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Kong, all of them looked like desperate Saburo, but in fact they secretly prayed for Yan Xiaozuo in their hearts.Occasionally, Yang An or Yang Yi brought some major decisions to the hospital because there was really no other way.

Swaying and swaying, the wind warms up, the leaves turn green, the sky turns blue, and spring is here.In the early morning, the birds chirped, and the mild sunlight cast a golden halo through the glass.Xiang You has just finished wiping Yan Xiaozuo's body, and is moistening his lips with a cotton swab. The greenery outside the window is a kind of hope. The cotton swab is dipped in warm water and carefully traces the shape of Yan Xiaozuo's lips, slightly curled up, just like when he smiles nice.

As soon as he threw away the cotton swab, Xiang You saw his moist, soft and glossy lips move, and let out a small groan.Just like that, he forgot to move for a while, and then slowly opened those shiny and clean eyes, maybe because he had slept for too long, Yan Xiaozuo only opened a small slit.

But it was enough for him to see clearly who was beside him, that cold and indifferent man looked at him blankly at this moment, the tenderness in his eyes would soon drown him.

"Ah...right..." The hoarse voice was a bit stiff, but Yan Xiaozuo persisted in calling: "Ah...right..."

"En." The man's cold voice was very sentimental: "Good morning, my Zuo, welcome to wake up."

The man lay gently on his stomach with his arms propped up, his eyes flushed.Seeing Yan Xiaozuo felt extremely distressed, his eyes turned red unconsciously, he knew that this time he was really scared.

The gentle time only belongs to them, of course Xiang You is the happiest when Yan Xiaozuo wakes up, and the others are also happy, but they usually can’t get close to Yan Xiaozuo, because Xiang You has taken care of him since Yan Xiaozuo’s accident It's even tighter, and it's almost airtight.

☆, 95, I am so lucky...to have you by my side in this life.

"The doctor said that he recovered well during this time. I asked the family to cook some chicken soup with daylily and cordyceps. Drink some, huh?" Xiang You poured out the chicken soup in the thermos. The soup was rippling, and he patiently blew it cool.

The lights are cold, especially the lights in the hospital, but what shines on Xiang You is tenderness. Yan Xiaozuo can't get enough of Xiang You like this. How lucky is he to have him by his side in this life?

Buddhism often talks about karma, is it because he wasted in the previous life just to meet him in this life?Is all the suffering in this life just waiting for him alone?If it is, he will sincerely thank God for giving him these sufferings.

"What's the matter?" Xiang You raised his head to meet Yan Xiaozuo at this moment, his bright eyes seemed to be glued to him, and he was about to cry, so attractive.

"Ayou..." Yan Xiaozuo slightly parted his lips, "I'm so lucky...to have you by my side in this life."

Xiang You stopped blowing chicken soup, and said seriously: "Well, so you have to remember that you owe me this life, and you are not allowed to leave without my permission, and you are not allowed to die!"

Time seems to be frozen, Xiang You is obsessed with Yan Xiaozuo's answer, his eyes are as deep as ink and as secluded as the universe; Yan Xiaozuo is obsessed with Xiang You's seriousness, his eyes are as clear and clean as blue waves.

When Dad Xiang came here, he saw such a picture. The people on the hospital bed smiled and raised their heads, and the people under the hospital bed were concentrating. Even he couldn't bear to take it apart, that's all, for a lifetime, so many secular obsessions are not as good as an empty dream in the end, not as good as a look between them.

Turning around to leave, he thought he still had a lot of things to do, he heard that the child was an orphan and grew up in a temple, maybe he should find some time to go to Linshi.

The two people in the ward were feeding each other chicken soup sweetly. They didn't know that they had inadvertently been recognized by their family members. Inadvertently, their atmosphere was unbearable to break. Inadvertently, they made a promise to each other for a lifetime.

Fate in this world is so wonderful, cold as Xiang You would never have thought that he would pay attention to Yan Xiaozuo at the first meeting, and he has kept his affection ever since.Yan Xiaozuo would never have imagined that Xiang You would be attracted by Xiang You little by little during the encounter at the beginning. This serious and cold man has compiled a gentle network for him since the first meeting. .

☆, extra

Extra Story ([-])

The years are like broken jade mottled but gorgeous, this is a kind of heartbreaking beauty.It has been five years since he married Xiang You, Xiang You is now in his forties, and he is also forty, holding the case report given to him by Xiang's mother before she died, mild depression and logical autism, the name column of the medical certificate Xiang You is clearly written on it.

I have been alone since I was seven years old, and I have a strong logic. On the surface, I can't see any autistic tendencies at all. I can communicate with people around me without any problems, and I have no problems with everything.

