That's it

After a chaotic rush, it was already dark.Can finally sit down.There is enough wine, and if you don't finish drinking, everyone will put a film.Xiang Dan didn't like their atmosphere, so she drank a can and went to play with her son and Xiang Nan's daughter.While playing, he lay lazily on the bed next to the dining table, and while describing their atmosphere to Xiang Hong who was not there, he listened to their chat.It is inevitable not to talk about Xiangping's personal problems.

The wine is over seven points.

"Big head, you said that you are not married, and you are not in a relationship. Is it interesting to be alone?" Pan Feng asked in an upbeat atmosphere.

Xiang Ping's face was already numb, anticipating the questions they would ask.Squeeze out a cold smile.Then he took a deep breath and said in a serious state, "Actually, I have a girlfriend."

"Ah? When? Tell me, Emma! The wine is too cold, and I'm a little bloated." Xiang Nan said with an extraordinary expression of surprise, but everyone was used to her sudden surprise.

"I met when I went out to play last year. In Yunnan. We met in Dali, and then..." Xiang Ping continued to speak seriously, with a calm tone, even a little serious.

"You don't have to be idle? Hearing him flickering here, you all seem to be listening with great interest." Luo Zhiming interrupted Xiang Ping's seriousness.Then he pointed to his son next to the stairs and said, "Son, you and your sister are having fun! Stay away from that, and don't fall."

"It looks real to me." Pan Feng was moved by Xiang Ping's seriousness.

"Er Ming, don't talk. What's the matter if you let him finish?" Xiang Nan pricked up her ears and frowned.

"She was in our motorcade when we traveled around the Erhai Lake. When I first saw her, I felt very ordinary. Later, I was a little bit attracted by her character. I like to see her smile, and her character is what I want. I gradually liked this feeling more and more. Later we went to Lijiang together, and then went to Lugu Lake.” Xiang Ping said more and more in a low voice, as if he really fell into that artistic conception.

"You two don't talk, I can't hear you anymore." Xiang Dan said to the child sternly, covering his forehead with one arm, and listening carefully with his ears up.

"Crazy talk, stupid listen. Believe it! I don't believe it!" Luo Zhiming picked up the wine and took a sip, and said with a resolute questioning smile.

The atmosphere gradually became quiet during Xiang Ping's serious narration, and gradually there were only Xiang Ping's sincere narration and occasional voices from children.Xiang Ping lowered his head and already made up his story. He planned to amuse everyone, but he was gradually moved by himself.

"I was very happy when I was with her. I ate and laughed all the way from Dali to Lijiang. The time passed so quickly that I couldn't bear to leave like this. Later, we decided to go to Lugu Lake. When we were in Lugu Lake, she suffered from altitude sickness. Very serious, I took care of her for one day, that day, maybe she was moved, or she liked me when she first met me, it’s hard to say. We didn’t talk much that day, she was very sad, but we could feel each other What was thinking in my heart. I saw her smile weakly, and I felt distressed. She recovered the next day, and we went around Lugu Lake again. I didn’t feel lonely when I was with her. For the rest of the time, I would often be shrouded in loneliness when I was alone on the road. I've never had that feeling before, it's as if the whole world is bright when I'm with her, I can't explain the feeling. It's very good, it's amazing."

"Well. This is love. I believe in love." Xiang Nan was completely immersed in Xiang Ping's story.

"Don't disgust me, can you? If you don't drink, leave the table. Why don't you listen to me?" Luo Zhiming said angrily.

"It's very interesting to listen to the big head. I also believe in love. Erming, let me tell you, this time I feel that the big head is real." Pan Feng said.

"You guys don't talk. What are you talking about! Brother, you continue to talk." Xiang Nan said.

Xiang Ping was not interrupted by Luo Zhiming, and looked at Luo Zhiming's aura with a faint smile.This laugh can confirm that his story is true, because he has deceived everyone with various versions of the story, so Luo Zhiming's unbelief is so firm.This smile is like the child who shouted that the wolf has come, even if the wolf really came, no one would believe it.Then he lowered his head and asked Xiang Dan who was lying on the bed seriously: "Miss, do you know why I listen to that song repeatedly every day?"

"I don't know." Xiang Dan didn't take his arm off his forehead.

"That's a song she gave me."

"Oh? What song?" Xiang Nan suddenly asked in surprise.

"I absolutely can't lose you."

"Oh, my mother!" Luo Zhiming disgusted in pain.He is a rough man, and he can't stand such words, especially when a familiar person speaks so sincerely.

"In fact, when we were together, it was very clear that she was very rational. We didn't need to talk too much to understand each other. When I sent her to the car, she smiled at me, and I laughed too. Think about that feeling now It was uncomfortable. After we came back, we kept in touch every day. I kept persuading her to find a boyfriend and forgot about me. How many times I wanted to stop contacting her, but I couldn’t do it all the time. It’s just so unclear.” The more Xiang Ping spoke, the more painful he was, maintaining a poignant smile, and his tone was very slow and low.

"Why! If you like her, why aren't you together?" Xiang Nan had been changed by Xiang Ping's atmosphere, her voice was a little low.

