No.30 Eight Lovers

Confused by the appearance of the person in front of him, Luhan could only feel the warmth of Park Chanyeol on his face, "Are you lying to me too?"

"Lulu..." Park Chanyeol frowned.

"They all say they like me, but no one really puts me in their hearts." Lu Han smiled feebly, "I have nothing left, and I'm not afraid of being deceived by you..."

"I didn't want to lie to you." Withdrawing his hand, Park Chanyeol got up and closed the window. Standing at the window, Park Chanyeol smiled brightly, "I have everything, and I just want to be with you."

"I don't need company."

"I need it!" Pointing to the kapok tree outside the window, Park Chanyeol grinned, "For example, accompany me to watch the flowers bloom. If you want" to go to Luhan's side, Park Chanyeol quickly kissed Luhan's pale lips "Stay with me forever Bar!"

Seeing Park Chanyeol blinking his beautiful big eyes, cheerful and lively like a little sun, Luhan watched quietly.

"Don't you want to?" Park Chanyeol lowered his head in frustration, "It's so sad."

After a few times, Luhan knows that Park Chanyeol sometimes looks silly, but he is actually smarter than anyone else.Sometimes he is blunt, sometimes he is very childish, it is Park Chanyeol making himself happy.

learn from mistakes.No matter how stupid you are, you will remember the pain once, and no matter how stubborn you are, you will learn to behave after being injured a few times.As smart as Luhan, as stubborn as Luhan, he is also indifferent. He was caught off guard by the unprecedented blow to love and trust.

"Where's Wu Sehun?" Luhan asked softly in a hoarse voice, "He and Bai... and Bian Baekhyun are lovers, right? I'm really stupid, so many people always mention Bian Baekhyun's name to me , but I never doubted it."

"Let him fade out of your life, that kind of person is not worth your pain!"

"I don't want to talk about him anymore." Lu Han looked away.

"It's because you still care about him!"

It was not completely covered up at first, but now Park Chanyeol made it clear with one sentence, and Luhan was powerless to refute it. The fact is just like what Park Chanyeol said, whenever he thinks of Wu Sehun, every nerve of Luhan's heart aches along with it.After a lapse of seven years, that heart-piercing feeling reappeared again.Seven years ago, he lost Byun Baek-hyun who kept saying he wanted to be with him; seven years later, he lost Oh Se-hoon who kept saying he would love him.

What the hell is going on with life?It was like suffering from a disease of such a bad nature as tetanus, day after day, the pain was too painful.

"Luhan!"

Seeing the frowning young man in front of him, mature enough to look like a man, Lu Han forced a smile, imitating him and baring his teeth, "Park Chanyeol, I'm hungry."

"You..." Looking at Lu Han who was smiling uglier than crying, Park Chanyeol finally couldn't bear to ask any more questions, and slowed down his voice, "The porridge is cold, I'll ask them to warm it up for you."

"Baekhyun, Baekhyun."

"Huh? Oh, what's the matter?"

"It's okay, what's wrong with you? You've been in a daze since you came back."

"I'm fine." Bian Baekhyun smiled faintly, "Just thinking about something."

"What are you thinking about?" After turning off the boring TV show, Wu Shixun sat cross-legged on the sofa, propped his forehead with his hands leaning on the back of the sofa, leaned towards Baekhyun sideways, and waited for his answer.

"Miss you."

Wu Shixun smiled, and lovingly kissed Bian Boxian's forehead, "What are you thinking?"

"Think..." Bian Baekhyun sat imitating Wu Shixun, hugged the pillow and looked at Wu Shixun with a playful smile, "I wonder if you are thinking about Lu Han."

The smile froze on his face, gradually closing the corners of his mouth and looking at Bian Baekhyun.Bian Baekhyun always mentioned Luhan when he was not feeling well, but every time it made Wu Shixun speechless.I can't find the right words to explain my situation, I don't want to lie to Baekhyun, and I don't want to hurt Luhan.

This was terrible, like having a heart attack, and I tried my best to comfort myself that it was okay, but the heartache didn't diminish at all, and even intensified.I have found so many reasons for myself, but whenever I think of Lu Han, I feel chest pain, or I feel guilty or worried, or I can't bear it.

"I don't want to lie to you, I'm really worried about him."

"What are you worried about him?!"

Turning to look at Baekhyun, "After all, we lied to him."

"You're blaming me."

"I'm blaming myself." Looking down at the half glass of water on the table, his eyes became distracted. "He's not what the outside world says. He's very distressing, especially when he's helpless."

"Wu Shixun," his fists tightened, and his nails pinched his palm, "you fell in love with him."

Looking at Bian Boxian who was holding back in surprise, Wu Shixun lowered his head, "I don't."

