That's it

Seeing Wang Yujie and her boyfriend next to her again, Wang Yujie had a relaxed sense of happiness on her face, which made Xiang Ping very relieved.

Five and a half hours by car.Waking up after falling asleep for an hour and a half in the car, exhausted.He wanted to sleep for a while, but he couldn't touch the dream door.Sitting in a small space, the body feels like being buried alive again. It is very unforgettable to experience this feeling.I could only sit quietly in the car, leaning my head on the window, numb and motionless.Put on the earphones and listen to the music, and look at the scenery passing by the window in a hurry, the blue sky and warm sun, the waking fields, flying birds, and the gurgling river.The broad field of vision is full of hope and freedom. Compared with the despair a few hours ago, my heart is free at this moment, and I feel the feeling of freedom, yes.It's a feeling of freedom. "The Freedom of a Corpse".

Freedom is what Xiang Ping desires in his heart, and he always grabs it quickly and dissects it every time it passes through his brain.

In the eyes of acquaintances in life, few people can compare Xiang Ping's freedom, and many people envy him for being free and easy, willful, assertive, and brave.But almost no one knows how much a person who regards freedom as more important than his life longs for freedom.

If a person is not dead and sleepy, the brain will keep functioning.Thoughts are fast and complex, and you can recall a lot in a short time.Fragments of the past came to mind along with the heart longing for freedom.

In 2013, Xiang Ping pursued freedom desperately.

In 2012, he gradually came out of depression and was inspired to fight for freedom once. At that time, he thought that traveling freely was freedom.So, after working hard for the travel expenses for a year, he opened a gift shop, which he did in ten months.The business in the store was good, and many people envied him, but he still sold the store desperately and took the money to pursue his freedom.

Sitting in the waiting room of Harbin West Railway Station, Xiang Ping was very calm and did not have the surprise he imagined before.The first stop is to go to his classmates in Liaoning. These three classmates are his most recognized friends, and he can talk about everything except his own sexual orientation.One has rich experience, one is upright, and the other is optimistic and cheerful.

Wang Hongyu asked for leave and drove Xiangping around from Yingkou to Bayuquan to Dalian for four days.A month ago, I told Xiang Ping to come as soon as possible, and if he was late, he would have no money to spend. He was engaged in various side-by-side industries, and finally ended up with no money.Wang Hongyu will never hide from Xiangping either his illegal business or his feelings.They also once talked about another classmate of theirs being a comrade, expressing respect and understanding.Xiang Ping once wanted to disclose to him that he was gay.But he never said it, only talked about the experience he had with the girl.

The train station in Yingkou is located outside the city, surrounded by crop fields.The station is small and there are many cars parked outside the gate.Wang Hongyu was patting the floor pads carefully, doing useless dodging movements, and the dust would not stay away from him because he was hiding seriously.

"What are you doing packing it up! Proving that you are particular?" Xiang Ping said to Wang Hongyu, who was facing away from him, with his bag on his back.

"If it's someone else, I won't clean it up. Aren't you a clean person? I've been waiting here for half an hour." Wang Hongyu smiled calmly, not showing much surprise.After a long absence, neither he nor Xiang Ping showed any exaggerated expressions.

"Just bury me! You don't go to work on Friday?" Xiang Ping asked.

"What class do I still have when you come? Going to work is not as important as you. I can't accompany you in other places. I will spend a few days with you in Liaoning."

in the car.Mood makes sad music cheerful.They haven't seen each other for half a year.Wang Hongyu, who was still good half a year ago, is now living in a difficult situation.Wang Hongyu asked Xiang Ping to come as soon as possible on the phone a month ago, exactly as expected.

"Are you still fixing that thing now?" Xiang Ping looked at him expectantly and said.

"It's out of order! There's no money!" After speaking, Wang Hongyu smiled wryly.

Xiang Ping nodded slightly, lowered his eyes and said nothing.

"Where are you going?" Wang Hongyu asked.

"do not know."

