No.30 Eight Lovers

His heart throbbed violently, and Luhan couldn't be sure whether he would see his grandpa again when he came back next time. For the first time in 23 years, Lu Han regretted why he didn't listen to Lu Yuan's words and become an excellent doctor like his brother, maybe he still has a chance to protect his grandfather.

It's just that now, Luhan almost doesn't even belong to his own home...

Wu Shixun sat on the sofa bored, constantly switching TV channels, absent-minded.In fact, he already learned something from the conversation between the old man and Lu Han.

Wu Shixun is not a meddlesome person, and he doesn't like to meddle in other people's affairs, but he is very eager to know everything about Luhan. He will analyze and guess unconsciously, and even let Luhan tell himself.Suddenly, that kind of inexplicable longing made Wu Shixun feel uncomfortable. After thinking for a long time, Wu Shixun could only classify it as "understanding is the process of falling in love", not to make himself fall in love with Luhan, but to make Luhan Fall in love with yourself as soon as possible.Wu Shixun did not forget his purpose, just now he received a text message from Bian Baekhyun, he asked where Wu Sexun was, Wu Shixun thoughtfully said that he was at Lu Han's house, but Bian Baekhyun replied with a cute smile and he didn't leave. below.Is it because of lust or indifference, Wu Shixun smiled self-deprecatingly, the so-called love really makes people stupid, just like the current self, so stupid that he even disdains himself.

"Master is back."

Aunt Lan suddenly interrupted Wu Shixun's thoughts, looked up at the entrance of the corridor, a young man in a suit and leather shoes was handing the bag in his hand to Aunt Lan.

"Well, Aunt Lan, is my dad back?"

"No, sir has been abroad for a week... He didn't even come back for the master's birthday today..."

"Well, maybe his seminar is not over yet..."

"Maybe it's because Mr. doesn't remember at all..."

"Ah."

The man turned around, met Wu Shixun's gaze, and after staring at each other for a long time, the man asked, "Isn't that Wu Shixun? Hanhan is back?"

"I'm back, in the master's room."

The man went downstairs and smiled friendlyly at Wu Shixun when he passed the living room, but the atmosphere was extremely awkward.

"Wu Shixun, grandpa has fallen asleep, let's go." Lu Han went out of the old man's room, and closed the door carefully, but when he turned around, Lu Han stood there in a daze.

"Hanhan..."

"Wu Shixun, let's go." Luhan went around the man and pulled Wu Shixun's hand, but was grabbed by the man, Luhan tried his best but couldn't shake it off, "What are you doing?! Let me go!"

"Hanhan!" The man pressed Luhan's shoulders with both hands, shaking Luhan "I am your brother!"

"I don't have a brother! I have no family! Let me go! Lu Hexi, let me go!" Lu Han began to struggle, and his emotions gradually became agitated. "Don't you guys care about me?! You have never regarded me as a family...never ..."

"Let him go!" Wu Shixun pulled the man's hand away forcefully, and pulled Luhan into his arms. "I don't care what kind of relationship you have with him, but he doesn't want to see you now, sorry." He comforted the deer in his arms. Han whispered in his ear, "Let's go."

Snowing.

Lu Han, who was sitting in the passenger seat, tilted his head and looked out the car window. The sky was gray and white stars were falling slowly, mixed with the cheerful "Jinglebell" in the mall, like dancing white butterflies.

"It's snowing," Wu Shixun slowed down the car, and looked at Lu Han with his head tilted. "This is the first snow."

Luhan looked back at Wu Shixun, then turned his head and continued to look out the window, and said for a long time, "I want to go down and see the snow."

The car was parked on the side of the road, Luhan opened the door and got out of the car, closed the door, a burst of cold air poured into the car.

Wu Shixun sat in the car and looked at Lu Han who was standing on the edge of the square. His upper body was only wearing a white shirt, and his back looked petite and lonely.The people in the square seem to be having a carnival. White Christmas is a kind of romance, cheesy romance.

The out-of-fit Luhan stood outside the crowd, and the incandescent lights in the square illuminated him from a distance, covering Luhan's body with a halo of haze, making Luhan look like an angel. He was out of place because he was too slender and beautiful.

The glass on the car window began to be covered with a thin layer of water mist due to the temperature difference between the inside and outside of the car, and Lu Han's figure began to be blurred and indistinct...until Wu Shixun could only see colorful neon lights.

Putting on a mask and hat, Sehun Wu picked up Lu Han's coat and got out of the car.

Lu Han gently spread his palms, the soft snow melted into water in his warm palms, and the lines on his sleeping palms spread out, leaving behind a piece of crystal that reflected the colorful neon lights on the Christmas tree in the center of the square.Luhan didn't know what those people were talking about, and he didn't know how to blend in with them, just like snow melted into water and melted into the palm prints, to blend into the hustle and bustle, to make himself look more like a normal person.Are you sick?Occasionally Luhan would think, in such a sick city, whether those so-called psychopaths are normal people, while he is just a neuropathy.

