你 是 我 的 梦

Today is the last day of my business trip in Beijing.In fact, when I got up, I thought about whether to take Chen Meng out for a stroll. Before coming here, she said that she wanted to have fun in Beijing, and I also acquiesced in her thoughts.Who knew it would become such an embarrassing situation now.

But feelings are a mess, if you decide to give up, you have to be more decisive, procrastination will only make your [injury] more and more serious.If you pick it up again by yourself, everything after that will be a mess, not just a word [random].

forget it!Why bother to make yourself more embarrassed!Sometimes it's good to take a step back.

Facts have proved: People really can’t live without someone, and good things are still good in the heart.So, let yourself let her go!

Afterwards, the relationship with her will be reversed.

When I sat down and was about to check the materials again for the final finishing work of the day, the doorbell rang, and I put the materials back.

I approached the door and saw from the cat's eyes that it was Chen Meng.

What does she want from me?Don't you wait for my call every day at work?

well!Think too much!She can't be allowed to come to me except for work!

I opened the door and stood there, not intending to let her in. "Chen Meng, what's the matter?"

"Xiao Han, can we sit down and talk?" It can be seen that she is very careful when she speaks, just like my words have not changed as much as when I talked to her before.

"Okay, come in." I stepped aside to open the door and turned to pour tea.

There are many things that cannot be solved by escaping. Now that things have come to you, let's face them bravely!

She came in and closed the door behind her, walked to a chair near the door and sat down.

The whole person seemed a little cautious, the things to say should be very important!

"Drinking tea can warm your hands." I handed her two cups of tea in my hands, and she took them with both hands.

"Thank you!"

I sat across from her with my own cup of tea.

I saw her hands holding the teacup were trembling slightly, what happened to her?I got sick?

"Chen Meng, are you okay?"

Whether I admit it or not, I still care about her.Then if you don't want to care about a person, you don't care!Even if there was, that person would not include me.

"I'm fine, I'm just a little cold..."

Fortunately, not sick.

"Oh! I'm going to turn up the heat. Get my coat and put it on for you."

I got up to get the remote control of the air conditioner. As soon as I got the remote control of the air conditioner, I couldn't move the whole person. . .

"Chen Meng, do you know what you are doing?"

Chen Meng hugged me tightly from behind, I couldn't see her expression, but I could feel her emotion was very excited.If I don't calm down at this time, I really don't know what will happen later. .

I don't know what she thinks, but it seems that it takes a lot of courage for a woman to hug a woman, no matter what the reason is, just like it took a lot of courage when I wanted to hold her hand.So my emotion of wondering why got the better of me.

"Xiao Han, you said that we are good friends. But why are you so alienated from me now?"

For the first time, I found that she was like a resentful woman when she spoke softly, which made people feel that she was the heartbroken.I can't help but laugh in my heart.

"We're still good friends and that won't change."

Yes, although I decided not to love her, but I can definitely be good friends again, it's only a matter of time.

"You lied. You used to be a good friend who was so kind to me that you talked about everything and cared about everything, but now you are still a good friend who ignores me. Tell me, let you choose which good friend you want?"

original!

It turns out that you, like me, are looking for a piece of warmth, looking for a meter of sunshine in this cold city.They are all looking for someone to treat themselves well. . . .

Originally, I thought I loved her, but now, her words made me understand: it turns out that my love is also full of distracting thoughts.It's just that I haven't thought about it.

"You let go of your hand, let's sit and talk?"

Does this woman have abusive tendencies?This hand is getting tighter and tighter.

"Don't let it go, if you let it go, you will ignore me again!"

It takes a lot of childishness to say that.

"Hey! I promise to stay and have a good talk with you, and I will never run away." I have always been an honest [spokesperson], and some people don't believe me~~

"Don't let it go!"

Still excited! !If I hug you so tightly and still hold on to you, are you sure you won't pay attention to me with your high heels?

What a big head!Is this an unreasonable woman?

Well, wrapped myself in again.

"Shall I swear?"

Trick.

She didn't speak after listening, and then gradually let go of her hand and retracted it.I turned and looked at her.

She lowered her head.

Do you still know how to be shy?Why weren't you shy when you hugged me so boldly just now? ?

God!my arm!Did this woman put all her energy into breastfeeding?Fortunately, the weather was cold and I wore more clothes, otherwise I would have two red marks on my arms and I would not be able to see anyone.

I walked to the chair and sat on it first, and she came over and sat on the chair opposite me.

Are silent.

You can't just keep talking!This impasse must be broken.I am a lady and I take the initiative.

A flock of crows flew by. . . .

"Chen Meng."

"Ok?"

"I promise you, we'll always be good friends."

Chen Meng finally withdrew all her attention, looked at me and asked seriously: "Same as before?"

"There may be some differences."

Don't want to lie to her.

In the realm of love, I feel like telling a little fib is about adding some spice to life.But I decided not to love her before she came, and she was out of my range.

"for example?"

"For example, we won't talk about everything like before."

"Another example?"

"For another example, apart from work in the future, I shouldn't go to you often."

"Then tell me, what's the difference between good friends like us and ordinary friends?"

Making her so charming is really not what I want to see.

"You can still ask me what you don't understand at work. If you have any difficulties, just let me know and I will definitely help you."