But in fact, it is their logical thinking that manipulates his actions and emotions, not the secretion of hormones in the body.

In other words, his brain thinks they should cry, so they cry, thinks they should laugh, so they start laughing, everything seems to be acting, not from instinct.

Everything in the outside world doesn't matter to him, they look at all this with indifference, they will immerse themselves in the world they like, and then cover themselves with a disguised logic shell, so that others can't find their specialness.

Most importantly, this autism is shaped by acquired stimuli.

Yan Xiaozuo felt a dull pain in his heart one after another, he suddenly thought of Xiang You's anxiety and madness when he came back late, so stubborn and urgent.

Since he was a child, he had no joys, sorrows, sorrows or joys, but he frequently whispered in his ear that he wanted to stay. This was the conclusion he reached after rigorous logical thinking, and he felt that he was indispensable. He loved him so clumsily, but he It made him feel scared, and even made him, who never knew what tears were, cry for him again and again...

He would be immersed in his own world, covering himself with a layer of camouflaged logical shell, so everything found an exit, why he suddenly became anxious, and why he had such a strong possessive desire.

But... He obviously asked him to go out for a walk more to meet friends, but seeing that he was reluctant, he thoughtfully refused, but in fact he was not worried.I didn't expect it to be... like this.

Extra Story ([-])

Yan Xiaozuo got married a week after receiving the certificate, that is, a month after he was discharged from the hospital.It seemed that even God took pity on him. The sky that had been gloomy for several days turned clear on this day. The sky was clear and cloudless.

There was no bride but only the groom in this wedding. The two separated one day in advance. Yan Xiao left to live in Xiang's house, and Xiang You went back to their small home. Although he was very reluctant, Xiang You gritted his teeth and endured it for the sake of a good meaning for the two of them.

They met at the intersection on time at 10:30, and the two entered the arena with the bell at eleven o'clock. The most luxurious hotel in city A, the most important guests, the most delicious food, everyone beamed and sent the deepest blessings from the bottom of their hearts to the two newcomers.

At the gate, Xiang You and Yan Xiaozuo held big hands with small hands, also beaming with joy.The white suit is slender and moist, with a Chinese-style open front and vivid Suzhou embroidery, which perfectly sets off Yan Xiaozuo's clear spring-like temperament; on the other hand, Xiang right is tall and straight in a dark blue suit, with dark blue dark patterns embroidered with auspicious clouds and auspicious animals, far away. It doesn't look sober from a distance, but when it shines on the sun, the reflective silk thread makes the dark lines stand out, and it is also lifelike. The low-key luxury and Yan Xiaozuo complement each other.

Happy, smiling, complete.

Then Yan Xiaozuo put away his smile, ran towards the door with tears in his eyes, and hugged the old monk in Tsing Yi standing at the door.

"Master..."

Xiang You arrived later, even though he had already guessed it, he still couldn't help being surprised, the monk in front of him was really young, no, perhaps it would be more accurate to say that he had a childish face, but he had no hair, but he couldn't tell from his face that he was a boy. Teenage old man.

"Don't cry, don't cry, everything in the world has its own destiny, and all the sorrows and sorrows are like flowers and moons in the mirror. I hope you will not lose your heart and have a peaceful life. Now I just want to give you this. This is your baby. It's something today. Return to the original owner." The old monk took out a golden lock, some years old, the words on it were a little blurry, but Yan Xiaozuo could barely make out: "Er Qi Yan, Zuo will live the rest of his life."The font is not very pretty, it seems to be engraved by hand.

"Master..." Yan Xiaozuo held the golden lock with mixed feelings. He knew that he was an orphan, so he didn't know anything, so he didn't think about anything. Now he suddenly saw a golden lock, which may be the earnest teachings of his parents. , In an instant, the desire in my heart is extremely complex.

Xiang You wiped away Yan Xiaozuo's tears with distress, today is a good day for them, he should be happy.

Looking at the old monk, Xiang You's eyes were sharp: "I will take good care of him." The implication is that you can go.

As if he knew that Xiang You would do this, the old monk gave Yan Xiaozuo a loving look, then turned and left.Yan Xiaozuo wanted to call him back, but he heard the master's voice floating in the wind: "The fate of resentment, the illusion of dust, let him, let him..."

(three)

The secretary's room was gloomy again, because Yan Xiaozuo was recuperating at home, and the company was always working overtime. Xiang You became irritable when he didn't see Yan Xiaozuo. When he was irritable, only the members of the secretary's office were injured. The cutie drooped her head , There is no way, bear with it, be a man with your tail between your legs, who will let our dear boss not be here.

