's coldness overwhelmed him, and he didn't know what to do for a moment.He still walked into the waiting room and watched Mu Yang go through the security check from afar and disappeared into the crowd.I wanted to make a phone call to explain something, but then I remembered that look in my eyes, that's all!too painful.

The way back was even more empty, and that look lingered in my mind, cutting my heart open like a knife.Instead of thinking about it, turn on the music.The voice was loud, hoping to wash away his grief, but he was still uneasy, so he howled along with the singing.Singing and singing tears vent more violently than surging music.Singing while weeping, the more I sang, the more heartbroken I was.

Before entering the urban area, the sky is almost completely bright, and the hope in my heart is almost completely dark.He parked the car on the side of the road.Let yourself have a good cry.After a while, the ugly crying gradually disappeared, and the music had a chance to enter the ear canal again.Try to calm yourself down.Stop thinking about him, stop thinking about the confusing and painful life, and stop thinking about why you want to live.

I didn't return home.After flushing my face in the bathroom of the unit, it was exactly the same as usual.The colleagues are happy in front of them, and the subordinates are majestic in front of them. There is no difference.Only you know how depressed you are, and what else you can vent.In the end, I left the grief in the circle of friends.

Fusheng: I can see through your eyes, cold, refusing, even loathing, without a trace of warmth or leeway.It only takes a moment for me to know how redundant and naive I am.What exactly is it that makes me feel and judge this way? ? ?

The Lone Wolf replied to Fusheng: You have become hypocritical too?

Fusheng replied to Lone Wolf: Are you hypocritical?

Lone Wolf replied to Fusheng: Yes.

Heart-to-heart: You are not hypocritical, but sentimental and sentimental.

Fusheng replied to Zhuxin: How are you doing recently, big brother?

Reply to Floating Life by Heart: Not bad.Miss you a little bit.

Fusheng: The most uncomfortable love in the world is when I love you but you don’t love me; the most troublesome love in the world is when I don’t love you but you come to haunt me; the most painful love in the world is when we all love each other. But we can't be together; the saddest love in the world, we don't love, but we want to be together.

On the way home from get off work, he thought of Xiang Ping.Put on a bluetooth headset and call Xiangping.

"Eight roads."

"Ah."

"I sent him off in the morning."

"Oh."

"I can't forget the last look he gave me, which made me completely awake."

"are you OK?"

"Not good. I made a fuss with him, and then he gave me a look. In that look, I saw everything. I know what I am in his heart. You know that look is very disgusting, and I also say rejection Not sure. But I feel like it sums it up.”

"I saw what you said."

"Are you busy?"

"How many times have I advised you, what's the difference between you and liking a straight man. Since you know it's impossible, why bother jumping into the flames?"

"I'm tired of working. I'm so tired." Zhao Wenyuan's voice was extremely desperate.

"After so much, you still can't let yourself go. Why don't you try to travel. Just be alone, and leave all the troubles on the road. When I go out alone, I can always think quietly, and no one bothers you. What do you think? That's about it. It's pretty relaxing."

"I do not have time."

"If you continue to torment, the time is not important. The important thing is that you still want to live. Let yourself go."

"Eight roads."

"Ah."

"I cried after I sent him away. I cried in the car for a while, and I felt much better after crying."

"Do you think you can solve the problem?"

"Anyway, I feel better after crying."

"what about now?"

Zhao Wenyuan paused for a while and then continued: "Stop talking. I'm home."

"I'm going to Harbin in a few days."

"What time can I arrive?"

"It's noon."

"Then let me treat you to dinner."

"talk later."

What Zhao Wenyuan didn't expect was to hear the news that Mu Yang had returned from others a few days later.It made him very entangled, he kept persuading himself to forget about Mu Yang, and very painfully controlled not to contact him, and didn't want to care about him anymore.It didn't take long for him to observe carefully and learned that Mu Yang's purpose in going to Shandong was to meet netizens.Suddenly feel very disappointed, but can not find the reason for disappointment.Mu Yang still knew that he was angry, and after thinking twice, he still didn't explain, but the money and love owed to him must always be paid back.

Zhao Wenyuan wanted to know his position in Mu Yang's heart, and to see how much connection there was between them if he didn't take the initiative to contact him.After many days, the disappointment was too hard to bear, and the hard time had to be endured.In the end, he discovered that Mu Yang had rarely contacted him proactively.Simply let yourself bear the pain alone!After all, he asked for it, maybe time can make him calm down slowly.

As usual, I woke up quietly in the morning to prepare a nutritious breakfast for my daughter-in-law.Feel the scene when you cut carrots.The dry winter in the Northeast makes the long-standing carrot cores list several hollows like lotus root holes, and sliced ​​into slices like lotus root slices.He thought of himself, and kept thinking.It's time for the stew to send a talk.

Fu Sheng: You are obviously a carrot. Do you think that you have lost some holes in your lovesickness and look like a slice of lotus root, so others can treat you as pure as a slice of lotus root?It's better to be yourself, so as not to be ashamed in the eyes of others!

Balu replied to Fusheng: The ventilation is good, the drainage is good, how can you use it after you cut it?Is this to abstain from lust?

Fusheng Recovers Eight Ways: Arms tucking knees 360 degrees in front of infinite circular linear motion...

Xiaoyaoxing replied to Fusheng: Translating this sentence into adult words means to get lost!

Fusheng replied to Xiaoyao Xing: A smart prodigal son is a rarity, come, give me a kiss.

Xiaoyaoxing replied to Fusheng: Then I will take you as a compliment!