"Awesome, so chic."

"Do you still remember that time we made an appointment when we were drunk?"

"Hehe. Why don't you remember?"

"Whoever doesn't go has grandson."

"Haha. Hey! Everything is not as expected!" Wang Hongyu gave a long sigh of relief.

"Don't touch that thing again in the future. Bad guys won't understand it. You're even more useless. You don't have the heart to hurt others and you don't want to see others suffer. Don't you want to talk about it? It's strange if you don't pay for it? See what you have done? It’s really not suitable for you to study side-by-side games every day. When you can calm down, you will soon be rich.”

"You said you didn't wait for me, how about leaving together when I have money? There is also a care for each other."

"I can't wait! Besides, being with you is restricted, so it's better for me. Last year, I just wanted to be able to go this year, so it's hard for you to understand how I feel now. It's just cool."

"Just be mad at me!" Wang Hongyu held the steering wheel with one hand and handed it to Xiang Pingyan with the other.

"Then calm down, let go of your exaggeration, don't always think about making a lot of money, and panic."

"Can you not panic? I owe a lot of debt."

"It's useless to be anxious. For the past [-] years or so, I have been thinking about the good things that will happen decades later, but I can't ask for it. I'm living a miserable life! I didn't want anything last year, so I wanted to save a little money. Take a quick walk. It's easy. You know?"

"Probably. Now I suddenly want to get married and live a down-to-earth life." Wang Hongyu took a deep breath.

"Then it's over!"

"No money, no one."

"Can you be short of people?" Xiang Ping asked in surprise.

Wang Hongyu simply smiled.Xiang Ping also smiled similarly.Even if we don't contact each other for half a year, a simple smile can tell a lot.

Yang Zhenguo is the most real person Xiang Ping knows.The family background is not good. After graduating from university, he not only supported himself but also made a girlfriend, and also supported his sister to study in graduate school.The only girlfriend has been in a relationship for seven years, and has been in a long-distance relationship for three years.When they were at home, the two of them occasionally carried wine to the mountains outside the village to drink.Under the bright moonlight, on the quiet bald mountain, that kind of environment makes it easy for each other to take heart, and you can say anything from the bottom of your heart.Xiang Ping still hides his other world, not insincerely, other than that, there is no secret.

night.The three of Yang Zhenguo got together after get off work.very happy.Yang Zhenguo stood on the side of the road and anxiously stated his location on the phone.He and Xiang Ping seemed very happy when they first met.

"Fat again. This bear looks more and more disgusting. How can you be so ugly? To open people's eyes?" Xiang Ping patted Yang Zhenguo on the shoulder and said.

"I am willing. Is it disgusting that I don't need to eat? I save it." Yang Zhenguo gave Xiang Ping a hard look.

"No! No! No! There is no delay in eating." Xiang Ping still smiled happily.

"Wang Hongyu. I haven't seen him for many years. He is still so handsome. He is getting more and more stable." Yang Zhenguo and Wang Hongyu said while shaking hands.

"Xiang Pinghe told me that you are fat, but you are really fat. I don't think I can recognize you on the street. How is it now? I am very happy!" Wang Hongyu said with a smile.

Yang Zhenguo patted his stomach and said, "I don't know what happened. It's almost one hundred and eighty now. What's the happiness! I'm on the construction site every day, without you."

"Whoever has Xiang Ping's chic and unrestrained travel." Wang Hongyu said.

"He's not a normal person. Normal people can't do things like him." Yang Zhenguo glanced at Xiang Ping and said with disdain.

"Hurry up and find a place to eat, I'm going to starve to death." Xiang Ping urged Yang Zhenguo.

The time for a roast leg of lamb can't last forever, but it can drink enough wine.They were very happy, but they parted reluctantly.

Wang Hongyu bought a house in Bayuquan, a big house with three bedrooms, one living room, two bathrooms and one kitchen.I have invited Xiangping to work here many times.Now from the empty furnishings in the room, it can be seen that he is in despair. In the middle of the night, he can no longer hear the sound of the girl calling the bed, only his own sigh.Xiang Ping's arrival made this place a bit more lively.At least not quietly panic.