Yang Yi deeply felt the same way, let alone the secretary's office, even the entire Xiang family didn't know that Xiang You was just a cold-blooded dragon, and the air-conditioning and scolding could freeze a living person wholeheartedly.

He had no choice but to go to his brother for comfort.To say that during these bleak days, the only thing that made him happy was his brother's attitude. He no longer refused his approach, although he didn't intend to approach him, but as long as he didn't refuse, his brother could stand where he was Wait for him to approach him step by step.

It's a pity that the good times don't last long. Yang An often goes out recently, and eats lunch and dinner outside, as if he has made an appointment with someone.

Yang An went out again, and after an hour, Yang Yi found that he had forgotten a document, so he checked the time, the meeting was half an hour later, so he hurriedly checked the car and went home to pick it up.Passing by the commercial building, he happened to see Yang An walking out with a man talking and laughing. He recognized the man, who was the person in charge of the company he was negotiating with recently.

Yang Yi's face darkened, without saying a word, he opened the door and walked in front of Yang An, pulling Yang An away.

Suddenly meeting his younger brother Yang An was startled, and his face turned dark immediately, follow him!This is what he thinks at the moment.He was startled as soon as the thought came out, but the time and place were too coincidental, this thought made him uncomfortable, disgusted and angry like a bug with bones.

Naturally, the two had a big quarrel, and it didn't get better even when they returned to the company.Yang An was tired, so tired that he didn't want to worry about it.

"Get out! I don't want to see you again." Gritting his teeth, he yelled, and locked the door behind him, without seeing Yang Yi's dark and chaotic eyes.

Yan Xiaozuo happened to walk out of the elevator and witnessed this scene.Then he came to Yang Yi's side worriedly, these two people like to quarrel so much.

"Arguing again? Come, follow me." Seeing Yang Yi not moving, Yan Xiaozuo had no choice but to pull him away.There is no way, Yang Yi's current state is a bit scary, he dare not let him out.

After finally comforting him, seeing Yang Yi's complexion gradually recovering, Yan Xiaozuo closed the door, let Yang Yi have a good rest, and then walked to Yang An's office.

Knocking on Yang An's door, Yan Xiaozuo found that Yang An's expression was not very good.Dark and gloomy, with a depressed look.

"Where are you..." Yan Xiaozuo was quite heartbroken. After so many years of friends, these two people treated him as a relative, so why not? How could he not see the entanglement between them? The so-called onlookers can see clearly. It might be more thorough than them.

"It's useless to say anything, I won't appease this time." The cold words were filled with determination, which showed that he was really angry this time.

Yan Xiaozuo didn't speak, but laughed instead: "Hehe, forgive me..." His tone was thought-provoking.

Yang An ignored him, staring at the ants-like crowd and vehicles outside the window in a trance.

"Yang An, you are so ruthless, thanks to Yang Yi who endured you for so long, yes, you are tired, maybe Yang Yi is too, instead of being entangled in pain for a lifetime, why not take this opportunity to break up, anyway, you have nothing to do, please forgive me, congratulations You don't need to 'appease' in the future."

Yan Xiaozuo said it easily, but Yang An's face became more and more ugly.

"Can you tell me exactly what happened? I just happen to be free now, and I don't mind being a tree hole that goes in one ear and comes out the other."

The silence lasted for a long time, so long that when Yan Xiaozuo thought he would not speak, he spoke: "He followed me!"

Then there was no more to say, Yan Xiaozuo pushed the tea in front of Yang An: "And then?"

"Then?" Yang An looked at Yan Xiaozuo in confusion, what then? : "Then we came back."

Yan Xiaozuo was very helpful to the smart Yang An showing such a ignorant expression, so he kindly reminded: "Then... how do you know that he is following you?"

how do you know?Yang An frowned, guessing.But you can't say that, it will make him seem arbitrary and unreasonable.So he just kept silent.

"Is it because you take it for granted that he is following?"

Yang An shyly avoided his gaze: "But he didn't object."

"Then if he objects, is it useful?"

Yang An didn't speak.

"Can you tell me who you went out with?" Yan Xiaozuo's voice became soft.

"Who? He's not the person in charge of this phase of Haili's project, because there are some details to discuss, and I've been going out with him recently." He was on business, and Yang An became confident.

"That Chen Yao?" Yan Xiaozuo's face became weird. If he guessed right, that person was the one who couldn't take his eyes off Yang An when he saw Yang An. That person and Yang Yi were so cold that it was said that except for Yang An, the other escorts had to stay away from him.

"Ah."

"What do you think of him?"

"A very responsible person." Otherwise, why would he work day and night for a project.

"anything else?"

"Gone."