"Do you think you know him well? Do you think he's actually good? Want to protect him? Want to be together for the rest of your life?" The docile Bian Baekhyun suddenly got excited, stood up, and looked down at Wu Shixun, "This is what he always does Brilliance! Come down like an angel, say and do things that move you, and when you slowly fall in love with him, he will mercilessly throw you away!" Like sifting chaff, Bian Baekhyun His body was trembling, his well-behaved drooping eyes were wide open, and his red eyes were full of struggle and bitterness. "That's how he treats those who love him, watching them die before his eyes. I don't want you to be that stupid No. 30 eight!"

"Baekhyun..." Seeing Baekhyun on the verge of collapse, Wu Shixun felt pain and panic, got up and hugged him, "What's wrong? What's wrong?"

"Sehun, I beg you." Byun Baekhyun burst into tears "Don't fall in love with him, I really don't want you to get hurt. All people are selfish, so am I. I don't want to see my happiness fall to him I hate him...I really hate him!" Looking up at Sehun Wu, "I don't want to lie to you anymore, you are so good to me, but I lie to you again and again."

"What's wrong?" It was like a film was distorted, and Wu Shixun's heart ached, "Tell me!"

"I'm actually Byun Baek Hyun! Lu Han did not admit the wrong person."

"Why? Why did you lie to me from the beginning?!"

"Because I was afraid that you would know about my past!" Squatting weakly on the ground and crying, the pain buried deep in my heart came out on the tray. Seven years later, it was still so bloody and horrible, "I am not Korean! I am not What kind of descendants of businessmen! I have not received any higher education! That is all a lie! I am actually an illegitimate child! My father has his own children and family, he does not want me and my mother. I have been looked down upon since I was a child, 'illegitimate child ', 'The little beggar in the slum', 'the child of the slut', 'the child no one wants', these are the words I have heard the most since I can remember. I am very inferior, and I met Luhan when I was most desperate. He It’s very beautiful. When I’m with him, I’m afraid of dirtying him. Being with him is the happiest time for me. I thought that as long as we treat each other sincerely, as long as we persist, we can overcome his father’s obstruction and the disparity in status. Together, so several times his father came to me to find my mother, or threatened or humiliated, I never thought of giving up. But, just when I was holding on to the source of my happiness, a scene The fire burned it to ashes. I went to play with him in his family's abandoned factory, but it accidentally caught fire. The only old quilt I gave him, I thought he could go out and let his family save me. But No, Lu Han did not! I just waited inside, foolishly waiting..."

"Stop talking...I won't listen..." Wu Shixun pressed the person on his chest with distress, feeling Bian Baekhyun's pain.

"I escaped through a broken window. The pain of being sent to the hospital by a passer-by was so painful. I was lying on a cold hospital bed alone and endured everything. I just begged the doctor to give me morphine every day. I thought it wouldn't hurt so much. I finally got better, but my mother died, and because of the astronomical amount on my treatment bill, she actually sold my organs behind my back..." Bian Baekhyun, who had completely collapsed Huddled in pain, weeping uncontrollably, "My only relative, my mother died because of me! She died...the mother who called me to eat every day and said I was sensible died..."

"Don't talk about it." Wu Shixun shed tears. It turned out that the lively and cheerful Baekhyun had experienced so much and so much pain, but he didn't know anything about it.

"Sehun...it hurts so much! Every time I think about it, I feel worse than death...Luhan, Luhan is so cruel...Why should he come to destroy all my happiness when he is so happy...I don't want to Hate him, but I can't find a reason to forgive him!" Unbuttoning his body, the faint scars on Bian Baekhyun's body are still visible one by one, entrenched hideously on his fair skin, "Including some of them are all given to me by him. Yes! They always remind me who made my life worse than death! Who ruined my life! I will never trust him again, and I will never forgive him! I want him to taste The feeling of a loved one's betrayal, let him feel all my pain!"

"wise man……"

"I'm sorry! Shixun, do you think I'm very scheming? I don't want to lie to you, but I can't..."

"I don't blame you!" Gently raised Baekhyun's head, leaned over to kiss his tears dry, "You are Baekhyun, my Baekhyun, I don't care who you are, what I like is You, nothing else."

"Where's Luhan?"

Wu Shixun shook his head, and pulled Baekhyun into his arms, "We'll go back tomorrow."

"I want to meet him..."

Will it be like this often?Seeing heartache, turn a blind eye but can't do it; smelling sadness, turn a deaf ear but can't bear it;Life is too helpless, end, start, start again, end again, so endless, like an endless loop, everyone goes round and round in it, no matter what, we all have to bear our own disasters and pains, and often Go forward and don't look back.

I don't remember anymore, all the happiness in the past, I remember