They soaked in hot springs, had massages, ate the most famous seafood buffet, and went home with wine to continue drinking.It's time to open up to each other.The dining table is large and can seat eight people.There were only a few bottles of beer and two packs of cigarettes here and there.

"Why don't you have a date yet? Don't tell me you still miss her?" Wang Hongyu asked.

"That's not true. I don't want to get married either. I can't find a relationship at home. If I find a family, I will marry you. If you are lucky enough to have an affair, you will be satisfied. If you don't run into trouble, it's best to be alone." Xiang Ping half-joked say.

"Never get married for the rest of your life?"

"Ah."

"I want to get married, but by the time I fucking want to get married, there are no people and no money."

"When you have money and people, you don't want to."

"That can't. I don't think the same way as before."

"It's nothing different. You're still unreliable, and your mentality is not good. Just say that today's money was spent, fuck! What's the use of saving a province? We are still fucking comparable. It's not worth it."

"With my current situation, I wouldn't be able to do this for anyone else. Thinking about it, it's really not worth it. The money for instant noodles for one year is gone."

"Don't try to make money, you can't cheat people, you can't do it."

"Sometimes when I think about it, it's really not as good as a bad point. Why make myself so depressed now."

"Don't do anything wrong, and have peace of mind."

"In this society, you don't cheat people, people cheat you."

"Have you ever thought of tricking me?" Xiang Ping looked at Wang Hongyu firmly, and Wang Hongyu glanced at Xiang Ping and smiled.Xiang Ping continued, "That's it."

third day.Go on and meet another classmate Wang Minghui in Dalian.

Wang Minghui is a cheerful person.In the eyes of others, he is a carefree and loyal ruffian.Xiang Ping is one of the few people who knows his other side, knowing that a lot of his happiness comes from acting.Wang Minghui's drinking capacity is average, and every time the limit is developed together with Xiangping.Even so, Xiang Ping would not tell him about his orientation.

After drinking.The more the men sang in kTV, the more bored they became.Wang Minghui also brought two colleagues with him, for fear that he would not be able to accompany Wang Hongyu and Xiang Ping, two alcoholics.After his colleagues left, Wang Minghui insisted on taking them to find women.

"Let's go! I'll take you to a good place." Wang Minghui said with lustful eyes.

"Forget it! I'm a little tired." Xiang Ping said.

"I've never heard of you looking for it. Let me show you today." Wang Minghui said to Xiang Ping with a smile.

"Why didn't you say you took me there? I didn't have a strong relationship with Xiangping! When I was at home, I took Xiangping to Dog Street, but the people there were really bad that night. I could barely make do with it. Look at Xiangping." Turned his head and left." Wang Hongyu said with a smile.

"It's too low-quality. I won't be able to do it. I haven't looked for it once. It's a decent person, unlike the two of you." Xiang Ping said.

"Haha. A decent person. I'll save myself if I don't go!" Wang Minghui said with a big laugh.

"Save it and buy a book for your girl!" Xiang Ping said with a smile.

Exaggerated for four days.They are very happy when they are together, as if they are each venting the unhappiness that has been accumulated for a long time.Unfettered, no pretense required.

After Xiang Ping left, he was lying on the train alone.Thinking back on the happiness of the past few days, I felt a strong sense of loss in my heart.It turns out that I don't have anyone I can fully trust, but it gives people a feeling of trustworthiness.Even if the other party completely trusts him, he will only exchange half of his world.The train pulled him away from the hypocritical life gradually, and fled to a new world where no pretense was needed.Experience the feeling that there is only one person who does not need to pretend.It should be a feeling of liberation, but it was an extremely long night, a person dancing wildly to be free, no longer bound, no longer pretending, alone, just alone.When he implemented this sense of freedom, a bitter smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.