"Then do you know what he thinks of you?"

"What do you think of me? What do you mean?"

"He likes you." Yan Xiaozuo said succinctly: "Actually, I would rather use 'covet' to describe him than like you."

As if hearing the funniest joke in the world, Yang An waved his hand: "Stop joking, we are just a cooperative relationship."

"Hmm." Yan Xiaozuo patiently waited for him to finish laughing, his serious expression made Yang An unable to stop laughing: "Yang An, do I seem to be joking with you? Also, you are so smart, do you really not know what he thinks? Or, What are you running from?"

The sharp eyes were like a sharp sword cutting through the dusty darkness in his heart, Yang An was shocked: "I don't know what you are talking about."

"Don't know, or don't you want to know? Yang An, Yang Yi is a person, he will be sad and tired, don't you think your attitude of being close and far away is too hurtful? It gave him hope and made him feel tired." He is desperate..."

He got up and buttoned his jacket, took out a book from his briefcase and put it gently on the table, Yan Xiaozuo opened the door and walked out.

When Yan Xiaozuo walked away, Yang An picked up the book. It was a book about mental illness, and there was a big discount on page 81. Yang An saw some notes in it: "The meaning of neurasthenia is : 'A debilitating and hyperactive state of the central nervous system with secondary symptoms'"

"The main symptoms of neurasthenia are decreased abilities in all aspects and enhanced responses to various stimuli. Mental fatigue, sleep disturbance, inability to concentrate, weakened memory, and anxiety with a fearful nature. There is a morbid susceptibility."

"The definition of neurasthenia established at the Symposium on Neurosis in my country in 1985 pointed out that patients with this disease are easily excited and mentally fatigued, often accompanied by emotional troubles and some psychophysiological symptoms."

"Some scholars believe that the fatigue of people with neurasthenia is selective, that is, they are not easily fatigued when they are interested in emotional experiences, but they are prone to fatigue when they are not interested or have subconscious resistance. This is their characteristic."

"Emotional symptoms are mainly manifested as being easily annoyed and irritable. The content of annoyance often involves various contradictions in real life, and it is difficult to solve."

"On the other hand, the self-control is weakened, and you are easily agitated when encountering things; or you are irritable and irritable, lose your temper with family members, and feel regret afterwards; or you are prone to sadness and tears."

".Sleep disorders; & the most common is difficulty falling asleep, tossing and turning, resulting in restlessness and difficulty falling asleep."

The more Yang An looked at it, the more frightened he became. How could it be... But when he thought of Yang Yi, he felt a faint similarity.

Every time Yang Yi complained of insomnia in pain, he often joked that he was only sleeping when he was sleeping next to him, and he thought it was an excuse at that time.

Yang Yi can't say that he treats people badly, but he has a much more clear love and hate than usual, he shows very kindness to those he likes, and doesn't even give a look to those he doesn't like.

Yang Yi got angry several times, and his spirit was extraordinarily agitated. The bloodshot and crazy eyes made him terrified every time.

Yang Yi likes to hug him and say that they will be together forever.

When Yang Yi sees him with others, he becomes suspicious and manic, extremely excited and conflicted...

So much, so much, everything was figured out in an instant, Yang An was sad, ashamed and distressed, Yang Yi, you idiot!Then open the door and run out...

On the corridor in the afternoon, Yan Xiaozuo was lying comfortably in Xiangyou's arms, his head was lighting up every now and then.

"How do you know that Yang Yi also has mental problems?" Xiang You's voice was soft, and he kissed Yan Xiao's left forehead, as long as he was by his side, he was a normal and gentle man.

"Well, it's not that I know, it's just a guess. It just happened that I was reading that kind of book those few days, and then..." Yan Xiaozuo peeked at Xiang You, and felt relieved when he found that he didn't feel disgusted.

"Then how did you guess?" Xiang You was curious.

"That's it," Yan Xiaozuo blinked his eyes playfully, "It's not that simple, it's normal for people to have some mental illness, Yang Yi can fall in love with his own brother, and chase after him for so many years, no one will believe him if he is not sick. "

"Hehe..." Xiang You smiled lowly: "You're so smart, my Zuo is just amazing."

"That is……"

"Then, may I ask the smart baby Zuo, do you know what Ah You is thinking right now?"

Yan Xiaozuo thought about it seriously, and leaning against his chest, he said: "According to my inference, you are agitated and restless, you should go...to take a cold shower." After speaking, he got up and fled.

But they were pinched by Xiang You's iron arm, the two of them kissed skin to skin, the fiery kiss fell, and the teeth lingered between Yan Xiao's left lips: "Well, Ah Zuo is really smart, and I guessed it right again..."