people can be bullied

"Why do you bother with me?" His face was like frost and snow, his lips were paler than the snow on the top of Kunlun Mountain, his eyelids were lowered, his voice was low and inaudible, but he got into my ears without saying a word .

"I've always wanted to ask you, what am I in your eyes?" He asked.

In the end, his voice was almost choked.

Why is he asking me that?

My eyes were flushed, as if there was a ball of cotton wool stuck in my throat, it was extremely difficult to speak and breathe, my voice was low and hoarse, I almost lost the ability to speak.I tried my best to control my trembling voice, and asked with difficulty: "Senior brother, what do I think of you?"

Wen Heng paused, took a deep look at me, and said in a deep voice: "Then what do you think of me?" Without waiting for my answer, he said, "Forget it, I don't want to know anymore." He closed his eyes tightly, as if he didn't want to take another look at me.

"I'm tired."

"Leave me alone."

Wen Heng's steps were frivolous, but he had made up his mind to go. I was frozen in place by his words, unable to move. I could only watch helplessly as Wen Heng's back gradually disappeared into the dense night.

I don't understand, I don't have any wounds, and my heart is not wounded, but why my heart is in such great pain.I looked at Wen Heng's leaving direction with panicked eyes, and I wanted to cry in a daze.

However, what's the use of just crying, I gritted my teeth, forced back the turbulent tears, and stumbled after him.Kunlun's barrier told me that Wen Heng hadn't left Kunlun yet and could catch up.

I chased it out with a wave of faith, but at this moment I realized how big Kunlun is, so big that I knew Wen Heng was still in Kunlun, but I couldn't find him.

I forced myself to concentrate, mobilized the meager spiritual power in my body to enter the Kunlun center, and communicated with Kunlun, "find him—"

Spiritual power was consumed rapidly.

The mountain road is steep, the forest and deer are leaping - no, the forest is lush, the birds are flying - no, the mirror lake is sparkling, the fish are swimming and snorkeling - still nothing... There is no sign of the brother anywhere, has the brother left Kunlun?

I squeezed out the last bit of spiritual power from my tendons, "—" The sharp pain hit me densely, my vision went dark, and I fell out of the synaesthesia.

No!I still need to find my brother——

Can't find it?

Why can't you find it everywhere, don't you know?

There is a faint voice in my heart, because he doesn't want to be found by you, he——

I don't want you anymore.

As soon as this idea surfaced, it captured my whole heart and soul all the way, and my body trembled uncontrollably.People in the world often say that the Kunlun Mirror Lake is as cold as the bone marrow, but at this moment, I feel that I am colder and desolate than falling into the Mirror Lake, and it is like falling into an ice cellar.

I……

Somewhere in the heart came a subtle, continuous sound, as if a snow mountain collapsed, as if a glacial lake melted, and the decayed shackles and chains were broken together.

All the events of the past flashed before my eyes. When I first met in the medicine hall, it was the elder brother who saved me under the stick of the owner of the medicine hall. In the mass grave, it was the elder brother who buried the old beggar together with me. Senior brother always treats me the same, like a teacher, like a brother, like... a husband.

Senior Brother...Senior Brother...

I used to have the best brother in the world.

But I lost him.I can never find my senior brother again.

it's all my fault.

It was I who hurt him the most, it was I who only knew how to take and accept brother's kindness with peace of mind, but was stingy in giving back to him... I owed him, so it was only natural that he didn't want me.

Now that things have happened, I don't have the face to beg my brother to stay.

I should have let senior brother go long ago, it should have been like this.

But why, my heart hurts so much?

I stroked my heart hesitantly, my heart was beating in my chest, it hurt so much.

The bamboo branches swayed, Wen Heng slowly walked out from the depths of the bamboo forest, and walked towards me step by step.

"What are you doing here?" He sighed.

"Yes, sorry..."

Wen Heng's eyes fell on my face, his brows furrowed, "Why are you crying?"

"Sorry... sorry, I..." I hurriedly wiped it off, "I..."

Wen Heng frowned and held my cold hand, and suddenly let out a long sigh: "I regret it."

regret?That's right, senior brother should really regret it, if it wasn't for me...

I was bitter in my heart, but I saw Wen Heng gently holding my cheeks, gently wiping away my tears with his thumb, his movements were gentle, as if he was wiping away the dust for a rare treasure, so cherished, so deeply loved...

"Brother," I shouldn't be crying, but as soon as I made a sound, my voice became sobbing uncontrollably, and I couldn't stop the tears rolling from my eyes, sobbing and grabbing Wen Heng's skirt: " Tell me, did I do something wrong? Did I break your heart? Are you mad at me..."

"It's not your fault." He held my face in his hands, trying to wipe away the tears on my face.However, he just wiped it off, and new tears wet my face again. He had no choice but to hold me in his arms, patted my back, and coaxed me softly: "Don't cry anymore."

But I also feel that I shouldn't cry, I don't have the right to cry, and I shouldn't cry in front of Wen Heng as if the villain complained first. panic.

"Brother, I don't want you to leave me, I like you, I love you, I..." I broke down in tears, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." Why couldn't I find out earlier?Will the current senior brother still want my love?

"Don't say sorry, I was wrong."

Wen Heng was like a defeated soldier, throwing away his armor in front of me. He moved the corner of his mouth, as if trying to show a smile, but in the end it was a smile full of astringency. He said slowly: "Actually, I have been They're all scared."

Scared?

He's afraid of... what?

Wen Heng saw the doubt in my heart, smiled bitterly, and said: "I'm afraid that my liking is just a shackle I imposed on you, and my love is just your burden."

"But even then, even if my love for you will become your shackles, I'm not willing to let you go. Because what I fear most is losing you."

"So, it's not Le Sheng's fault. It's because I have no sense of shame. I know that Le Sheng and Qin Zheng have become a Taoist couple but I still don't want to quit. It's because I push forward. I clearly think that just seeing you happy is enough, but I interfere with you." I am greedy for my life, obviously Sansheng was lucky enough to get Lesheng's response, but I am still not satisfied, I want to monopolize Lesheng and get all of Lesheng's love..."

"It's not your fault. It's not." I said anxiously, speaking incoherently, "I really, really like senior brother. I also really want to be with senior brother, senior brother..."

The person who is greedy is actually me.

Knowing that it was wrong and shouldn't be like this, I was selfish and refused to let go.

Such a greedy, selfish me...

Wen Heng looked at me and sighed: "I know, but I also have selfish intentions."

"So, I beg you, please love me a little more..."

"Yeah, yum!" I nodded emphatically, the tears that had stopped falling down again, choked up and said: "I will. I will definitely change..."

"Silly boy." Wen Heng rubbed the top of my hair and sighed again, "It's really..."

"How can I give up..."

He leaned over and kissed me.