"Xiao Han, you know, this is not what I want to talk to you this time."

Seeing her getting excited, what can I do?Do I have to tell her: I decided not to love you before you came in to find me?

How hurtful that must be! ! !

"Then let's be ordinary friends!"

I clearly know that what I want to find is a true love. If I already understand that I have distracting thoughts about her love, and I forcefully stay together, then not only I will be hurt, but she will also be hurt.

"you..."

I really don't want to see her resentful eyes.

I check my watch.Tell her very seriously.

"There are still 10 minutes to go to meet with Mr. Xu. You go to adjust your emotions first, and I will look at the documents."

"Xiao Han?"

She's such a tune, I can't think about it. .

She came up to me and took my hand.She is. . .

"Ah."

It won't be saying goodbye to me, telling me to take care, and saying that I am leaving. . .

That's how it's done in movies! !

"I know you like me, I've always known it. Now, let's give each other a chance, let's try dating, okay?" She said calmly.

Is it worth making such a decision for a warmth? ?

In fact, I also regret myself now. If I have the courage of her, and take another step forward regardless of everything after finding out that she has a boyfriend, then the confession ushered in at this moment can really be used [Excited] [Tears flow Full face] and so on a lot of idioms to describe my mood at the moment.

But there is no if, no if, no regret medicine.

At this moment, I was as calm as she was.Because we are all too sober at the moment, we all clearly know that what we are looking for in each other is the same thing.

"Don't you have a boyfriend?"

Now that it's all like this, if there is anything hard to say, she doubts that I haven't asked her all the time, so she won't tell me.

"How did you know?"

She will still be shocked by this question? ?

well!How dare she ask such a question? ?

I'm not short-sighted, a man and a woman are kissing each other tens of meters away from me, can I not see?Even if you are nearsighted, you should be able to see it!

I called you early in the morning, and a man answered your call. It's hard not to know. . . .

"That is, you admit it?"

"Yes, he is my current boyfriend. When I first came to this place, I was not familiar with the place. So, when he pursued me, I agreed. "

Seeing her [courage is commendable] finish her speech, what should I say?

Could it be that you are not wrong, if I encounter such a thing, I will make the same choice.

stop!I definitely won't.

"Then you want to be with me, does he know?"

"he does not know..."

"Then do you know what your behavior is now?"

She spoke quickly as she was afraid that I would regret it. "I will break up with him."

"When?"

"You have to give me time. At least he took care of me when I was alone..."

Chen Meng, why lie to me again?

Your eyes have betrayed your words.

"Chenmeng, in fact, besides being abnormal in front of people I care about, you have also seen it in the past few days. I am good at negotiating. Will tolerate my own indecision.

Maybe I really care about you, so I don't want you to make a regretful choice.After all, two women have to face a lot of gossip when they are together.

You go back and think about it, and I will think about it again.Let's sit down and talk next time.Now I will try my best to get along with you as before. If you still persist by then, we can discuss a satisfactory answer.what do you think? "

In fact, I wanted to say some decisive words to dispel her thoughts, but I couldn't.

To be honest, we can't be together, but I will try my best to treat her as a good friend.

A woman's heart, a needle in the bottom of the sea, I'm afraid that after my rejection, she will do something earth-shattering and weeping ghosts and gods.

At that time, even if you can't save a life with even the most precious things, then you are committing a crime.

well!What should I do if she really just wants to be with me then?

let it go!

Chen Mengyue hesitated for a few seconds, then let go of my hand and agreed, "Okay."

"Okay. We only have 10 minutes now. You go back and bring the materials I asked you to prepare. We have to go."

"Ah."

Chen Meng turned and left, and I took out the information I put in the bag to check and confirm again, just in case nothing was lost.This is a working habit developed over the years.

Regarding Chen Meng, it is undeniable that I loved her.So I want to go after her desperately, even if only those who wear gold and thorns can get close to her.

Although this relationship is very short and short, it is as short as a flash in the pan.

But that process really existed, I loved that person with my heart, that person really walked into my heart, and that period of memory is happy.

It turned out like this, not what I expected, but it was the end result.

Why did you decide to give up this love now?

Maybe it has something to do with my decisive personality. I am always indecisive in emotions, but I am more decisive in my heart, and the decisions I made are difficult to change.

Maybe I saw her with other men and realized that she didn't like women.

Maybe it was because she found out that she had been cheating on me. She knew that I was pursuing her all along, and she responded to me, but she never told me that he had a boyfriend.

Maybe it's just that I can't accept sharing her love with a man.

Maybe it's because I have too much self-esteem like a man, and I don't want to accept a woman who has hurt me again.

Maybe it was her words that reminded me that my feelings for her are not pure love, apart from looking for warmth, it should be a kind of [mother complex].In fact, I just found the shadow of my mother in her. Her gentleness, her smile, her heartiness, her character of never giving up, and her voice are all so similar to my mother.It was deeply imprinted in my mind by my mother during the past twenty years, and it cannot be erased.So when I saw her for the first time, I felt a sense of familiarity, I wanted to keep getting close to her, I wanted to talk to her, and I wanted to be with her forever.

Maybe. . .

Maybe. . . .

Maybe there is someone deep in my heart, someone I have been unwilling to admit, the one who has been silently guarding me? ? ?