back to 20 years old

The summer vacation is coming soon, there are often exams in the last two weeks, and there are very few opportunities for me to meet Haoran.We are like when Tomoko didn’t show up, dating, seeing each other, texting and calling every day, on the days when Tomoko wasn’t in sight, I even forgot that she was by Haoran’s side.

An unfamiliar number sent me a text message. I thought it was another advertising text message and deleted it after reading it.

Hello Shenyue, I am Tomoko Shinyu, do you have time tomorrow afternoon?can we chat

Me: I have an exam tomorrow afternoon, if you don't mind after 4 o'clock, can it be?

Okay, how about a Starbucks across from your school?

Me: OK, see you tomorrow at 4 pm.

see you tomorrow!

The next afternoon, I arrived at Starbucks on time.

As soon as I entered the door, I saw a girl with a blue hair tie pointing at me.

I walked to the seat opposite her and sat down, "Sorry I'm late."

She shook her head and said, "I just arrived too. I'll treat you to drink."

I saw a cup of coffee in front of her and said, "No, I'll buy it myself, what else do you want to drink?"

"No, thank you!"

Soon I bought green tea and sat opposite her.Forgive me for drinking green tea in the coffee shop. The coffee is really delicious, but I get angry easily when I drink coffee. My physique really does not allow me to drink coffee during the final exam.

After we were all silent for a while, I said, "Did you come to me for something?"

"I know Haoran likes you. She told me on the first day we met, and said that the person she loves now is you."

I saw that she didn't speak. With such a straightforward opening statement, it seems that she came here today well prepared.

"I've been with Haoran for three years, but you've only been with her for less than a year, right? Which relationship do you think is stronger between three years and one year?"

"Emotions can't be measured by the length of time." Is she provoking me.

"I came back this time for Haoran, and I want to start over with her."

"If Haoran is willing to start again with you, I will bless you both."

"As long as you leave, she will come back to me. We will listen to her playing the piano, singing, dancing, drawing and reading as before."

"If Haoran chooses you in the end, I am willing to leave." I looked at her firmly.

"When I left her five years ago, my parents brought me back to Japan and asked me to marry a man I didn't love at all. But during these five years, there was never a day when I didn't miss Haoran, and there was never a day when I didn't miss If I can return to her side, no matter how well she is doing or not, I will be by her side."

Tomoko talked about her experience in Japan. I looked at Tomoko in front of me. People who learn dance are really different. She has an elegant sitting posture, Hepburn-like temperament, sexy red lips, and her gestures are so noble and graceful. She is like a princess. sitting across from me, and I just feel like a schoolboy.

After she took a sip of coffee, she continued, "It took me five years to divorce that man, and five years to get rid of my family. That man is a powerful figure in Japan. When he was happy, he would He coaxed me, beat me when he was upset, and threatened me with my daughter's life to stay by his side."

The bruises I had seen appeared on her face again, she paused and continued, "Because of the failure of the business, he became addicted to drugs, he used all his family savings to buy drugs, and he sold the company for drugs. He sold our house and car for drugs, and borrowed a lot of usury. I don't know how he knew that the person I always loved was a woman. He couldn't stand losing to a woman. He humiliated these He took it out on me more and more. He humiliated me in different ways every day."

As I said this, I saw tears welling up in Tomoko's eyes.

I felt like I was listening to a bible, and I wondered if what the girl on the other side said was true or not?But the tears in her eyes can't lie, such a small body has to bear such a big pain, how did she get over it?

She asked me, "Do you know what is the courage that keeps me alive?" She asked herself and said, "It is Haoran. It is the beauty that Haoran once brought to me, and the love that Haoran once brought to me. I cannot live without her." , I can't leave her, if she doesn't love me, if she leaves me, I will die, just like a fish without water. Shen Yue, give Haoran back to me. You have many people besides Haoran Love, but I only love Haoran, I have loved her for 8 years, I have been looking forward to her for 8 years, now I can finally be with her, without any resistance, I am finally free now, I can completely belong to her, I want to be with her."

Tomoko was crying, she was crying and asked me to return Haoran to her.She looked at me with tears in her eyes and waited for my answer, what should I do?Looking into her eyes, I thought of Xiaoxiao. Xiaoxiao also looked at me like this when she said she wanted to be with Big V. They were all looking forward to my blessing.

But Haoran told me to accompany her to face it together, and she wanted me to accompany her.

I can't leave Haoran, I can't leave her anymore, I want to be with her, want to be with her.

I'm sorry Tomoko, I'm really sorry, please forgive my selfishness!