Life is like getting a tetanus-like ice, day after day, painful.Luhan can’t remember when even laughing became far-fetched, maybe it started when Wu Yifan said that he had nothing to do with him, maybe it started when Baek Hyun passed away, maybe it started when his grandfather was diagnosed with a brain tumor, maybe it was It started when Dad said he hated himself, maybe earlier...from his mother's death because of giving birth to him...Lu Han didn't understand, he just wanted to live a good life why it was so difficult?Difficult to become a luxury.It's not that Lu Han didn't resist before, but this is the result now, he's still in a mess, even more in a mess.Life is like a rape process, it is better to close your eyes and enjoy it than to fight hard.

"Isn't it cold?" Wu Shixun put his clothes on Luhan's body and embraced him from behind.

After regaining his senses, Luhan looked down at his flimsy attire, he was not wearing a jacket, no wonder it was so cold.

Feeling that Luhan was relaxing on his chest, Wu Shixun smiled and tightened the arms hugging Luhan's waist, leaning his head on his shoulder, watching the carnival crowd with him.

"Wu Shixun...do you like snow?" Lu Han's voice was not loud, as if he was whispering.

"Yes, I like it."

"I like it too. It seems to cover everything I hate and cover the wound."

"Ah."

"What are those people reveling in? Christmas? Love? Friendship? Family? A happy life? A beautiful encounter?"

"Carnival they are alive." Wu Shixun took off his mask, "There is a capital of happiness in life, and there are choices, so no one will embarrass themselves too much."

Luhan was quiet for a long time, and smiled helplessly, "Wu Shixun, I am actually blind. After all the lights are turned off, I have no choice; my mother passed away when she brought me into this world, and I have no choice." My father hated me because of my mother, said I was cowardly, said I was not as good as my brother, I had no choice; when I was a child, I was spurned by my classmates because I liked boys, I had no choice; finally I have friends, I Dad keeps threatening him to leave me, I even have to sneak around to make friends, I have no choice; Baekhyun saved me, but my dad didn't save him, he died, I still have no choice; I can't be aboveboard I like Wu Yifan, I have no choice... The only rebellion in my life was disobeying my father's order to call me a doctor and leaving with Wu Yifan. I thought I won, but my grandpa was found to have a brain tumor. What am I? I can't do anything because I don't know anything, I still have no choice! I live like a puppet without a soul, watching other people happy and happy, but I can only hide away, and I cover my ears when I hear the noise, Even this beautiful Christmas carol sounds to me like a eulogy for my sad life..."

Warm tears fell on the back of Wu Shixun's hand, and the always proud man finally collapsed.

Luhan finally spoke out, those pains that he didn't want to mention!He was really about to lose his hold, as if someone had covered his head with a plastic bag, he was about to suffocate, and really wanted to find an exit to give himself some oxygen to survive.He was suddenly afraid of the feeling of near-death, because this feeling always reminded him of Byun Baek-hyun who had been waiting for him to save him in the fire scene, maybe Baek-hyun felt this way at that time!

Wu Shixun turned Luhan to face him, didn't speak, didn't look at his distressed appearance, but held him tightly in his arms.He couldn't tell what he was feeling now, distressed, surprised, understood, sympathetic, and... couldn't bear it.

"Wu Shixun... lend me your shoulder once, tomorrow...tomorrow you forget everything I said tonight... is that okay?" Luhan sobbed, even speaking intermittently, without his usual strength. This is Wu Shixun's first Once I heard Luhan speak in a questioning tone.

"Ah."

Luhan started to make a sound, the sound was mixed with the cheerful rhythm of the Christmas song, and it was hard to distinguish between joy and sorrow.Wu Shixun hugged Lu Han tightly, silently comforting and supporting him, he suddenly thought of his brother, that warm man like spring.

The second hand of the huge quartz clock on the clock tower completed its last revolution mechanically, and the people in the square began to cheer.

"MerryChristmas Deer." Wu Shixun whispered into Luhan's ear and hugged Luhan who cried until he fell asleep. Luhan's tear-wet cheeks leaned against Wu Shixun's chest, and the way he closed his eyes was extremely cute. Wu Shixun smiled , I hope Santa Claus can give you a good dream, and don't be sad anymore...

It’s just that God always likes to make such unnutritious jokes so much, and finally one day, Wu Shixun will become the person who hurt Luhan the most, because once you put someone on top of your heart, you will give him the right and opportunity to hurt you, the more you It hurts more if you care...

ch15.

【Every Night You Know