Ai Ruo's life in the red mansion

Ai Ruo only felt very painful. She was shot, and there was another small-scale conflict between the government army and the rebels.The team of Doctors Without Borders, where she was, rushed to rescue people.Even if the rebels and the government army had an agreement with them, but as the old saying goes, a sword has no eyes, and Ai Ruo was the unlucky one, a stray bullet ran out of nowhere and hit her.

Dare to become Doctors Without Borders, Ai Ruo is the one who is not afraid of death.I have thought about suicide countless times, wanting to reunite with my relatives in heaven.Now it's finally here.At least, according to the Catholic doctrine, she did not commit suicide, she died well.After she dies, she can go to heaven and be with her husband and daughter.

"Second Grandma, you're about to give birth, please try harder." A strange voice came from beside her.

Ai Ruoben felt a coolness in his heart, silently waiting for the moment when he was called by the Lord.But such a voice came from her ear, which woke her up with fright.Open your eyes hard.She saw a woman in her forties in an ancient costume saying something to her. She was terrified and suddenly felt her stomach drop. This is the feeling of giving birth. She gave birth to her daughter in a normal delivery, and she is very familiar with this feeling.

She was originally a specialist in obstetrics and gynecology. She instinctively adjusted her breathing, matched the frequency of labor pains, clenched her teeth, and exerted a sharp force. There was a sharp pain below, but her stomach relaxed.Finally, she heard the baby cry.She heard cheers in the delivery room, and various voices, but they had nothing to do with her, and she fainted again.Before fainting, I was still thinking, why is she here?

In the dream, she saw many things, such as the gorgeous pavilion garden, she was like a bystander, seeing a delicate young girl, living her leisurely time leisurely; soon, the scene changed to the young girl going out as a guest, a gorgeous girl Looking at her with supercilious eyes and ten miles of red makeup, she saw the girl's full of expectation and fear; and when she lifted the hijab, a handsome boy stood in front of her, the girl's heartbeat and joy; The girl who once gave her supercilious eyes appeared in her dreams from time to time; there was also a middle-aged woman who always had a proud smile on her face when she looked at the girl, but when she looked at her, she was all picky.She had no one to tell, and when she wanted to talk to her husband, the husband walked away in a huff.She was alone in the big empty room, weeping silently; the light and shadow changed, and she watched from a distance sitting beside the middle-aged woman, a very beautiful little boy, who wanted to approach but dared not...

Ai Ruo finally woke up again, her whole body felt sore, and there was still a strange smell in the room.Opening her eyes, she noticed that she was no longer in the delivery room.This should be the room of the woman in the dream.

Beautiful Ming-style furniture. Ai Ruo's husband is an enthusiast of hardwood furniture. Although they don't have much money to collect, they often go to the exhibition together.They will also go online to collect information if nothing happens, euphemistically saying, 'Love is not necessary to have. '

Therefore, she more or less understood.Judging from the wood materials and style, they should all be made in Soviet Union.But it is pasted with treasures, which is too rich, but it feels a bit different, and it seems that the owner is not tasteful enough.

Let go of the evaluation of the furniture, Ai Ruo is a little dazed, why is this so?Obviously she should be in Kenya.At this time, she should be seriously injured, waiting for the rescue of the helicopter, but she is an obstetrician and gynecologist. After joining Doctors Without Borders, she added a pediatric department.But she has practiced medicine for so many years, she still knows what kind of injury will be fatal.She knew very well that even if the helicopter came, she would not survive.

Little did she know that when she woke up, she became an ancient woman.By the way, who is she?In the dream there was only pictures but no sound, how could I be here?Gently raised his head to touch his own face.It immediately attracted the attention of people around.

"Second Grandma, are you awake?" A fifteen or sixteen-year-old girl who looked a little naive, naturally had her name in her mind, which was auspicious.Although she didn't know why, she still decided to keep calm. When everything is unknown, calm is the only way.

"Water." Ai Ruo whispered.Even if I know the girl's name, I don't know which dynasty is which generation at this time, and I'm afraid I may make too many mistakes.That's not right, at least, judging from the furniture, she is after Ming.But judging from the clothes of the old lady in the delivery room and Jixiang, they are a bit different.It is neither like Ming nor Qing, but it feels like a mix and match of later generations.

"Yes, Mrs. Gang asked for some rose water to be mixed with the second grandma. She said that it is best to drink after giving birth." Ji Xiang went down with a happy face, and quickly served the rose water mixed with warm water.Putting it on the small table next to her, he gently supported Ai Ruo, put a pillow on her back, and then fed her rose water to drink.

Roses have the effects of regulating menstruation and nourishing blood, and are beneficial for postpartum lochia removal.Ai Ruo knew that the ancients knew how to maintain their health, but not everyone could afford it. It can be seen that the place she came to was a noble family.

"Where's the child?" Ai Ruo drank a few sips to get rid of the bloody smell in his mouth, and then looked at the room through the dim light.There were no cradles, and apparently there was no rule at this time for children to be in the same room as their mother.But it should not be too far away, how can I say, she also suffered a lot of pain just now, so she should care about it, so she thought about it and asked.

"..." Ji Xiang's hands trembled slightly, his expression embarrassed.

"Is Second Mistress awake?" A woman dressed as a woman in her twenties came in.Judging by the color of the clothes, it seems to be in charge.When he got closer, "Zhou Rui's family" flashed in Ai Ruo's mind.Ai Ruo felt a bit chilly, Zhou Rui's family, it couldn't be such a coincidence, could it?

As if being pardoned, Jixiang immediately shouted joyfully, "Sister Zhou came just in time, and the second grandma is asking the girl."