"She is from Guangxi. The family conditions are very good. She is the only daughter. She has a stable job and a high salary. She can't come, and I can't go. I told her we..." Speaking of this, Xiang Ping stopped and looked His hair straightened, and his eyes were empty, only memories could be seen.Tears ran across the numb and smiling face, choked up and continued to smile lightly: "Because of reality. She said why didn't she have fun in time? While the feeling is still there. I don't know what to say. Anyway, she is here, I am very happy, but also very painful. But now I don’t contact her anymore, sometimes I really want to know how she is doing, but I think I shouldn’t ask.”

The atmosphere was so heavy that it was almost suffocating, Xiang Nan was crying with her head down, and Xiang Dan was still lying down, grabbing the tears that flowed into her ears.Luo Zhiming finally believed in Xiang Ping's tears. He looked at Xiang Ping's tears out of the corner of his eye and no longer felt irritable. He drank alone and began to quietly appreciate Xiang Ping's numb and smiling tears at the moment.

"In short. It's good. I haven't talked about my feelings for so many years. It's not that I don't want to say it. I can't even be sure of the meaning of telling you."

Xiang Ping combined Xuanzi, Chaoyang and First Love to tell a story that only he could understand.In the final analysis, it is still hindered by reality.These four words are the most profound summary of entering the gay field. He merged all the pain in his heart into tears.With his head down, tears trickled down his jaw.He thought that no one would see his quiet tears, as long as he didn't wipe them away, because he was always smiling.What's more, even though his tone was sad, he was smiling, even though the laugh was hoarse and bitter.

"It's over." Xiang Ping stood up easily and said.

Xiang Ping turned around immediately, turning away his face covered with tears.Turned around and went downstairs to the bathroom.It was itchy as the tears rolled across his face, but he didn't wipe it away, fearing that others would see his fragility.Wiping away tears with a towel in the bathroom, I listened to the discussions that gradually escalated.After adjusting for a while, looking at myself in the mirror feels very strange. I can’t tell which one is the real self, and I don’t know which one is smiling.Who is crying?He even made up a story that moved himself.He smiled at himself in the mirror, and returned to the wine table in a relaxed state.Answering everyone's questions one by one is very easy, and it is getting more and more false.Talk while drinking.

500 meters directly in front of Xiangnan's house is the edge of the Songhua River.The Forest Service has no shortage of wood, as can be seen from the log-covered dikes.Yellow paint stretches very long.The cold wind and desolation made it very quiet here.Xiang Ping stood at a fence at a [-]-degree angle, looking at the frozen river, and the ice surface could be seen in many places.There are winding cars on the ice.The wind was not strong, Xiang Ping's face had been frozen, and the [-]th line on his face looked very deep.The white mist exhaled covered the brim of the hat with a layer of frost.There was sad music playing in the earphones, combined with the sad environment, and because of the drunkenness the night before, my heart was empty, neither painful nor sad.Even if the hand is in the pocket, it has been frozen and hard, and it can't be controlled at all. No one cares about him on QQ, they are all busy celebrating the New Year and feeling lonely.Flip through the phone book to see friends who used to talk to each other and are now drifting away.In the years when the drinking table was drunk, the loyalty and firm vows once roared had long been corroded by time and became blurred.Now think about how simple the joys and sorrows were at that time.

Caller ID overwrote his contacts.

"Hello, big brother. Happy Chinese New Year." Xiang Ping quickly relaxed.

"Happy New Year. Where are you?"

"It's here with my second sister. It came yesterday."

"Oh. You went there, when will you go home?"

"Afternoon. What's the matter?"

The phone call completely broke the desolate mood, and I could clearly feel the cold and frozen parts.Xiangping got up and walked in the direction of going back.As he walked, he lit a cigarette awkwardly.

"There is really something."

"You said."

"I think. It's Chinese New Year. Gather my dad and the six old men and old ladies together. They are all old. If we don't get together again, we may not be in a hurry next year. I'll go to your aunt's while it's still full. She's in the middle, and it's not too far for your old uncle to drive your third uncle there."

"A good thing? I am too supportive. Brother, you are so handsome."

"Then you just support with your mouth?"

"Haha. I know you can't fit in a car, let's get out of the car! It must be fine."

"Then your dad..."

"You don't know him too well. He must be more active than me in this kind of thing. He can't find a chance to go for a walk?"

"I'm not talking about the car. The problem with the car is easy to solve. I want you to follow me?"

"Me! I'll forget it! I plan to open on the sixth day."

"You have to drive."

"It can't be done. The last time I drove, my dad almost smashed the car. Now I can't even touch it. My eyesight is bad. It's not that my dad can't drive. I can save a seat if I don't go."

"Then you have to go too."

"Why! So Togo is fine now, you have to tell me that something is fine."

"You just say it's okay! I won't take it with me when others want to go, so I'll take care of you."

"Let me think about it."

"No. I won't allow you to think about it. You have to go. I make things difficult for you once. You have to go if you go, or you have to go if you don't go. Fulfill one of the old man's wishes. Your mother misses your aunt too."

"Talk to my dad and I'll call you later."

After hanging up the phone, Xiang Ping imagined the scene of the party.Cry first and then laugh and then quarrel, in memory, they quarreled for a lifetime.The whole world will hum.The most frightening thing is that a group of sixty-seventy-year-olds will line up and shake hands and ask his personal questions excitedly.It would not be difficult to fight alone, but thinking about this kind of scene, Xiang Ping still shudders.