Wind Ying Lou

It hurt so much, there was no pain in the whole body, and it was so cold, it felt like being immersed in biting ice water.I really want to curl up, hug myself, give myself a little warmth, and make myself less painful, but I can't move, as if my body is not my own, and I can't even move my fingers.

In a daze, I seemed to hear the masters anxiously discussing how to heal me, and I also seemed to hear sister Zixuan saying that she would take me somewhere for treatment.At one moment it seemed that Xiaokui and Xuejian were crying in my ears, at another moment it seemed that Senior Brother Chang Yin and Senior Sister Zhiyue were calling my name loudly.I know that they are all worried about me, but they are extremely irritable. I just think they are so noisy, can't they let me fall asleep peacefully?

Finally, I felt my ears were clean, but there was a domineering and low-pitched male voice repeating over and over again in my ears, "I don't allow you to have any accidents, don't let you sleep, your life belongs to me." I want to sleep forever like this. Waking up tired and sleepy slowed down my thinking and reaction ability a lot. It seemed that it took me a long time to realize that it was the sound of a heavy building.But hearing this made me want to frown, because I hate hearing him say that my life belongs to him the most. That was what he said to me when I quarreled with him before I left the devil world in anger, and it also caused me to question his treatment of me. The fuse of my heart, this sentence always makes me feel that he protects me again and again just because he thinks I belong to one of his subordinates, or a plaything, or something else. It is not the attitude of a young girl, but the possessive desire for a private property. Even if you don't want it, you can't let others destroy it unless you do it yourself.

I want to refute him "I am not anyone's private property, don't say that my life is yours anymore", I want to tell him "I have already fulfilled my promise to protect sister Zixuan's life, now please Let me sleep quietly for a while", every time I struggled to resist the surging drowsiness, and felt a little bit of sanity and wanted to open my mouth to speak, the pain that was like a broken bone would become clear, and the overwhelming pain And the deep fatigue will make me give up the idea of ​​continuing to think and talk in an instant. I just want to sleep well, at least I won’t feel so painful.

Maybe it's been a long time, maybe it's just a moment, I fell into this deep darkness, and I have lost my judgment on the passage of time.It’s just that I suddenly feel that the surroundings are so quiet, just like when I first came to this world, the thick boundless darkness, and the abnormal quietness around, but my heart is not as panicked as it was then, I just feel that it’s finally quiet, let me be like this Let's go to sleep quietly without thinking about anything, but at this moment, I heard a deep sigh in my ear: "You are actually more stupid than me, and more stupid."

I looked at the familiar figure that suddenly appeared, and smiled clearly: "You are still here, it's good to see you." It was the original Shui Yingfeng who grew up on Shushan Mountain.

She looked at me sadly: "Okay? I don't think it's a good thing for us to meet in this situation at all. Originally, I had already decided to sleep, and I would never see Brother Changqing again and ignore these things. You With the magic pattern again, I was naturally suppressed by you unintentionally. However, in the fierce battle before the Demon Locking Tower, you exhausted your spiritual power, and I was awakened again. Do you know that if it weren't for Brother Changqing and the others The Wind Spirit Orb brought back from the God Realm, you and I are already dead."

She saw that I didn't intend to say anything, so she sighed leisurely and changed the subject: "Zixuan, she is really the Omen Star that we were destined for. Why do all the men we fall in love with fall in love with her?" ?”

I lowered my eyelids. I also want to know the answer to this question. Is it true that no matter how hard I try, Chong Lou’s true love is not me?He was the one who saved me several times when my life was in danger, but there was no sister Zixuan who was also in danger at that time.This time, I died at the same time as her, but Chonglou chose Zixuan instead of me.Maybe I was wrong, Sister Zixuan was not the one who was temporarily tempted by him because he was looking forward to love, and then passed away without a trace, but I was the one he found in the long wait and the pain of love. Emotional stand-in.

She looked at the pain and struggle on my face, and asked softly: "Are you going to persist? Will you still love him with your life like this? Even if he doesn't love you."

I trembled and shook my head: "I don't know, my mind is in a mess right now. I love him, whether he loves me or not, I love him, and I don't want him to be a little bit unhappy. He loves Zixuan, he wants Protect Zixuan, then I will help him protect Zixuan. However, I am just an ordinary woman who longs for love to be responded to by my sweetheart. Maybe one day I will be tired. Maybe at that time, I will not be like this I love him with all my heart, maybe gradually this feeling will fade, and I will gradually forget him in the rivers and lakes."

"Do you really know it?" She lightly interrupted me, who was getting more and more excited, "You and I are one, what do you think in your heart, how can you hide it from me? At that time, I found out that Brother Changqing was in his heart. When there was only Zixuan in my eyes, but there was no place for me, besides being sad, I was also full of unwillingness. I just wondered why I was not as good as Zixuan, and why Brother Changqing didn't choose me. But you, All you have in your heart is the pain of discovering that the Demon Lord doesn't love you. If you can really forget him one day as you said, how can you be in such pain now? The pain is so painful that you are willing to sink, and you don't want to wake up and face it. Him. Because you are afraid, afraid to face him. As long as he treats you a little bit better, you will burn your life to love him like a moth to a flame. But once things like today happen again, let You see that he only used you as a kind of comfort, but he loves someone else in his heart, and you will fall into deep pain. You are afraid to bear this heart-piercing pain again, but you can’t stop Love his mood."

"Okay! Don't talk about it!" I yelled and cried bitterly, "Why did you tell me this?! Why did you have to analyze my state of mind so clearly?! Let me stay alone quietly, what I don't want to, just stay like this, can't I? I don't want to think about what will happen in the future! I don't want to see him now either!"

As I roared, she also became agitated, and the hands that grabbed my shoulders were too hard to pinch me: "You can no longer exile yourself like this, and sleep forever! Although the Wind Lingzhu can renew your life, But if you lose your will, we will all die too! Masters, Suoyao Pagoda, Shushan Sect, have you ignored all these?"

I raised my teary eyes and questioned her: "Didn't you choose to exile yourself at the beginning? Why don't you let me sleep here now? You and I are one, isn't it the same when you wake up?"

She choked on my words, let go of her hand, and said to me sadly: "Brother Changqing doesn't have me at all in his heart, but Mozun treats you differently. I don't want to love Brother Changqing anymore, and you But I never thought of giving up my love for Mozun. I can't get the happiness I want, and I can't go back! But you are different!" She suddenly pushed hard on my shoulder, "Mozun, he You can't take it anymore, are you still unwilling to wake up and face it?"

The author has something to say: Well, climb up and update it.When is the next update pinch?I really do not know. . . .囧, the watch hit me, a child who is so busy at work can't afford to be hurt. . . . . .

By the way, isn’t today the end of the world? Why did the grandpa and aunt who received their pensions almost trample on the threshold of our outlet yesterday? !I suppressed 404 numbers in one day!This means that I handle nearly 400 transactions a day by myself, and I am so tired that I vomit blood. . . . . .I got up early this morning and had to take the exam for that broken foreign exchange employment certificate. . . . . .