"No rules, be careful not to spill Second Grandma all over." Zhou Rui's family gave her a glare, took the tea bowl, turned to Ai Ruo and smiled, "The girl is very lucky, born on the first day of the new year, the master and wife are happy It seems that there must be a history. The tonic was rewarded like flowing water. The eldest sister was even more delighted. I was afraid that the servants would not serve me well, so my wife took it back. Second Mistress can rest assured. Gai'er is confinement tomorrow, and you can see my sister in the wife's room, she must be fat and white."

After all, Ai Ruo is also a person who is running for four, and she can still hear what she said. Seeing that she said it lively, she actually meant the same thing. Her real mother-in-law took her newborn daughter away.These days, a daughter-in-law really has no human rights.The mother-in-law can hug her whenever she wants, without asking her daughter-in-law if she agrees.It's like a kindness, so grand.

Ai Ruo sneered in her heart. Her mother-in-law in the 21st century was very kind. No matter how much she liked her granddaughter, she never mentioned letting her live there. Even if she came to see her granddaughter, she had to call her first. come again.On the contrary, Ai Ruo often felt embarrassed, and took the child back to her parents-in-law's house on weekends to show it to the elderly.

This world is based on the principle of "people respect me a foot, and I respect others".She pushed the deity's body, and she couldn't commit suicide and die again. She should think about her own future. She didn't know if the deity would like to be bullied by her mother-in-law like this, but she didn't anyway.

A girl who was born in the first year of the new year, and there is a Zhou Rui's family next to her. Ai Ruo feels that she already understands who her real self is now.But she is still unwilling, she can't be so unlucky, can she?

Zhou Rui's family looked at Ai Ruo's face, waved his hand, and Jixiang retreated silently.The gatekeeper of Zhou Rui's house lowered the curtain, then put down the bowl, gently held Ai Ruo's hand, and said in a low voice, "Second Grandma, she's still in confinement."

Ai Ruo glanced at her, regardless of the subtext of the person in front of her, what she urgently needs now is time.She needs to calm down and think about what is going on.With a sullen face, he turned his head to take the bowl, drank the rose water in one gulp, opened the big pillow, and closed his eyes facing the wall.

She felt Zhou Rui's family get up, but she couldn't hear footsteps. After a while, she felt the wind coming in through the curtain.I have to say that they have been trained to walk, and they can't bring wind or make noise. Even if they are all covered with soft cloth at this time, it is still difficult to make no sound at all.Sure enough, it is the rules of the big family written in the book.

Close your eyes and let your mind go empty. Sometimes your husband and Xuan's smiles appear, and sometimes your daughter rushes to call her mother.

Ai Ruo grew up in a very happy middle-class family. She was loved by her parents since she was a child, and she is optimistic and positive by nature.I met a senior from the same school in college and got married after graduation.Together, she started as a resident doctor in the hospital, and when her life became stable, she gave birth to a very beautiful daughter. The couple love each other like the apple of their eye, and she seems to laugh out loud at the thought of her daughter.

The hospital sent her to attend an academic conference, and the husband said that he had nothing serious to do recently, so he simply took his daughter on vacation and joined them after she finished the conference.The itinerary was very well arranged, Ai Ruo went to the meeting happily, and her husband also took her daughter to the resort for the first time.

As a result, the plane crashed, and the husband and daughter never came back.She was completely dumbfounded when she received the news, she couldn't accept this fact at all, she kept blaming herself, she shouldn't have let them go, if they hadn't let them go, this kind of thing wouldn't have happened.She also blamed herself, why didn't she push the academic meeting, if she was with them, at least they could be together.

During those six months, her spirit completely collapsed, she couldn't go to work, couldn't talk, and cried bitterly at home looking at the photos of her husband and children.In the end, her mutual friend with her husband pulled her out of the house and made an appointment with a psychiatrist for her.Take her to church.

The pastor told her that she could not commit suicide because she would not be able to enter heaven and be reunited with her husband and daughter.Instead, she will fall into hell and make her husband and daughter worry about her.The psychiatrist's words moved her more than the pastor's words, and she became sober all of a sudden, she couldn't commit suicide, she had to live, and waited for the day when she would be reunited with them.

After another half a year, she finally went back to work.The friend handed her an MSF application form.She thought about it for two days, and finally decided to go with her friends. At least, there were really many people who needed them there.

After several years of experience with MSF, she really realized that what she experienced is actually happening every day to the people here.Even, they don't know if they are still living in this world at the next moment.Slowly she began to let go, her husband and daughter were watching her in the sky!They want her to live, they want her not to give up.

She knew she couldn't give up, but when the bullet hit her, she saw the wound, and she really laughed, she didn't give up, it was just a coincidence, but could she really go to them?Why not let her go to them?Obviously she also encountered an accident?Why let her go to this indifferent place?

Thinking of the smiling faces of her husband and daughter, she couldn't bear to forget. Why did it end when she was obviously very happy?She was slowly letting go of the accident of her husband and daughter. Every time she thought of them, she no longer burst into tears. She began to open it up carefully. Every memory in her heart was like a very hungry person. I got a small piece of candy, but I was reluctant to swallow it in one gulp. I would only take it out to have a look at it from time to time. After a long time, I would lick it lightly, enjoying the sweetness for a moment, and preparing for a longer support.

And just now, from her dream just now, she could feel the unhappiness of her real body. She has a husband and children, but she is lonely, cold, and helpless.So when she just gave birth, she gave up, she gave up her life, and she wanted to give up the life of her child.In fact, she should have known a long time ago that it is useless for her to give birth, because it is simply not her turn to hold the child?Why let her come to a place where even the deity can't stay?

Now she's in this place, she's another man's wife, she just gave birth to a daughter, and she's taken away without even seeing her.She can't even make an expression when she is angry. Is God going to punish her?Tears fell silently and soaked into the pillow.