Stand by me

(35)

"What are you thinking about?" Ryosuke Yamada bumped him with an elbow, "Your expression is scary right now."

"It's nothing." Nakajima Yuxiang pretended to smile relaxedly, but the depression in his eyes deepened. "Liangjie, do you still remember what you told me about your dream after school in the second year of high school?" He recited it, "In the future, you want to go to a place where no one knows you, and do what you want Anything. Remember?"

"Yeah." Ryosuke Yamada nodded, a little sad for the unfinished business, "Thinking about it now, it seems impossible to achieve."

"My dream is the same. I never thought that one day I would leave Tokyo and my pink and white house, but now there is a Pacific Ocean between me and it." The sadness in Yuxiang Nakajima's voice spread freely, "Maybe dreams should be realized by friends around you. No matter how beautiful your imagination is, it always backfires."

"Then let's face the reality together. Although it may not always be satisfactory, as long as we work hard, we will definitely find something we can do." Yamada Ryosuke hurriedly held his hand and said.Yamada Ryosuke likes Nakajima Yuxiang's high-spirited look, and can't see him being so depressed.

Yuxiang Nakajima smiled wryly in his heart. How should he accept the facts so that he can treat Yamada as a real brother and watch him fall in love with other men?He hated it, hated it.What he wants to know is if the damn thing in the newspaper is true, did that person do everything for him in Yamada's sweet dreams?Would his stroking make Yamada lose all pretense?Yuxiang Nakajima felt the temperature of Ryosuke Yamada covering his hands. What scented hand cream did they use as lubricating oil?Is it peachy, or grapefruit?

Finally he waved Ryosuke Yamada's hand unbearably, stood up, took a deep breath and said, "I've decided to stay in Paris, and I don't plan to go back to Tokyo for the time being, please take care of me and take care of Dad, I... I wish you happiness." If Ryosuke Yamada was going to get himself back, it would be by throwing away the best thing he had right now.So forget it, why be so unreasonable and forceful.

Yamada Ryosuke also stood up quickly.Nakajima Yuxiang looked down at him, only to see that his face had completely lost all color.

"Is this your decision? Is this what you want to tell me?" Yamada Ryosuke said tremblingly, "Okay, I understand...I still have things to do, excuse me first."

After finishing speaking, he turned his back to Nakajima Yuxiang, strode to the entrance, his back looked like a gentle and lovely child, and he looked so lonely.His mood fluctuated so much that he almost wore Yuxiang Nakajima's leather shoes by mistake.

Nakajima Yuxiang quickly wrapped the remaining half box of pizza, put it in a paper bag and handed it to him. "Take it back, and have it as a supper with your colleagues." Nakajima Yuxiang silently prayed in his heart that God bless Yamada to accept it. Does it mean that he can't even be a friend?

"I don't want it." Yamada Ryosuke turned his head, his eyes were red, and his moist pupils seemed to be telling something, burning with turbulent flames, "You will not give me what I really want, you are always like this Look, selfish fellow."

Nakajima Yuxiang seemed to be pulled by something, trying to walk towards him step by step, but the door was closed.Nakajima Yuxiang gritted his teeth, not letting himself chase out.The emotions in his chest were complex and intense, and they couldn't be restrained from gushing out, and there was nothing he could do about it.

Yamada has another lover, but somehow he still loves him.

At the Caesars Empire Hotel at seven in the evening, in the room where the crystal chandelier was shining, Arioka Daiki slammed on the bathroom door and urged, "Hey! Ryosuke, come out quickly! You can't do this to me! Didn't I already hand in the manuscript on time?" You've been soaking for two hours, and I have a date tonight! Come out!" He made an appointment at a restaurant called "Rainbow" near the bridge, where the foie gras is a top-notch delicacy, and he wants to have a date with his girlfriend Shiori enjoyed herself enough there, asked the waiter to bring her favorite hydrangea bouquet, and drank a few glasses of sweet white wine together.

There was no answer from inside, Daiki Arioka slapped the door, and shouted again, suddenly his heart skipped a beat, and he hurriedly opened the door and went in.His eyes softened instantly, and he breathed a sigh of relief.Ryosuke Yamada was soaking in the bathtub in a daze.Arioka Daiki turned on the switch of the nozzle and poured water on his head.

"Huh?" Yamada Ryosuke finally came back to his senses, turned off the nozzle, frowned and said, "Miyako, what are you doing? Why did you come in?"

"You think you are a goldfish, you can sleep in the water with your eyes open, how long have you been taking this bath?" Arioka Daiki squatted beside him, "Hey, Ryosuke, are you okay? You see your friends When I came back, my mood was not right."

Yamada Ryosuke leaned shallowly on the bathtub, looking at the white and fine foam in the water, trying to distract himself.The harder he tried, the memories of those years flooded his mind like a flood, all related to Yuxiang Nakajima.

"Dai-chan, he won't come back again, I can't help it." Daiki Arioka watched in panic as Yamada Ryosuke suddenly collapsed and cried bitterly, and buried his face in the foam.Everyone in the editorial department has seen Ryosuke Yamada in various emotions, but no one has seen him cry.Arioka Daiki became furious, towards that old friend of Yamada whom he had never met.Yamada Ryosuke pointed at the door to signal him to leave: "I'm sorry, I'll go out in a while..." Arioka Daiki left the door open, and stood outside the door with a sad face. When the door opened, Yamada Ryosuke would return to his normal expression The face of a professional reporter who is never influenced by emotion, this made him feel uneasy.